my heart my feels my everything

You destroyed a part of me
That I’ll probably never get back.
You took me into the night
And now my heart is black.

You didn’t even know my name,
I think your name was Zach?
Now I’m stuck here with these scars
And the bruises on my neck.

I haven’t slept in days,
I feel so dead inside,
I jump when people try to touch me,
And I have no tears left to cry.

I wish I could forget
Everything you did to me.
Now every time I close my eyes
It’s all that I can see.

—  K.N.B.

ihlni686  asked:

Hi Leo! Saw a little discussion about Fleetwood Mac on your blog. My fav is Landslide. It always makes me feel all sentimental. Hope everything is well with you and yours! ๐Ÿค—

This song reminds me of my father for some reason…makes it sentimental. It is a very good song, listened to it the other day thinking about Sensei.

Here are the lyrics for those that don’t know it:

I took my love, I took it down
Climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
‘Til the landslide brought it down
Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changin’ ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?

Well, I’ve been afraid of changin’
'Cause I’ve built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I’m getting older too
And I’m getting older too
Oh, take my love, take it down
Climb a mountain and turn around

And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down
And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down
The landslide will bring it down

One hour in - Heart rate 120 - BP 180/110. Cock is throbbing, sweat rolling, blood pumping - my heart is POUNDING. Every inch of my body is a tingling nerve - everything feels so good, so sensitive. My nipples can cut diamonds, and my chest shines with thick sweat.  I crush up an A30 into a fine powder, swirling it into a RedBull 12 and chug the blend in - the rush is so good it must continue. Crushing it up & adding it to RedBull means it’ll kick in about 15 minutes later.  In the meantime, I listen to my heart again, hearing the loud and insanely powerful sounds of the valves slamming shut with each thrust of the massive heart pumping in my torso…”DUBBUB DUBBUB DUBBUB DUBBUB DUBBUB DUBBUB DUBBUB” 

Emmerdale Live and Organized - April 24, 2017

Yup. I’m back (groans heard for miles).  Here are my feelings on today’s episode. Enjoy! 

Rhona/Pierce – Emmerdale’s version of ‘The Red Wedding.’

I got the ‘Red Wedding’ connection from the lovely ­Lee Meyer on Twitter (@leemeyer26).  

Yeah, I knew that last scene was coming, but it still upset me. Hearing Rhona scream ‘I don’t want this!’ went right to my gut.  As I write this, I am still affected by what I saw and heard.  My gut (it’s getting a big workout today) is also telling me that Rhona is going to think everything is her fault and my heart will break into a thousand pieces. Here is hoping Pierce gets killed in a specular and terrible way. God, I can still hear her screaming in my head.

The minute she took off the necklace Pierce got her and put on Paddy’s, my heart sank.  Rhona and Patty are very sweet together. Too bad Paddy can’t see the evil in front of him.

In an utterly vain note, I love how Marlon was filming everyone. I won’t lie, I act like that at weddings sometimes too. Yeah, I’m that girl.  I film and take pictures of everything. I’m an emotional film and picture taker hoarder.

Belle/Lachlan/The Whites

I see only one gay couple is allowed on screen at a time (Hey Ronron! That was for @dasoni ). I see Chrissie still hasn’t learned that just handing over everything to Lachlan isn’t the answer. The Whites old tricks won’t work here.

What is up with Belle and Lachlan? That came out of nowhere. Also, what is up with the pushups? Was that an inside joke for the show or is that just Lachlan’s way of flirting. I sense a Romeo and Juliet story except Romeo is a deranged weirdo. Belle is in danger. As are the pigs. I won’t lie, I was anxious about the pig’s well-being after Lachlan ran the car into their pen. NOT COOL LACHLAN.


Right after I complained about dropping characters in a mini-essay this weekend, they all appeared in one scene together! What the hell Emmerdale?!? Did you leave the attic door open and they all spilled out? (In case you don’t know. I say that shows put characters in an attic when they aren’t needed).

I won’t lie, I don’t care about Jai and Nu-Holly, oh crap, Nell. So, those scenes just took away from the dramatics that is Rhona and Pierce.


Yup. Just the two of them making sure we, the audience, know that they are still a mess. Thanks for the update. 

Originally posted by gifhogday


I love you. That is all.

Originally posted by nano-otaku

Totally Vain Talk

I thought everyone looked beautiful today. I wanted almost everyone’s outfits. Rhona’s dress was beautiful. Everyone looked good today.  Except for Pierce. He looked like a madman, even in his wedding attire.

It’s Just Speculation!

Nothing to say here. Things seem to be at a stand still while other stories go back into focus. Stick around because I’m sure spoilers or more ‘reveals’ on the DS message boards will appear this week.

I feel nothing and everything at the same time. My mood swings become worse each day. I miss a lot of people but at the same time, Iโ€™m relieved they donโ€™t want to meet me. Although it hurts which is contradictory. I wish I could touch the people I like and love more often. Hug them, stroke them, kiss them, hold hands with them, cuddle with them. My heart hurts from all this lack of love and at the same time overflow of love. My whole being is one fucking paradox.
—  dewdropheart 
Maybe we feel empty because we leave pieces of ourselves in everything we used to love.
—  Drake

Happy birthday to my little shooting star ♥ 

I hope you will have a beautiful day, filled with everything you desire~ May your every wish come true today, because you deserve it! I love you so much, beautiful baby boy~  Please continue being the happy, wonderful person that you are ♥♥♥

have you ever been in one of those moods where you just want to grab everything and rip it from the walls and break everything because you feel broken and you want to scream and kick and cry because nothing feels right and it’s all wrong and you don’t feel right and i don’t know anymore.
—  (via sturzpoesie IG)
Even within a flickering flame I can see the left over shadows of you dancing. Maybe it wouldnโ€™t burn so much if the colour of fire when it moves wasnโ€™t reminiscent of your eyes. And at night when the world is supposed to be one, when all I want is to wake up like we did before with small smiles and lazy laughs that merge into one because weโ€™re more the same than anything else. Youโ€™ll be miles away. And I can still smell you in my hair.
—  bits and pieces of what could be anything

Seventeen’s One Fine Day in Japan - Jeonghan cuts

cr: Y_1004_JH


Jughead x Reader

Request: Jughead has a major crush on the reader, but the reader keeps talking about her crush to the squad and itโ€™s always so cute happy positive impressive things so Jughead thinks itโ€™s Archie. He gets really mad at the reader and asks out Betty, and the reader sees it, but Betty tries to tell him heโ€™s getting it all mixed up and itโ€™s one giant confusion.

I really want a really angst jughead one shot but I donโ€™t know what to request, can you just work your magic? Please?

Warnings: None I donโ€™t think

Word count: 3,327

A/N: Based loosely on the emotions faced in episode 10. Also yikes on the word count but I worked super hard on this one and itโ€™s worth the read I promise.

โ€˜As she sits across the cold stone table on a brisk Friday evening, the boy canโ€™t help but notice the way the moonlight bounces off her hair on the left side of her face. The fluorescent bulbs from up above cast a shadow down her face, making her eyes glow. Those same piercing eyes look up from her romance novel, almost like a prediction of his future, and she canโ€™t tell but the boyโ€™s heartbeat quickens, as in this moment their souls have gotten one inch closer than they were before.โ€™ Jughead writes as he sits across from (Y/N) in Popโ€™s, working on his novel.

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Things I love about MJ

•His eyes
•His eyes when he smiles
•His actual smile
•His laugh
•The way his whole face lights up when he’s laughing (and the stars shine in his eyes)
•Him being able to make everyone in the room laugh
•The cheesy agyeo
•The love that he has for his members
•The love he has for us Aroha
•His impressions
•Vocals, Vocals, Vocals (he sings like and angel ok)
•His dorkyness (dorkiness?)
•His acting in TBC
•When he dances
•Jaw that was sculpted my magic
•Lips !!!!!!!!!
•Cute nose
•He some how has the perfect eyebrows
•Can’t forget the adorable ears
•Short but tall in spirit
•I just love him a lot

#HappyMJDay !
(Pls feel free to add)