my brain is dead now


Sekai x Selcas in 2016


And now I am dead. Let’s get into the update.

Time: 3:46AM

Wordcount: 47.561

Words written today: 17.012

My mind is blank right now, I want to sleep. My brain is dead. Brain exhaustion onto the page, ya know (#@kat-tastic reference). I hope you had a day filled with amazing words, mine was. I’ll see ya tomorrow.

@glorious74 @elliewants2write @intj-writer @koalamuffins @books-and-time-travel

Tagged by @angelicpeterparker !! (Iloveyouuu)

relationship status: the most single a single can be

favorite color: Orange!

last song listened to: AJR -  It’s On Us

favorite tv shows: Scrubs, Rick and Morty, The amazing world of Gumball,  Futurama.

first fandom: Pokemon!

hobbies: Swimming and photography~ 

books I’m currently reading: I actually can’t remember the last book I’ve read. I am super picky with books so I usually give up on them half way through if they don’t interest me. But I did buy this “dictionary of the supernatural” book as a prop for my short film, and we all read that one on set because it was hilarious. 

im going to tag @hoping-on-bas13, @angelic-leo, @piratefrost

DMTNT Theory Time!

@arthurpendragons replied to this post:  i’ve watched that bit of the trailer so many times and i’m still not sure what i think. the overhead shot definitely looks like it’s young!henry, but the close-up of will stroking his face looks to me like it could be brenton? i mean, i WANT it to be brenton, for the sake of the post-credits scene, like you say, but i just don’t know.

OK, so I’ve rewatched it a couple more times now, because you saying it could’ve been Brenton kind of got me thinking…

I mean, to me, this looks like a pretty clear Will looking down at young!Henry (I’m having to youtube the trailer bc I’m on the wrong laptop, lol)

…but then, since you mentioned older!Henry, and because I’m biased and desperately want it to link up to that now 10-year old post-credits scene, what if… Ready yourself…

What if this is Will meeting older!Henry but he’s imagining him as young!Henry, because it’s been ten years since he last saw him on that one day ashore and he’s remembering his face? What if the old post-credits AWE scene with Elizabeth is still in play and this is just my boy Willy Jr taking a trip down memory lane?


Finally, we meet face to face;
Everything else falls from this place–
It’s only you and I sitting here,
The crowd, the sounds, the walls disappear–
You are the only sight I see,
Nothing else has a hold on me…
And now I think of holding you.
What am I getting myself into?

This is not what I had planned;
I can barely understand–
My heart’s way ahead of my head,
It found you when my brain was dead
To the mere possibility
Of you and I becoming we.

Now I feel those words on my tongue
Like the sweetest nectar wrung
From the lilies of the field;
And once those words are spilled
They’ll fill in every last crack…
Finally, no holding back.

Oh you’re a BoruSara shipper and you’re quitting? Let’s talk.

WARNING: Pro-BoruSara, if you are an anti/hater and you still read this then don’t blame me if you get triggered. I already warned you, not my fault. Learn to stay in your lane, mofos.

Agree or disagree, this is my opinion IDGAF

Alright so earlier this morning I just learned that my friend, who is a BoruSara shipper, decided to deactivate apparently because of Boruto Episode 3. I really wanna  blog about it right away but I had to go to work so I restrained myself.

This blog is dedicated to all BoruSara shippers and more importantly, my friend @borutoverse-deactivated20170419 who I’ve been friends with since Boruto was born/created by Kishi. We would always spazz together and talk about next gen stuff specially BoruSara. Even during the times that I was hiatus, she never failed to update me everything about Boruto (she messaged me every time which I really appreciated) I am sad that you decided to gave up right away. I thought we would go down with this ship no matter what happens but unfortunately you already quit. I respect your decision however I am a bit disappointed to be honest…

I promised myself that I would not go ham regarding “BoruSara vs other ship” or “BoruSara vs haters” since I wanna stay chill and positive while enjoying my pairing. You know, I just wanna peacefully fangirl with other BS shippers while throwing shitty BS fanarts to guys that’s all. Well I’m not saying I’m going to go war now just because of what happen. I simply cannot keep my mouth shut any longer and will now share my thoughts regarding these issues even though I originally planned to stay silent.

1.) BoruSara shippers who already gave up, or giving up

Wow seriously guys? We are just 3 episodes in the anime and 11 chapters in the manga and y’all already quitting? I mean bruh, I fuckin shipped SasuSaku since like I was ten and I waited a decade to see them go canon. Even during the darkest times I didn’t leave and I didn’t lose hope. DARK-FUCKING-TIMES like:

  • Sasuke leaving Konoha - imagine the pain?! The fucking agony that Sakura can’t see Sasuke? No interaction, no communication?!
  • Sasuke going crazy, wants to kill everyone, wants to destroy Konoha - ugggh the other half of your OTP just became a villain like wtf 
  • Sasuke and Sakura tryna kill each other - BRUUUHHHHH YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH THAT BROKE MY FUCKING HEART
  • During Sasuke’s rogue times, he’s with a new team, with another female character who clearly likes him??? - Holyshit that was scary af.

I went through all of these and I didn’t give up. And you guys, just because of the introduction of a new character who is so much alike with Boruto’s mother are already calling GG? That’s it? I know you’ll all be like “OMG How rude! you just cant compare this and that” I know I sound rude rn and I am indeed comparing BUT this is the only best way that I can think of to tell you guys that PLEASE DO NOT GIVE UP YET, IT’S WAY TOO EARLY TO TELL!!! I fuckin went through all this hell and shit but in the end, I became victorious since my ship became canon so please don’t lose hope yet. 

Shoutout to all my fellow SS shippers who stayed despite the darkest times! You dabest fam. And to all SS shippers who gave up early then went back when SS went canon, welcome back but ya’ll weaklings lol #sorrynotsorry

 2.) BoruSara is like NarSak or SasNar that’s why they won’t go canon

I think this triggers me the most. I don’t really get why people think like this. Yes they are the children of their parents but that doesn’t mean they are the same as them. BORUTO AND SARADA HAVE THEIR OWN FUCKING IDENTITY FFS. I know they resemble them physically, and their interactions remind us about their parents BUT STILL, they are who they are, not who their parents are. Stop comparing them with these ships because they are different with each other! Each pairing have their unique relationship and dynamics. Didn’t you guys watch Boruto episode 1? Boruto was so triggered when Iwabe said that he was riding the coattails of his father. Don’t you get the point? SMH We’re in the new generation now, this is a different and new era. 

3.) Boruto would definitely choose the Class Rep because she’s just like his mother

I actually have a simple counter to this. Remember how people were saying Naruto would definitely end up with Sakura because Sakura was like his mother Kushina? Well guess what, he married Hinata, who is the complete opposite of his mother. Boruto has been saying the whole time at the beginning “This is not the story of my father, THIS IS MY STORY” What’s the point if he’ll end up doing and choosing the same things like his father did lol. So as of now,  don’t really see the Class Rep as a complete threat to BoruSara. I only see her as a caring class rep to her classmates and gets shy & nervous way too fast that’s all.

4.) BoruSara relationship dynamics was destroyed

Uhm, since the anime is during pre-Gaiden and pre-Boruto the movie, Boruto and Sarada’s relationship is nothing but rivals. Yes it was said that they were childhood friends but they treat each other nothing but as rivals. I think they will later deepen their bond when they finally become teammates and all.  So I hope, people don’t get confused about this. I mean calm yo tits guys, their relationship development will happen as time goes by. I am actually enjoying this rivalry relationship thing between them. You know unlike in the first gen where Sakura fell for Sasuke right away and Hinata to Naruto, I wanna see a different approach here in the next gen. 

For example, the thing that I mentioned in my blog last week, Sarada and Boruto as rivals who do nothing but to compete with each other then will eventually fall for each other but no one from them wants to confess because they think that the first person to fall in love is the loser and of course you can’t lose to your rival so yeah both of them try their best to hold it in until one of them can’t take it anymore (I wonder who lol)

So yeah something like that XD Nevertheless, I have no problem with their relationship towards each other rn.

5.) Let’s go down with this ship no matter what happens

This is going to be my last point. I hope that whether BoruSara goes canon or not, my fellow shippers would continue to support and love them like I do. If they won’t go canon, it doesn’t mean we can no longer ship them. As long as the fandom is alive, and we continue to love and ship them, they will always be canon in our hearts and eyes. It hurts a lot when you’re ship doesn’t/impossible to go canon, don’t worry I feel you (SuzakuxEuphy, ZeroxYuuki, GrayxLucy, RinxIzumo, IchigoxRukia) but please do not let this to be a reason to stop in shipping them.

So these are my points. At the end of the day it’s still your decision whether to stay on this ship or not. But I hope you learned a thing or two from me. I actually do not know how to end this blog since my brain is already dead and I need to sleep now since I got work @ 7am tom so yeah. 

Yours truly,

- Diane (A victor and veteran from the first generation shipping wars)


Sorry for ranting and being rude/harsh, here’s a quick and crappy BS doodle to compensate somehow


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Ice Crew AU

So, yesterday, I went to the caps game (first hockey game ever!) and you better believe I was there doing all the research for more Check Please fics and here is what I came away with (in quick-fic form because I do not need another real fic) (note from four hours later: fucking fuck this turned into a real fic. but not long! NOT long!)(note from the next day: fuckity fuck fuck. so fucking long.)

So, in this fic-world, a few things are different: Namely, Jack did not overdose on anti-anxiety medication. Which means he did go first in the draft and is playing hockey professionally at 18 - except it’s not for the Aces; the Falconers had the first pick that year and so that’s where Jack is. It’s been a couple years so you have: Jack Zimmermann, age 21ish, professional Hockey Player in Providence.

And Jack Zimmermann is good at hockey. Very good. His team won the Cup his second year and now, in his third year, they are looking good. Jack should be on top of the world. And some days, he manages to convince himself he is.

He’s not, of course.

Enter the Ice Crew.

In case you don’t know (as I didn’t until last night), the Ice Crew is in charge of coming onto the ice during the game (like when there is a time-out or stop in play?) and skating around and attempting to get as much loose ice off the rink with shovel-looking things and a trashcan. Then there are also zambonis that come out between the periods. Further research tells me that the Ice Crew is usually a very lucky local hockey team who is totally jazzed to be able to skate on the same ice as the NHL team and gets paid in t-shirts.

Because this is fic, we’re going to do this a little differently. In this alternate universe, the Ice Crew is a collection of young adults who get paid barely over minimum wage to not only work the NHL games but also keep the ice in good condition for most of the day - for practice, other events, for when the college team comes and plays on it, for when it is a public rink for two hours in the morning on the weekends the Falconers are away (but, petals, there is no way an NHL rink would ever be open to the public, this is not Ice Line! hush. let me have my fun. it’s going to be worth it, promise.) They are also in charge of cleaning the locker rooms (and those are private, fear not hockey fans who I’ve already mortally offended.)

Now, I think we can all guess who is in our Ice Crew, but let’s go over them anyway:

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“You’re very fortunate that I ignored your instructions.”
“Oh, you’re so right. How I managed to stay alive before I met you, I have no idea.”

speaking to people honestly about myself means creating vulnerability

and guess what my brains is really dead set against doing right now?

yeah. so the constant reassurance thing is the only way past that and no one ever has time for that unless they’re being paid