I like to imagine Neil giggles a lot when he gets tipsy. Imagine: Andrew and Neil sitting on the roof, sharing a bottle of whiskey, Andrew’s bitching about Kevin and Exy and Neil is just lying with his head on his lap, staring up at his stupid face and losing his shit. Andrew alternates between glaring at him and shutting him up with a kiss.
if there’s no great glorious end to all this, if nothing we do matters, then all that matters is what we do. because that’s all there is. what we do. now. today. i fought for so long, for redemption, for a reward, and finally just to beat the other guy, but i never got it. and now you do? not all of it. all i wanna do is help. i wanna help because, i don’t think people should suffer as they do. because, if there’s no bigger meaning, then the smallest act of kindness is the greatest thing in the world.
I try to keep kpop aspects off of this blog because that isn’t what it is about but this is a tragedy that I feel like I need to address. Jonghyun was my ultimate bias. From the first video I ever saw of SHINee he stood out to me. He’s dealt with so much over the years from his weight to insomnia and lately it kind if seemed as if he had been getting better. It seems now that was just kind of wishful thinking. I want to let anyone who follows me know that my inbox is always open if you need to vent or talk so please don’t let yourself suffer alone. I hope those who played a part in this tragedy-and I’m not naming anyone but I think anyone who has followed what’s been going on the last few weeks or days may already know - but I hope they have learned a lesson from this. Words hurt and they shouldn’t be taken lightly. RIP Jonghyun. You were and always will be my favourite. Rest in peace angel. You will be missed. 사랑해요.