It’s chilly and the mountaintop town still slumbers. There are no sounds in the crisp morning air save for the occasional bird. What is a sleepless synth to do? Why is he mulling over the same thoughts again and again? Stuck in a loop, he knows he can’t do this alone any longer. That’s why he came here, right?
My future Valentine:
This year kind of sucked not having someone to be with because most of my friends had Valentines. But for you, I’m willing to wait because I know I will be happier than I’ve ever been with you. I don’t care if you don’t get me a bouquet of flowers. I’d actually rather just one rose or something small and significant that made you think of me when you found it. I don’t care if we don’t go on a big fancy date. I’d be happy to just drive around all day with you, or cook dinner together and watch a movie. I don’t care that you won’t be perfect, just be imperfect with me. I’m sorry if I don’t meet all of you’re expectations, but just know that I will love you with all that I am. Please be gentle with my heart. I don’t know who you are or what you did today, but just know that I’m waiting for you and I know you’re going to be worth the wait.
today was the first time a waitress asked me if I was 21 and I thought ‘this is something I’m going to remember. this is something I’m going to tell you someday.’ I wonder if the same kind of thought ever crosses your mind. I wonder if you’re currently engulfed in the arms of some other girl, kissing her neck and thinking she’s going to be the one. please remember that when it ends your casualties won’t be nearly as disastrous as they’ll feel. there are bandaids and first aid cream in my purse reserved for the first time you tell me about her, just in case. I’ve heard picking at scabs makes them bleed, but I wouldn’t know due to my love affair with being alone. however I didn’t write this to talk about her, I wrote this because every year on february 14th I feel like the brightly colored cards left untouched in the dollar store. do you ever wonder how much money hallmark makes in the second month of the year? do you think they keep tallies of which cards are bought the most and do you think the people that carefully wrote out their best sappy poems and still get the least sales feel bummed out? last year I exclusively bought ugly cards because you could just tell nobody wanted them and now they’re in a stack in the bottom of my closet. except this one. I’m using this one for you. that’s another story I’ll tell you someday. I want you to know that I love you, I love you so much. I have grown up romanticizing your existence and I know you won’t fit it exactly but that’s even better. Surprises are nice, especially when they have to do with people like you. I love how happy you’re going to make me and how I’ll eventually forget why I spent so many nights crying over things I can’t change. we will spend our february 14th’s drinking cheap wine out of my favorite tea pot and reminiscing on the milestones that occurred before we made our own together. and I can’t wait.
Sorry if it’s been a while since I wrote anything. Been training and going to orientation for a new job, so haven’t had a chance to sit down and write stuff; though I managed to keep a few of them on drafts.
But here’s to make up my absence; Valentine’s Day Chat Comics. ;D
Please enjoy Egg x Toaster and Co. cute little antics as they show their ‘love’ to each other.