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anonymous asked:

I’m now a firm believer that Otabek had a crush on JJ when (if) they were rinkmates in Canada. Could explain why he hates JJ so much. What if he got friendzoned for Isabella, or just flat out rejected. And JJ being the sweet and lovable dumbass that he is, is trying to repair their relationship and just be friends. I think that would make for an interesting plot twist, and doesn't have to steal from Otayuri development.

i feel u bro, beka def had a thing for jj back then, it was kind of hard not to. jj was an ass at times, but he had the best intentions, and he did everything he could to make otabek feel welcome in his home rink while pushing him to be stronger and better. it slowly thawed at otabek, he’s always admired the fierceness of his competitors, and he recognized the kindness in jj’s over the top antics.

but I don’t think otabek is capable of hating those he cares for. he’s quiet, but it makes him very self aware of his own feelings, as well as those of others. he recognizes that isabella yang is different. she like otabek sees beyond the projected “king” image, and recognizes the jj that just wants to be told he’s doing well. that he is enough.

so he can’t hate jj, can’t put the burden of beka’s own feelings on to his budding relationship. so when a chance comes to return to his home rink, otabek doesn’t think twice about it. he can see the hurt in jj’s face when he tells him. the canadian punches his arm and jokes that otabek better not go soft, but his blue eyes are glistening with unshed tears. it’s almost enough to make him stay. but he thinks of the family he hasn’t seen in years, of isabella’s lipstick stain on the sweatshirt jj borrowed, of the growing heaviness in his heart and mind.

the distance between them stretches farther than the miles separating them. otabek’s sparse responses combined with jj’s impatience leads to little contact between the two. slowly but surely, otabek finds it easier to breathe again.

a year passes. when the engagement is announced, beka isn’t as broken as he thought he’d be. perhaps his heart will always hurt a little bit for jj, but he has no regrets. sometimes feelings don’t need a resolution, they just need to be.

Signs as Mark's English Line from 'Once Again'
  • People call it Love: Aries, Scorpio, Taurus, Capricorn, Cancer, Pisces
  • But I'll be calling You: Leo, Sagittarius, Gemini, Aquarius, Virgo, Libra

                I’m too hot
                                                         (hot damn)

  Called a police and a fireman         

                 I’m too hot
                                                         (hot damn)

  Make a dragon wanna retire man