if you’re ever wondering what it’s like to feel like a failure to your family,
today I was eating dinner with my dad, stepmom and stepbro and he was eating one of those squeeze applesauce packets and he was talking and accidentally squeezed it too hard so some came out our and he screamed “OH I SQUIRTED” and I couldn’t stop fUCKING LAUGHING AND I SPIT MY FOOD EVERYWHERE AND ALMOST CHOKED ON MY NOODLWS LUKE HOLY FUCK I COULD NOT STOP
AND HE WAS JUST COMPLETELY OBLIVIOUS TO WHY IT WAS SO FUNNY AND MY DAD WAS TRYING TO HIDE HIS SMIRK BUT ALSO LOOKED SLIGHTLY OFFPUT THAT I WAS LAUGHING AT IT AND MY STEPMOM WAS NOT AMUSED AT ALL AND LOOKED V DISAPPOINTED JUST LOOKED AT ME AND SAID
Two small victories yesterday and today. I’m actually proud of them.
Instead of chainsmoking in the car or getting drunk when I had a Bad Brain Time yesterday, I called my sister and she let me hang out with her on the phone and listen as she yelled at people on Fallout 4.
Today, instead of isolating when I had a Bad Brain Time, I watched movies with the roommate and let him pet me.
i’ve been trying to work up the courage for weeks to tell my best friend that i think i might be gay and i finally told her tonight and she was so supportive and cool with it, i am honestly so lucky to have her as a friend