hey uhhhh im probably gonna run a queue cause i dont like havin my blog so dead, i dont really have the motivation to come back yet but i at least dont wanna have it be empty so
also @ the ppl who messaged me i dont have the energy to reply but i lov u guys so much its very appreciated ur all great pals!! i feel like i woulda had that bad breakdown eventually regardless of what caused it cause w bad mental health n 0 treatment it woulda happened eventually for one reason or another and it just. ended up getting set off the other night it was bound to happen sooner or later im getting over sharey cause i cant shut up ever but the last time i had a breakdown that bad i was like 14?? n this time it was just. a buncha stuff all piled up and it eventually broke idk what im tryna say is that i woulda ended up breaking down sooner or later regardless of the reason and i am sorry that i posted abt some of it during it i dont like doing that and i kept the worst of the thoughts in my head but idk what im saying i just feel bad for breaking down publicly and it took a lot outta me and now i dont really have the energy to do much BUT still thank u guys ily you are challenged by trainer red!