This scene breaks my heart every time I watch Prince Caspian. Peter is so desperate to get back to Narnia, so desperate to be of use again to his kingdom. And he finally makes it back, just to have to try and prove that he is, in fact, a worthy king. But it doesn’t go according to plan - at all. His soldiers followed him into this battle, every single one of them trusted him with their lives and now he is forced to watch as they die, forced to leave them behind and save his own life. And he is horrified. He may blame Caspian as well later on, mostly in anger, but in this moment he blames only himself.
And remember, this boy is about 18 years old (at most). He is just a boy.
I hate that uninspired feeling, I'm sorry. If you feel this tho I've always wanted to see Damen give Laurent a piggyback ride.
Here´s the thing….because I´m not a native speaker sometimes you guys come at me with very colloquial stuff and I´m like “wtf???” (I mean, lbr, I kinda knew what you were refering to but “piggyback ride” could also be a very obscure porn term as far as I knew. And this is CP we are talking about so it was totally possible.) So…I googled it and this is literally the first picture that comes up.