my face in the first picture tho ]]

things i noticed from seeing dear evan hansen

9/17/17 is the date we saw it with all obc!

-“this was just a sad invention” connor is on stage just looking at evan and walks out
-zoe says that connor would scream and bang on her door saying that he was going to kill her for no reason
-and he did go to rehab? cynthia said she FOUGHT for rehab and therapy
-“a MILLION different ways, and i did, etc.” heidi sounded the most amazing i’ve ever heard her, her emphasis on the “million” was incredible and it was loud and i was crying
-in sincerely me, CONNOR JUMPS LIKE MARIO WHEN HES LIKE “i’m getting better every day !”
-connor puts emphasis on words like DICK or CRACK or FUCK
-jareds “you’re such a freak” to connor sounded like he was scared? he ran off stage really quickly
-connors pause after the school shooter joke was so loNg it was terrifying
-in the you will be found reprise, larry actually breaks down, he looks like he’s in actual pain
-apparently jared is acting similarly in good for you? i didn’t notice kali did tho
-the MAKEOUT SCENES WITH EVAN AND ZOE ARE SO INTENSE ITS LIKE THEY ARE GONNA FUCK ONSTAGE
-bens face after jared says that their secret emails are for them sending pictures of their penises to eachother is like 😬
-heidi sounded more hurt than angry that evan had been staying over the murphys
-she did this little dance in the first chorus of good for you
-THE WAY HEIDI HOLDS EVAN IN SO BIG SO SMALL MAKES MY HEART SAD
-evan did the thing where he makes his voice super rough and fast All Throughout The Musical
-mike faists smile
-THEY USE ACTUAL SHAVING CREAM FOR TO BREAK IN A GLOVE AND EVAN IS RUBBING IT INNTO THE GLOVEE
-cynthia says something about the wine they’re drinking being imported from right outside of portland?? tHey Might Live In Oregon
-when zoe sang the part “you were not the monster that i knew”, the way she says monster is heart wrenching you can hear her pain in it
-i don’t remember which cast member said it, but they said connor wouldn’t have twitter which is WRONF bc alana @‘s him in a scene and it’s @connormurphy

Dating Jungkook would be...
  • itd probably be alot like best friends but with kissing and couple-y stuff
  • gets pouty if you ignore him to do work
  • but he gets over stuff really quick unless you’re actually mad lmao
  • fights happen not often but also it’s not rare either
  • sometimes he’s been stuck in the dance studio all day trying to get a choreo down and comes home grumpy
  • thus leading to two grumpy people in one room
  • you usually make up like an hour later tho its cool
  • there are days when he’s soft and needs love and will cuddle you until you die and days when it’s endless banter
  • he would be one to go “oh my god bECKY THOSE SHOES WITH THAT DRESS N O” and then get smacked by you
  • “says the one who only wears the same pair of timberlands everyday”
  • he is shooketh
  • you would thrive off each other’s presence tho??
  • it wouldn’t matter if y'all are throwing insults back and forth you’ll still be smiling like idiots in love
  • crazy in love ahahshdhsbsjfjx
  • when he sings a song you know in the shower you’ll join in and soon you have 5 noise complaints mostly of “stop having shower duets im trying to eat dinner in peace thanks”
  • it doesn’t matter whether youve never heard of something he likes before bc soon he’ll make you obsessed
  • and its the same the other way around
  • hes probably stolen your hoodie when you were gone bc he missed you
  • cOUPLE PICTURES
  • theyre not aesthetic pictures but they’re cute lmao
  • it could be you on the floor laughing your ass off and then him doing that full body laugh
  • thats honestly so cute someone slaughter me
  • 80% of your dates are food
  • at this point I’m pretty sure your wedding invitation will be something like “you’re cordially invited to jeon y/n, jeon jungkook and food’s wedding”
  • idk how wedding invitations work sorry
  • alot of cursing
  • unless you don’t curse
  • yall will be playing overwatch and all your neighbors will hear is “oh fuck oh shit what the hell fuck you you bitch”
  • gives the best????? hugs????
  • will smother you in his arms and kiss your head and it’s really cute ok
  • is always rocking the boyfriend look
  • he doesn’t get really jealous alot it’s mostly just playful “why did you talk to jimin so much? im your bf aren’t I?”
  • he will steal all the blankets from you
  • sometimes you get pissed bc he’s so good at everything
  • “what the fuck stop finishing my art piece”
  • “i cAnt hELp iT”
  • will refuse to kill the spiders for you
  • okay he will eventually but then he’ll wave it in front of your face afterwards
  • he pranks you alot too
  • to the point where you’ve come accustomed to getting water dumped on you and shitting your pants everytime he scares you
  • when he first started tho if you cried he would feel really bad
  • if you cry for anything at anytime he will feel bad
  • even if he’s on the other side of the world and it’s about a tv show
  • this baby just loves you alot
  • facetimes you while he’s eating just to make you hungry and annoy you
  • pinches your cheeks alot and squishes your face lmao
  • probably will take pictures of your squished face
  • he is a baby but also calls you his baby
  • like he won’t come up with those cheesy sappy nicknames “my pumpkin cheesecake egg baby yolk remote control love”
  • he’ll just call you babe or smth simple like that
  • nothing is simple with this boy he’ll throw your heart into the sun bye
  • he will die for you
  • but hes not gonna get the remote control for you 
  • what is it with me and remote controllers ugh
  • we know kooks is good at drawing 
  • why is he so talented i wanna stab him i love him
  • he’ll probably be doodling and then force you to draw something on it
  • it can be a stickman or a simple dot or heart whatever he’ll cherish it
  • knowing him, he’ll be extra and make it the focus point of the entire piece
  • he’s a sweet baby pls take care of him
  • squish his cheeks daily and take care of him and pamper him all the time
  • he likes taking care of you but he is also the maknae of bangtan so you gotta become his mother for a lil 
  • he also really annoys you when he comes home at 2 and starts making ramen bc hes hungry and too lazy to make anything else 
  • you stumble out into the kitchen and start grumbling at him
  • rinse and repeat every few months or smth
  • it doesnt happen often bc he knows youll be pissed
  • you guys are p blunt with each other
  • he is the biggest fan of you
  • i mentioned that already didnt i
  • nah i didnt maybe i did and missed it idk sorry if i did
  • hes the most extra bitch when he wakes you up
  • plays bangtan songs in your ear while shaking you and screaming
  • if you get grumpy and pry the phone away to turn off the music he’ll resort to something softer
  • jk lmao who do you think he is 
  • will kiss your face with slobbery nasty kisses until you roll out of bed
  • literally
  • you just plop on the floor 
  • your relationship is a real like version of 
  • *pulls back shower curtain while wife/hubby is in the shower* are we- stop screaming- (insert problem or stupid comment of choice)
  • iconic
  • if you turn down a snack he’s offering you he gets real worried in about 0.001 seconds
  • “what why are you eating enough whats wrong youre not mad right you know i love you so why arent you eating you should be healthy and happy and chubby and cute wHY ARENT YOU EATING”
  • whoa this is almost a 1000 words i told myself i’d go to 900 jfc
  • i think im overusing the strikeout option too much
  • peanut shut up oh my god
  • he will buy you stuff randomly
  • like its not too often but he’ll buy you stuff if he finds you looking at something longingly for a while or you keep looking at the same things on amazon idk
  • okay im gonna wrap this up real quick 
  • oh also he’s talk you into getting a dog who he’ll love more than you
  • hA NOT POSSIBLE
  • HE LOVES YOU SO MUCH ITS NASTY
  • but yes you two are the cutest couple and professor trelawney said you’ll be happy for eternity together

(A/N): thanK TO THE ANON WHO REQUESTED!! also i cant see the gif i put at the end??? idk man -peanut


anonymous asked:

U should post a selfie of your gay self <3

….. this is what you meant by “selfie” right

anonymous asked:

Any fic/scenario rec?? :)) idc about the genre

That is… a very serious question my friend. Let me change into my comfy pants (no pants) and I will give you the tip of the iceberg.

@btssmutgalore - Zaddy - Sugar Daddy, Kim Taehyung. 

I CAN NOT HYPE THIS STORY ENOUGH. I actually 100% blame this story for my obsession with Taehyung. I didn’t even consider him before and now… I am wrecked. 

@chanyeolspout - Anything for Her - Single Dad, Park Chanyeol

I would like to reiterate that I didn’t know who Chanyeol was before this story. Literally didn’t know who he was and still fell head over heels for it. That’s how good this story and the writing is.

@kittae - Bon Appetit - Dirty, filthy Zhang Yixing

Okay, so I am sensing a theme, bare with me. I didn’t know who Lay was (I know, I was young and I was so stupid) my EXO bias was Kai because he was the first member I saw. Then I read this story and a monster was awoken inside me. Actual thought process after reading this drabble, “Damn. I should look up a picture of this guy. *Googles Yixing* *falls desperately in love* *dies and is resurrected every time I see his GOD DAMN BEAUTIFUL FACE*” Thanks @kittae, I used to think that there wasn’t anyone that could compete with my Love (capitol L) for Jiyong, but Yixing tho…. 

@kpoppantydrop Strap in nonnie. 

Eyes On Me - Daddy AF Choi Seunghyun 

I almost didn’t write Angels and Demons because after reading Eyes on Me I doubted that I would ever be able to create a comparable Seunghyun. I am still not convinced I did. Bottom line, read this. 

Partition - Dom! Park Jinyoung. 

You know what’s not done enough (besides fat girl fiction)? Stories whose titles are also Beyonce songs that I can listen to the entire time I’m reading it, which only emphasizes the mood. Also… Jinyoung smut, not done enough. 

Sweat, Thighs, Tears - Park Jimin

I’m not going to say much about this. It’s short, just read it. If your sense of humor is anything like mine, it will bring you endless joy. If not…  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Curaçao - Park Chanyeol

I once said that I want this story read at my funeral. I stand by that. My family and friends all know I live a life of filth and sin. They will not be surprised, they will be blessed. You may want to read this in a ice bath that’s been blessed by the pope. 

@noona-la-la-la - Unexpected -  Min Yoongi

How does one summarize this masterpiece… they don’t. Just read it. 

@smutfictionaddicted - 

Eyes on the Prize Zhang Yixing (Lay), Kim Minseok (Xiumin), Kim Jongdae (Chen) and Byun Baekhyun. 

The lineup on this fic should be more than enough to intrigue you tbth. The first story I read by CL and I don’t regret it for a second. Came for Yixing stayed for this amazing writer.  

This Could Be… - Kim Namjoon

This story is…*sigh*… so good. There’s a lot of dirty dom!joon out there which is great, DO NOT GET ME WRONG, but I live for smart/nerd!joon and she provides.  

@tabi-ears - Let’s Not Fall In Love - Choi Seunghyun

I tend to stand by the belief that the best stories are ones where the writer is writing about their bias. I binge read this entire series in a matter of hours. Hours in the middle of the night when I should have been sleeping and then some of the ones when the sun was just coming up. I will wait however long it takes for the next part with bated breath and so should you. 

@eureka-its-zico - Fighter - Jeon Jungkook

I have lost count of the amount of times I have read this story. Aggressive Kookie has never been done so well. C'est vraiment magnifique!

@versigny - Miss Dial - Fratboy! Min Yoongi

The build up is so excruciating and somehow still completely satisfying. If you enjoy pain and suffering, you’ll probably enjoy this too. 

@waitinginthedarke - Exposure - Min Yoongi

This is another series that I binge read until my eyes were practically bleeding. It’s so good. Who doesn’t love fluffy Yoongi stories?? He’s such a smol squish. heart eyeeeees. 

@war-of-hormoan - I did genuinely consider just screen-capping her masterlist and then posting that but I will do this properly. And by properly I mean with a series of gifs that mirror my reactions to the stories because I just love her so much that I get too excited for real words. I’ve said it before and I’ll no doubt say it again, I crush hard on Rams. 

Weights & Measures - Min Yoongi

Originally posted by heyyhaleyheyy

The City - Kim Namjoon

Originally posted by livelovecaliforniadreams

For You - Kim Taehyung 

Originally posted by whynooooot

Enjoy! I hope you find something you love!

Plastic Surgeon!Jun

Originally posted by withjunhui

  • HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO 1 OUT OF 2 PRINCES OF CHINA!!!!!!!
  • plastic surgeon Jun, just imagine that
  • became a plastic surgeon because he likes to help people boost their confidence even if it’s changing a part of their body
  • gets a lot of shit for his job because people believe he’s only doing beauty enhancements on every patient
  • but his job is soo much more. he helps patients with physical injuries such as burn victims who use plastic surgery to get a sense of normality
  • that’s why Jun loves his job, he gets to help people make themselves feel better
  • will always always do a full length consultation with a patient about the effects of plastic surgery
  • “self confidence is more important than body image. how you perceive yourself is worth much more than a new nose”
  • encourages patients to rethink their decision and about 40% of the time they do
  • surgeon hottie of the building
  • everyone has a crush on him, the patients, nurses, doctors, even the pediatric unit
  • flirty as hell but gets really shy if the person flirts back like he gets all red faced and just
  • “I GOTTA GO”
  • flirts with nurses mostly
  • will always be with his patients in their recovery period
  • when his patients are looking at themselves in the mirror, he’s right next to them, and his first words are always “you look beautiful”
  • everyone’s #1 self confidence booster
  • will joke with everyone tho like
  • “ugh I hate my eyelids”
  • cue Jun sliding in “I can help with that”
  • five seconds later “pls don’t consider that. you’re beautiful just the way you are” 
  • gets asked multiple times if he went under the knife
  • has pictures to prove that he in fact did NOT have surgery
  • will occasionally get lost in the building
  • during his first month he was so used to navigating himself in the west wing since that’s where his office was but he somehow ended up in the east wing
  • so everyone is just watching as this hot doctor is walking back and forth with a confused expression
  • its okay dont worry, nurse Jeonghan to the rescue to lead the boy back to the west wing
  • often gets paged to be a translator for Chinese patients
  • that’s how he met you
  • youre one of the hospitals translators, you were paged by interns when you were with a patient and waited until after your current consultation to go answer the page
  • when you got there, you just see this really handsome doctor speaking fluent Chinese
  • you were kind of starstruck because when did we get a chinese doctor
  • cue flirty Jun when he turns to see you “Hi I’m Jun but you can call me any time”
  • “Y/N and well I hope I can” you send him a wink when you shake his hand
  • and now Jun is all red faced and flustered and after a minute he’s still holding your hand
  • intern Chan is really uncomfortable “should I leave?”
  • after the encounter Jun becomes this flustered shy mess when he sees you in the hallway
  • starts to avoid you by walking the opposite direction or suddenly gets a page when you come towards him
  • he doesn’t officially face you again until he’s in need of an English interpeter
  • and you walk into his room with a confident stride, clipboard in hand, and a giant grin on your face
  • Jun gets all antsy because you’re sitting so close to him, your shoulders are touching and he can smell the faint perfume coming off of you
  • when the patient leaves, you’re just about to go yourself but flustered Jun doesn’t want you too so he screams “COFFEE”
  • and you let out a laugh and its literally music to his ears and you agree to having coffee with him and he feels as though his heart is bursting
  • decides he has heart problems and visits Cardiac doctor Seokmin
  • “are you sure you’re having irregularities? you seem perfectly fine”
  • “yeah my chest always hurts when I’m with Y/N”
  • Seokmin has this big teasing grin on his face “I know what you have. your have a condition know as LOOOOVE”
  • the next time Jun sees you, you’re sitting across from him at the hospital cafe talking about something and he’s a silent before he whispers “I like you”
  • now its dead silent and Jun’s looking around before “WHOOP WOW LOOK AT THAT LOOKS LIKE I GOT A PAGE”
  • you stop him before he can run out and you muster up a quiet ‘i like you too’
  • after that everything just falls into place
  • constant pick up lines
  • pick up lines in Korean, in chinese, or sometimes he just stares as you before his eyes trail down to your —–
  • “JUN WE ARE IN A HOSPITAL”
  • gets really sad whenever you get insecure about your body
  • hugs you from behind with his chin resting on your shoulder, he whispers in your ear every little thing he loves about you and whether you change them or not, he’ll love you either way
  • gets mushy with you a lot in the hospital
  • you constantly have to tell him to stop because he just wants to hold you in his arms forever
  • says ‘'i love you’ in Chinese and always whispers it in your ear to be cute
  • bickers with you in Chinese because he thinks its the most adorable thing to see you all riled up and you don’t want to seem unprofessional so you spit out Chinese and Jun is smiling at your serious cute expression and he just pulls you into a hug
  • BIRTHDAY TIME
  • you initially wanted to wake up early and surprise him with breakfast but you just couldn’t wake up to your alarms but Jun understands so he leaves you with a kiss on the cheek
  • when you get to the hospital for work, you decide to bring Jun his favorite coffee and bring it to his office
  • and to thank you, he lightly pushes you against his desk, bringing his lips onto your with the softest touch and you just melt into it
  • “um” you and Jun look at the doorway where an awkward Chan stares at the ceiling, “is this a bad time”
  • during the day when Jun is giving a consultation, the overhead speaker comes on and intern Hansol starts to bust out some raps and its really cute because the raps are corny verses about how Jun is amazing and Hansol ends it off with a ‘message brought to you courtesy of Y/N”
  • Jun is smiling the whole day because of that and Hansol is smiling at the extra $20 he just made
  • Later gets a page for him to report to the doctor’s lounge, notices the hallways are a bit emptier than usual
  • When he steps into the lounge, the lights come on, and every is screaming “Happy Birthday”, you’re standing in front with a cake in your hands and big smile on your face
  • you set the cake down and open your arms for him to come into, and he bear hugs the heck out of you
  • “How did you get all these people here”
  • you smile while looking at him “who wouldn’t come for the number one confidence booster in the building”
  • and although he’s surrounded by a bunch of people he appreciates, he really just wants to be home with you eating the whole cake yourselves
  • Jun basically loves you a lot, like a lot a lot. Tells you every day how beautiful you are even when you’re fresh out of bed with the worst bed hair and a toothbrush hanging out of your mouth and that toothpaste foam dripping from your lips, he’d still wants to kiss you with that foam on your face.
  • pls never let this boy go.
Okay antis, read the whole thing

So, I joined TCC like week ago (Ive been stalking yall for way longer tho lmaoo) and I decided to make my own post to antis. 

Ok so, first of all, this ain’t a serial killer fandom, thank you. TCC ain’t a fandom, bless you. 

Anyway, I’ll start with a little background alright ? So, I have been on tumblr maybe like 3 years, with different blogs. When I joined tumblr, I had an eating disorder and I used to have just a regular beauty blog, I saw pictures of other beautiful, skinny, anorectic, girls and compared myself to them daily. I posted my face there, my body, just everything, and I got a lot of compliments, mostly from men, adult men(I was a minor) and I started to feel like I need their acceptance and I need to be skinny and pretty in order to get it. I was well liked, I seemed happy and I made myself seem perfect, I was skinny, I took pictures with tons of makeup and filters. But in order to maintain that, I didn’t eat, I was really depressed, I had suicidal thoughts and shit. But I kept it going, really, those skinny girls you see on tumblr, they haven’t eaten in days to get those ribs showing, and in order to look so perfect they took tons of pictures, pushing their body in the weirdest positions, that are not normal, and it hurts to take those pictures. But that was all that I had, I thought I needed to be pretty, in order to be liked and happy. I thought I needed to be skinny or all the people would leave. 

Then, one day I was listening to one song from Roope, he rapped about Jokela’s school massacre, I was really depressed back then, I had never been interested in any fictional characters, shows and such, I had always loved to read real stories and news about violent crimes, murders, etc since I was a little, I don’t know why, they excited me, but I just thought I was weird and that there weren’t any other people like me. Well, I went to read about the massacre, and there I found my way to read about columbine as well, I got really interested in it. I read everything about it and on some page the word “columbiners” catched my eye. I was like “omg, school shooter fandom, so gross, terrible, sick kids omg lolol they prolly planning a school shooting!!!!!111!! CALL THE POLICE !!!111!”, yea, just like you anti guys, I was one of yall too.

But I couldn’t help myself, and I went to tumblr and hit the search. I was shocked, I found people just like me, I found people who were also interested in violent crimes and murderers, I found people who didn’t say I was sick or weird for finding interest in those things. I found TCC. I felt like here I can talk about everything that fascinates me.

Then I joined TCC, people werent throwing their skinny bodies and makeup caked faces everywhere, I didn’t need to stress, everyone was just being themselves, making memes and jokes about dylann roof forgetting his damn age, no one was planning a fucking mass murder, I didnt need to be skinny, pretty and perfect, I didn’t need to fake anymore. I was able to openly talk about my interests and not just keep all my thoughts inside, because if I had kept all them inside, I would’ve definitely exploded at some point. Before TCC I thought I didnt belong, I thought no one understood me, I thought I was sick and something was wrong with me and everyone else was normal. But here, if I feel suicidal I can just hit someone up and they will talk me through it, I need advice? Literally anyones ready to help you. Violent thoughts ? EVERYONES READY TO TALK WITH YOU AND HELP YOU TO GET RID OF THEM, NO ONE IS COURAGING YOU TO SHOOT UP A SCHOOL U FUCKING DUMB CORNDOGS. 

 Theres much higher chance for those people with violent thoughts and interest in this kind of stuff to commit something if they feel like there is no one like them and they are left outside. But if you actually find people like you, community like TCC, you feel like you are not alone, there are people who understand you, you feel accepted somewhere. The fact TCC doesnt fail to also put a little fun in the mix w all the serious stuff also, is really amazing too. Now your thoughts must be that “you need therapy u sick fuck, kill yourself” thank you for your concern love, I do go to therapy ! And many people in the TCC do ! Telling us to kill ourselves will definitely not help us, or make us want to leave TCC, the community, that actually supports us and doesnt want us to go and take our life. It just makes us to feel more like outsiders and that we dont belong anywhere but TCC, so jot that down.

Next point, is that the ones here interested in Columbine ARE NOT FUCKING HAPPY ABOUT THE SHOOTING, THEY WISH THEY COULDVE BEEN THERE FOR THE BOYS AND SHOWED THEM THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE LIKE THEM, AND THAT THEY DONT NEED TO DO IT. There are people out there just like Dylan and Eric, some of them have found TCC, and have found people who accept them, bullied kids have found a safe place where they can talk about their thoughts and dont have to keep them inside. The teenagers, interested in Columbine, have found friends here that get them up in the morning when the bullies are trying to push them down.

 And if you are gonna say now that u aim your shit at the kids who say they condone, then just think about yourself, or some of your friends, when you were 13, I was a fucking edgy emo kid too, they get over it okay ? Dont tell them to kill themselves for it, they will understand it eventually, they are rebelling teenagers, just chill the fuck out. If you need to do something, try to calmly talk to them about it and tell that you understand how they feel right now, but things get better and why its not okay to say that. Just, calm, the, fuck, down. Jesus.

 Also if you are gon say “u sick fucks serial killer worshippers omg”, then you are on the wrong lane honey. On the serial killer side of the TCC people are mostly just writing down facts, traits to spot a serial killer, how abusive parents and such are usually related to these things, how to avoid these things from happening again, or making jokes and editing pictures to make the killers look dumb as fuck. And then about that some people find the killers attractive? So fucking what? Pretty sure that doesnt affect your fucking day in any way, and also, Richard Ramirez had really nice cheeckbones no matter is he a murderer or not, thats a fucking fact, amen. 

 If you are mad about that kid who said that tcc should be part of the pride: THE WHOLE FUCKING TCC IS DISAGREEING WITH THEM, LIKE LITERALLY ONE PERSON DOESNT REPRESENT THE WHOLE COMMUNITY, IT DOESNT WORK LIKE THAT, YOU CANT JUST PICK SOME DUMB KID AND SAY THAT EVERYONE IN THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD IS LIKE THEM.

Then last, may I ask, dont you ever get tired of being so angry? Like do yall eat salt for breakfast? Jesus.

Thoughts on Down

This is a long-ass shit, and I’m not forcing you to read. Also, please be reminded that this is just MY opinion. We all have different opinions, and I’m here to simply share my thoughts, and not to convince you to change yours. So please don’t go to my ask pushing your opinion. I already heard yours. I woke up to a bunch of “asks” and I already know that some don’t like it, while some do.

My initial reaction:

• why is this so auto-tuned? Okay, Dinah’s voice sounds like smooth warm caramel on top of a sundae. Why is this so basic? Lauren’s adlibs tho! Why are the lyrics so generic? Oooh WFH melody… It’s gonna be a bop! Wait why is the chorus so blandly repetitive? But it’s not that bad. Why do they sound so alike?

• and picture me with my earphones on listening to the first verse, pre-hook, chorus and shit with a pensive look on my face, and disappointment running through my head like damn I wanted more…

But then Gucci Mane came in, (and I know I’m the minority in this one), but for me, the first authentic reaction the song elicited from me was his part.

Why? Because his part was so off and out of nowhere that it took me out of the rut I was in. Like imagine a flat line where the song was just monotonous, like a car cruising on a smooth freeway (not bad, but also kind of boring) but then you run into a pothole and you get jerked off your stupor…

That’s what gucci’s part was for me. A tiny spike on that flat line. A deviation that held my attention. I’m not saying it’s amazing. I’m saying that the grating sound of the bass and the randomness of it was what made me smile while listening to it. I’m not even exaggerating when I say that I was smiling the whole time I was listening to that weird bass with a tiny bit of goosebumps on my skin because I knew then that I COULD like Down without lying to myself. It was the only thing that caught my attention, aside from Lauren’s adlibs (which, girl, I wish she did more. I live for Lauren going offffff)

Don’t get me wrong though, I’m so done with these collabs with rappers, like I wanted to hear them alone, like they did with Boss (idc if you say that one is trash lmao, Boss is a bop for me. I fucking love that shit 😂), but if they really have to collab with rappers, I wish it wasn’t Gucci. Maybe Chance, or Migos damn…

But if it were up to me, I wish they would have collabed with female rappers. I still am salty that NTKG wasn’t utilized much. A missed opportunity with Missy Elliott like bitch you had to release TMG over NTKG? NTKG was at least more authentic with the sound it’s trying to project. It was old school and it owned it. Like Voicemail was reminiscent of 90’s bops and not lacing it with today’s trendy dancehall or tropical vibe. It has its own sound, and not a mix of everything generic we hear today where we hear a song and we automatically hear the edm producers more than the artist.

But OMG I digress, sorry.

So yeah, DOWN…

So after my initial reaction, I gave it a couple more listen, and then I watched the live performance, then I slept, then I woke up the next day and I listened to the audio a couple more times, watched the live several more, and here’s my conclusion:

• Down is that kind of a summer bop which grows on you. It’s not a bad song. It’s simplistic but also season-friendly. It’s probably what the label insisted on as their first release.

The reason why it probably feels lacking for me, aside from its repetitiveness, is that maybe it lacks another verse. It’s shorter than WI and WFH so it feels incomplete. There must be a reason for it. It could really be just a teaser.

• at this point in my 5h-stanning life, I’m not even expecting anything mind-blowing. All I want is for 5H to slay the charts, because this should be their era. They seem genuinely happy now and my god after everything they’ve been through (label shit and all), ALL FIVE OF THEM deserve our unwavering support.

• Sure, Down isn’t what I expected. Yes, I wanted more. I wanted more lyrics. I wanted a kickass sound. But, idk man, after several repeats, I think it’s a good enough bop.

• with regards to the vocals, I still hate the auto-tuned shit. I get that maybe they’re finally utilizing Lauren’s range, but I prefer that they don’t auto tune much because I could barely hear her rasp (which was still obvious in her live performance, despite the higher tone she’s using).

Maybe they’re doing it on purpose, making them sound the same as a symbol of their new sound’s “cohesiveness”, but I prefer old 5h where their voices are uniquely different.

• and I’m not even complaining that it sounds like WFH. I don’t have a problem with an artist using a tried and tested formula for ONE of their album’s single. It’s meant to hook the audience. It gives them that familiar sound which could make a NON-FAN recognize their older hits and draw them to the new one. Just because they said “NEW ERA” doesn’t mean that they should change their ENTIRE sound. There’s always that one or two singles that are meant to hook the general public. It’s a constant compromise a mainstream artist makes with their label.

(I mean, The Chainsmokers basically generate the same sound over and over and they’re charting as if they created music. And no, I’m not a big fan of the chainsmokers.

Point is, re-using WFH is not something unheard of. It’s a business move.)

You really can’t please everybody. Because when Lady Gaga released an album that felt authentic for her, some people criticized it and kept saying they wanted the old “Bad Romance” Gaga. When Lorde released her new single, Green Light, her hipster fanbase called her a sell-out and didn’t like that she’s deviated from her “sound” to be more mainstream and I was like bitch can’t an artist explore a different side of her artistry?

And on the flip side, can’t an artist use their old sound? My point is, Down was produced by the same people who made WFH for a reason. They are playing safe. They wanted a single that would generate enough attention like their previous ones did. Then maybe, just maybe, their next singles which probably showcase their authentic sound and lyrics will have as much impact since now people are paying attention. Because no matter how much we want them to be authentic, they’re still a girl group under a greedy ass label who needs them to maintain what their idea of a girl group music and image should be..

And while Down is not something I’m particularly excited about, it’s starting to get stuck in my head, and I don’t hate it. It’s a light summery chill song that’s good to play with your friends while sipping on your drinks by the pool. It is what it was supposed to be.

I get it, I was disappointed too. Down is a downer. But I’m not gonna judge the whole album with one single yet. I’m gonna wait.

This is why I wrote this one before Down was released:

https://problematic-camren.tumblr.com/post/161338803713/5h3

Because I knew that I wasn’t expecting much from their music. I sure hope for more, definitely, BUT stanning 5H isn’t always about their music.

And just because I don’t like a few of their songs, doesn’t mean they don’t deserve my support.

I’m supporting 5h because they represent girls who are not a standard definition of what society thinks a girl should look like or how they should act like. They symbolize us. They showed us that one can achieve their dreams through hard work, and while they have been mistreated before (by their label and by fans alike) they still kept their heads up high, with grace and maturity, and kept on spreading love and inspiration, and they kept on smiling even if their hearts were breaking. They kept striving to be the best they could be, and it’s inspiring. And to see genuine warmth from these pop stars, their love and appreciation for their fans, is something that makes me wanna stan them forever. That’s why even if i really don’t like their music, I’d still keep on stanning them, because what they shared to us, the representation they gave us, the beauty and poise they all showed us, man, even if they fucking screeched for an entire album, I’ll be fuucking putting that on loop and still support their asses.

And I know it’s blind support, but I knew what I was getting into when I started supporting 5h. I wasn’t a pop person before this, I knew I won’t love their music so much. I stan them because I like them, plain and simple.

And I know it’s different for everybody. It’s all just a matter of preferences. Some could unstan just coz they don’t like the song, and that’s totally okay. We’re free to stan or unstan whoever we want. But like I said, it’s just one song. Let’s wait for the other singles and the album.

Ideally, I would love for them to show us everything they have as artists. This is their chance to go big. They have so much potential and I would have liked to see it shine while they’re still in the group. I want the brand Fifth Harmony to leave a lasting mark in this industry. I want them to be on the same spot as TLC or SG or DC. I want them to legit deserve their title.

And Down is not it. But guess what? Down is just one single. I’m gonna wait patiently for the rest of their stuff. I ONLY NEED THAT ONE CLASSIC HIT I’VE BEEN CRAVING FOR SINCE I STARTED LISTENING TO THEM. ONE CLASSIC SONG THAT WOULD STILL BE PLAYED GENERATIONS LATER BECAUSE IT’S JUST SO DAMN RELATABLE AND HEARTFELT.

That’s all I want. And I hope I’ll find that in 5H3.

Yes, Down is empty.

But I won’t unstan just because of one song. We can be disappointed (as I sure was), but I think that 5H is worth more than a few musical disappointments.

💁🏻

What’s this? A real art?! Preposterous!

Sometimes I do things that aren’t fanart! This is my art class final. We were revisiting our first unit ever, from two years ago, which was a self portrait unit.

So yes! It me face! We had to complete these in-class, and it took me about an hour.

Artwork ©: alazic02

Do not repost.

P.S. based on the full photo in this thing!

im posting this on here bc this was a really big milestone for me.. this is the first and only time i have ever posted a picture of myself in a bathing suit and i actually feel very comfortable and good about this picture. this was taken on my first day in jamaica and posted to my instagram (@jadeamiller) and i just really love this picture. please disregard my face and awkward stance tho because im TERRIFIED of the ocean! 😂😂

My OTP IS REAL!! [miniminter & tbjzl]

you pushed your older brother shoulder “fuck!” you sobbed as you got scared again. “and another jump scare for y/n minter!” Simon hugged you. you once in a while appeared in Simons videos, today it happened to be a lifestream. you’ve been playing horror games since Halloween was coming “you just are too easy to scare, little sis.” stubborn you nodded your head no until the comments agreed. “come on, guys a little back up here for you favourite Minter.” you pointed at yourself smiling at the camera. “forfeit time!” he yelled. you made a sad face thinking why you agreed to do a forfeit every time you got scared.” you really are a bad person.” you pulled another face him making you eat marmite with mayonnaise.

“now we are going to do something more y/n friendly,” he paused “as I don’t want to come off as the worlds worst big brother.” now you both smirked to the screen as you pulled your bag of makeup out. “and we found a victim.” Tobi jumped up in between the two of you. “ I didn’t agree to this.” he shook his head. “we are going to ask our good friend Tobi here some questions about us.” Simon patted Tobis back. “and if he’s wrong, I get one more makeup item to later on put on his face.” you laughed maliciously. “I like this!” you added. “what is our favourite holiday and why?” Simon asked. Tobi was taking a while to answer “I doubt between Christmas and Halloween. I’m gonna go for…christmas!” “and why?” you tried to hold your laugh knowing the answer was wrong again. “you get to be with the hole the family and you both like eating.” he then said. “you should have gone for Halloween.” Simon grabbed your bag and tossed it to you. “ pink lipstick, perfect for the look I have in mind.” Tobi let out a big sigh “why? I feel like your playing a trick on me.” he waved his eyebrows. “mum, made us wear every year a costume and we loved it. I was once an elephant and Simon a chicken.” you thought back to your childhood. “which you can find a picture from on my Instagram @yourusername. “that filthy self-promo tho.” Simon marked. “ok, we asked all our questions.” a smirk started growing on your face. “what about you guys decide what Tobi is going to be this Halloween.” you looked forward to this as Tobi and you had been flirting around a lot and it’s not your fault doing someone’s makeup means getting very close to their face. simon wasn’t a big fan at first that one of his good friends and little sister were flirting especially when he was in the neighbourhood but lately, he just found reasons to get the two of you closer.

@heart-eyes-the-sidmens turn him into a cat. btw y/n and Tobi would be goals!

@mini-sdmn I want Tobi to be a spider and draw a web on y/n’s face cause they are into each other! jokes.

“let’s turn you into a cat then,” you said laughing at the comments. “if you have any question meanwhile, you can ask them.” you and Tobi had some stares and you couldn’t really focus and the cat you were supposed to paint on his face. “can I talk to you after the stream?” he whispered as you bended down to add the details. “sure,” you said quick listening to the questions Simon asked.

“so we will and the stream here. make sure to check out Tobi’s channel and all his and y/n’s social media.” you all waved to the camera and read some goodbyes from the viewers.

“I’m going downstairs for a drink. want something?” Simon asked. “some ice tea.” you both said at the same time making you smile. “y/n? I asked Simon of this is okay and I just wanted to…” he stopped and looked away. “Tobi, I like you.” you blurted out. suddenly your lips were on his. his hands on your cheeks and the lipstick on his lips on yours. BLING BLING.

@the-sdmn-our-cute OMG! KISS AGAIN! ❤

@slay-that-sidemen FREAKING WHAT? MY OTP IS REAl!!

@the-minter-sibblings WE WERE NOT SUPPOSED TO SEE THIS BUT I AM NOT MAD OF IT!!

simon let the stream run and you could feel your cheeks turning red. you quickly ran to the screen to check of the kisses was visible and yes it was.

@we-are-the-sdmn-fandom ship it hard tho!!

@may-we-sdmn-again girlfriend does my makeup will be soon out. LOL.

“Simon, ffs” you yelled before saying “guys, this all will be explained later but I first need to kick my brother’s ass.” you turned the stream off and grabbed Tobi’s hand running downstairs.

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artists self rec tag!

when you get this, reply with your favourite five or so drawings, then pass on to about five other artists.

tagged by @datura-tea (thank you!!! 💕)

tagging: @fraenkysjunk @malpaislegate @caesarslegion @telvani @mundanesalad and honestly everyone else that wants to do it, I’m 100% sure I forgot someone who does art 

anonymous asked:

Would you kindly fuck off with this stupid collective shit. We follow you for cool pictures.

Do you realize that this blog was created FOR that “stupid collective shit”?

Also, I’m not Jack and you’re not Andrew Ryan so I wouldn’t kindly anything…

Last but not least: maybe you could come off anon and be rude in my face? Or go directly to my last point, just below

Long story short: no. But feel free to unfollow if you wish.

I was going thru my first Tumblr archive and came across this old picture of me and the dude I was with at the time. I was so goofy. lol. He wasn’t out so we never took pictures like that but this was one of the few times we did and I posted it on my first blog. That face i’m making is HIDEOUS tho.

Okay, but picture this

Thranduil goes to the undying lands before legolas right so he’s just chilling, maybe lying in a hammock or smth by the sea in the bay of eldamar, happily content that he’s finally found a place without those accused dwarves, when he sees legolas’s ship on the horizon

And at first he’s pleased ofc that his son’s finally made it the the undying lands

But then he spots gimli

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had a great time at the nashville liveshow :D this was the first cosplay i ever did and finished \o/ the looming taako is @thisoverhere / @nothirtysix and our friend @apocalypticnekochan was kind enough to take pictures of us :’D

The Tear In Maya's Hart

thank you guys so much for 500+ followers!!! this title’s been in my drafts since i made this corny url and girl meets creativity gave me an opportunity. so here’s some super cheesy fluff in which maya is older but still a fan of twenty one pilots.

“My heart is my armor. She’s the tear in my heart.”

The blonde-haired beauty sat at her desk, mumbling the words of an old favorite song. With both earbuds in and a pen in hand, her blue eyes gazed in pride at her most recent sketch. She was supposed to be getting work done but as she’s found in the past, it’s hard to focus on paperwork when there’s an empty room of art supplies all to yourself. The song was coming to an end and just as she reached for her phone to replay it, a knock came from the arch of the open classroom door.

“Hey kid!” Maya smiled at a blue-haired teenager standing at the doorway and pulled the earbuds out from her ears. “What’s up?”

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The OCs from the CasFiNer fic I’m working on. I’ve had strong opinions on OCs in the past; I didn’t like OCs almost on sight. I’ve since learned OCs can be not awful if done well, but trying to get invested in OCs when I’m reading fanfic is simply not my cuppa tea. So I’m trying to make not awful ones and not shit on OCs as a concept any more. 

Here they are– the bringers of Plot that the canon characters will react to and interfere with

The last picture is the first time i tried to give them faces, it was fun to compare. I think them having faces helps w writing them. Makes it easier to imagine in the cinema in my head. Three of them still have their placeholder names tho……. 

12th Nov 2017, photoshop

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Based off of this X

Edit: made a cosplay video to accompany this X

This was my first time making a comic thing and actually completing it. Sadly I couldn’t make the peepo as godly as I wanted but I was happy to draw two of my fave faces that my son makes! 

(re-uploaded cuz there were problems with the pictures fixed it now tho, ps you read this vertically just top panel, bottom panel, then next picture)

spoilery cursed child thoughts!!!!

- it has been nine years and ten days since i have had a brand new harry potter book in my hands i am very emotional

- seriously there will be spoilers like i’m just going thru the book so bye bye if u aint read it yet

- also i have literally heard nothing about this so if some spoilers are well known i didn’t know!!

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