The day after I moved in I found out that my roommates have parties twice a week. But it’s not those simple parties, it’s the raging ones with drugs, smoking marijuana, being pissed off drunk, sex everywhere, partying til sunrise. And I have to say I gotten used to it.
As I got out of the car I entered the grocery store and headed to isle where the red cups were. After I got the red cups and snacks I went to the registers, once I put my stuff down I looked up and saw 2 people I despised so much. Justin and I guess thats the girl Lila. Just as he turned around I ducked hiding in front of the gum and mints.
“Uh excuse me could you hurry up? Sorry its just I’m in a rush.”
“Uh yeah sure.” After he was done I gave him the cash and quickly grabbed my stuff and walked fast to the door.
“Lynn?!” He asked. Once I heard his voice I sprinted out the door.
“Lynn wait! Stop!” He yelled. I ran to my car and started looking for my keys. Damn it Lynn where did you put them.
“Lynn!” I heard him getting closer. After I unlocked and opened the door I felt a hand grab my arm.
“Don’t touch me! You asshole!” I threw the stuff in the passenger seat and I hopped in my car.
“Lynn please hear me out. Let’s talk about this like adults.” He said.
“Well as an adult I say that I HATE you, and to have fun fucking the bitch who probably made you broke already and to forget me. Cause there is no way I am ever listening to your lies again.” I looked at him with pure hatred and pushed him off, closed the door and drove away.
As I entered there was a couple people setting the music. And I started preparing the snacks, putting the red cups on table and went up the stairs to get ready.
As I finished getting ready, I heard the music blasting. I looked at myself in the mirror and saw if my dress looked good, it was a really short black dress with black heels. I’m not use to short dresses like these but my roommates told me I looked sexy so I tried them on and they were right, I looked hot.
I got out of my room and locked my door, I don’t want people hooking up in my room, no thanx.
I swear the music just started and it’s incredibly full, I grabbed myself a beer and chugged it down.
Even though it seems I’m fine, I’m not. These parties have been helping me forget the heartbreak, getting drunk everynight, one night stands here and there.
“Woah babe, slow down.” A guy whispered in my ear but I recognized his voice.
“Hey Jake, what brings you here.” I smirked.
“Just wanted to visit you babygirl and you know I’m always down for a good party and good sex.” I chuckled at his comment.
“Your such an asshole Jake.” I pushed him off but he grabbed my arm and lead me to the dance floor.
“Come on babe, I know you like me” He said.
“Maybee..” Jake has been constantly asking me out on a date. I’ve heard he was VERY flirty but he knew his limit, he knew not to cheat cause he has been cheated on before and not to disrespect girls or go his way with them.
“You look beautifully sexy today Lynn.” He whispered while dancing.
“I dressed up just for you” I smiled. We danced 3 more songs and we headed to the kitchen.. I grabbed another beer and started drinking it.
“Hey Lynn, come upstairs.” Vanessa called. Jake and I started following her and ended up in a room where everybody smoked. We called it the smoke/drug room. Jake lit up a joint, took a hit and passed it to me, I’ve never smoked this before but I like to try new stuff.
“It’s way better then those cigarettes Lynn. It’s like if your on cloud 9. Cmon try it.” I took a hit and since then I feel in love with it.
I can’t stop thinking about Lynn, what she said to me. I saw the hatred in her eyes when she told me she hated me. I saw the same hurt when her parents died, I felt all the guilt invading me. God I swear I miss her so much, Lila has been acting different since she moved in. Today she changed the house completely and threw away all the things Lynn worked so hard on.
“Oh my God babe, look at this Balmain dress. Isn’t it pretty?” She asked
“Uh yeah that’s nice.”
“Can you buy it for me? It’s only 3,600.”
“No babe, I already bought the things you wanted to buy for the house. Plus I already bought you 2 bags, 3 dresses and 5 pairs of shoes.” Lila has been shopping everyday and I’ve been losing money and money for some damn dresses.
“Babe what’s up with you? Why don’t you want to buy me anything. I’m your girlfriend.”
“You waisted 24,600 dollars on clothes today Lila.” I remembered when Lynn went shopping she loved going to H&M, Tj maxx, forever 21, etc. I always told her she could go to the high end stores but she never wanted to. The only thing she asked me to buy that was expensive was a 160 dollar dress.
“Justin I’m a girl. Girls love to go shopping.”
“Girls don’t buy a 3,600 dollar dress. If your gonna buy expensive clothes buy it with your damn money. Not mine.”
“What! Justin no. You don’t pay me that much anyways.”
“I don’t give a shit, if you want me to buy you things you can go to thrift store. I can buy you whatever you want.”
“Ugh!!” She yelled and stomped away to the bedroom like a little girl. I know I’m rich and can afford anything but I’ve been noticing that she wants me to pay with my money. She barely used her money this whole month and if she did she would just buy gum or a snicker bar. Lila just wants me for my money, Lynn was right..
God I miss her badly and I don’t even know where she is.. she recently changed her number which made it difficult for me to reach out for her. I want her back, everything reminds me of her and I can’t get her out of my head.
I’m so sorry Lynn.. I’m sorry I cheated, I’m sorry I hurt badly, I’m sorry I didn’t love you when I had the chance, I just hope you can forgive me, I hope you can take me back. I love you Lynn… I always did..
I couldn’t take it anymore. I ran to the guest room and started sobbing.