You're like a human oddity, a woman with two birthdays a year. I just noticed you finally fixed your profile age. Thank you, that's been bothering me for months now. And kudos on the pic. Wow.
LISTEN DONT DRAG ME
I hardly ever change my theme so it never crosses my mind that like “oh i list my age in my bio and Another Birthday Has Passed maybe I should Change That”, so i forgot to change my age for like BUT ITS FIXED NOW
boy not only is christmas gonna suck for me this year but so is my birthday next month. like honestly my birthday has never been anything special. literally my family forgot to celebrate it one year, its not really a big deal? at least not to me. the only thing that makes me care about it at all is that my twin was also born that day and she deserves to be celebrated. if it wasn’t for her, i’d forget when it was and sometimes i still do. nobody has ever really…idk cared about my birthday much, anything they do is more of a formality and i mean that’s fine i guess. but idk it’s like…at least i got sent a small present or a little money. this year, i’m not getting anything from anyone. i’ll get a call and maybe a get together at my aunts house but again–formality and more an excuse to drink and party than a celebration of my birth.
i dunno, i guess it’s just making me a bit sad that this year is the definitive end. there isn’t any magic left to the holidays for me, they’re not. they’re not important to me in any way anymore. no one celebrates them or gets excited with me so i guess it just. died?? for me. god that’s depressing.
So.. Today I got to see five people that have saved my life on multiple occasions. I have cried so many times today. It has been one of the most amazing days of my life.
So a couple days ago my mom got me tickets as an early birthday present. So I got to go with my two sister who have never really liked Mark or Ethan or Anyone…
But even they enjoyed themselves tonight, and instead of sleeping tonight my older sister has decided to binge watch Markiplier…
Which takes… A lot.
I had such a good time. And even screamed a couple times cheering on Tyler and Ethan (My heroes were the red team c"; )
I laughed so much through out the night…
And can I just say… This is the most amazing way to start off the year.
Unfortunately though.. I had to leave during the Q&A part because we had to run ten minutes through the random storm (which never happens in Arizona, Mark, Ethan, Tyler, Wade, and Bob you guys are magic, unfortunately my panic attacks kick in because of the thunder and lightning but oh my lord it was so worth it) to get to the light rail on time so we could make it home. But before we left my mom surprised me with something… (I had walked out of the theatre crying because “oh my god that just happened. They’re real” so I was already a mess) and she stops… And says “I was going to wait until your birthday… But here…”
She got me tour merch…
After walking into the building saying sorry that we can’t get anything. And I knew that so I wasn’t all bummed…
But then she pulled those out of her bag and I lost it…
I started sobbing because we don’t have much as is…
And my mother… Went out of her way… To not only get me tickets to see these people that I adore and have saved me…
But also got me merch…
As I was in a fragile state…
I broke down… Hugged her while saying thank you… And continued to sob…
Like a baby… Woops…
But… I just…
Wow… I legitimately cant believe that just happened.
I did not know there were so many of us in Phoenix. But it was nice while standing in line… Finally understanding what everyone was talking about.
For the most amazing night of my life. It has been something I will never forget. Not until I am dead. And hopefully I can get to PAX some day, so I can get you the letter I had brought for you just in case you were accepting gifts. I can’t wait until the next time I see you all in person.
Because now, instead of doubting I would ever see any of you in real life…
I have hope. Hope that I will be able to talk to you all someday.
Because anything is possible.
So again, thank you. I know It’s midnight, it took an hour and a half to get home and then we ate food and yeah… I have school tomorrow…
But I had to say something. Because I want you guys to know how much I appreciated it… If you ever find this or notice my existence 😂
Just thank you. Good luck on the rest of the tour! We love you guys!!!
Today’s my blog anniversary. Wow, it
has been 8 years and I’m still here. A lot of people have passed and
I barely even know people here who entered the same year as I did or
when a lot of people were still super active from way back 2010-2011.
New people, unfamiliar faces. I’m quite the observant type and never
really made ‘friends’ in here. I’m the person who sends people
anonymous messages of things I can’t say to them without having to
reveal myself. I’m one of those who secretly admires people or read
and visit their blogs from time to time just because I don’t have
enough courage to talk to them.
This blog is everything to me. Even if
in the future I’ll be inactive or no longer use it, there’s no way I
will be deactivating or delete this account. I have so much memories in here
that I want to preserve. It’s nice to have something that you can go
back to from time to time. Be it the good or the bad. This blog has
seen the worst of me and even shared my triumphs. I’ve written my
best memories in here. This blog knows everything I’ve been through,
my struggles and how I was able to overcome them. It has been a
witness of my growth as a person and how much improvement I’ve made
over the years.
And although I totally suck at
maintaining friendships or constant communication with people, I’m
grateful for those who has put in the efforts to reach out and talk
to me. To the people who listened when I didn’t have anyone to talk
to. For those willingly accommodated me even just for a short period
of time. I truly appreciate it, I appreciate you and the things you
did for me. Some of you has also been a witness of my story, silently
watching, leaving me random messages, and trying to make things
better for me. And for that, I am thankful. We may not know each
other personally but knowing that someone out there is probably
listening and reading the things I have to say, actually kinda makes
everything a little better. :-)
Yoonjin/Vmin - 43k words - 6 Chapters - Office AU:
Corporate Relationship Disclosure Form – Human Resource Coordinator: Jung Hoseok Section to be completed by Employees Involved: Names: Min Yoongi, Kim Seokjin Job Titles: Chief Accountant Supreme, Professional Wet Blanket Nature of Relationship: Friends with Benefits Sex Enemies Length of Relationship: 4 minutes Please Describe Jin’s Dick:
Shut up Hoseok I see you nasty fucker, you just added this fucking question to the form you didn’t even make sure the font was the same as the original you better hold on to your goddamn cat because I’m coming for you as soon as I’m finished getting
oh fucking hell.
that weird trans guy feel when your sexologist writes you a test referral with ‘assesment before starting testosterone’ for the purpose and it fuels you with happiness for days cause the bar has never been any lower
The (Un)forgotten Birthday - Part 2 Follow-up to Part 1 - for the NCISLA Hiatus Fic Challenge Word Count: 1100ish (Pt1) + 1900ish (Pt2) = 3000ish total
A/N - since ff.net is being a brat and not letting me upload this, you get it in full here instead of just a link. Technically this goes along with my fic challenge that I posted last week changing one thing. Because Kensi doesn’t forget Deeks’ birthday in that, technically The Box needs a new reason for existing. But in the end, the meaning is still the same and this is also my new speculative headcanon. If it’s not true, the writers and I will be in a fight.
kind of tags to Red Part 1 and Three Hearts
Two and a half months later – Spring 2013
“What’s in the box?” Dave, from NCIS’s Red Team, is eyeing said box as he and his colleague, Claire, stand in the bullpen with Kensi and Deeks.
The box had shown up on Kensi’s desk about six weeks ago and despite his best efforts, Deeks has been unsuccessful in finding out what it is. And Kensi seems to enjoy keeping the secret he so desperately wants to know.
“Wow,” he looks to her, “that is a fantastic question. Why don’t you ask my partner…not that she’s gonna tell you.”
Attention now on her, Kensi lets out a small sigh, “His birthday was a couple months ago and I couldn’t think of anything to get him. I finally figured it out though, and got him something he’s always wanted…more than anything else in the world.” Her eyes never leave her partner, gauging his reaction to this revelation.
Stunned. That’s the best way to describe the look on his face. Kensi chuckles internally at the thought that this is the second time in a few short months that she’s left him speechless.
Other conversation and background noise all but fade away. In this moment, it’s just the two of them and Deeks finds himself a little bit in awe of his partner.
“You really did that?” His voice is soft and unsure. “I thought dinner was my gift?”
Kensi shrugs and her eyes flick to the ground before meeting his again, “It wasn’t enough.”