my god i want it so badly

Winston: It’s going to be SO nice to finally have the Bakery open again! I want to get back to baking soooo badly! 

Carlyle: Heh, on the other hand, you do make a mean grilled cheese. So if baking fails, you could always open up a grilled cheese stand.

Winston: :o My grilled cheese isn’t mean!!

Carlyle: omg..

Rhea: Buwahaha!

*later…*

Rhea: Oh! Carlyle, before we head out, there’s something I need to tell you.

Carlyle: We?

Rhea: Yeah! Earlier this morning, Winston stopped me and asked me if I–

Carlyle: Oh god no.

Rhea: If I wanted to work at the Bakery!!

Carlyle:

Carlyle: *internal screaming!*

But what if I never get over you?

What if I continue to wake up every day of my fucking life and want you so badly that my bones shake so much that they feel like they’re going to break?

What if I keep waiting for a call or a text or a sign from God that never comes?

What if you were the one, but I wasn’t?

—  what if?

there are butterflies resting along your spine. you look up and smile at me, golden curls bouncing slightly in the breeze. i feed you a sweet little confection and you reward me with a sweeter smile, your tongue hot against my fingers now.

your lips, that delicious pout, the scent of you, the sight of you laying naked on a picnic blanket drives me insane with want.

when i touch you, it feels like sunlight streaming through my veins, lighting up every nerve. you finish sucking on my fingers, leaving them wet. god, i need to be inside you so badly. i love your shallow little gasps and clenched thighs, the way you grind down on my fingers desperately.

i replay your moans in my head for days afterward.

I’m very suicidal right now. Prayers would be greatly appreciated.

There’s also something sitting on my conscience that might not be anything big but it’s adding to my anxiety and I will have to talk to my SD about it, which is making me feel so humiliated in advance, it’s making me want to kill myself even more, which is… illogical. But I’m in a really bad state in every way. I don’t want hell. But I’m seeing no way out. Telling me to trust God is, unfortunately, pointless right now. I just need prayers badly. Thank you.

In my personal experience, I would say I’ve experienced more hurtful betrayals by friends than I have lovers, and friendships I’ve had in my life have been every bit as intense as relationships I’ve had that have been sexual, so there’s an aspect of that where nothing quite hurts as badly as a friend betraying you. In an infidelity, that type of betrayal between lovers, you understand the human nature and that the heart wants what it wants, and the draw of sexuality and the temptation of that, so you get how human nature is the betrayer in that situation. When it comes to a friend and it’s not about genitals, it’s about the souls, it cuts much deeper.

 - Bryan Fuller about friendship and betrayal {x}

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Supercorp au: Lex gives Kara the shovel talk after hearing endlessly from his sister about the young reporter. While telling her his empty threats of “if you break Lee’s heart, so help me god,” Kara confess that she loves her. 

anonymous asked:

Someone should have smashed Jesus's head in with a rock when he was still a baby.

You’re not the first to suggest that. Jesus actually narrowly escaped being stoned by the Pharisees (John 8), and if we go back to shortly after His birth, we will see that Herod wanted Jesus eliminated so badly that he decreed all male children near Bethlehem under the age of two be killed (Matthew 2:16).

Moral of the story: That which God wills will always prevail

John 6:38, “For I have come down from heaven, not to do My own will, but the will of Him who sent Me.”

And that will was to die an innocent death on a cross for the sins of those who would one day believe.

The Signs Opinion On Gossip:
  • Aries: it's god-sip, bc I am in the know of everybody ☕️👀
  • Taurus: people can be so extra
  • Gemini: *spills all the tea* I don't gossip
  • Cancer: it's okay if they're mean tho
  • Leo: I'm not telling any lies, so what's the big deal??
  • Virgo: keep that drama out of my life 🙅‍♂️
  • Libra: I speaketh the truth
  • Scorpio: those lyin' cheatin' fishes deserve what they get imo
  • Sagittarius: if you don't want me gossiping then don't do bad things
  • Capricorn: it's annoying af because people will ruin you
  • Aquarius: gossip is bad when it is used badly
  • Pisces: does fictional people count?

I want a temple to worship at SO badly. I want to be able to throw myself upon its steps, leave offerings in the halls, and weep with thanks at the foot of an altar. I love having my spaces for Aphrodite and Hestia within my home but I want to go out cleansed and veiled and make the trek to the temple as a sign of devotion.

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The reality is that you will grieve forever. You will not get over the loss of a loved one; you will learn to live with it. You will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again, but you will never be the same again. Nor should you be the same, nor should you want to. 

I miss my little Anton Yelchin. We all do. All of us, we came together in mourning this beautiful young soul, and god knows it hasn’t gotten easier. I know you’re sad, I know you’re hurting so badly sometimes. I am here for you, just as you were here for me when I reached out. We will get through this together. 

dana watches lucifer (2x10)

follow @lucifersecretsanta it’ll be good

  • guys this is the midseason finale this is the last time i do this for a while
  • :(
  • ooh chloe’s dad subplot thing is coming back
  • omg i forgot abt chloe’s mom
  • this previously on is so long
  • I FORGOT HE STOOD HER UP I’M SAD
  • she better not blow up that car i stg
  • i’m not even panicked it’s just it’s not happening, it’s not gonna happen
  • haha here comes amenadiel to save the day
  • “this little bug” I SO BADLY WANT TO LIKE YOU CHARLOTTE BUT YOU GOTTA HELP ME OUT AND STOP INSULTING CHLOE
  • i love you amenadiel i would die for you
  • “we need to make sure it’s his decision to leave chloe behind” um like that’s gonna happen
  • LINDA IS GIVING LUCIFER LOVE ADVICE
  • “i need to hear about it… as your therapist” linda ships deckerstar #confirmed
  • “you chickened out” DAMN STRAIGHT HE DID :(
  • “you are lying lucifer… to yourself” OH MY GOD LINDA IS SO GOOD AT HER JOB
  • “i owe you an explanation” AW he just comes right in
  • “i don’t wanna know her name” nooOOOO
  • STOP THIS CHLOE LET HIEM EXPLAIN IA HHAQTE MYSELF
  • haha chloe and lucifer are so so married it’s not even funny
  • ELLA I LOVE YOU
  • OH RIGHT HE DID IT WITH LUCIFER’S MOM EW I FORGOT
  • nooo not the witness not the WITNESS
  • god i am angry with charlotte
  • if chloe’s dad gets off i am going to get mad
  • “this isn’t pleasant for me either” um liar
  • “adore? that’s a bit much” um do you see the way you look at her don’t lie
  • chloe would totally die for you too lbr lucifer
  • “if you hurt her, i will rip your-” OH MY GOD HE LOVES HER SO MUCH\
  • ELLA ELLA ELLA ELLA ELLA ELLA LELALEA I
  • guys i never thought i would say this
  • i am warming up to dan
  • “the whole truth and nothing but the truth so help me dad” 
  • “that’s correct except i call him detective douche.. well that’s another story”
  • “the devil’s in the details”
  • chloe is #done with lucifer they are so married
  • omg he’s putting on a whole play essentially
  • i love him so much
  • is there an ella/dan friendship
  • okay … if ella likes you i guess ur okay
  • ella’s deductive skills… damn
  • “almost like boris himself testified” “except a more handsome version”
  • “we’ve had enough ur honor” “shh” judy is ME
  • “i don’t mean in bed, i wouldn’t know, that’s how she good she is” 
  • OKAY BUT THAT SPEECH WAS BEAUTIFUL
  • “i was um… you, i was looking for you” don’t lead maze on i stg
  • okay that was sudden
  • what is this
  • NICE MAZE KNOWS THE TRUTH I LOVE HER LOVE HER LOVE HER
  • “tell her mother no one is hurting chloe on my watch” I LOVE IT if lucifer wasn’t around damn would i ship it
  • i want this to STOP
  • “i thought you said chloe decker was an impeccable officer”  “objection”  “no actually, i would like to answer this, she is”
  • chloe looks so nervous
  • “you do not want to talk to me right now” “i don’t you look scary” MARRIED
  • i want chloe to know charlotte is lucifer’s mom i want her to know that
  • OH IT WAS DAN OF COURSE IT WAS DAN I HATE YOU DAN
  • kinda
  • “i can’t say i’m surprised maze blew up ur car.. she is maze” he’s literally holding his burnt wheel i love it
  • he’s literally twitching
  • LINDA EXPOSE HIM
  • is that jealousy i see linda is it? please be jealousy i ship y’all so hard
  • “yeah, chloe’s the bad guy”
  • maze is literally exposing dan and i love her
  • “driving at, good one” I LOVE YOU
  • “oh yeah, oh DAN”
  • “you slept with my m..”
  • nice of course he speaks chinese
  • “i was pointing at maze” “why not” SHE’S GONNA WIN
  • NICE HE JUST GOES FLYING MAZE IS SO BADASS
  • lucifer is a proud father
  • “well that sucked” NOT FOR ME
  • “i want him to get the justice he deserved” aww
  • “ur a mother, aren’t you” “yes” “then shame on you” SLAY
  • “hands where i can see them” um i don’t think that’s necessary
  • this scene between chloe and charlotte is so intense
  • “he owns a nightclub” wow lucifer has heart eyes
  • “if you believe his claims that he used to run hell, then yes he’s punished bad guys” “it’s true” I LOVE CHLOE
  • time for chloe’s big scene i love her so much
  • she’s genuinely crying she loves him so much
  • oh no i am so sad poor chloe by defending lucifer’s honor she lost the case
  • i feel so bad for chloe’s mom
  • is it bad that i don’t remember her name
  • “the true test is to respond to the pain we suffer” oh god this show
  • how does he know her what’s happening
  • are we about to find out why chloe is so special
  • oh no dan don’t 
  • oh good he didn’t do it
  • MAZE MZE MAZE I LOVE YOU BUT THIS COULD END VERY VERY BADLY
  • how does maze create sexual tension with every character on this god forsaken show
  • what is up with amenadiel seriously
  • JUST TELL ME I CAN’T HANDLE THE SUSPENSE
  • HE BLESSED CHLOE DECKER 
  • this scene is so cute already
  • I BELIEVE I OWE YOU DINNER THIS IS SO CUTE
  • “chloe’s not an obstacle, she’s how we’ll get it all back” in what way i’m so confused and scared
  • i’m so shook is it finally happening
  • “chloe is the key OH MY GOD”
  • DID YOU HAVE TO CUT IT OFF DURING THE KISS DID YOU HAVE TO DO THAT
  • i see them ripped apart in the trailer and i’m bitter i want a kiss
  • WHAT I DO NOT LIKE THE END OF THAT TRAILER
  • well kiddos it’s been fun see you all in january if you want me you know where to find me
  • lol i’m gonna start writing fanfic and making edits for htis show i’m emotional

you can make all the content of krav being a long-suffering bystander to taakos jokes, but please take a moment to Consider such amazing lines as “no more mister nice death”, “i can also do a bunch of michael winslow style sound effects [makes bad machinegun noises at the thb with his mouth]”, and “you three saved my bacon”, the man is a Massive Dork, A Real Goober
also, i so badly want to believe that every time grif laughed at the chug n squeeze date and that it was in character, that Death Himself was crackin up at “yea for sure [Very Deep Voice] as long as i can drop my accent too”
Please Just Let Krav Be A Fucking Dweeb With A Horrible And Corny Sense Of Humor Who Makes Dad Jokes Constantly And Genuinely Enjoys Taakos Top-Tier Comedy Content

God my mom loves the “intervention” narrative so much.  She so badly wants that TLC-show moment where everyone sits around me on the couch and tells me they love me but they’re so worried, and then I cry and turn my life around and go to rehab that very same night.

Except I’m not actually addicted to anything, so instead of drugs or gambling or whatnot, the intervention has to be for the kind of minor shit normal parents would just mildly nag about.  And nobody else is ever interested in participating, so it’s just my mom alone and some unconvincing claims of “your dad is very worried too, he’s just, uh, too nervous to tell you.”

So in the end it’s just her and me and a couch and a lot of incredibly dramatic speeches about “I can be silent no longer!  This is tearing our family apart!  Please, I’m asking you for you and for me and for love, yes, I do still believe in love, please see that there is a light and a way out of the hellish life you’ve become entrapped in.  And commit to me tonight that you will change your ways!”

This over, like, whether I should go back to school, or go on a diet, or try some random wonder supplement.

It gets sort of tiring.