my happiness place

Too much to ask...

I want this to be my happy place again. I want my friends and followers to be happy.

I just… it makes me so damn sad, and I feel powerless to stop it.

I try to be supportive and there, and somehow I still fail miserably.

Can we just be happy again? Please!

Shout out to my girls who are always there even during the UGLIEST times.

Guys I don’t know what I would do without you and I miss the hell out of you. You are my people. You are my tribe. You are my family. I owe you so much. @thing-you-do-with-that-thing @torn-and-frayed@chaos-and-the-calm67 @deansdirtylittlesecretsblog @blacktithe7@captainradicalpassion @winchester-writes @ilostmyshoe-79 @percywinchester27 @purgatoan @nichelle-my-belle

Originally posted by sooper-dee-dooper-natural

i just want you to ask me:
‘where do you see yourself
going when you run away?

is it a forest, or an ocean,
or do you crawl into bed
and just breathe and lay?

are you alone when you go?
are you scared to be found?
is there ever one place you’d stay?’

the soles of my feet could be 
bloody and broken but i would 
still call you my happy place.

—  HAPPY PLACE (k.p.k)

the long hiatus can’t come fast enough this year. i’ve never been this tired, exhausted and sick of a fandom. i’ve never seen people attacking each other constantly left and right like this season. being mean and hurtfult towards others just to get a kick out of it while promoting amazing double standards at the same time. not to mention how awful the writing and the focus, and lack of, towards specific characters was. i’m grateful for my friends who keep me sane while being here, you have no idea.


 A Weekend in Berlin - March 2017//
I had a lovely weekend with my sister @skaterookie and some friends.
Here are some shots of our yesterday tour around Berlin. I love to be tourist in my own city, I always have the impression I don’t know it much.
We had a bike tour in Kreuzberg, at Görlizer Park. It was warm and sunny, we picnicked,  we lied on the grass and relaxed. We came back in time to visit the Reichstag / Bundestag in the evening and we could admire the beautiful sundown from the panoramic dome. We had an amazing time! 

A Not So Happy Post

Hey guys, you may have noticed that I’ve been so active lately. Unfortunately, I’ve run in to some issues with my finances and my mental health.

The ever wonderful and supportive @kawaiilo-ren has suggested I set up a GoFundMe page or something similar to help me get through this rough patch.

Would that be something you guys would mind - or can you suggest similar websites? It’s not something I’ve ever done before so I’m a little unsure on where to start. Plus, my blog is a happy place so I don’t want to put a damper on that. 

I was also thinking of maybe doing commissioned icons?

anonymous asked:

so i just stalked at Laura's intagram and oh my rao she is like a modern day Astra with how much shade she throws at trump like what a good

laura’s insta is my happy place tbh. also can you imagine astra watching trump deny global warming? “my sister said the same thing shortly before she died when our planet exploded.” amazing.

fic meme

tagged by mina @bisexuallaurellance thanks babe

1) How many works in progress to do you currently have in progress?

huh good question. i have two original pieces, 2 timecanary fics, a winn/cisco fic musical AU fic, and a dc magic meets team legends fic ongoing.

2) Do you/would you write fan fiction?

I do, obvi. cutting down a bit more recently though. 

3) Do you prefer real books or ebooks?

real books! im a bookshop person, I live for secondhand book places that are crammed to the ceiling, my happy place :’) 

4) When did you start writing?

I started writing fics in 2012, because that was when Merlin ended and I distinctly remember my first fic being a modern day/reincarnation fic, with terrible grammar, which I only ever half-finished. good times.  

5) Do you have someone you trust that you share your work with?

YOUUU and @kalinara occasionally look over my legends fics! and @princewalsh gets to hear my ranting about writing original stories <3    

6) Where is your favourite place to write?

generally in my living room, late at night, probably whilst half-watching something. but in terms of ideas, I get inspiration being outside mostly, which is why I head for the trees every so often when I feel creatively stifled.  

7) Favourite childhood book?

harry potter!!! the first book I ever read all by myself, according to my mom! still my fav <3 I’m planning on doing the full hogwarts express kings cross to edinburgh train journey sometime soon. 

8) Writing for fun or writing for publication?

both! fic for fun, original w the hope of someday publishing!

9) Pen and paper or computer?

computer, its quicker and easier, although when I first stated I’d write my fics down then transcribe them over, and i have ideas in scattered notebooks.    

10) Have you ever taken any writing classes?

nope, although I do english lit so by learning to criticize other lit, I improve my own. plus, I feel like i know a fair bit about writing in a particular tradition or genre now.     

11) What inspires you to write?

i love storytelling. that’s all I ever wanted to do. for fics, I’m usually inspired by getting really emotional about a pairing if its angsty on the show. original stuff is more complicated and v changeable.

tagging: @plinys @doctorlightwood @kalinara @princewalsh & anyone who wants to do it!         

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.