my future

Honestly? I can’t wait to have kids.
I can’t wait to watch my wife try and slowly manipulate her glowing body out of my car as we make our way to the ultra sound appointment.
I can’t wait to pull a small piece of paper out of my pocket that has about 300 questions I have to ask our doctor.
I can’t wait until the doctor tells me google exists and I will be just fine.
I can’t wait to stand in the book store carrying more “how to” books than necessary to the cash register. Looking both bewildered and enamoured as my wife shakes her head with embarrassment at my intense excitement.
I can’t wait to hear her tired voice ask me for Pringles and peanut butter.
I can’t wait to be laying on her belly and feel a small foot on the side of my head.
I can’t wait to see my beautiful wife standing in the mirror rubbing me stomach slightly concerned.
I can’t wait to reach my hands around and pull her in tight and whisper how utterly stunning she is. How unbelievably lucky I am. How unbelievably lucky our “little guy is.”
I can’t wait to discuss who’s genes you’re going to get. Argue over who’s nose we hope you have.
I can’t wait to hear the “it’s time.”
I can’t wait to be next to her, holding her hand. I know she’ll tell me she can’t do it. But I damn well know she can. She will be the strongest bravest person I know.
I can’t wait to hear your cries as you breath into this world.
I can’t wait to look down at my wife, exhausting, but glowing. She’ll be looking at you. But I’ll be looking at the two of you. No moment will ever match this. No moment will ever feel so accomplishing. So important. As to when I see my family together for the first time.
Honestly? I can’t wait to have kids.
I’m so excited to hear uncoordinated footsteps fill the hallways of my home. Followed by high pitched laughed filled screams and the voice of my wife shouting “I’m gunna getcha!”
I can’t wait to pull you both close onto my lap as I read the same bed time story I’ve read every single night for the past month.
Watch both of your chests rise and fall together as your breath becomes rhythmic.
I can’t wait to sit on that couch with you both asleep in my lap not wanting to move because no matter how tired, how uncomfortable I am. For god sakes I couldn’t look away if I tried.
There are so many things in this world I look forward too. But this lifetime I’m going to get to create? I am so excited for.
—  I can’t wait to meet you.

I want to be your fiancé, I want to be your wife, I want to be the mother of your children. But more importantly I want to be your best friend, your number one fan, your biggest supporter, your shoulder to lean on in rough times and the smile to light up your dark days and make your brightest days even brighter.

My wedding day (most likely)
  • Priest: and Cassandra do you take-
  • My phone: *plays ladders ep*
  • Me: one sec this could be important
  • My phone: *philisnotonfire 20 has been uploaded*
  • Priest: Cassandra this is an pretty important-
  • Me: brb I gotta go watch this
  • Me: *leaves altar to go watch*
  • Priest: *looks at my significant other*
  • Priest: are you going to go after her?
  • Significant other: No she needs to enjoy it alone.
  • Priest: wtf

If you’re ever feeling down about yourself or feeling scared about your future, just remember that Lily Allen made a song about her little brother, Alfie, sitting in his room smoking weed and watching TV all day, and now he’s Theon Greyjoy in Game of Thrones.

I want you to protect me. I want you to kiss me. I want you to hold my hand. I want you to look after me when I’m sick. But mostly I just want you to love me back.
—  This is what I want // I want you to love me back.