my graceless heart

I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then restart

I meant to finish this Ymir tribute like a week ago but my heart would not let me…  😢

You know how some of the stories you write end up being your darlings, not because they’re particularly good, but because of how writing them made you feel or you put a lot of yourself into them or both, and every bit of feedback feels like someone appreciating not just your story but a little piece of your soul?

The signs as Florence + the machine lyrics
  • Aries: falling's not the problem when I'm falling I'm at peace it's only when I hit the ground it causes all the grief
  • Taurus: and I am done with my graceless heart so tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart
  • Gemini: I don't want your future I don't need your past one bright moment is all I ask
  • Cancer: too fast for freedom sometimes it all falls down these chains never leave me I keep dragging them around
  • Leo: holy water cannot help you now thousand armies couldn't keep me out I don't want your money I don't want your crown see I've come to burn your kingdom down
  • Virgo: and in the dark I can hear your heartbeat I tried to find the sound but then it stopped and I was in the darkness so darkness I became
  • Libra: oh the queen of peace always does her best to please is it any use? somebody's gotta lose
  • Scorpio: and I'm learning so I'm leaving and even though I'm grieving I'm trying to find the meaning let loss reveal it
  • Sagittarius: and the arms of the ocean are carrying me and all this devotion was rushing out of me and the crashes are heaven for a sinner like me but the arms of the ocean delivered me
  • Capricorn: I was disappearing in plain sight heaven help me I need to make it right you want a revelation you wanna get it right but it's a conversation I just can't have tonight
  • Aquarius: to let me dangle at a cruel angle oh my feet don't touch the floor sometimes you're half in and then you're half out but you never close the door
  • Pisces: and oh poor Atlas the world’s a beast of a burden you’ve been holding up a long time and all this longing and the ships are left to rust that’s what the water gave us
Hamilton and Kvothe

A. N. I am currently obsessed with both The Kingkiller Chronicle and Hamilton, and immediately saw a parallel between the two characters. Not to mention, Patrick Rothfuss and Lin Manuel Miranda are huge fans of each others work. So compare and contrast. Also, this is using the fictional portrayal of Hamilton as he is portrayed in the musical. (And there are many Hamilton puns in here, so try to spot them all) (Also, this is only part one, so stay tuned. I feel like I only scraped the tip of the ice berg on this one)

The similarities between Kvothe and Hamilton struck me at the line, “He looked at me like I was stupid, I’m not stupid,” which just sounds like something Kvothe would say. From then on, the similarities came one after another. Their origin stories start out similarly. They are orphans at young ages, who then must take care of themselves using their brilliant minds. They are constantly struggling with money, always on the verge of being broke. They struggle with material goods, always impulsive when they should really focus on more using their mind. Instead, they act on the spot, thinking of one or two outcomes instead of all the potential results, unable to say no to temptation. Examples include jumping off a building, bringing fire into a library, showing up your professor, publishing details about your affair, and participating in duels. (#smartpeopledoingdumbthings) They are past patiently waiting, only seeing their goals, they do not see how others could be affected by their actions or the consequences of their actions.

Kvothe and Hamilton are both self-centered. It didn’t start out as a negative trait. They were both on their own for years, with no one looking after them except themselves. Kvothe was in Tarben for years on his own and Hamilton was orphaned at a young age when he still lived in the Caribbean. Even though he was funded to go to America to get his education, he was still alone when he first arrived. This was a survival skill for them*. When they make friends and depend on them, it is hard for them to adjust to understanding that other people need then as much, which causes them to accidentally hurt others. This manifests differently in each of them. Hamilton’s actions affect people more while Kvothe’s isolation from others affects his relationships with his friends. They self-sabotage, making their lives more difficult because they do not trust anyone.

There’s a not about Hamilton, historically and fictionally, about how he says more when he says nothing at all (131). This also describes Kvothe, who is chatty, opinionated, and charming, but always clams about his family, the Chardrian, and Denna (well, denial). In The Wise Man’s Fear, Simmon and Wil ask him if he is one of the Edema Ruh, a fact the reader’s know, as he brags about it in telling his story years later, but does not reveal to his closest friends at the time until directly confronted. They know virtually nothing about his past, and have only made assumptions about him. Kvothe keeps his friends at arms length out of habit, despite how much he cares for them. It doesn’t occur to him to share more about his past. And neither do Wil and Sim, come to think of it. No wonder they gravitate towards each. 

*You can make the same argument about Denna, btw.

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osteolojist  asked:

29 & 38

29. Favorite story/poem of another author

The At My Back series by SallyExactly is one of the best pieces of fiction I have ever read, fic or otherwise (Natasha & Clint & SHIELD, every chapter a full length mission, treating both of the characters with so much respect and depth and so well written that it honestly ruined me for both MCU canon and MCU fic)

and My Graceless Heart by the_moonmoth is one of those pieces that has stuck with me so deeply I can never quite move on. It’s advertised as Sansa/Sandor but that’s incidental – it’s about Sansa and trauma and healing and how ugly it can be.

I don’t read fandom poetry bc I am incredibly picky about poetry and when I was first starting to read fic I accidentally read some really awful fic poems and haven’t been able to move past that grudge SO.

38. Do you reread your own stories?

Oh, absolutely. Not frequently, and not all of them – I tried to reread the enemy unprepared once and couldn’t stand it and nearly deleted it but every once in a while when I’m feeling bad about my current projects I’ll go back and reread and remind myself that when I’m not totally sick of myself I’m a pretty good writer and everything seems better from a distance.

Shake It Out - Florence + The Machine

Aries: And I’m ready to suffer and I’m ready to hope, it’s a shot in the dark aimed right at my throat

Taurus: I’m always dragging that horse around, our love is pastured, such a mournful sound. Tonight I’m gonna bury that horse in the ground

Gemini: I can see no way, I can see no way, and all of the ghouls come out to play

Cancer: And I’ve been a fool, and I’ve been blind, I can never leave the past behind

Leo: Regrets collect like old friends, here to relive your darkest moments

Virgo: And I am done with my graceless heart, so tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then restart

Scorpio: I like to keep my issues drawn, it’s always darkest before the dawn

Libra: It’s a fine romance but it’s left me so undone

Sagittarius: And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back, so shake him off

Capricorn: And every demon wants his pound of flesh, but I like to keep some things to myself

Aquarius: Well what the hell, I’m gonna let it happen to me

Pisces: Looking for heaven, found the devil in me

The Signs as Florence + The Machine’s - “Shake It Out” Lyrics

Aries: “And I am done with my graceless heart, so tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then restart.”
Taurus: “Regrets collect like old friends, here to relive your darkest moments.”
Gemini: “'Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me.”
Cancer: “I can see no way and all of the ghouls come out to play.”
Leo: “And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back so shake him off, oh whoa.”
Virgo: “And given half the chance would I take any of it back.”
Libra: “And I’m damned if I do and I’m damned if I don’t, so here’s to drinks in the dark at the end of my road.”
Scorpio: “I can see no way, I’m always dragging that horse around.”
Sagittarius: “Well what the hell I’m gonna let it happen to me, yeah.”
Capricorn: “And every demon wants his pound of flesh but I like to keep some things to myself.”  
Aquarius: “It’s a fine romance but it’s left me so undone.” 
Pisces: “'Cause I like to keep my issues drawn, it’s always darkest before the dawn.”

{florence + the machine lyric starters}
  • "I told her not to fuss and relax."
  • "I took a knife and cut out her eye."
  • "A kick in the teeth is good for some."
  • "If you could only see the beast you've made of me."
  • "I held it in but now it seems you've set it running free."
  • "Was that the wrong pill to take?"
  • "If only I could see your face..."
  • "I'm not calling you a liar!"
  • "When you kiss me, I am happy enough to die."
  • "Leave all your love and your longing behind, you can't carry it with you if you want to survive."
  • "I hoped that they would clear my mind."
  • "We are all too young to die!"
  • "I pray to god this breath will last."
  • "I was in the darkness, so darkness I became."
  • "I'm gonna drink myself to death."
  • "Seems that I have been held, in some dreaming state."
  • "No more dreaming like a girl so in love."
  • "Lord, I just don't care."
  • "I did cartwheels in your honour."
  • "It's always darkest before the dawn."
  • "I've been a fool and I've been blind.
  • "I can never leave the past behind."
  • "I am done with my graceless heart."
  • "I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't."
  • "The world’s a beast of a burden."
  • "It's the only way I can escape."
  • "I'm not giving up, I'm just giving in."
  • "All alone, even when I was a child."
  • "I've been losing sleep."
  • "You are the silence in between what I thought and what I said."
  • "No light, no light in your bright blue eyes."
  • "I don't want your money."
  • "I've come to burn your kingdom down."
  • "I'll be dead before the day is done."
  • "I would give it all if only for a moment."
  • "I don't care whether I live or die."
  • "I don't want no future."
  • "Don't touch the sleeping pills, they mess with my head."
  • "And with one kiss, you inspired a fire of devotion."
  • "What kind of man loves like this?"
  • "What are we gonna do?"
  • "If you could just forgive yourself..."
  • "Cause I'm gonna be free and I'm gonna be fine."
  • "Is it too late to come on home?"
  • "It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do to try and keep from calling you."
  • "there's a hole where your heart lies."
  • "I'm leaving."
  • "I never thought I'd be a killer."
songs for Jack Farris

Luck by American Authors
I’m sorry, brother, I know I let you down.
I’m sorry for how I up and left this town. 
Please just listen, because I don’t ask for much. 
I am my own man. I make my own luck. 

The Call by Regina Spektor
You’ll come back when they call you. 
No need to say good-bye. 

Hopeless Wanderer by Mumford&Sons
You brought me out of the cold,
but how I long, oh I long to grow old./ 
I will call you by name. 
I will share your road. 

Alone Together by Fall Out Boy
I don’t know where you’re going 
but do you have room for one more troubled soul?
I don’t know where I’m going 
but I don’t think I’m coming home.

Shake It Out by Florence and the Machine
I am done with my graceless heart,
so tonight I’m going to cut it out and then restart. 
‘Cause I like to keep my issues drawn. 
It’s always darkest before the dawn. 
Given have the chance would I give any of it back?

Songs for Lonely Giants by the Mountain Goats
No one washed behind my ears.
High in the trees, alone for years.

My Fault by Imagine Dragons
Walking out to the water’s edge, 
asking why I’m here instead of home. 
Now I stand alone. 

Long Live by Taylor Swift
Long live all the mountains we moved. 
I had the time of my life 
fighting dragons with you. 

Mercury by Sleeping at Last
I am desperate, if nothing else. 
In a holding pattern to find myself.

Maybe Sprout Wings by the Mountain Goats
I thought of old friends, 
the ones who’d gone missing.
  Said all their names three times. 
Phantoms in the early dark,
canaries in the mines. 

Some Nights by fun. 
But I still wake up, I still see your ghost. 
Oh, lord, I’m still not sure what I stand for. 

Brother (Acoustic) by NEEDTOBREATHE
Brother, let me be your shelter. 
I’ll never leave you all alone. 
I can be the one you call when you’re low. 

Wake Me Up (Acoustic) by Aloe Blacc
They tell me I’m too young to understand.
They say I’m caught up in a dream. 
They say that life will pass me up if I don’t open up my eyes. 
Well, that’s fine by me. 

Easy Come, Easy Go by the Decemberists
Limber Jack, he landed on his back. 
He was betting on the netting 
When the rigging when slack./
His mother is another 
who will never get him back. 

Stubborn Beast by Bear’s Den
By your window sits a picture full of strangers. 
Always looking down on you. 
Always sticking around for you. 
They were always looking around for you,
never able to find you. 

The Cave by Mumford&Sons
I’ll find strength in pain, 
And I’ll change my ways.
I’ll know my name as it’s called again.

Out on My Own by Gabrielle Aplin
I think I’ve outgrown my home. 
I have a song in my heart. 
And just like life it has 
a middle, an end, a start. 

Keep Your Head Up by Ben Howard
I saw a friend of mine the other day
And he told me that my eyes were gleaming.
And I said I’d been away and he knew
He knew the depths I was meaning. 

Talewind by Jared & The Mill
Before me lies the highway and behind me lies the lie.
It slipped through teeth and never caught my eyes. /
You need belief because they’ll bury you. 
So pack your things and find yourself.