Does anyone here feel like they are living double lives? I really pride myself on my cookie cutter Martha Stewart image, which isn’t all just an act. I really do love my job because i get to be around the elderly & care for them. I love to cook, organize, decorate my home, & I could spend all day reading a good book. My other half is more like a porn star, & that’s actually very close to the truth since I also run a porn blog on here with my husband where I post our own stuff. I love sex… dirty, kinky, wild sex… I love to show my husband off, very much enjoy having threesomes or messing around with other couples, especially all while spun out of my mind. Even though I am an adult, there is still much I hide from my family and friends. I can only imagine what they would think if they knew I consider myself bi-sexual? This may be why I tend to overshare with my few friends that are aware of my extracurriculars. I bottle so much of myself away, I get excited when I can let stuff out.
Looking back, I can’t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.