my feels are gonna kill me every time

u know why i love Supergirl so much? bc i can genuinely look forward to it every week bc i know that it’s gonna give me so many of all kinds of feels, but at the same time i don’t have to be scared that my fave is gonna be killed off for shock value, or that i’m gonna be ambushed by gore or rape scenes. it’s a show that makes you feel things but without triggering you in any way, and it’s honestly my fave show of all time, every other show can just go home

the first time i fall for you,
i am seven.
i see the punch coming too late to stop it,
but i can keep you out of the way. 
i can let it hit my shoulder.
i can be the one who falls on the scratchy pavement. 

i wish my knuckles weren’t so bloody, 
but your lips are split and your nose is bleeding,
and you are still smiling at me,
so it doesn’t matter, really. 

the second time i fall for you,
i am sixteen. 
i see the heartache coming too late to stop it, 
but i can keep you out of the way. 
i can let it hit me in the gut. 
i can be the one who falls with my heart in my throat.  

i wish my blood wasn’t beating so hot, 
but your eyes are warm and bright and happy, 
and you are still laughing with me, 
so it doesn’t matter, really. 

the last time i fall for you,
i am twenty-three.
i see the shot coming too late to stop it,
but i can keep you out of the way.
i can let it hit the shield in my hands.
i can be the one who falls out the broken train.

i wish your fingers didn’t wrap so easy round a trigger
but my fingers are calloused in all the wrong places,
and you are still reaching for me,
so it doesn’t matter, really. 

it feels just the same every time–
slow, sudden, breathtaking:
     all i can hear is my pulse screaming in my ears
     all i can see is your eyes as they watch me
     all i can do is close my eyes and hope
     the landing won’t hurt as much as they say

—  i’m afraid this fall just might kill me ( j.p. )
Forever

Pairing- Cedric Diggory X reader

Word count- 4,062 

Summary- When Cedric Diggory died, he left behind his loving girlfriend, the daughter of Severus Snape, to mourn him.

Warnings- Lot’s of sadness, loss of a loved one, just lot’s of death. (Flashbacks are in italics)

Originally posted by harry--potter-imagines

You were cheering at first, clapping your hands in joy when you saw Harry and Cedric had both made it back alive, though, in a mere few seconds your happiness was washed over and replaced with horror when you noticed Harry was sobbing and Cedric had not moved from his place on the ground.

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‘We Were Happy’ is literally one of the saddest songs that Taylor has ever written. And like it’s an unreleased song?? I don’t understand why she didn’t release it??? The lyrics make you want to crawl up into a ball and cry your heart out. “You threw your arms around my neck back when I deserved it”?? “We showed them all up; no one could touch the way we laughed in the dark, talking ‘bout your daddy’s farm we were gonna buy someday”?? “We used to watch the sun go down on the boats in the water. That’s sorta how I feel right now, and goodbye’s so much harder”?? “I hate those voices telling me I’m not in love anymore. But they don’t give me choices, and that’s what these tears are for”??? And the line that kills me every time: “And you were gonna marry me, when we were happy”. Like just rip out my heart Swift, it would be less painful than this.

The Last Will and Testament of Alejandro Amadeo Charles Gonzales McClain

Lance is insanely dramatic when he’s sick. There’s nothing Keith can do but indulge him.

Rating: General Audiences

Notes: Lance has many names and no one can convince me otherwise.

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The sound of sniffles echoing through the room is a constant background noise by now. Normally it irritates the living hell out of Keith, but they’ve been happening so long that he’s managed to tune them out.

But that doesn’t stop his hunt for a fresh box of tissues.

Across the room, Lance whines. It’s high and needy, muffled by the blanket cocoon he’s in, but loud none the less. He kicks his feet against the bundle of fabric around them and sticks his face out just enough to pout at Keith.

“Hold on, I’m trying to find the other box,” Keith says, holding a hand up. It’s not where he thought it was, not on the table by the door where it usually sits. He’s gonna have to text Hunk to find out.

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Random Tag!

RULES: Copy this post into a new text post, remove my answers and put in yours. When you are done, tag up to 10 people and also tag the person who tagged you… and most importantly, have fun!

A) Age:20 
B) Biggest fears: Heights because I get dizzy. Dark. I get so scared of the dark a lot! And worst of all…DYING. I have anxiety over it of how dying is gonna feel. And I pretty have that same feeling over for the past 6 years. 
C) Current Time:9:00 pm 
D)Drink you last: Water
E) Every day starts with: Lord bless me another day to live. And looking at the Zootopia comic
F)Favorite song at the moment: Try Everything by Shakira! 
H) Hometown: Houston 
I) In love with: I have to admit this but…Nick Wilde!!
J) jealous of?: No. Nothing. 
K) killed someone?: Never in my life! 
L) last time you cried?: I think last week. Don’t remember when. 
M) Middle name:Jordan 
N) siblings?: 3 Sisters-Oldest to Youngest Michelle, (Me), Jessikah and Mary!
O) one wish?: Going to Disneyland. Never been there in my life. Not joking! 
P) person you last called/texted: Dad
Q) question you’re always asked?: Are you gonna eat?
R) reason to smile: Always with my family and friends and on Sunny weather days! 
S) song last sung?: Number One from Ginger fox from the show ICarly/Victorious. Can’t explain why but that came out of nowhere XD 
T) Time you woke up: 7:31 AM. But a lot of times I am an early bird!!!! I swear I get up like between 3 or 5 am! I don’t know what the urge I have to get up that early?!?! 
W) worst habits?: Dk. I guess I should say biting my finger nails. 
X) X-ray you’ve had: My head for when I got hit in the head by a piece of concrete when I was 12. 
Y) your favorite food: Sandwiches! 
Z)zodiac sign: Aquarius♒️

You guys can do whatever you guys want! DC! XD

Enjoy your day!

Seventeen: Who Makes the Good Girl Go Bad?

“She a princess to the public but a freak when it’s time”

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Jun (I mean it’s Junhui duh): This boy smh would have fun making his prey into a bad girl just for him. He’d see you in a crowd full of people, wide eyed and shyly smiling, and a smirk would instantly creep onto his face. He’d confidently make his way to you and waste no time in making his intentions crystal clear to you. You’d be hesitant at first but of course Jun and his magical  gaze would have you like jelly in his hands in a matter of minutes.

S.coups (He’ll hit you with that “baby girl”): S.coups would be a lot like Jun in the sense that he’d have no problem with telling you his intentions up front. He’d be very touchy feely and sweet talk his way into your heart or pants. He’d give you sweet pecks on the cheek and rub his hands up and down your arms, making it seem innocent to outsiders but you both knew it was not as innocent as it seemed. He’d lean down and bit his lips while saying, “I’m calling you my baby girl tonight.” (YES SEUNGCHEOL YES, COME FIND ME)

Hoshi (His body rolls doe gtg): Soonyoung baby daddy would be more on the subtle side with his intentions, but nonetheless you’d come to realize what he was trying to do. He’d take the humorous way and crack some not so PG jokes like, “You’re so cute I could eat you out”. You’d have such a pure mind that you wouldn’t get what he meant by that. Eventually though, he’d get bolder with his actions and words and you’d catch on. You’d be a blushing mess once you knew what he wanted, but he’d make sure he had you by seductively promising to “make you feel good”

Vernon (Low key, low key): Although Hansolo cup seems like he would be to shy to make a good girl turn to the dark side, I’m gonna bet that he has a few tricks up his sleeves that’ll have a goodie flinging themselves at him in no time. He’d definitely be cautious in his pursuit however. He’d be patient and every so often would say something a wee bit on the freaky side to you. Finally, when he thinks you’re feeling him enough he’ll go in for the kill. He’d be the type to sweet talk and tell you he’d take care of you. Alas he’d have you right where he wants you (someone get me some holy water)

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Just embracing my inner hoe today because fuck it it’s lit. BTW anyone get that Hoshi joke? >:3 Oh and by the way this doesn’t mean that I think these four will hoe you out and throw you aside the next morning, I’m sure you’ll have a long happy relationship and tell you’re 2 and a half kids about how Senpai brought the beast out of you.

Saints row Series Starters

“Give me the goddamn gun, [name].”

“Did you hear that asshole [name]? He/she said I was his/her girl/guy.”

“Hor-rors. not whores, I don’t mind whores.”

“Hi-diddly-i, neighbor!”

“Trust me little Icarus: you’re flying too close to the sun.”

“Wait, hold up. If you’re bringin’ that much ass home, you better have a big ride.”

“Turns out [name]’s been fuckin’ people in every sense of the word.”

“You’ve been a leader for a long time. Do you remember what it’s like to serve?”

“Nice job, killer. You just killed the nicest man in town.”

“Look at you. All tied up, pretty as a present. I think it’s time to unwrap you.”

“What you doing over there? You can’t suck my dick from that far away.”

“I might feel better about our odds if our leader wasn’t fucking high!”

“We crushed a lot of families Playa, and someday they’re gonna holla at us.”

“Believe me when I tell you, we did the right thing.”

“You’ve been putting yourself before the crew…”

“We ain’t gonna start a war every time some muthafuckas act hard.”

“Your easy to talk to, you know that? I don’t gotta worry about you interrupting me or any of that shit…”

“There’s always someone lookin’ to take what you have. Some punk who want’s to make a name for himself. some girl you fucked and never called back.”

“The fact is, once your in the game there only way you’re getting out if your dead or in jail.”

“We coulda owned this town.”

“Don’t worry, I am fully equipped to pleasure you.”

“Ya know, you remind me of my old house cleaner…”

“There are beatdowns, and then there are beatdowns powered by GOD!”

“You ever see a demon eaten alive by ravenous insects? It’s pretty great.”

“When in doubt, missile the crap out of some bad guys.”

“There’s one universal constant you can always count on: things blow up”

“Hell is a chock-full of red-skinned demons to murder. Best part? They all deserve it!”

“I don’t really go for a lot of chit-chat but I have some opinions on certain parts of Hell.”

“Hope you’re ready to save some cash and kick some ass.”

“Now, I may not be an honest man/woman, but I’m a fair one.”

“I sold my soul, but don’t you dare call me a whore.”

“Swimming sucks. Lava sucks. Swimming in lava definitely sucks.”

“Aside from the screams of tormented souls it’s actually quite lovely…”

“It’s like my father said, if you’re gonna build an ivory tower, you’re gonna have to kill a few elephants”

“I was happy with people forgetting I exist, but motherfuckers always gotta bring up the past…”

“You haven’t seen me since your boss shot and stuffed me in the trunk of a car and the best you can give me is “Oh shit?“”

“Ya know what I hate? Underglow. That shit is tacky as hell.”

“Forgiveness ain’t cheap, buddy.”

“It’s been a while. Let’s go murdering for old time’s sake.”

“That’s a… that’s a big fucking robot”

“You don’t look like much. Then again, I don’t look like I have an eight inch cock, so I guess we’re both full of surprises.”

“Yeah, a coma and 3 dead friends dead… It really worked out for you…”

“You ready for this, Playa?”

“My English must not be as good as I thought it was…It sounded like you were giving me an order.”

“People need to wake up and see the threat that scum like you are to innocent people. “

“When these hands are crushing your throat, your dying breath won’t be an appeal to God. It’ll be ‘Thank you, [name]‘”

“The barbarians are at the gate—we need a general not an ambassador!”

“This is my city! I am it’s Caesar!…And I get to fiddle while it burns…”

“[name], you gonna let those bitches disrespect us?”

“Don’t worry sweetie, when it comes to drugs or snicker doodles I’m the best.”

“You roll with people long enough and pretty soon you start thinkin’ like 'em…”

“Bullshit, that’s last year’s fall collection.”

“Yo, I signed on for killin’ gang bangers not fightin’ some SWAT team from hell…”

“Don’t you get it? I’m god here.”

“I may exist in meat space, but I live in cyber space.”

“I am offering you the chance to leverage your assets against your lives.”

“There is no mercy… only death. Don’t mourn your friend. You’ll be joining them soon.”

“When the hell did Philosotology become so popular?”

“If it makes it any easier on you, I’ll be sure to thank you in my acceptance speech.”

“I may be high, but I swear you’ve killed that prick before!”

“We should totally come up with a murder drinking game.”

“If I yelled hey rube, would anyone else know what the fuck I’m talking about?”

“There’s nothing more majestic than seeing a panda in flight.”

“If cocaine and coffee fucked in an alley, this would be the baby they left in the trash can.”

“I’m torn. I hate the autographed head shots [Name] keep leaving on my doorstep but, I love the money I make selling them online.”

“I don’t get why I’m so polarizing.”

“I should have ditched the dreads and the weed sooner.”

“We bent the laws before. Now we’re gonna break 'em.”

“Look, the Earth blew up. We’re all upset about it. Let’s just take it easy.”

“If we’re gonna jack a car, we should at least change the paint or somethin'”

“Son/Miss, it’s not too late to walk away from this.”

“Listen smartass, you have no idea how hard it is to be in front of the camera.”

“Can’t wait to kill something, anything. Pow! Pow! Just kill'em, yeah.”

“Should I look for lights to shoot or is it okay to just kill these guys?”

“These kids with their videos games. When I was their age I spent my time outside, murdering people in the fresh air.”

“When I was a child my father used to make me fight the dogs for food. Its made me what I am today.”

“My dad always said, 'if you can’t beat 'em, join 'em… and then betray them in a horrible murder orgy’.”

“I started out with nothin’… just a kid from the streets, with nothin’ to lose.”

“That’s the great thing about this city, it’s there for the taking.”

“This is our city. We’ll do whatever the fuck we want.”

“To hell with boats, I’m taking a plane from now on.”

“You can never have enough guns… That’s what my daddy always said…”

“Man I can’t tell if there are any female aliens, what you do, turn them over?”

“What is it with people wearing hotdog suits?”

“We got gangs fightin’ over shit that ain’t theirs, and you in the way. They don’t care if your representin’ or not.”

“It’s one thing to be revered as a hero, it is another to be a hero.”

“You know what I got last time I trusted someone? Blown the fuck up.”

“Just because you cleaned these gangs out doesn’t mean we are best friends again.”

“I didn’t get a master’s in economics to look like a slut.”

“I need you bring in the cheddar, not get shot 'cause you think you got somethin’ to prove.”

“If I were you, I’d drop them damn flags and get the fuck on out of here before I erase your ass.”

“I built… I watched… and now I’m acting.”

“It’s always a pleasure when you bring strangers into my house.”

“So do I get a manservant or what?”

“The Human race would be much safer without you in it.”

“Is it true you guys used to roll with a zombie?”

“Come on, I just got myself shanked so I could get a chance to talk to you. Doesn’t that show I’m loyal?”

“A fucking tiger!?”

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Requested by anonymous

WARNING: blood, violence, swearing


Castiel’s POV

We’ve been at this for almost an hour. I don’t know how long I can keep fighting, but I do know that I won’t let him take Y/N. What would Sam and Dean think if I let a demon take their sister? They’d kill me. I have to keep fighting, no matter how weak I am. 

“Give up yet, Castiel?” the demon asks with a sinister grin. He knows I’m weak. He knows I can’t protect her for much longer. 

I look back at Y/N. She’s in tears on the ground, calling out for her brothers, for me, for help.

“No.” I answer the demon. “I won’t give up until she’s safe with me and you’re fucking dead!” 

He only laughs. He starts waking towards me, directly looking into my eyes. Once he’s close enough, he whispers, “You’re weak, Castiel. I should kill you right here and now, but I can’t do that. Not the doctor’s orders, unfortunately. You’re making this harder for me, so why don’t you just move? I don’t want to be late.” 

“Looks like you’re gonna be here a long time, cause there’s no way in hell that I’m moving for scum like you,” I spit in his face. 

With all his strength, he sends me flying into the wall. I crash hard, feeling like I broke every bone in my body. I watch painfully as she’s grabbed by the neck and pulled to her feet. His hands move to forcibly open her mouth and he opens his, a sudden snake of black smoke escaping it. It crawls into her body, and I scream out her name, wanting to move; to save her. I try to get up, but it’s too late. She’s already been taken over by the demon. The other demon still has some left in him, and he leads her out of the room. 

I sit there in tears, gripping my blade with all of the strength I have left. What have I done?

anonymous asked:

I feel like crying when I hear all these girls are still virgins unlike me. I lost my virginity at 20, but it was really terrible. It was my physically abusive ex boyfriend and he threatened me that he was gonna kill himself if I left him and he's been the only one I've been with but I hate myself every time I think about it. BTS is the only thing that keeps me sane at this point. If it wasn't for them I feel like I would be asexual because I feel so traumatized with my first experience.

I don’t know if you have read but I’m also a rap victim, if you want you can dm me and we can share. I’m here for you.

Love,LI <3 <3

anonymous asked:

you're like my inspiration so im gonna rant here lmao ;). my "mother" took my binder, and i feel like i want to die. i'm so. dysphoric. and i want to run away or something. i don't know what i'm going to do. every time i take a step forward in my transition she makes me stumble back and it's killing me. thx

I’m really sorry that that happened and that she doesn’t understand. Have you tried thoroughly explaining how you feel and educating her? I’m sure you have, but some people take a long time to understand and some just never do but theres a chance she will gradually come to terms with you being trans and be more accepting.

For the time being, is there another way you could bind without a binder? Not with bandages obviously. But a safe alternative like sports bras, or sports compression shirts. If you have hoodies that could be helpful too, although that might be too hot depending on where you live. I’m sorry about the situation, and I know how horrible dysphoria can be and I hope things get better soon.♥️

Cheaters - Jack Gilinsky/Derek Luh Imagine (PART 2)

PART 1 

PART 2 

MASTERLIST


‘What’s her name?’ Swazz asked and suddenly I started sweating. 

‘Jack, can we go?’ I quickly asked. 

‘Why? We’re just about to hear the name of the mysterious girl’ 

‘But I don’t feel good.’ I lied. 

‘Well..alright then. Let’s go.’ Jack said getting up. He said bye to all of the guys and then we headed, but before we were too far from the living room, I heard Derek says ‘Her name? It’s y/n.’

‘Wait, what?’ Jack asked furrowing his eyebrows and stopping both of us to look at me. 

‘It’s y/n y/l/n.’ Derek said making everyone’s eyes go wide and mout fall open. My legs were shaking by now and my heart wanted to jump out of my chest, but at the same time I wanted to kill Derek. 

‘Is it..is it Jack’s y/n?’ Someone asked.

‘What the fuck is he talking about, y/n?’ Jack asked getting angry and squeezing my hand so tightly. ‘Why did he say your name?’ 

‘She’s not his.’ Derek said. Shut the fuck up, you idiot!  

‘What the fuck did you just say?’ Jack asked letting go of my head and turning around to go on Derek. The squad quickly reacted and stood between the two of them. 

‘G, calm down. He’s drunk he doesn’t know what he’s talking about.’ Johnson said. Oh how I wish.   

‘Oh, I know what I’m talking about so does y/n.’ Derek said. 

‘Is that true, y/n? Did you fucking cheat on me with this asshole?’ Jack asked. 

‘Jack, I can explain, I-’ 

‘So you did! You fucking cheated on me!’ He yelled. ‘I’ll fucking beat the shit out of you, motherfucker.’ Jack said swinging his fist at Derek making him fall down on the floor. Derek couldn’t fight back since he was hammered so Jack kept hitting him until the guys stopped him again. 

‘No, Jack stop!’ Sammy yelled.

‘Jack, baby, stop please.’ I cried putting my hands against his chest. 

‘Do not fucking touch me.’ He said harshly taking my wrists in his hands and then throwing them. ‘You fucking disgust me.’ 

He furiously rushed out of the house and I started running after him. 

‘Can you please wait up?’ I asked, but he ignored me. ‘Jack, wait.’ I said again. ‘I know I fucked up, okay? But I’m sorry, I’m fucking sorry.’ 

‘I fucking hate you, y/n!’ He yelled in my face as he turned around. ‘You disgust me! How could you do this to us?! I thought I meant something to you!’ He said through his teeth, tears were threatening to fall down his face. 

‘I understand! I fucking hate myself too, but don’t forget that you fucking did the same thing to me a year ago!’ I yelled back. 

‘You’re not gonna make this look like it’s my fault because it is not! I thought we were fucking over with it.’ He said. 

‘Well I’m not over it, Jack! Every time you touch me I feel like you think of her and I can’t take it! It’s killing me!’ I finally admitted to him what I was holding in for such a long time and what was eating me alive. 

‘Why haven’t you told me that you were feeling like that? You didn’t have to fucking cheat on me as a “revenge”.’ He said. ‘Besides, I was drunk and you weren’t. You were fully aware of what you were doing.’

‘It was not a revenge, Jack.’ I said desperately. 'I love you more than life and you know that’

‘Well, I’m not so sure about that anymore.’ He said. ‘You disappointed me. I never thought you’re like that.’ 

I felt so guilty, I felt like the biggest bitch out there because not only did I hurt the person I love so much but also tried to make it look like it’s his fault. 

‘I’m sorry, Jack’ I said crying as I crouched down. ‘I’m so sorry, I’m so fucked up. I love you so much and I don’t know what I was thinking. It was such a huge mistake.’ 

‘Get into the fucking car.’ He said pulling the keys out of his pocket and heading toward the car. 

 

‘W-what now?’ I asked as he parked in front of the house and just kept sitting in the car. 

‘I brought you to your home.’ He said with no emotion and not looking at me at all.

‘It’s our home, Jack. Aren’t you going with me?’ I asked. 

‘Get out.’ 

‘No, I’m not leaving the car without you.’ I said. 

‘Y/n, don’t make me tell you twice. I’m not in the mood.’ 

‘I am not fucking getting out of here without you.’ 

He then opened the door getting out of the car and entering the house and I quickly followed him behind. 

‘Look at me’ I said as I was facing his back. He put his hands behind his head and was looking up at the ceiling. ‘Jack, look at me’ I said and then he quickly turned around, harshly took my face between his thumb and forefinger and pushed me against the wall. 

‘You’re fucking driving me insane.’ He said through his teeth looking at my lips and then I kissed him on what he answered by kissing me back. It was passionate, but short kiss because he pushed me back breaking the kiss. He sat down on the floor leaning his back against the wall. ‘You’re ruining us. You’re so stupid, why did you have to do that? You should’ve just told me what you felt, you shoud’ve told me what was bothering you and I’d do anything just to make it right.’ 

‘I know, Jack and I wish I wasn’t that stupid. And honestly, now I’m scared to death because now I realized what I have, now when I’m about to lose you now I realized that you’re absolutely everything and even more I need.’ I said as I sat down next to himand put my chin on his shoulder.  

‘I so fucking wish that you can lose me. I fucking wish, but I’m so attached to you that it makes it impossible to happen.’ He said calmly as the tears kept running down his cheeks. ‘I wish I can say all kinds of things to you because you cheated on me, but I can’t because I don’t want to hurt you and because I know I did that, too and you forgave me. And I wish I can hate you as much as I want to, but I can’t, not even a little bit.’ 

‘Maybe we’re perfect for each other because of all of that, because we’re so bad for each other, but love each other so much’ 

He turned his head to me and said quietly ‘Maybe’ 

I sat in his lap and leaned my head against his chest as he wrapped his arms around me placing a kiss on top of my head. 

‘Hate me, but please don’t stop loving me.‘ 

‘Does that make any sense?’

‘I don’t know.’ I said quietly and he kissed me.
  • I lose my breath every time they enter the room.
  • My heart beats faster when they walk by each other.
  • My skin tingles when they stand close enough to feel their breath.

Yup, pretty sure I’m in love with Malec. I have all the symptoms.

No more tears - Michael DDM

sorry in advance this is my first DDM and I know there are still need a lot of improvement with this and my writing so please be patience ☺️ thank you anon for the request! Request are always open!

Y/N’s POV:
“Why do you have to be so stupid? This is simple math just use your head for once!” Luke’s 17 year old son, Fletcher said to me in a sneer. I asked for help on math but no matter what I still can’t get it. The insult struck me in the heart. No matter what I do I can never get the approval of any of the 17-19 year old boys who are forced to be my cousins. I groan and through the pencil and tug my hair. Being a 14 year old in algebra sucked big time. I’ve never been that great at math even if I try my best. I was average, I’m not smart like any of my cousins. “I am trying! I’m using my head just please help me! I don’t know how to use the y=mx+b!” I argued. He rolled his eyes and walked away giving up on me just like everyone did. “Awe is little baby Y/N gonna cry? Awe you wanna call your mommy?” Adam, Calums son taunted me. I hated them. I absolutely hated them with everything inside me. I walked away and slammed my bedroom door. Every time I see them, I start to believe why they give up on me. I can’t do anything right so what’s the point? I should just kill myself or run away. I nod my head and start to feel the tears choke me up.
Michael’s POV:
I was talking to Ashton about his son Ethan’s college acceptance. I heard Y/N’s door slam and I roll my eyes. She’s been really angry lately and I’ve tried to tell her not to slam the doors. I excuse myself and walk up the stairs to her room. I knock and open the door. “Hey, I told you no more slamming doors Y/N!” I scolded but something was off. My baby’s eyes were all swollen and she was sobbing slamming her algebra notebook closed. I rush to her and kneel to her height. “Hey baby girl what’s wrong? Why such the long face?” I asked using a old saying I told her when she cried when she was younger. I wiped her blotchy cheeks. “They hate me dad! They hate me and god i don’t blame them! Dad I don’t know what to do anymore.” She sobs, “baby who hates you?” I ask trying to comfort her. “Adam and Fletcher! Heck even Uncle Ashton’s boys hate me!” She cries out. “Baby girl I doubt they hate you!” I try to reason with her. “Then why do they always tease me! They think I’m stupid because I can’t do my math homework.” She explains. I hug her and kiss her temple trying to sooth her. “Ashton! Come up here please!” I asked and heard his footsteps coming up. “Yeah man?” He asked and then he saw Y/N’s upset state. “What’s wrong sweetie?” He asked coming around to her bed and putting her arm around her. We explained to him what happened and what’s been happening.“Please go talk to the boys, go set them straight and make them apologize.” I said as he nodded making his way scolding the boys. “Baby next time anyone does that please tell us, I hate seeing you so upset. Your not stupid. Your a smart, beautiful, amazing girl and I love you so much never forget that. Your my daughter I’ll do anything to protect you.”
Ashton’s POV:
I went down stairs to the high school boys who were goofing around and fumed. “Hey! Why is Y/N crying? Wanna explain to me what’s been happening?” They all looked panicked. “We were just teasing…"Adam admitted. "No that’s bullying. You all took it too far but you all need to apologize.” I said sternly. They all nodded and walked up to her room.
Michael’s POV:
Adam and Fletcher and the Ashton’s boys all came up looking down in shame. “I’m so sorry about teasing you, you’re not stupid I promise.” Fletcher apologized first. “I’m sorry I was a shithead and made fun of you for being upset.” Adam said and the other two boys followed doing the same. I watch Y/N wipe her eyes and she smiled and hugged them all. “Thanks, I’m still upset but thanks for apologizing.” She said truthfully.
Y/N’s POV:
I was still upset but it made a difference that uncle Ashton talked to them about it. I hugged uncle Ashton and thanked him. “No problem sweetie I’ll always set people straight for my favorite niece.” He said and I smiled. I went over and bear hugged my dad and he chuckled and let hugged me tight. “Love you dad.” “Love you baby girl.”
*couple months later*
The boys didn’t tease me anymore they only played around with me but knew their boundaries. They treat me like their sister and finally helped me with my math and help bring my grade up. It took a while to trust them but I was glad I got my cousins back.

I love animals, but I don’t really like riding animals. Like, I don’t love being on a horse - it’s just not my thing. I feel kinda bad. Like, I just want to pet you. I don’t really want to put you to work. But cats - cats are fucking creepy. Oh my God, cats are creepy. Every time I see a cat, I think it’s gonna turn on me. It’s gonna turn for the worst. I don’t ever see loyalty in cats. They’re gonna scratch you, and then run away. Same with little dogs. Did you know Yorkies were bred to kill mice in the Queen’s palace? I had a Yorkshire Terrier, and if I was a rat, it definitely would have eaten me. And Chihuahuas are the most scary animals on the planet. I’m terrified of Chihuahuas.

Logic
  • Me: This fanvid I watched one time made me cry more than I have cried in my entire life
  • Me: By the end of the day I was dehydrated from all the tears
  • Me: I thought I was going to die
  • Me: ...
  • Me: I'm gonna watch it again
BRB/Kiss (Sebastian Stan Imagine)

 LA, LA, Where you and I found
found each other
LA, LA, Dirty good love don’t last forever
New York, New York, You’ve stolen my heart
And run it over
New York, New York,
New York, New York

It all started when Sebastian came home from filming in LA. There was a man’s jacket on the couch, he knew for a fact it wasn’t his. He didn’t want to assume the worst because he trusted Y/N. Or maybe because he didn’t want to admit it to himself. 

“Y/N?” He called, dropping his bags on the kitchen counter. “Baby, I’m home.”

Y/N emerged from their bedroom, wearing only one of Sebastian’s t-shirts. “Hey, baby. I missed you.”

“I missed you too.” He placed a kiss to her lips, tasting an unfamiliar flavor. “Are you using a new toothpaste, babe? I don’t remember your lips tasting that way.”

She reached up to touch her lips, wiping it on the back of her hand. “No, I just tried out some new lip balm. Do you like it?”

“It’s a bit too strong, you know?”

“Yeah, I was thinking the same thing.” She grew tense in his arms, pushing him off of her before walking into the kitchen. “You want anything?” 

Sebastian furrowed his eyebrows when he saw the carton of orange juice on the top level of their fridge. “I thought you didn’t like orange juice?”

Y/N nervously tucked a pice of her hair behind her ear, “Opinions change, I guess.”

But he knew that she despised orange juice and it was one of the dumb things about her that made Sebastian fall in love with her. 

Be right back, I’m gonna cry myself, myself to sleep
How’d you in fall in love, in love, without me?
Be right back, I’m gonna throw, myself, against the wall
Be right back
Tell me you’ll be right back

It had just gotten worse since then. She would say “I’ll be right back.” and not come back for half an hour to an hour. There were mysterious phone conversations at 2AM and constant giggling at text messages. She swore it was just her best friends texting in the group chat so why did Y/N’s best friend begged Sebastian to take Y/N to New Jersey because she missed her so much and they haven’t spoken in so long? Once again, Sebastian just shrugged it off, hoping and wanting to believe that Y/N had other best friends he just didn’t know about. 

The cherry on top was movie night. It was their first movie night in two months and Sebastian specifically picked out Y/N favorite movies for her to enjoy. Sebastian sat in their couch with one big bowl of popcorn and a stack of her favorite movies waiting for her to come out the bathroom. When she did, she was dressed for a night out rather than cuddling on their couch.

“Where are you going?” Sebastian asked, his eyes intently following his girlfriend as she practically ran to the door, not tearing her eyes off her phone screen.

“Girl’s night.” She unlocked the door, looking up to give him a rushed smile. Even tho she saw him, she didn’t really see at him. She was in such a rush to even notice Sebastian’s attire or the bowl of popcorn taking her spot beside him on their couch or the stack of god awful chick flicks she loved. 

“But we have movie nig-” He tried to say, but Y/N was gone, out the door. He sighed in defeat and turned off the TV. Movie nights just aren’t the same without the person you want to share it with.

His heart broke at the image of her being so jumpy and anxious to leave. He started remembering when she was like that during their first few dates. Y/N was always so nervous to see him no matter how many times he’d reassure her that he thinks she’s perfect no matter what. Was someone giving her more love than he is? 

Sebastian gulped, getting up and tossing all the popcorn into the trash can. He walked to their bedroom slowly, dragging his feet across the carpeted floors. He threw himself on their bed, hearing a piece of paper make a crumpling sound under him. He took off the blanket on top of the bed and saw a note. A love note. And he knows he didn’t write it.

You were, you were, the drug of my choice
My great escape (now)
You are, you are, the drug of the town
Who hasn’t had a taste?
Come on, come on, everything’s fine
Fine in LA
New York, New York
No more, no more

At this point, Sebastian knew Y/N was cheating on him. He just didn’t want to accept it yet. He didn’t know who the guy was and he was hoping to never have to find out. But then again he hoped that Y/N would be the one for him, and look where that turned out.

It was an innocent Thursday and everything was going so well. Y/N had made him breakfast, gave him extra affection, and even hopped in the shower with him. All was well until she got home from work. She didn’t come home alone.

“Hey Seb, I’m home and I brought a guest!” Y/N called out, dropping her bag on the couch. “This is my co-worker, Jack.”

Sebastian politely smiled at the stranger, shaking his hand. “Nice to meet you, man.”

“Likewise.” 

“I’m gonna go change, Seb can you keep Jack occupied?”

Sebastian smiled at her as she kissed his cheek quickly before disappearing to change. Jack took a seat on the couch, kicking his feet up to rest on the coffee table like he’d been there before. 

“Do you want anything to drink?” Sebastian asked, opening the fridge. “Water? A beer, maybe?”

“You guys got some orange juice?”

That’s when he felt his whole world shatter. This was the guy his Y/N is hopelessly in love with. This was the guy his Y/N was cheating on him with. Jack was the guy who wrote love letters to the woman he loved. Sebastian wiped the stray tear from the side of his face. “No man, I’m sorry. Can I get you anything else?”

“No, never mind. I’m good.” Jack stood up, dusting off his pants. “I’m gonna use the restroom.”

He located it just fine without Sebastian’s help. That’s when he knew Jack had definitely been there before.

LA, New York But I want you more,
LA, New York
LA, New York But I want you more,
LA, New York

The sun is down, you’re not around
Wait a minute
Where are you, just tell the truth
You won’t admit it

Sebastian was crying and his head hurt so damn badly. The alcohol in his system wasn’t helping the pounding headache he sported. All he wanted was to let the whiskey remove the images of the love bites on Y/N’s neck. He couldn’t have possibly given them to her, hell, she wouldn’t even let him kiss her neck anymore. Y/N was gone again so he had the apartment all to himself. She packed an overnight bag, mumbling something about a spa day in the Hamptons being paid for by her rich friends. But he knew where she was actually going. 

Sebastian had his knees up to his chest, feeling his heart race faster and faster by the second. He was worried he was gonna get a heart attack. Can a broken heart even be strong enough to cause a heart attack? 

“Fucking hell.” He yelled, throwing the shot glass at the wall. His eyes were bloody red, and his body was slowly becoming dehydrated. “Why Y/N? Why the hell would you do this to me?”

He started choking on his sobs, pulling on the ends of his hair with every broken cry that escaped his lips. He tried to stand up to at least get to the bedroom but his body was too weak. He pulled out his phone, dialing Y/N’s number.

Straight to voicemail, of course.

“Hey Y/N.” Sebastian managed to say through shaky breaths. “I love you so fucking much, you know that? Well of course you don’t know that because you’re out with some other guy right? You know what sucks? It sucks that I still love you even after all of this. I’ve known for a while now, I’m not stupid. I-I guess I just didn’t want to admit it because I knew it would hurt so fucking bad. And guess what? I was right! Because now its sinking in that you’re with some other guy and he’s kissing you-” he stopped for a moment, feeling himself fall apart all over again. “-and he’s kissing you and touching you and holding you the way I used to. If you were unhappy why didn’t you just tell me? That’s all I ever want you to be. Happy. I loved being the reason why you were happy but if I can’t do that anymore, just let me know. Anyway, I’m calling because I’m drunk and I know I wouldn’t have had the guts to say all of this when I’m sober. Also because I think I’m about to die.”

Sebastian laughed at his statement, taking another swig from the bottle. “I drowned myself in two bottles of whiskey and a bottle of gin. I don’t know what hurts more, honestly. The fucking headache that all this alcohol is giving me or the feeling of my heart being torn apart every time I picture you with Jack. The two feelings are in a race to see which one would kill me first. But don’t let me get in the way of your getaway, bye Y/N, enjoy your time with Jack. I love you.”

I hope it was worth all this,
And I know that you feel like shh
Don’t you tell me “It was just a kiss”
I hope that you always regret,
And I know that you won’t forget,
How I loved ya
You’re gonna miss my lips

It’s kinda fine, been out'a line,
For a minute
You don’t care, and I’ve been scared,
To admit it

“He kissed me once, Seb! That’s it!” Y/N yelled, crossing her arms over her chest.

Sebastian didn’t know what hurt more, the fact that she admitted she did do something with him or the fact that she was lying right to his face. “Y/N, can you please just give it up? I know about it all. The girl’s night outs, the phone calls, the texts, the love notes on our bed, and the spa day at the Hamptons.”

She sucked in a breath, “You’re being ridiculous. I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

Sebastian broke down again, turning away from the woman he still fucking loved. “Whatever, Y/N. I’m just tired.”

“Tired of what? Accusing me of shit I didn’t do?” She scoffed.

“I’m just tired.”

Y/N didn’t sleep in their house that night. Sebastian slept alone, but at that point he was used to it. She was rarely home anyway. But then he started thinking. Was this his fault? Maybe if he wasn’t gone all the time, Y/N wouldn’t have felt she needed to cheat. Maybe if Sebastian sent her flowers every week, rather than every month, she would see how in love with her he really was. Maybe if he bought her chocolates from Belgium rather than France, she would see that he would do anything to make her happy. 

That night he didn’t sleep. He just sat there looking at the half-empty closet they once shared and the neat side of the bed wondering if it was all his fault.

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