Dear Diary, today I convinced myself it was okay to give up. Don’t take risks. Stick with the status quo, no drama, now is just not the time. But my reasons aren’t reasons they’re excuses. All I’m doing is hiding from the truth and the truth is that…I’m scared. I’m scared that if I let myself be happy for even one moment, that the world’s just gonna come crashing down and I don’t know if I can survive that.
At college eight hours before my class because I wouldn’t have transport otherwise :c Took the chance to revise some maths as I’m self studying the subject yikes (the head of a levels in my college refused to let me take it 🙄) and yay for colour schemes and my first original studyblr photos? c:
(top picture featuring my fading henna)
EDIT: It’s supposed to be Thursday omfg I think my brain is fried from the four days of college 😭