my body my choices my life

Let me introduce you to three of my friends: hallucigenia, opabinia, and wiwaxia. They’re all from the Cambrian explosion, the period of time around 500 million years ago when life was just starting and was still trying to figure out questions like “how should a mouth work?” and “legs?”

Hallucigenia was about an inch long (most life back then was tiny, they were only a few eras removed from being single celled after all) and it had sixteen clawed legs, hard spines coming out of its back, and a wicked tentacle neckbeard. 

Opabinia was between two to three inches long and it had thirty fins along the side of its body, along with five mushroom shaped eyes on top of its head. By far though, its most interesting feature was its strange proboscis. Like a Dr. Moreau style mashup of an elephant and a lobster, the long nose terminated in a large claw that it used to grab prey and bring it to its backward facing mouth.

Finally, this is wiwaxia. This danger-artichoke was a two inch long armored slug-like creature with no head. In fact, its actual body was largely just its one massive foot. 

I find these animals interesting for three main reasons. First, it’s incredibly fascinating to see all of the potential paths that life on earth could have taken. Imagine an ocean filled with elephant lobsters! Second, whenever I feel like my life is going nowhere and all my choices are the wrong ones, I like to think that I’m in in my phase where I’m still developing hallucigenias and wiwaxias, and not yet making awesome things like butterflies or velociraptors. Finally - it serves as a stark reminder that if we ever find alien life, there is a fantastic chance it will look like nothing we’ve ever seen before - it might look more like one of these creatures than a human being. 

{PART 26} I Won’t Stop You // Jeon Jungkook, Vampire!AU

Originally posted by jengkook

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader

Genre: Vampire!AU, Fantasy, Angst, Smut

Summary; Jungkook attempts to do the impossible; keep Yoongi under control for as long as he can in his own Manor. But, after an unsuspecting escalation - everything ends in tears…and blood.

“How sobering it is, to love something that evil can corrupt”

  • || Warning: This chapter contains violence and some scenes that readers may find upsetting ||

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Shout out to all the teens who know they don't want children and have to put up with the bullshit people who tell you you're not old enough to make that decision or that you're going to change your mind

If you’re a doc, resident, or a med student and you aren’t pro-choice, you’re not fit to practice medicine! (especially if you’re an OBGYN) You’re essentially telling a patient that your personal views are more important than their right to their own body and their ability to make decisions concerning their body. 

As medical professionals, it is not our place to tell a patient what to do, only advise based on medical knowledge! We are there to diagnose and to advise and then to treat if the patient consents. 

Think of it this way: you tell a patient that they should get treatment for their Type II Diabetes. You give them information on T2D such as stats, general facts, various treatment options, and anything else that is relevant or that your patient asks for. Your personal views say “treat with this and do this and this on the side to help control the disease” and you really want your patient to take whichever drug you think is best, but your patient, for their own reasons, says “no, I will not seek medical treatment for this condition”. All you can do as the attending physician is accept this and move on because you cannot force a treatment (or any medical procedure!) on a patient - hint, hint it’s unethical to do that. 


Notable Near Death Experience- Anita Moorjani

Hello, I decided to make a new story series of near death experiences (NDE). These NDE’s are going to be detailed and vived. They will offer insights into what happens after we die. The reason I like NDE’s so much is because all of these experiences share similar themes, across time and cultures. If these stories get popular enough, I will add more and more. They can really offer you peace if you’ve been confused about topics such death, religion, or the meaning of life.

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Today I choose to be honest with myself. Today I choose to accept my sadness as a part of my body because it is one of my primary emotions that makes me who I am. Today I choose to love my way into my journey to my own enlightenment. Today I choose to hope, I choose to dream, I choose to believe in the magic of my becoming. Today I choose to be enough for the person I will be tomorrow.
—  Juansen Dizon // Choices

dysphoria is a disorder. being trans is not.

when it comes to dysphoria, i feel like a lot of people are afraid to really talk about it in any sort of analytical way. i think it’s something that’s incredibly important to talk about, especially with kids, because of all the ways it crops up, but we only really hear about it when we talk about being trans, and if we do, we don’t talk about it for very long and try to ignore it, or shove it under the rug. it’s ‘oh, i have dysphoria’ but never questioning why or trying to understand our very specific and unique, personal brand of dysphoria on a deeper level. it’s hard to face, it absolutely is. i’ve barely gotten there.

body dysphoria can come from a lot of things. for me: parental abuse, bullying, sexual assault, my other disorders, a side effect of my PTSD, a side effect of harsh roles pressured onto me without my consent, such as gender roles. 

i tried everything. medication and talk therapy, to self-harm and drug addiction. nothing helped and nothing took away my pain. i was never happy, i wasn’t able to look myself in the mirror, no matter how much i tried to love myself. i spent years fantasizing about suicide. the only times i felt happy were when i was able to ‘pretend’ to be someone else, live off in a different world. i had no control over my body or my self-expression.

when i escaped the worst of my abuse, i was finally able to really analyze myself and discover things about myself safely. after coming to terms with why i felt this way, understanding myself and how i could benefit and be harmed by my choices, i decided transitioning medically was the last thing i could do to try and help the dysphoria i had to such a massive scale. so i started hormone therapy.

and i was right, my quality of life is significantly higher, i am finally able to love myself, i am now finally able to respond to talk therapy and be productive and think for the future and engage with the world - 

but i think a lot of people assume that dysphoria is exclusively a trans thing. i would be surprised if i ever met someone who had never once experienced dysphoria in some way. and i think it’s important that we recognize that many of us have dysphoria, and having dysphoria doesn’t automatically mean you’re trans or that medically transitioning is the only way to be happy. 

i think what we need to do is understand that everyone has a unique experience with dysphoria. and it’s very easy to fall into the trap of seeing what worked for someone else and replicate it without really thinking about how it will effect us personally, and when it comes to things that can be permanent this is really dangerous. 

being trans is part of my therapy and part of my self-made, personalized prescription against dysphoria. we need to create thoughtful, purposeful, and educational ways to discuss dysphoria openly and give kids the tools to deal with it as best they can so they can be ready to make their own educated decisions about their own bodies and find out what makes them, PERSONALLY, happy and fulfilled and comfortable with themselves inside and out.

i see a lot of people sad that they’re not where i am because i am happy, but they equate being happy with medically transitioning without really thinking for themselves whether it’s really right for them. because for some people it isn’t all they thought it was going to be. it’s not a magic thing that will make all of your problems go away and i know some people think this, i thought that before i sat down with myself. some people tell me how lucky i am, how wonderful my life must be - and yes, there is some weight off my back, but there’s a dangerous slope of thinking that anything will make your problems suddenly vanish. there are bad things and good things. life is not a perfect upwards incline since starting T. it’s rocky, it can be frustrating, i still have bad days.

the only way to make your problems go away is to try and find the source, find the resources, find the ability and wording to explain to yourself why you need something, why you want something, how what you want can help you and how it can hurt you and what YOUR truth is. not anybody else’s. your truth will not be someone else’s truth. nobody else can tell you what your truth is and nobody can know better than you. someone else’s truth is not yours, and trying to apply it to your life without any criticism of yourself and how you really, really feel can hurt you. 

learning to love yourself and overcoming body issues is not an exclusively trans experience. body dysphoria is an incredibly powerful and terrible thing that we as humans often experience to massively different degrees, and there is no one-size-fits-all ‘cure’. you’re the only one who can make yours. be honest with yourself and write things out, explain yourself to yourself openly and at your own pace, and come to your truth. it’s going to be better than anybody else’s truth and it’s going to be tailor-made for you.

Sex Worker's Guide on Who to tell your Secret...

So very recently I had a somewhat close friend of mine reveal to me that she doesn’t support me in the SW industry, and clearly insinuated she judges me by my choice of what to do with my body. Even with years of experience, it still stung because it was personal.

Over the course of a few years, I’ve revealed to a handful of loved ones of my “alter ego” life. It took me experiences and mistakes to have a much better grasp of how to handle hiding this. Many times I’ve been in a really close bonding moment where I want to tell someone the truth but the truth is that MOST PEOPLE WILL JUDGE YOU.

I don’t care if these are people you went to elementary school with or family friends you’ve known your entire life. As with all things in life, don’t easily hand out personal grenades to others.

This is part of the territory that results in our high pay days. It’s a terrible and sad fact that this isn’t accepted by most people yet. It’s a sacrifice we make.

From my own observations and experiences, these are GENERALLY the types of people you refrain from telling regardless of how close you are:

1) A vanilla boyfriend. Just don’t. It WILL cause issues. He’s your boyfriend meaning that he wants you to ONLY be his. Run from any vanilla man that’s perfectly okay with his girlfriend being used by other men. Young ladies, listen to me on this. You’re still new so you haven’t figured out the brutal reality of this bullet point yet.

2) ANYONE religious. They might have the best of intentions but their values on the subject of sex does not and will never align with yours. Don’t think that you can change their views by blindsighting them and showing them their best friend is in the industry.

3) Anyone in anyway affiliated with Law Enforcement. It is a life shattering bomb waiting to explode. Don’t. Be. Stupid.

4) A girlfriend who has had jealousy issues with you in the last 3 years. She will not be moved or touched that you had to resort to this to survive. Her envy will get greener and greener…like the cash that’s pouring into your life.

5) A virgin. Until someone has been sexually active with at least a handful of partners in their life, their view of sex is a deluded trophy on a pedestal. They won’t respect that you are able to do it so casually when it’s still something intimate to them on every level.

6) Someone married. She/He WILL tell their spouse. They made a vow to share everything till death. What may seem like a personal, monumental secret to you is simply dinner topic for them.

7) The most important: Anyone whose been fortunate enough to never have any real bills and/or has a financial safety net (like their parents or relatives). Until someone has been in a situation where life TEACHES them that the world runs on MONEY and not some Disney-induced perception of purity, they will NEVER understand why it is that you’re doing what you do.

People that are generally okay to tell:

1) Other people currently in the industry. Less likely to throw stones when they also live in the same glass house.

2) Anyone who’s an extreme liberal. They have a different perception of values than the more conservative generations before us.

3) A sibling (generally a sister) that you know you can count on if you ever need to bail you out of anything.

4) A friend that happens to not be any of the 7 qualities and traits I listed in the first portion of this.

NOTE: As more of a safety precaution, try to refrain from telling anyone that you have no dirt on. It’s a good insurance policy to keep their mouth shut if you also have something. Unfortunately, this doesn’t guarantee they won’t be judge mental or other unpleasant reactions.

As you can see, the acceptable traits list is far less in content than the ones you don’t. As an experienced SW, take from my experience of trial and mistakes. You work in an industry based off of sin. Most people will not understand because they don’t have to. Be smart, get your money and get out. It’s nobody’s business what you do with your body.

In the event you did entrust someone who ended up undeserving of it because they’re judgement or jealous, just remember it doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter if they call you a whore or that you’re fucked up because of a choice you made with the strength they don’t have. Many times the same people trying to preach to you are working minimum wage jobs, putting their family into debt for their own loans or bitching about how hard being an adult is.

Your are more than just this vessel people can “rent”. You are a person with values and the strength to sacrifice things in life to achieve goals and financial stability. Don’t let anyone undermine what you earn. Only YOU get to decide what’s right for you, what’s needed in YOUR life and what’s worth it.

You’re still that person with values. You still have morals. You still have the same level of purity. Your intimate moments are still just as precious.

Your character and soul is not determined by a service that does not harm others.

A murder of assassin prompts

So, I have a few requests for this type of character in my inbox, so I thought I’d make an assassin themed prompt post. Happy writing!

Prompts about an assassin that’s supposed to be dead and in servitude to a reaper? 

Hello there, do you have any prompts for a civilian finding out their best friend is actually a dangerous assassin? Thank you in advance

Prompts for a blind druid ave a snarky assassin who likes fire a little too much?

  1) The reaper snatched hold of the assassin’s wrist and squeezed hard. 
“I’ve told you, we don’t interfere with death. We do not kill. We are here only to collect the departed.” 
The assassin scowled. “You might have picked the wrong assistant. Come on - this is boring. He’s ancient anyway, what is dying a few days earlier?” 

2) Their best friend stared back, frozen and utterly horrified. 
The assassin held their hands up in a placating gesture. “I’m sorry, I didn’t want you involved in this.”
“There are bodies in my kitchen,” they whispered. In shock. “Are you going to kill me for seeing that?”
They should. They didn’t want to, but they should. 

3) “If you are looking to kill me,” the druid said. “You need to try harder. I can smell the ash on you for a mile off. Honestly, I was hoping you’d at least be a little bit of a challenge.” 

4) “I don’t know why you’re punishing me for my life choices, surely my job has helped you with yours?” the assassin muttered. “This is not how you treat your best supplier.”  
“Surely this can’t be of inconvenience to you?” the reaper replied. “If you enjoy helping me so much?”
“Oh come on!  “If they weren’t meant to die, they wouldn’t have or some shit. You could have just stopped me.”

5) “Oh, relax. No one’s going to hire me to kill you and I’m a professional. No check, no bodies on the deck.” 
“Everything I know about you is a lie! Don’t act like this is nothing. Like murder is nothing to you!”

6) “Don’t even think about it.”
The assassin paused, hands still cupped ready to strike the flint. “I swear you have eyes in the back of your head.” 
“What do you imagine I wear a cowl? The locals would panic.”

7) “You know,” the assassin said. “You could always hire me to kill whoever took the hit on you instead.”
“Doesn’t switching sides hurt your professional credibility?” 
“Your husband’s not the mob, he’s a twitchy rat who would deny ever even hiring me.”
“Why do you even care?” 

8) “I’m retired.”
“So you don’t think you could do it?”
“Fuck you, man. I’m not seven. Reverse psychology don’t do shit.”
“So you don’t think you could do it. It’s alright, you just stay in with your bingo.”

9) Well, this was absolutely not supposed to happen. The assassin loved their job, they were invisible, a ghost in the city that left death quicker than anyone could see. They were not supposed to be seen. 
The other took one look at them, before bolting. 
The assassin cursed and took off after them.

10) “Now, don’t tell me you’re having a pang of conscience? That’s cute.” 



is not fanon. Bob specifically said at Unity Days when Octanakin was discovered, Bellamy’s education was stopped. 

So, Bellamy’s education was sacrificed for Octanakin. 

We have no idea whether or not Bellamy wanted to be a guard, but in “My Sister’s Keeper” he is very snappish with Aurora about the Guard coming to visit, and it’s obviously Aurora who needs Bellamy to get that job for Octanakin’s sake. 

We also know that it is canon that Octanakin was born when Bellamy was six years old. How many friends do you think he was allowed to have over? How many deep relationships was he actually allowed to form as a child?

Like..maybe none of these choices were his own, but a sacrifice is not defined by ones’ willingness to make that sacrifice. It’s literally just something that is given up or lost. 

Because Octanakin was born, Bellamy’s education, ability to choose his own career and his entire quality of life (including the ability to have his full ration, btw) were sacrificed. 

Honestly…there’s this perverse need to blame the Ark for the Blake siblings circumstances, because #feminism! But Aurora knew the life she was forcing both of her children into when she made a choice and gave birth to an illegal second child. 

The question isn’t whether she should have been in that situation or not (because we all know she shouldn’t have), the question is what would a good mother do in that situation when she already has one child and she knows the law. 

As a mother I can tell you what my answer is: My already existing child, who is living, breathing, eating independently of my body is my prime directive. Any failure on my part to take care of his health (mental, physical, emotional and spiritual) when I can makes me a failure as a parent. Aurora is a failed parent. The end. 

Everyone who is blaming the Ark’s system for the Blake’s troubles is very clearly speaking from a place of extreme privilege. Almost everyone I know who lives in certain circumstances (and I know a lot of them being a Black, bisexual woman who was born and raised in Detroit) does their damnedest to live within their means. For a lot of people? That includes not having kids they can’t afford to have, even if they get pregnant and want the child. 


Like…even ignoring all of that, why is it so hard to understand that people are bothered by the idea that Octanakin thinks a man who kidnapped her, refused to speak English to her even though he could, who she knew for FOUR months, when her brother is someone she’s known for her entire life, is her home. She knows Bellamy would kill for her (Jaha), would die for her (was willing to get into a fight with the guards so she could escape on the Ark, even though he was definitely over 18, just for starters), would give up everything (…..this is self explanatory) because he already has.            

Why is it hard to understand that people value(d) the idea of a familial relationship on this show (just one!) coming before a romantic relationship? Even Abby and Clarke’s relationship suffered (indirectly) as a result of Cl/xa.

Nobody is saying that Octanakin is  not allowed to feel however she wants to. We’re saying it’s a joke that the narrative would set up the relationship this way.

I’m #tired.  

anonymous asked:

Do you have any tips for someone who wants to go vegan??

Yay I’m so glad you are looking into veganism. Veganism is magic.

okay well first

* Get informed! I would recommend watching the wonderful documentaries “earthlings” < this video made me vegan. (Please watch it when you can!!) and “forks over knives” which should be available on Netflix.
These documentaries changed my life.
I say get informed because it’s so important! Knowledge is power. Lots of people don’t fully realize the reality of where your food comes from. Or how harmful it is to your body. Unfortunately many of us have been brought up separating food from the life it once had. That burger was once a cow living and breathing. They had a life, until it was slaughtered to make the burger you are eating. This is my key motivation to being vegan. I have a choice on what I eat every meal of everyday and I make my choice being one that did not cause suffering.

now on to how to make veganism work for you

* Learn how to substitute. Go at your own pace and transition. Start replacing dairy milk with soy/almond milk, meat with tofu or any meat replacements. (Though those can get expensive as well as other replacements: vegan ice-cream, yogurt, cheese) Try including more beans, rice, pasta, potatoes, fruits, and vegetables to your diet :) bananas are super cheap and will become your best friend 🍌

Prepare meals ahead of time and make large quantities of it and store it in the fridge for later.
Make sure you eat enough. Don’t worry about getting enough protein. It’s a myth that you need meat for protein. The best sources of protein are actually plant based.

and lastly

*Stay strong. The first few days might be tough, but it will become easier. It’s actually easier than people think it is. Anything and everything non-vegan can be made vegan :) it tastes better/is better for you, is better for the environment, and better for the animals! It’s seriously the best!
And yes, I go through my day every single day, not craving or missing it, and you will get there too.
Also it’s important to keep the mindset that you can eat meat/consume animal products, but you don’t want to. The difference is that being a vegan is not a sacrifice. It’s not a diet, it’s morals and logic. Animals have just as much of a right to live on the earth with us, and not for us.