my friends don't make sense sometimes

anonymous asked:

How would you go about trying to make friends with someone online? There are so many people (you included) that I want to talk to but I get so fuckin nervous... And, while its my own issue, I tend to not message/reply for weeks sometimes and I fuckin hate it... Sometimes I feel like its better if I just don't interact w people one on one. Hell, I prefer talking in a public space.. But its just so... I don't know man sorry for the ask love ya. You keep doing your thing.

eh this might just be me but i rly dont click well with people who are specifically ‘trying to be friends’, if that makes sense. like im always open to chatting w people who hit me up (well usually. im not keen on it w people like 16 and under just cuz it makes me uncomfortable) and if we talk regularly thats just how it ends up

but when someone says like “can we be friends?” or tries to awkwardly force conversation (like “hey!” “how are you” “what are you up to” all the time even when im non responsive) i usually just kinda drop contact eventually. it feels disingenuous and its easy to tell when it’s only bc im Scotch™ cuz like, no way would someone care that much about pushing a “friendship” along with anyone else who seemed disinterested. it rubs me the wrong way.

I decided to do some Jace Malcom headcanons cause I haven’t seen much of them for him. These are simply my personal headcanons for the big guy so you can ignore them if they’re stupid (which they are).

  • He has two personas. The battle-hardened warrior persona; the one that almost everyone who knows his name knows of. And the goofy persona that only his close friends/family get to see.
    • Bonus: He wears pun shirts under his regulation uniform sometimes and it’s sorta this gag going around the halls of Organa that Commander Malcom wears punny shirts.
  • When he smiles (which he does do), the scar across his nose makes his nose crinkle ever so slightly.
  • He is extremely ticklish across his ribcage.
  • He and Theron eventually reach that awkward place where Jace is able to thoroughly embarrass him whenever the two of them are together
    • Bonus: If Theron has a LI then Jace likes to tell dad jokes and basically be that father.
    • Bonus: He will however do a background check of Theron’s LI and ask them questions when Theron isn’t in the room. 
  • He goes on morning walks around Organa and the surrounding area. The sun hasn’t come out and no one is really up yet. There’s something about the fresh air and the slight nip of the cold that he enjoys.
  • When he’s not in uniform his go-to look is a pair of sweatpants and whatever t-shirt he can grab first. He likes to be comfy when watching his favorite holo-shows.
  • If Theron and LI have/adopt children, you can bet Jace will be there to meet them. He’s a bit awkward and doesn’t exactly know where to put his hands to hold them properly but the smile he gives his son is genuine.
    • Bonus: If the kiddo starts crying and Jace starts humming/singing to them in that lovely bass voice of his.

wantapeachofme  asked:

You probably know about my situation already because you follow me and have seen some of my posts but can you offer me any insight on how to grow closer to god and better myself and my situation in any way? The last few weeks have been so hard and it only is getting worse. I don't know how to quit questioning and I don't know how to just trust in him. I just wish things could get better but I don't know where to start. If anything, please pray for me and for my lost soul.

Hi friend,

My pastor was talking about this some yesterday. We don’t always feel like doing something–we’re not always inspired, we don’t always feel close to God, etc. etc.–but actions are so closely linked to feelings, and actions are what typically bring the feelings into light, if that makes sense. So, like, I may not feel close to God one day, and I may not really want to read His Word, but once I do, I’m going to feel closer to Him. And sometimes it takes more than once. Sometimes it may take a month straight. But, eventually, it will happen. 

There’s a natural ebb and flow to everything in life. We’re not always going to feel close to Him (and that’s totally normal), but it’s how we deal with that feeling when we’re there that matters. We can’t run away. We’ve got to keep praying, keep reading His Word, keep asking Him to help us to trust and love Him with all our hearts and all our souls and all our minds. We’ve got to keep loving others. 

We’ve got to keep putting the work in. 

I questioned God and I didn’t trust Him for the longest time, and, to this day, trusting Him is one of the main things that I struggle with. But I keep praying, day after day, and I ask Him to change my heart and to help me to love Him and trust Him. I keep praying and I keep reading His Word and I keep going to church and I keep praising Him and I keep talking to others about Him. 

If you ask Him to help you? He’s going to change your heart. If you put in the work? If you just get started and keep going, no matter what? Your actions are going to influence your feelings. 

I pray this makes sense, friend. Please let me know if you need me to expand any further, and feel free to message me privately as well. 

I am sending prayers up for you. <3

“Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth.” - Colossians 3:2

All my love,


anonymous asked:

This is such a lame question lol, but do you have any tips for meeting other like girls?? My gay ass is struggling 😩😩 my friend has like Grindr and he's got like access to practically every gay guy around lol

That’s not a lame question, sweetheart, but honestly I’m struggling too. I feel it’s easier for mlm to met - my friend can get guys so easily it’s not fair.
Go to LGBT events! Like pride or gay/lesbian bars and clubs.
One of the other best things we can do is use the Internet. I’ve heard of lots relationships starting over Tumblr! (Which makes sense but I haven’t been been able to do that)
You can use dating apps.
‘HER’ was an app I used to use

anonymous asked:

I'm so glad I found the whump community, I feel like for most of my life I've felt awkward about enjoying whumpy scenes anytime I'm watching something, sometimes even watching a show/movie purely for the whump, but with this community I feel like I actually belong and I don't feel like something is wrong with me.. if that makes sense haha.

Makes perfect sense my friend!  I’m very glad you found us :) 

advice for (people i actually know with) the zodiac signs
  • aquarius: don't be so trusting. giving people the benefit of the doubt is all well and good, but some people really are just assholes. you are such a sweet, joyful, glowing presence and most of the people who cluster around you adore you and would never mistreat you, but some people like to attach themselves to nice people and then walk all over them. it's not bad or mean to be a little suspicious of people's excuses and motives, especially if they always seem to have good reasons to blow you off.
  • pisces: don't let the bastards get you down. i know you hate conflict so i'm not going to tell you to bite back when people are sniping at you (unless you want to, in which case, i fully support that) but i also know it's frustrating to just sit there and wait for someone to get done bitching you out. here's the thing: only you have all the information, only you can make decisions about your life. and even if you make a wrong choice? well, it was yours to make, not your mom's or your friend's or whatever. nothing the critics say matters. what's important is that you take care of yourself. remember that.
  • aries: be pushier. i know this is totally anti-stereotypical aries advice, but i also know you. passive resistance and stubbornness are your superpowers, but that can turn so easily into mute, inert refusal. be more active, make demands, don't let yourself be silenced so easily. it makes sense to pick your battles, but if something is really important to you, don't be afraid to be vocal about it even if it pisses people off. sometimes outright aggression is the only way to get things done.
  • taurus: it's okay to be rude to assholes, you know. if someone's being a dick to you, smack them down. you'll feel like a badass after and it might make them leave you alone, two birds my friend. being nice and polite is important, but the world will not stop turning if you piss someone off. you really don't need to be so circumspect. not everyone is as reasonable as you are.
  • gemini: it's ALL RIGHT to not always get along perfectly with everyone 100% of the time. people still love you even when they're annoyed with you about something. you deserve to have your needs met, it's not a burden. you are honestly incredibly important to so many people, i know you feel like a crazy whirlwind constantly making mistakes but you bring so much love and joy to the people who care about you. you don't need to be afraid that they'll hate you if you mess up.
  • cancer: not everything has to be part of your plan for it to be ok. sometimes random shit happens and it's awesome. don't be afraid of the unexpected; don't be afraid to step off the path you have all laid out for your life. i know your comfort zone is incredibly important to you and you build high walls around it for a reason, but stick your head out the gate now and then. good things come in weird packages sometimes.
  • leo: you *can* trust people, you know. your friends don't *only* like you and value your presence because of how cool and fun you are and how much they dig the energy you project. i know you hold a lot of things back for a reason, but the image people have of you won't suddenly crumble if you confide in them a little. they care about you and i bet they'd love to hear more about how you're doing.
  • virgo: like, make your bed. it won't actually give you control over the whirling vortex of terror that is your life, but at least now you have somewhere tidy and comfortable to sit and that in and of itself will help you relax. this is really easy for me to say, but let go of trying to fix everything. sometimes carving out a little oasis of order amid the chaos is all you need.
  • libra: just because an idea is fun doesn't mean it's good. you're really awesome and people love to be around you because you're great company, but sometimes your cleverness and wit get you into trouble and you're left feeling guilty and upset for proposing something that wound up being a little less hilarious than everyone had hoped. you have good instincts, but remember to weigh the odds of a thing going badly before you do it.
  • scorpio: you deserve to be treated well! like, really well. you have no idea how important you are to the people who love you, but so many other people in your life treat you badly. if you're giving somebody more than they're giving you, if they make you feel tired or hurt or anxious or upset, walk away. you deserve people who light up your life the way you light up everyone else's.
  • sagittarius: you should cut loose more! it won't make you look immature or dumb. i don't mean go out and get faced if you don't want to but like, have another beer, take a dance class with your girlfriend, do that thing you refuse to do because you're nervous you'll say something stupid and look bad in front of other people. you're already a cool person, and that will still show through if you chill out a little.
  • capricorn: spend more time outside your bubble. i'm not saying your bubble is bad, but there's so much worth learning about the world and other people. you don't have to toss all your dreams and wishes out the window, or agree with everything you hear or see or read, but it's good to challenge yourself. the more you know, more informed you are in making decisions about your own life, and if your plans and convictions hold up they'll be that much stronger for the testing.
My Experiences with the Signs
  • Aries: I like you! I get along with almost every Aries I know. YOu can stand up for yourself and your friends and I really admire that. You're never afraid to say what's on your mind. You're very direct and competetive, just like me. Usually you have a reason for your anger. But you don't always have to turn down a person's opinion because you disagree.
  • Taurus: My best friend is a Taurus. Good at handling money. Chill and loyal. Big procrastinator but can get shit done. You are the MOST STUBBORN PERSON ON EARTH!! You give the best hugs. You're very honest and you always say what's on your mind. You don't get angry easily but you can be destructive when you are.
  • Gemini: A very fun person to be with. You always want to make other people laugh and you have a good humour. Social and witted people. You don't want to be involved in drama, you only want to know 100% of what happened lol. You can say mean things sometimes but you don't mean to be rude. You're that kind of person I can always go to if I want to bitch about someone. I love it.
  • Cancer: Emotional people who easily get mood swings. But you're caring and protective, not only of others but also of yourself. People think you're weak but you have a hard core and a hidden strength when provoked. I get along with you well, and I can always talk about my emotions with you. You know how to make a person feel special. Selfish and selfless at the same time, does that make sense?
  • Leo: Generous and energetic people. You are SO dramatic and emotional sometimes. You are experts at complimenting others and creating a good atmosphere. When you fight with someone you to turn your friends against your enemies. Very affectionate and good at inspiring others. You can be bossy and you don't like it when you don't get attention.
  • Virgo: I haven't met many so...anyway: I've fought with you for my cousin. The thing is, you didn't know that it was a fight...and it wasn't...but to me, it was. And then I felt like a loser because you were still nice to me and I hate you for that!! You need to be needed and always try to lowkey help your friends with little things. You're thoughful and reliable.
  • Libra: Friendly people. You want everyone to get along and dislike conflict. You love fashion. You tend to cause drama without meaning to. Manipulative and shady. You like peace, and you're loyal. It's hard to know whether you're flirting or just being friendly. You're easily offended, and I've gotten the most hate from you. You try to treat everyone equally, but you're biased sometimes.
  • Scorpio: My experiences with Scorpios were THE WORST (you're still my 3rd favorite Sign though??). You're very passionate and intense. You are very loyal. You stand up for your friends, but you can be possessive. Secretive. You like power and you're stubborn. You're mysterious, and I love that. Ambitious and daring. But honestly...stop being manipulative and stop blaming other people for everything.
  • Sagittarius: Funny and honest people. Brutally honest even. You are very open-minded and you can laugh with anyone. You get angry easily but it doesn't last long. You don't like being tied down. You may have many friends but I feel like you only have a few best friends. Carefree, generous and tactless. I dont think we'll become best friends but you can stand your ground and I admire that.
  • Capricorn: My 2nd favorite Sign (because I like my own Sign the most)!! Responsible and hard-working. Procrastinators and Perfectionaists. You appear cold, but you can be very emotional inside. You don't like showing your emotions. You only talk about personal things when you're around people you really trust. Loyal, detached and almost never satisfied. Patient. Pessimistic and disciplined.
  • Aquarius: Some of you have a God complex. You're friendly and unique and I think that's great. You don't often show your emotions. Unpredictable and independent. You fear commitment but at the same time you don't like being alone? You can be stubborn and tactless. You do things your own way and you're generous. Do you like me or are you silently judging me...idk. Analytical.
  • Pisces: Imaginative and sensitive people. You daydream and listen to music a lot because you need to escape from reality. But really, stop running away from your problems. You're selfless but that's why people take advantage of you. Learn to say no. *insert Shia Labeouf* Not everyone wants to kill you?? You look innocent but you can kill someone and then look innocent You're great at understanding others.
  • If you want to know more about my experiences with the Signs you can always ask me.

Sometimes I wonder why I’m still single and then I remember my personality and it all makes sense

Nikita {Sentence Starters}
  • "I made the same mistake you did. The best mistake of my life."
  • "I want you to know I can get to you, and hit you where it hurts the most."
  • "You need to stick with what you can prove."
  • "I can't believe I ever thought you were cute."
  • "Look. The more you try to do this, the more you hurt yourself."
  • "The truth is what we choose to believe."
  • "I told myself if I could just find you and see if you were OK, that I would've done one good thing in my life."
  • "I'm not gonna let anything happen to you. I'm not gonna lose you, too!"
  • "You said you didn't want forgiveness, but you deserve it."
  • "I know you're in this for revenge."
  • "Your life is over. I'm here to offer you a new one."
  • "I warned you not to get emotionally attached."
  • "What do you think I'm doing? I'm kicking your ass!"
  • "You have no idea how much pain I can take."
  • "Sometimes vulnerability can be our greatest weapon."
  • "You couldn't handle me. Not then, not now."
  • "I can only promise you one thing. It's going to get worse before it gets better."
  • "Making friends isn’t hard. Losing them will be. Trust me."
  • "The last word they breathe before the end, will be my name."
  • "Do you think we can ever erase who we were? Come back from it?"
  • "You make it sound like you're my guardian angel."
  • "I don't laugh at your jokes, because I have a sense of humor."
  • "You had gotten out, you were gone. What the hell are you doing back here?"
  • "Live the lie until the lie becomes your life."
  • "I was the first recruit to get out, and I'm going to make certain I'm not the last."
  • "In our world, friends are not assets, they're liabilities."
  • "You’re going to make me regret rescuing you."
  • "Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself."
Zodiac Signs based on real people in my life
  • libra: don't get along with everybody, have a very unique sense of humor, sometimes the underdog and not appreciated, very good at being independent people, like trying new things, more social one on one than in groups*, takes a long time to get to know them well,
  • leo: social people, know how to make good first impressions, fun, easygoing, enjoy routines, typically sophisticated, tend to make friends easily, leos show off even if it's not intentional, are often seen smiling, can be overwhelmed by a challenge, egotistical
  • virgo: strong willed, make bold choices, intimate people, spontaneous, a virgo is a great friend to have and will always stand by your side, strongly opinionated, they enjoy talking about and discussing almost anything, need love, don't always take things the right way and can end up being hurt because of it, all around very fun people
  • pisces: quirky, fun people, make good first impressions, enjoy talking about themselves, seek advice often, look for stability in a relationship, healthy, observant, do not worry much about what others will think before acting, have sweet laughs, care about their family
  • scorpio: quiet people at first, very good in groups of people, thoughtful, animal friendly, hard to get intimate with at first, easy to talk to, sensitive, wait for others to speak before voicing their own opinions, very observant to detail, enjoy having a good time but know when it's time to lay back, can talk about one topic for a longer time than normal, hopeful, hold a lot to themselves and only open up when they really trust someone,
  • gemini: can attain anything they set their minds to do, studious, good friends, inquisitive, notice the good qualities in other people, can fall hard for someone based on what they think they know about them, positive people to have in your life, won't say no to an offer, break rules, dream big
  • Sagittarius: cocky, sure of themselves, can keep a joke going for hours, good people to hang out with one on one, have many friends, romantic, can get anxious easily, also easily frustrated, mature, try to deal with situations realistically instead of idealistically, supportive as a friend.
  • cancer: cancers are some of the nicest people you will ever meet. They will go out of their way to do a favor for you. May come off as high maintenance but are actually very down to earth. Enjoy life's simple pleasures, easily excited, can have mood swings, proud of their music taste
  • Aries: fun people, very caring, know their passions and will put a lot of effort into learning more about what they are interested in, they will never forget what someone says about them, don't usually take risks, they set small goals but work hard to attain them
  • aquarius: Reliable people, patient in situations, good at cheering you up, enjoy parties- mostly for the atmosphere, don't experiment much sexually, typically stick to what they know best and don't try new things often, enjoy being outdoors, good relationship partners but not very romantic, if you get to know them well enough they will begin to show a weird side that they don't show other people.
  • capricorn: polite, conscious about the world around them, giggly, always up to try new things, trendy, like to make jokes, not always aware of other people's feelings but know how to apologize/amend any relationship, enjoy working in teams, enjoy shopping when they have the money, bubbly, their personalities are sometimes misunderstood, get along well with adults,
  • taurus: I don't know a single taurus who isn't stubborn. This can be a good thing if they're stubborn for the right reason because then they will stand up for what they believe in strongly. Usually open minded, don't take things for granted, very intimate and sexual people, do not like to show their soft side at first but will open up to you, critical, driven, ambitious, extremely caring and considerate
SVT in Group Chats
  • S. Coups: you know having thick thighs is hard! They just brush against one another and sometimes you chafe...the hard life,man- I'm living it
  • Jeonghan: I am not a bietch I am an angel sent from the heavens
  • Joshua: My english is better than yours, you dumb fuck. Omg sorry I just swore...
  • Jun: Okay it's like not my fault that people like me and don't like you. Like God made me pretty and he made you...OH UH I GOTTA GO
  • Hoshi: go to sleep ugh you're so god damn annoying!
  • Wonwoo: fuck you I'll make puns all I want I'm sorry you weren't born with a sense of humour!
  • Woozi: frick you guys I'm putting this group chat on mute BYE
  • DK: Okay well I don't care if you didn't ask for my opinion I'ma give it anyways...honey you look hideous in that dress
  • Mingyu: you see my tan luscious skin-yeah your just jealous
  • Minghao: you know sometimes I just wonder why I'm friends with any of you
  • Seungkwan: alright next time I see you-which is tomorrow, you better run and hide cause I'm comin' for your ass
  • Vernon: yo! I think someone's in my house-like I think someone broke in...should I try giving them my mixtape?
  • Dino: guys please all I ask is for peace...AND YOU FREIKING IDIOTS WON'T GIVE ME ANY
Dylan O'Brien Quotes:
  • Dylan: I feel like I'm good with girls. I understand them and am good at loving them. I've always felt like that's been natural for me.
  • Dylan: I don't really give much thought to the roles that I'd ideally love to play.
  • Dylan: I didn't have that many friends my first few years of high school. It was very cliquey and I'm super shy, so it was hard to make friends.
  • Dylan: Growing up, I was in love with Jennifer Aniston from 'Friends.'
  • Dylan: Part of growing up is realizing you learn to love so many people. It's about forming those relationships and finding what will last forever.
  • Dylan: The thing I like a lot about acting is I'll never learn enough. I'll never know it inside and out.
  • Dylan: The perfect date is the one where anything and everything goes wrong, but at the end of it, all you want is to see them again.
  • Dylan: In high school, girls started wearing high-waisted pants with their shirts tucked into them. I don't get what that's about.
  • Dylan: I'm never offered any sort of roles. I need to audition in a typically lengthy process to receive roles.
  • Dylan: I'm a big root beer guy.
  • Dylan: I'd like to get into some sort of workout regimen so I can properly be healthy and exercise like a normal human being. I seem to not do that... ever.
  • Dylan: I never have an opinion about clothes and know nothing about fashion.
  • Dylan: I love baseball - 'Moneyball' was my favorite book when I was 13.
  • Dylan: I just want to work with good filmmakers and do good projects that mean something to me and play interesting characters. That's really it.
  • Dylan: I just happened to step into acting. And now I can't imagine myself doing anything else.
  • Dylan: With TV, you just have to finish the days and get the episodes out. And it's always going to be an impossible schedule. That's the funny thing with TV that not a lot of people realize.
  • Dylan: My heroes are guys like Tom Hanks, Leonardo DiCaprio, and Matt Damon. These are amazing actors with amazing careers that every actor should aspire to. I'm not saying I'm going to get anywhere close. It's not going to be an easy feat. I'm just in awe of their careers.
  • Dylan: I'm always a little innately shy when I first talk to a girl, and I think I always will be! But I think that's a good thing. You don't want to lose that.
  • Dylan: I was in school, but I wasn't into school. I wasn't doing what I wanted to be doing in school, which was film studies. That was what I intended on doing, but I didn't go away to a university because I wanted to stay in L.A. and audition while I took classes, so I elected to go to a community college and just take G.E. courses. It was terrible.
  • Dylan: I moved to California when I was twelve and I got a video camera and made little movies because I didn't have any friends yet. I would force my sister to make these movies with me - which became my YouTube channel.
  • Dylan: I just really like fun, cool, interesting, quirky girls. And sometimes you find that in 6'2 model bodies and sometimes they're short and brunette. All shapes and sizes - it's really about the personality. That sounds cliché, but it's so freaking true!
  • Dylan: You don't disrupt genius at work.
  • Dylan: Yeah, I've only been acting since I was 18 out of high school.
  • Dylan: When a chick has a sense of humor, there's nothing more attractive.

I think that the biggest challenge for me as a writer is finding a balance between being willing enough to accept constructive criticism in order to improve, and being too affected by it. And on a scale of don’t-give-a-fuck to omigosh-they’re-right-this-completely-sucks, I’ve always leaned more towards the right side of it.

I’m not a particularly confident writer. Okay, sure, I’m confident enough in my ability to bullshit an essay for school, but for fiction? Hell no.

And lately, I’ve found that my writing process is literally half me actually writing, and half me second guessing every part of the next chapter. Which doesn’t make sense, because Walk Two Lifetimes has gotten more popular than I ever could have imagined when I first started out…but I guess there’s also an added pressure in that? But the thing is, for the first few chapters, once I finished writing, I’d go back and read it through a couple times before posting it immediately. Now, I’ll finish a chapter and then for the next week or two, I’ll go back and delete certain scenes, rewrite others (is it funny enough, is the characterization consistent with early chapters, is this scene too unrealistic) and then, when I finally, finally feel semi-satisfied with it, I’ll get a politely-worded review that very nicely points out every single fucking insecurity I’ve had about the story since the very beginning (from grammar and paragraph structure, to lack of enough character development, to making everything too ‘easy’ for Hisana—all of which I agree with, to some extent), as well as throwing in a couple suggestions on how to improve earlier chapters. And I’ll be back to where I started.

I get that they’re trying to help and I appreciate that. And those reviewers definitely do have a point—I wouldn’t be so affected otherwise, and everything they’ve mentioned, I’ve thought about myself at some point or another. And I get that constructive criticism is necessary in order for me to become a better writer…and I do think that I’ve improved because of it.

But writing this was supposed to be fun, and it still is fun—I love it when people ask me questions and discuss various headcanons with me. I’m not planning on stopping anytime soon, if only because my muse is still fixated on this story and I know that I make a lot of people happy by writing it.

But more and more, writing fanfiction is starting to feel like a vicious cycle of crippling insecurity and self-doubt, demands for updates, and worry that what if this isn’t good enough and I hate that feeling. I don’t feel it all the time, but when I do, I’m just like what am I doing, I’m spending countless hours writing fanfiction for strangers on the internet, it’s not like I get paid for this shit, I should be focusing on school and actually being productive and getting my life together, maybe I should take a break, maybe I should stop.

Ugh. I don’t know where I was going with this, but this has been weighing on my mind for a while and I can’t exactly talk about this to friends/family. And I wanted to get it out so…ranting on tumblr it is.