I think the hardest part about losing you
was that I didn’t just lose the boy
who called me pretty even when I hadn’t showered in 3 days,
the boy who once kissed me in the rain with tears in his eyes
I lost my best friend
the only person who knows what my favorite time of day is
the only person who’s calmed me down after a day of nightmares
I’ve lost so much more
than anyone can imagine
and I hear what youre asking
I’m just trying to make it easier on you
Summary: You and Chanyeol go way back, and are best friends. It’s become routine for you to come over to the dorms whenever you have a fight with your boyfriend, but lately, he’s been pissed off at you, and you’re not quite sure why. Scenario: angst, fluff Word Count: 6,917
this a post (complete with links, pictures and other tips) dedicated to all of you struggling through what seems to be a hell they call high school. i get it. i struggled through it, all my friends endured it and you’re probably in the same boat of wanting to throw yourself down each flight of stairs that presents itself. but please don’t do that! i’m here to help, friend!! this is a comprehensive list of all the things i learned from my time in high school. i hope this helps at least one person out there! as always, if you guys have any questions, my ask box is open :)
before we get into it: this is a link to my study routine because some people have been asking for it and don’t have a section in this post to put it under so i’m just going to leave it here.
okay so, i’m going to be completely upfront with you. high school is hard. it’s especially hard if you want to do well. i can honestly say that senior year took its toll in more ways than one when i didn’t take care of myself or pay attention to my body’s needs. so here are some self-care tips to keep you happy & healthy.
1. eat a lot & stay hydrated
when you’re trying to finish a 2000 word essay, or pretty much all but shoving toothpicks in your eyes to stay up studying for an exam the next day, food is your best friend. food helps your brain work better and you’ll find that your concentration levels increase when you study on a filled stomach. there are lots of brain foods out there like dark chocolate, nuts, vegetable sticks etc. but don’t forget to reward yourself with a food of your choice after you feel like you’ve done a lot of work. couple all of this with lots of water to keep you feeling refreshed.
2. pamper yourself
i am completely aware of the fact that high school students don’t have the time to go to a spa or sauna every other weekend. however, you deserve a nice long bath or a good face scrub every now and then. other things you can indulge in:
body lotion (especially the nice smelling ones)
a good facial cleanser
and the list goes on. trust me, being physically relaxed plays a big part in how your brain performs. if you feel a bit gross, take a shower before you start studying. it’s little things like that that’ll make a massive difference.
everyone says it, i know. but it’s so important. if you don’t get sleep the night before because you were cramming for tomorrow morning’s exam, go home and take a nap in the afternoon. get some shuteye in one form or another. pls.
4. believe in yourself
it sounds so weird, and it’s usually not included in posts like these but in my opinion it’s one of, if not the most, important factor in high school success. think about it. if you’re spending those years of your life doubting whether your answer is correct, whether your science report is as good as the next person’s or whether your friends truly like you, you’re using up a lot of energy that could be used for things that’ll actually benefit you in the long run. that’s why my blog is titled “breathe” - because that’s exactly what you have to do, and sometimes that’s the only thing you can do in order to keep going. chin up. you’re going to be okay. you’re doing great. i believe in you. and you should believe in you too.
1. plan everything
i’m telling you now, get some kind of planning system. whether you want to use a bullet journal, a planner, a diary, an app, a computer program or your grandma’s paper napkins, seriously just pick something. when you have seven different classes and you have assessment for each, i highly doubt you’re going to remember every task that goes along with them. so, just take my word for it and plan plan plan.
here’s alinkto how i used my planner back in high school.
i also recommend a whiteboard monthly calendar so you can keep track of all of the important dates you need to remember.
i love love love post-its. i honestly can’t stop myself from buying them - especially the cute animal ones. post-its saved my butt when keeping my books organised and easy to navigate. you can use them to separate different semesters, chapters, lectures, topics etc. i also use post-its to mark any questions, sections or subjects that i’m unsure of so that i can ask my teacher about it the next day. i then write down the answer or explanation on a separate sticky note and stick it next to the question so i can refer back to it when studying for exams.
+ look at all the different kinds of cute post-its you can get!
so you can obviously get all your standard, basic post-its.
buuutttttttt, you can also get all of these fun ones too! they make studying a lot easier and a lot more fun, trust me.
3. figure out a system that works for you
so in high school, i liked having notebooks for each class and having an accordion folder to hold all my papers. that worked perfectly fine for me but there may be other methods that work better for you. i suggest, especially if you’re just about to start or just started high school, that you experiment with different organisational systems to find which one suits you best.
i’ve got a page dedicated to my favourite supplies and how i use them. i hope you can get some inspiration from it in some way.
go on google, tumblr, facebook, instagram, weheartit or whatever tickles your fancy and search up some quotes that inspire you. it sounds really corny, but i’m telling you that it works. i had three quotes above my desk and they always used to motivate me when all i could think about was crashing into the comfort of my blankets. i would pick quotes and write/draw them out myself so i could add my own spin on them. i used:
“make hermione proud”
“effort only fully releases its rewards to those who refuse to quit”
“you have galaxies in your head, don’t let anyone tell you you cannot shine”
this community! it’s the best motivation in my opinion. whenever i was in a procrastination slump, i would scroll through the studyblr tag or scroll through studyblr blogs and before i knew it i’d be ready to study for another hour. it’s honestly one of the most helpful resources, and if it’s available to you then i definitely recommend that you use it!
get yourself a study playlist. it’s amazing what music can do for your mood. add a mix of songs that will get you pumped to blitz through that 5-star difficulty chemistry question and songs that will help you concentrate when you need to find the right word for that english essay. studying when it’s dead quiet is weirdly deafening to me and i can’t concentrate if there isn’t some sort of background noise. just add whatever helps you - whether it be panic!, classical or in my case, kpop hehe
i have a playlist suggestion on my blog if you want to try listening to some new songs. :)
that’s all, folks!
in all honesty, high school isn’t going to be a walk in the park if you want to succeed. it takes dedication, a lot of persistence and a consistent work ethic. you need to know what you’re aiming for, and you need to want it just as much, if not more, than the person who wants the same thing. my high school experience was stressful and anxiety inducing, but i can honestly say that the rewards on the flip side are very much worth it. you’ve got this. you’ll do a lot more than survive. you will succeed.
“I must say, your wife is pretty good in bed too, my dear friend.”
Frozen, you stared at your husband’s smirking face. Did he feel the same way when he found out that his wife and his best friend have a relationship they shouldn’t actually have? Was he also disappointed in you like you were in him right now?
The second you felt Jimin lunging forward towards Taehyung, you wrapped your fingers around his wrist, turned him to yourself and whispered. “Don’t..”
Looking into his angry eyes, you tried to ignore what your husband was saying and focused on calming Jimin down by stroking his cheeks gently.
Taehyung, on the other hand, was enjoying the way he was irking Jimin with his stinging words. “What’s wrong, Jimin? Are you angry? You feel uncomfortable, right? Now imagine how I felt whenever I saw my own wife stepping into the hotel room with a smile plastered on her face! Imagine how I felt when I knew that my best friend’s hands were touching my wife’s body!”
Jimin started taking deep breaths and closed his eyes, trying to control his anger. You placed your hands on his ears and leaned your forehead on his. “Don’t listen to him.. Please, let’s just go from here..”
Hearing Taehyung’s voice again, you copied the way Jimin closed his eyes and tried to think about something else.
“Oh, and Y/N. My dear wife. Let me break it to you. I never loved you. Everything was fake, you know. I never wanted to marry you. But you see, money controls everything in this world. And marrying you just happened to be the perfect opportunity to get a hold of that money-”
Just before Taehyung could end his sentence, Jimin yanked your hands away and lunged forward to him, punching his face countlessly without taking a breath.
A loud shriek left your mouth and with that, you felt a sharp pain in your belly. Bending forward a little bit, you placed your hand on the spot that hurt uncontrollably and gasped loudly when you felt something dripping down your thighs.
The moment you realized what it was, you started sobbing loudly. “J-Jimin!”
Not hearing your shaky voice, Jimin still punched your husband in the face. “J-Jimin, the baby! B-Blood!”
When Jimin heard your shrieking, he turned his head towards you and found you sitting on the ground, hands shaking uncontrollably.
Letting go of his best friend, he run towards you and looked at your bloody hands. “Y-Y/N what’s wrong?! Y/N?!”
Taehyung, on the other hand, stood there frozen with his bruised face, trying to understand what you were saying. “B-Baby? W-What do you mea- H-How?”
Jimin cupped your cheeks with his now bloody hands. “No! Y/N, open your eyes! No! Y/N, please, open your eyes!”
Turning his head to Taehyung, he yelled desperately at him. “Call the ambulance! Do something, damn it!”
Still shocked, Taehyung mumbled to himself. “This can’t be right, this can’t be right. The doctor said- H-How?!”
Luke: [text] hi who is this? Vader: who is THIS???? Luke: are you a friend of ben’s? Vader: ben?? ben who??? Luke: ben kenobi? I just found this phone in his house. Vader: ben kenobi Vader: r u fuckin kidding me Vader: thats what he called himself???? jfc Vader: yes i was his friend why are you contacting me??? Luke: there were 1,201 unread texts from your number on this phone, so i thought i would just let you know that i’m really sorry, but ben is dead Vader: oh yeah so he claims Vader: theres no name stored with my # on there? Luke: uh yeah there is but it wasnt helpful in identifying you and i didnt feel right about reading all your messages…the couple that i saw seemed pretty personal Vader: what is the name he used for me? just curious Luke: um “headache” lol. sorry. Vader: ugh 🙄 whatever the only thing he loved more than me was complaining about me Luke: ben was my friend, too. i didn’t know he had any other friends! i mean my dad was his best friend, but he’s been dead since before I was born. Vader: wait what Luke: i have to get going, my r2 unit’s kind of got a mind of his own and he’s gonna leave tatooine without me if i don’t hurry Vader: WHAT Luke: later mister! i hope we can talk more soon!
Summary: It’s 2:45 am and Min Yoongi’s at your door. Stupid.
(( Note: Lol, hey guys… Guess who’s not dead. *Me (I think)* Sorry I went on hiatus out of nowhere :/ Can’t say that I’m back officially because like the last time I said that I was gone three months after (hehe). So I’m semi back I guess? I’ve been missing those active Tumblr days so much, I wish I can be on more, idk what will happen in the future but I’ll try my best to post more scenarios and just overall be more active :) HOPEFULLY SMH—Also I know nothing about piano/music writing, I apologize for any mistakes and please please listen to the song it’s really pretty ))
“Literally, what the hell.”
You stared at your best friend, completely dumbfounded by the fact that you were even staring at him considering that it was pitch black and cold as shit out. In other words, it was 2:45 in the morning and no other than Min Yoongi was standing there right in front of you, hands stuffed deep into his large coat along with a fluffy scarf wrapped countless times around his head, hot air from his mouth puffing out into the frozen winter air.
“That’s the best part. That was definitely the best part out of everything. I’ve had guys and girls come up to me and say, “Thanks to your character, I came out to my friends and family.” That means more to me than anything. The fact that I got to play this character that I had so much fun with and we got to be on an entertaining show that’s one thing, but to have a small impact on people’s lives in that way… Words can’t explain. That’s just awesome.”
Request// Can you do a imagine of Tommy where the reader is younger than him? @yomairagotpb
Request// Would you consider doing a Tommy Shelby imagine where the reader is quite a bit younger than Tommy and a family friend that helps with the business killing. The reader doesn’t date or anything until Tommy finally professes his feelings and takes her virginity A bit rough Dirty smut pretty please
*You asked for smut and I’m about to hella deliver. Cover your eyes if you can’t handle dirty words! In all honesty, it’s my best attempt after a week of contemplation. Someone please teach me the secret to writing good smut!! I’m going to try to put out at least one more work before Friday because I’m getting my wisdom teeth taken out and no one would want to read anything I right then haha. xoxox*
Same time every week. Like clockwork. Tommy knew to have your pay ready and on his desk by noon every Wednesday so you could pick it up before going to the market. This had been ‘the usual’ for years, and it seemed you had fooled Thomas into even enjoying your momentary visits. Of course, all the men in the shop had if he were to be honest. There was only one notion that had kept him from lashing out passively in a jealous pique or even pursuing you further when he realized just how enamored he’d become with you: you were younger buy some extent, nearby 10 years.
It didn’t help that your family was one of very little the Shelbys could call friends because if a rendezvous were to come about, all secrets would come to light in the eyes of your mother and father. In truth, your position in the company was no longer what it used to be, though they didn’t need to know that. Your father had served in the war, and while he would never be able to walk again, you thanked the Lord everyday that he even came home, consumed at the time on how his older age than most boys he fought with would not excuse him from enemy fire. Your mother had worked in a factory while your dad was away, but to make ends meet, you took up a position at Shelby Company Ltd. the woman you knew as you own aunt Polly had offered you while her nephews were on the battlefront. When the war had ended and the boys had come home, you were sure you would be unemployed. In truth it had been a surprise to all how useful and imperative you became. The only catch was that you duties became more than just helping keep the books like when you were 14. Tommy had gotten you in on exporting malt whiskey to the United States and even ending a couple of the sad lives of those who fucked over the Peaky Blinders. Not that you would say so, but you liked to think of yourself as the first ‘peaky boy.’ Now you were a lone wolf, only ever stopping in when you were called and for your pay as well as weekly updates.
PROMPT; in which archie andrews finds himself smitten with a dear friend, and after a not-so-fun encounter during lunch, it dawns on him that its about time he comes clean.
PARING/CHARACTERS; archie andrews x reader, jughead jones, betty cooper, and veronica lodge.
WARNINGS; angst, feels, more angst and probably more feels, and swearing is nearly guaranteed.
AUTHOR’S NOTE; wow okay so there’s not a lot of archie imagines or anything on tumblr so i tried my best and yeah. but nonetheless, i enjoyed writing this and wouldn’t mind writing more, so send me in some more archie requests!
Archie never expected anything like this.
He never expected for Jason Blossom to die. He never expected to end up dating (would that be the right word?) his music teacher- hell, he never expected to fall in love.
No, he didn’t fall in love with Ms. Grundy.
He fell in love with you.
And, God, did it take him forever to finally realize it. Yeah, he knew there were feelings for you, but he just didn’t know what they meant.
You’d simply glance at him and his heart would start beating faster, or maybe you’d laugh at some comment Jughead made about Reggie and the rest of the jocks and his stomach would erupt into butterflies.
He was so smitten and he didn’t even know it.
He’d stare at you, just smiling to himself because you were oblivious to it. And if you did notice, you’d just roll your eyes and tell him to take a picture. But he didn’t need a picture, because how could he - how could anyone forget you?
It wasn’t until Veronica said something did he notice his feelings - his true feelings - towards you.
Warnings: super long, angst, little self doubt, and fluff
Summary: What happens when the team forgets your birthday? Including your best friend to have a dinner party to meet his new girl.
A/N: I was super encourage by all the love I got on my last story that I thought I would try again. Thank you all for reading these. This one is super long I let my feelings go and this is what can out of it.
It’s not like you never told anyone your birthday, it was just a weird thing to bring up in conversation. You would also think a group of ex-assasins and superheroes would remember a little thing like that. So for the past week leading up to it, you had been waiting with bated breath for someone to ask if you had plans for that day. Each day rolled by with nothing, maybe they were going to surprise you. Nobody was acting suspiciously though, no talking that stopped when you walked into the room. Thursday rolled around with nothing and with 2 days till your birthday, you were excited when your best friend Bucky came into the living room.
“Hey lady, you got plans Saturday night?"
"No, none what so ever!” You had gotten so excited that you had blurted it out rather quickly. Almost shouting at the man.
He rocked back at your tone surprised at your eagerness.
“Awesome we’re all going out to dinner wanted to know if you wanted to join us? Just a little something nothing too formal."
"Sure, yes I’ll be there"
He nodded and walked back out. You squealed a little, they were doing something. This was going to be great. You got up and practically sprinted to your room. You had to look nice for your party. You laid out a couple different outfits, finally you set your mind on a (F/C) dress you had been saving. You paired it with some sandals and called it a day.
Finally Saturday came and you spent the better part of the afternoon getting ready. When you walked out to join your friends. To say some jaws dropped was an understatement. You were known as the queen of casual; never really putting to much effort into how you looked so when you stepped out in you dress all dolled up, the boys didn’t know what to think and the girls were cheesing so hard their faces might have split in half.
Sam recovered first. Strolling up to you he said "Hey pretty lady, can I take you out to dinner?"
"Ha, sure you can, as long as you can show this girl a good time."
"Well then I’m the guy for you.” He held out his arm and you hooked yours through.
“What’s with the extra effort? You never dress up.” Nat asked curiously.
“Just wanted to look good for this night.” You say blushing slightly.
Everyone finally headed out except Bucky, he was joining them at the restaurant. They made their way down the street to your favorite little Italian restaurant. Stepping in you’re immediately escorted to a private room for your group. There you see Bucky seated with a blonde bombshell chatting quietly with heads close together. Your heart stutters for a moment, yes Bucky is your best friend but you had always secretly hoped one day it would be more than that. Obviously that wasn’t happening anytime soon because as soon as he noticed you all he started introducing his date.
“Hey guys this is Gabby.” He starts to introduce each one of you and everyone shacks hands with her.
When he comes to you he says “This is my best friend, (Y/N). This is Gabby, we’ve been seeing each other for a few weeks.” You’re frozen in your spot staring at this girl. He had never mentioned her but from the smile on his face you can tell it’s pretty serious. You snap out of it and reach your hand out greeting her. Suddenly you get the feeling that tonight had nothing to do with your birthday.
For the rest of the dinner you sit quietly, not really talking more just sitting and observing the things going on around you. But you always go back to Bucky and Gabby chatting; he had barely glanced your way the whole night and hadn’t even noticed what you were wearing but why would he when there was a gorgeous woman next to him. It had become very apparent, by the time the check was brought that this wasn’t for you but for the girl next to Bucky. Not a single person had remembered your birthday; but it was too late to say anything now. Glancing around you see all the happy faces of your friends, no one looks back at you all focused on their own discussions.
So you excuse yourself from the table, saying you need to use the restroom, but instead of heading there you head straight out the front door. If no one remembered you would celebrate on your own. You walk down the street trying to blink back the tears while shooting Sam a quick text letting him know you weren’t feeling well and you were headed back to the Tower. Stopping by a quaint looking bakery you stop in and grab a cupcake your favorite kind.
You finally back at the Tower, you go straight to the balcony on the top floor. You sit with your legs dangling over the edge and focus in the city spread out in front of you. Taking the cupcake out of its box you begin to sing “Happy Birthday” to yourself, tears start to fall about half way through and your voice cracks then gives out toward the end. You sit quietly and finish your cupcake.
A pair of black stilettos appear in the corner of your vision, you glance up to see Nat. She plops down next to you.
“You like Bucky don’t you?"
You kind of stare at her she knows that but not your Birthday? "So? Doesn’t matter he’s with Gabby.” You state your not mad, a little jealous but he can date who he wants. Yeah you wish it was you so bad but who could blame him for picking her over you, a little pudgy vs. drop dead gorgeous.
“So I think you two would be great together. You are selling yourself short."
This was perfect; just perfect you were miserable about your missed birthday but now you were adding on Bucky. Each on it’s own you could deal with but together. Well together seemed a little more dismal.
You felt you heart break in half. Maybe this whole thing was a mistake, you weren’t meant to be a part of this team. Heck, it would definitely cause a rift if Bucky ever found out you liked him. A whole bunch of awkwardness there for sure. The rest of the team couldn’t even remember your birthday. You start to think back on all the times you had thrown a tantrum, when you were so tired your sarcasm came out and you said harsh things to the team. Maybe it was better if you left, you couldn’t hurt anyone that way.
You knew in your head most of the things you were saying were false but it rang so true right now that you couldn’t help but believe it. You focus back on Nat coming to a final decision about everything.
"I know. Call it a coping mechanism or whatever; one learns quickly the way the world works. Him and I, never going to work out. He can never know though. Promise you won’t tell him?!.” You add some finality to your voice to emphize your point to her.
She merely nodded her head in agreement. Standing up you brushed off your dress and picked up the remains of your cupcake.
“Now enough of my pity party. It’s time for bed and start a new day tomorrow.” You pull Nat up beside you and walk back in side. Before you part ways she gives you a hard hug. You make your way to your room scrolling through your phone looking for a certain email. Upon finding it you email Fury asking if the position was still open and that you were interested in taking it. Once done you stripped and showered then cuddled into bed to start a new day and a new life tomorrow.
The next morning you wake up to a message from Fury saying the position was still open and that he would start the process to get your transfer ready. He did say that it might take a week or two to get it done and for you to move. Closing the email you get ready for your day. This changes things you look around your room you would have to start packing but secretively so they didn’t think anything suspicious was going on. You asked FRIDAY for some boxes to be delivered. If asked you could always say you were donating it.
You head out to grab some food, telling yourself not to annoy anyone while you were there. You were walking on thin ice with the group already no need to leave on an even more negative note. Right before you enter you hear a giggle. Oh, Gabby must have stayed over last night. No need to keep her a secret when the whole team knows now. You make a bee line for the fridge, avoiding making eye contact with anyone.
“Hey, (Y/N). Good morning” Bucky calls cheerfully. You raise your hand above the door of the fridge and wave back. “She’s not much of a morning person, tends to be rather grumpy most of the time.” He explains laughing slightly. Though from his tone you can tell he is slightly embarrassed by your behaviour in front of her. Dang you’ve screwed up again, but it would be over they wouldn’t have to deal with you soon enough.
You exit the room but pause when Gabby asks “What does she do? Like her role on the team?”
There’s a moment of silence you can’t tell what their faces look like whether it is shocked or confused; but the answer that follows tells it all.
“She’s like a jack of all trades,” Tony answers hesitantly “she…. how do I explain this? She does what we need her to. She isn’t great at any one thing."
Your breathing stops, that’s what they thought. You could hear grunts of agreement. You feel tears start to build again. No not again, she wouldn’t start crying again. You raced off just after hearing Steve say, "Yeah that’s what she is jack of all trades, master of none."
What you didn’t hear was Bucky saying "But she’s the glue that holds us all together, the one that will become anything you need her to be. In a way she’s the perfect friend, the perfect Avenger in a way."
ONE WEEK LATER
You had avoided everyone as much as you could the past week. Didn’t want to get in their way or piss them off if you could help it. No one seemed to miss you anyway. There was no one checking up or asking for you. So when Fury came by to confirm your transfer and ask some questions you were out doing other things.
"Where is (Y/N)? I need her to finish this paperwork.” Fury stated to the group.
“She’s out, I don’t think she won’t be back till later. Why? What kind of paperwork? Maybe we can help.” Nat strolls over to him glancing at the papers.
“I need some basic information from her like her birthday, social, and a couple more things. Though now that I think of it I could just ask FRIDAY. Pull up all general info on (Y/N) (Y/L/N) for me including social and forwarding address if available."
It popped up on the TV screen and Sam blurted out "Wait forwarding address, where is she going?” Starting to panic.
“She is taking a position in England that we offered her a while ago she will be in charge of train agents in the European offices; getting them in first rate condition. She declined at first but changed her mind last week; she let me know she wanted to take it."
They all shake their heads there was no way you would do this not without telling them. Bucky is the first to jump up furious at what he was just told.
"What do you mean, transfer, she belong here with us. No way is she leaving.” He is shaking with how upset he is.
Fury really isn’t paying attention to the upset heroes instead he is filling in your information on the sheet he has. “Oh look at that she’s a year older, that will get confusing I’ve always hated right after a birthday you have to remember that someone’s older than they were. But I guess that’s how it works. I need to get her something maybe one of you could pick it out for me? I bet Tony here threw a wonderful party for her birthday? Huh."
Again the team freezes, "Wait her birthday passed? When?” Steve asks confused as to how any of them could have missed it.
“(Y/B/D) it was on a Saturday this year perfect time to do something.” He jokes but looking at their faces knows something is very wrong. “You forgot?! All of you Earth’s Mightiest Heroes forgot a team members birthday! What did you do?"
Sam answers hesitantly "We meat Bucky’s new girl that night. Thats why she had gotten all dressed up. Not to meet Gabby just her birthday.” He smacks his forehead with his palm.
“She probably thought that we were going to celebrate her birthday. She didn’t do it for Bucky, she did it for herself.” Nat says.
Bucky blinks “What do you mean for Me? Why would she do something like that for me?"
Tony signs "Obviously because she likes you. Not that you noticed you were too wrapped up in Miss Prissy to notice how decked out she was."
Unbeknownst to the team you were traveling up the elevator and the door opened to the living room just as Bucky was saying ”(Y/N) likes me?“
You froze, he wasn’t supposed to know, he was never to find out. All eyes turned to the elevator as it dinged above you. Your eyes shoot to Nat asking for an explanation. She merely shook her head indicating it wasn’t her that had told him. You don’t want to know the look on Bucky’s face whether it was pity or disappointment. Instead you shift it to Fury, walking up to him and grabbing the papers.
"I’m assuming you just need a signature and then I’m all ready to go, Yes?” You quickly take the papers and sign them finalizing the deal. You hand everything back to Fury while still ignoring the group that stared at you.
“Thank you. I’ll get this all taken care of. Oh by the way Happy Birthday. I hope you had a wonderful day."
"I did thank you so much.” You smile slightly at him. Walking up you kiss his cheek. Now if jaws could drop even further they would because this group’s would all be on the floor by now. Never before had they seen some one kiss Fury let alone get close enough without being stopped. You turn around and head for the staircase towards your room, Fury calls out “Don’t need to lie to me, sweetheart."
You turn back to face him a sad but knowing smile on your face. "It was a good day, I got to spend the day relaxing and then went to dinner with my family. We had a good time I got to meet someone dear to my friend we are laughed and talked. No my life wasn’t celebrated and there was no cake, but I got myself the best cupcake a girl could ask for then celebrated on the balcony over looking the city. Did all my dreams come true? No. Did i get the guy? Never going to happen. Am I happy for him? Of course he deserves the best in the world, even when its not me. I still got to celebrate even if it was just me. But sometimes the only person needed to have a celebration is yourself.” You turn back around and continue on your way to your room.
Fury glances back to the group. They now had somber looks, “You all really screwed up this time, your going to lose her because you couldn’t see something that was right in front of you. Even worse I’m losing her. You all best make it right. That’s my girl, and I will make your life miserable if she moves. I’m going to go lose these for a while, you best have it fixed before I find it again, you hear?"
"Yes, Sir!” Comes the unanimous and frightened reply.
“Heroes my foot, trying to drive my favorite away. Always screwing around with my plans and my people.” Hes muttering as he exits the room into the elevator.
They end up looking at each other no one quite knowing what to do. They had messed up before but all this seemed to pale in comparison. They had driven away one of their own. Wanda was the one to speak up first.
“Bucky, how do you feel about her? I mean really? I’m not saying that what you feel for Gabby is fake but there has always been a.deep connection between the two of you something that not even some married couples achieve. I’m also not going to force you to chose her either if Gabby makes you happy go for it. She is a sweet girl. Please though give it some thought."
Bucky’s forehead wrinkled thinking through all the thing you had done for him from calming him down from his nightmares, to just sitting in silence on the couch after a long mission neither of you saying anything you just letting him rest his head against your thigh as you ran you fingers through his hair. He thought of the times you made him laugh at some dumb thing you did. He also remembered the way you interacted with everyone.
Each remembers everything you had done and what stood out the most. You made yourself tailored fit to each person. With Bruce you would make a nice cup of tea before snuggling in With a good book. Asking every once in awhile how it was. You were the steadiness that he craved. For Tony you would fiddle around in his lab handing him tools as he needed them and having late night dance off parties when the guilt and shame of the past prevented him from sleeping.
Nat was a little difficult since you tended to have opposite tastes but there you were training with her, learning to fight but also to dance. You were never going to be a Ballerina but you liked to think that Nat could see that all that she had learned wasn’t bad she could use it to help others. Of course with Clint it was nothing but fun and games pranking all that you could find and running away giggling. When Thor was around you would traverse this Midgar and explore the wierd traditions, you humans had, Thor’s words, even if it was simply grocery shopping. At this point Wanda and Vision were a package deal one was hardly away from the other. With them you spent your days cooking and coming up with new recipes. But also trying to out smart Vision the best you could.
Sam was your go to buddy, watching movies, playing video games, or even just chatting about how life was going. Hanging with Steve was always interesting, you had appointed yourself list completer. You did just about everything on the list with Steve and if you couldn’t you set it up for him, the where, when, and even sometimes the who.
Bucky though, it was everything, everyday he could think of a memory with you. A rock was how he would describe you; a constant person that whenever he needed something you were there to provide. Your random adventures out into the world with no real destination in mind. Now just the thought that he wouldn’t see you for even more then one day was terrifying. He pulls himself from his thoughts to see the group looking at him.
"I can’t lose her. I don’t know what I would do without her.” His voice is trembling over cone with fear of what may happen.
“Then you need to go talk to her, after we need to talk to her, so get her down here. We need to apologize and make her see that she is beyond needed here.” Wanda is firm, making it clear that failure is not an option.
Bucky nods and begins his way up the stairs, towards your room. When he reaches the door he raises his hand to knock but hesitates, he doesn’t know what to say, how is he going to get you to stay after everything the group has put you through. You could leave, you had every right, they had taken so much from you never giving anything in return always just expecting more. No, not now he would give you anything you wanted. You were going to stay right here, with him. He knocked, this time determined to make you see where you truly belonged.
The door cracked open, revealing tears traveling down your face and a pair of eyes revealing a shattered heart. You stare at him for a moment taking him in. You turn away leaving the door open knowing that he isn’t going to leave even if you wanted him to. He came into a room of boxes and thing scattered about. His hear restricted again it was real you were leaving.
“You can’t go.” He blurted almost shouting it.
You turn towards him. “Why not?"
You’re tired, exhausted really you had cried yourself to sleep to many times this week. Ready to put the whole thing behind you and move on. So when you spoke it was devoid of emotion. This scared Bucky even more, you had never spoken to him or anyone else this way.
"I…we need you here. No I need you here. You help keep us all together.”
“Funny thing about Jack of All Trades, yeah we maybe good at almost anything we do; we are also very replaceable. You’ll find someone else just as good or even better. You think you need me now but just wait couple of weeks you’ll forget i was even here."
"No we won’t. You are much more than that to us. None of could really function without you here. Who do you thinks keeps all the evil from crushing us. You see us as more than just superheroes. Please don’t go."
You sign and continue to pack things into the boxes. Fear takes over Bucky as he watches to the point where he walks and tips the box spilling it’s contents on to the ground.
"What are you doing!!!” You scream at him.
“I’m not letting you go. I … I need you here with me. Not anyone else just me. I’m going to unpack everything you do so stop right now."
"You’re making a mess that’s what you’re doing. You stop.” Exasperated at this fool. You had just finished packing those; but he continues to dump out your boxes. “Knock it off.” He keeps going. He has about two boxes left before he has effectively unpacked everything you have done. “Alright let’s talk, just stop trashing my room."
He freezes mid tip, a smile grows on his face. He puts the box right side up. You plop down on your bed and pat the space next to you. He sets himself down and angles himself so he is facing you.
"Why should I stay, and don’t just say cause you need me?"
"I do need you, but the others need you as well. I didn’t realize how vital you are to me until you were walking away from me. You keep the nightmares at bay. You make me get up in the morning afterward even when I feel like the weight of everything I’ve done will crush me. No one else does that for me."
"Wha.. what about Gabby, she makes you happy? I’ve never seen you smile like that not even when we are together."
"That’s because it’s not that real. You aren’t paying enough attention to me when we are together. I can’t not smile when we are together. Gabby is sweet but half the time I feel I have to hide part of myself so that I don’t scare her. She’s sweet and caring but she is not you. I know you would go to the ends of the earth for me and kick anyone’s butt that even insinuates that I’m not meant to be here. I don’t get that from you."
Staring at him now, you can see how much he means with what he is saying. Why had he never said this before. Why Now?
"I know you think that I might just be saying this because I don’t want you to leave” you not you head, “but I mean it. It’s cliche but I almost list you and I realize that I do care for you. I.. I love you, I can’t live without you. I can see a life without Gabby but without you I can’t even wrap my head around it."
He pauses looking at your face to see your reaction. Hoping that it is positive but scared that it’s too late for all this. You sit for a moment taking everything he has just said.
"I… Why couldn’t you say this earlier. I just signed my transfer. It’s official now. I love you too but.."
"Well Fury may have chewed us out and "lost” your paper work till we made this right with you.“
You can’t help it now you let out a laugh, Bucky can’t help but smile at the sound he missed it and even more he didn’t want to lose it again. He tackled you to the bed, wrapping his body around. You wiggled trying to escape while laughing some more. He then begins to poke you in your side, causing you to laugh even harder.
"Stop, please I’m staying I’m staying I promise.” You’re trying to catch your breath while wiping tears away from your face. You snuggle deeper into him, enjoying the warmth and the pleasantness of the embrace. You stay like that for a while just reveling in each other.
“Good,” he likes where you are at, right here in his arms, “we do need to move sometime. I have been tasked with bringing you downstairs so the others can talk to you. They feel bad for missing your birthday. I feel really bad, I’m your best friend and I couldn’t even remember something that important. Give me a day and I’ll make it up to you, anything you want I’ll do it. It’s your day."
You merely nod, then unravel from him before standing up to head downstairs. He grips the side of your face taking his thumbs and wipes the remaining tears from your eyes. He kisses your forehead before releasing you to go. You take a deep breath and head out, Bucky lingers pulling out his phone to make things right.
You head down the stairs to living room, you go to grab Bucky’s hand for support to find him missing. Looking back around and continue down taking deep breathes. Looking into the living room you see that they are running around setting up balloons and streamers. Tony was trying to dictate where everything went and how everything looked. Wanda and Vision, were of course baking in the kitchen they were assembling the cake decorating it as best they could.
Everyone is so busy they don’t notice you on the stairs. You sit down and continue watching them, wondering how you ever thought you could leave these people. Tony pulls up the security video from the day that Gabby asked what you do. You watch them defend you and what you do, no one had a single thing wrong with you.
You feel the tears gather again, you feel Bucky come up behind you wrapping his arms around you from the step above. All of a sudden the cake starts to tip over and a cry rings out from Wanda which causes Clint to startle on the ladder sending streamers falling and balloons to start popping. You smack a hand over your mouth to stop from laughing. It doesn’t last long as Tony starts running around before slipping on some decoration boxes he falls on his butt. The cake finally tips and falls across the counter. And Steve stares at everything happening. You can’t help it you busy out laughing bending over in half with a stitch growing in your side. You can feel Bucky behind you cracking up as well.
They all look over see you collapsed on the stairs laughing. One by one they start laughing, each caught up in the moment. They all tapperoff when they hear a ding from the elevator. Fury steps out and looks around.
"I don’t need these correct?” He hold up your papers. All eyes shoot to you.
“No sir you don’t. Their stuck with me now.” You shake your head as cheers go up.
Bucky leans in to whisper in your ear “I broke it off with Gabby, I’m all yours.” You shoot a look back at him just to confirm what he said, “Till the end of the line.” You go back to looking at your friends as they stumble back up. This was the best birthday you could have asked for.
My Timeline of Top Surgery & Recovery with Dr. Raphael in Plano, Texas.
This is just a master post of my top surgery experience & recovery. I had double incision mastectomy with nipple grafts in Feb of 2016. I also had lipo. The total was $6,750 ($6,000 for the masc and $750 for the lipo on the sides.) Pictures will be made available at request.
Because I do not live in the Plano area I drove 5 hours to Plano the day before my surgery and had my pre-op apt that same day.
At pre-op I met with one of the nurses and with Dr. Raphael. This is your opportunity to talk to him about your chest, incisions, to bring up concerns and so on. In my case, my mom asked all the questions because she wasn’t as versed as I was on what was going on.
At pre-op they give you a lot of things to sign, they take before photos, and just go over the basic run down of everything you need to do before surgery.
Try to plan your pre-op apt as early as possible that day. You will have to go get your prescriptions the day before your surgery and you don’t want to run into the pharmacy closing on you or any issues with the pharmacy not accepting the scripts. I went to Walgreens to get mine filled and they gave me a hard time which led to an hour run around between Walgreens and the doctors office.
I was prescribed extra medicines because I had issues with nausea in previous surgeries. If you have concerns about nausea tell the nurse at your pre op and they will get you what you need to prevent you from getting sick. They will walk you through possible medicines you may need based on your medical history and/or allergies you have.
The anesthesiologist will call you the night before your surgery. They will tell you not to eat anything too heavy for dinner and to make sure it is pretty bland. I couldn’t eat any dairy either. Also, clear liquids for the most part. Of course they advised me not to eat after 10pm for safety.
Make sure you have a support system with you. First of, you can not have surgery without someone to be with you but I took my mom, my best friend and his brother with me. The surgery center also will not let you have surgery without people to care for you afterwards.
Pack or get yourself some button up shirts. You will not be able to get into t-shirt well if at all that first week or so. If you are trying to get into t-shirts that first week you will more than likely pull something as you are not supposed to be lifting your arms at all. (Think about the arm range of a T-Rex. That will be you.)
I am a pretty hairy individual so I shaved my chest a couple days prior to surgery. About a week before surgery you should start prepping your body for surgery. You will wash your chest with Betadine Skin Cleanser. You should get this information when you set your surgery date. If you don’t get it, email the office.
You will take 500mg of Vitamin C daily in addition to any multi vitamin you may be taking. DO NOT take any extra Vitamin E because it may cause some bleeding.
Do NOT take any aspirin or ibuprofen one week prior to surgery and up to two weeks after surgery. (i.e. Bufferin, Anacin, Advil, Motrin, Datril, Excedrin, Anacin-free, etc.)
NO SMOKING. Especially 1 week prior and two weeks after surgery.
Also, you will have to stop testosterone 2 weeks prior to surgery.
My surgery was at 7am and lasted about 3 hours according to my best friend.
When you get there you will check in at surgery check in desk on your right after you go through the doors.
When they call you back you will change out of your clothes into the hospital gown and socks. (I took this opportunity to take my last selfie in my binder.)
You then will be escorted to your surgery bed. The nurses will get you all cozy and warm (I personally overheat easily so I had to have them cool me down a little bit) and start your IV. The anesthesiologist will make an appearance to just walk you through some things. Dr. Raphael will also come in and draw the incision marks and other surgery related things on you.
After everything they will use your IV to put you to sleep and start wheeling you to the surgery room. I remember being wheeled to the back and everyone being all smiles. I knocked out right when then they put me on the surgery table.
I woke up and I only remember them asking me if I wanted something to drink (sprite? ginger ale?). I also remember being wheeled out to the car and my best friend and his brother getting me in the car. I remember being placed in the bed in the room. I remember taking a post op selfie and being able to use the restroom by myself.
Wearing sweat pants and/or athletic shorts are a must after surgery.
My first meal after surgery was mashed potatoes and gravy. Something pretty light is always best.
You can only sleep on your back and you have to sleep elevated.
I personally had a problem staying awake the first 3 days after surgery or so. I would fall asleep in the middle of doing things.
You will have a post op the day after surgery. Here they will teach you and whoever taking care of you how to care for your dressings for the next week.
Your chest is dressed with pads to soak any blood from your incisions. If you had lipo you will have a half pad on those entry points below incisions. Over that is 2 ace bandages that are wrapped tight to deal with swelling. (They are meant to be tight but if you have trouble breathing then loosen them. They are there for support.) The ace bandages will be wrapped over your chest and your lipo points. The ace bandages stay on majority of the time unless you are changing the pads. DO NOT MESS WITH YOUR TAPES OR ANY OTHER BANDAGES! Only change the pads once a day.
Dr. Raphael does not use drains.
I developed a minor rash around my lipo points because I had to much moisture there from the neosporin. If that happens to you stop putting the neosporin there.
At your one week appointment they will remove the dressings and you will see your chest for the first time.
Reveal day is very emotional for most people and I knew that I would forget everything that the nurses told me in terms of my continued aftercare. My tip is to have someone record the entire exchange so you can re-listen to the aftercare instructions later.
At one week I was told I could drive again, I could sleep on my sides, I
could shower again, and that I could wear t-shirts again. (I personally waited to drive longer than that though because I did not feel comfortable at all.)
You will continue to wear the ace bandages for a month. It’s hard to think about binding after surgery but its to contain swelling, so don’t cheat your recovery.
For your nipple care, you will be given Adaptic (non-adhering dressing) that is meant to keep your nips moist. you will apply some vasoline to the Adaptic. Then you cover that with a gauze pad and medical tape or fabric tape. (All things you can find in the first aid aisle at the store. The nurses will give you some to get started.) You will do this until you run out of the Adaptic they give you. Which should be about a month to 6 weeks.
The tapes on your incisions will fall off on their own. Don’t pull them off. They should all fall off on their own around 4 weeks to 6 weeks.
After they fall off you will place provided silicone strips for your scars for a while.
At the time of surgery, I was delivering pizzas for a living. I will admit that I jumped the gun on returning to work too early. I ended up going back after 3 or 4 weeks. When you can go back is determined by what kind of work you can do.
At 6 weeks, my left nipple looked to have healed wonderfully. I pulled the last of my visible sutures, as instructed, that day. My right nipple still had a little spot to heal but seemed to be healing just fine.
If you have a hard time taking pills like I do. You can try taking them with apple sauce.
Make sure you have Miralax and Fiber. Pooping after surgery is really important because the pain meds will stop you up.
Don’t over do it. Sit down and rest. I am the type of person that will do everything but I can not stress how important it is to sit down and rest and not try to be Superman. Watch your range of motion, even if it feels, “just fine”. It will have effects on your healing.
Netflix. Netflix. Netflix.
I don’t hear this referenced too much but for those of you who play instruments, I play violin among others, I would suggest waiting the entire 6 weeks before playing again.
The nurses will honestly give you everything that you need for recovery. There is no need to worry about recovery supplies. They really give you everything. Make sure you read all of the paperwork they give you in terms of pre op and post op. I did have surgery in Feb of 2016 so things make have slightly changed. This is also MY experience and MY experience alone. My health is different than yours so please listen to the nurses and doctors. I shared my experience to help others have an idea on what to roughly expect.
If you have any questions, feel free to message me or send me asks!
You narrowed your eyes as you watched your long-time enemy byun Baekhyun. He was sitting a couple of tables away from you reading his textbook intensely. That’s not the part that annoyed you.
No, it was the crowd of girls watching him from outside the library windows as if an angel had just floated down from heaven.
And what made it even worse, was that he loved it. Ohhh god the boy was reveling in the attention he was getting.
He loved playing with their feelings and then dropping them as if they were nothing.
One of your best friends happened to be one of the girls he played; but yet she still pined after him. It’s almost as if the hatred she should have felt traveled to you, amplifying you need to end him.
you were currently sitting at 2nd in your year levels ranking. Guess who the fuck was first.
Its like everything you did he was there and doing it better than you. Your vice captain, he’s captain.
Your team managed to win regionals for soccer, his team won nationals.
You’re pretty popular, but he is a walking god.
“Y/N your glaring again” your best friend sighed as she continued to write notes in her notepad.
“opps, didn’t notice” you said as you ripped your eyes from the devil and continued studying.
“aren’t your families close?” she asked as she moved on to researching on the internet. You sighed remembering that you families were planning a joint get away from the summer holidays.
“Yep! i have to see him every day, do you realise that I see him more than I see my own mother” you ranted as you placed your pencil down and sighed frustrated.
You best friend just shook her head before she looked up to give him a glance. You watched as her face quickly changed from longing to shock.
She quickly dove her sight back down into her books as she continued to write.
You looked up to see the meaning of the sudden movement. That’s when you saw Baekhyun making his way to your table.
You rolled your eyes before slouching back in your chair ready to hear the bullshit fall out of his mouth.
“hey yuju” he said addressing your friend and completely ignoring you.
She blushed intensely as she tried to find the words to say to him.
“go away” you answered as she continued to sort out her shit. Baekhyun’s smile dropped before he slowly turned his face towards you.
“I don’t believe I was talking to you” he said as he folded his arms in annoyance.
“and you think I care” you said as you tilted your head to the side narrowing your eyes again back in his direction.
You best friend looked between you and him with worry as the tension between the both of you was building. An argument was making its way up your throats but before it could happen she spoke.
“did you want something?” yuju asked quickly.
Baekhyun gave you one last glare before turning his attention back towards her.
“I was just wondering if you would like to come to my party tonight, I was able to get the keys to the pent house of my flat complex, the whole year level is going to be there” he said before flashing her with his signature smile.
Yuju looked at you, searching your face for approval or disappointment or any kind of emotion.
A) You don’t want to go to his stupid as party anyway
B) You hate parties
C) You hate him
But if she wants to go you cant stop her, but you definitely don’t approve.
“ill think about it…and if I do come, it’ll only be with Y/N” she said as she looked between us. Baekhyun looked horrified. He was not one to be negotiated with but if he want what I thought he wanted (some booty) then he was going to agree.
He groaned before eventually nodding his head.
You rolled your eyes as you watched him walk away, the crowd of girls waiting for him outside started freaking out and dispersed as soon as he opened the door
You kicked your shoes off as you entered your room, your bag quickly found its way too the ground and you phone quickly found its self calling yuju.
“I CAN’T BELIVE BAEKHYUN INVITED ME TO HIS PARTY! DO YOU THINK HE WANTS TO REKINDLE OUR FLING?” she screamed through the phone.
You sighed before continuing to talk to your friend.
“hey be careful alright…like we both know what kind of person he is” you said as you heard her shuffling around her room.
“yer yer, hey I’m going to go early alright, ill see you there” she squealed before hanging up the phone.
You huffed in annoyance before laying down on your bed relaxing your tensed muscles.
Maybe you should just stay home…Baekhyun doesn’t want you there, your friend will be too busy trying to get his attention. So, what’s the point…
You and Baekhyun used to be really good friends, your parents were best friends so naturally, you spent a lot of time together.
It wasn’t until around middle school when you started to loathe him, maybe it was because he started to ignore you? You technically weren’t cool enough for him back then.
You remembered that he had tried to rekindle your relationship with you a couple times. But of course, you being the stubborn bitch that you are rejected him.
And you also tried to rekindle things, but of course, his stubborn ass rejected you right back.
Then the both of you kind of gave up…
You shook off the thought of Baekhyun before deciding to just stop being a lil bitch and go to the party.
It was hella loud.
And I mean hella loud.
The floor was basically vibrating from the bass of the music and you might have been mistaken but the walls were basically shaking.
you wore a short red silky dress and your naturally wavy hair was let down. You felt good and you looked good too.
As you walked through the crowds of people trying to find your best friend you saw Baekhyun and his group of friends at the back of the room, drinking and laughing loudly.
Everyone looked like they were having the time of their lives, and it would be a lie if you said that the energy of the room wasn’t affecting you.
You decided to give up looking for Yuju and that the dance floor is where you should be.
As the song played and peoples bodies were moving to the beat you started swaying your hips to the rhythm not really paying attention to the people around you.
The dance floor started filling up with people as the beat of the music slowed down, it was that time of the night.
Random hands had found their way to your hips; as your body rolled you felt their body pressed against yours. Usually, this is where you would slap whoever was invading your space away.
But tonight, you wanted to have some fun.
You felt his member harden against your ass as friction was being created between the two of you.
“what the fuck do you think your doing”
You looked forward to seeing Baekhyun standing in front of you; his arms were crossed and his eyes were narrowed. Instead of the glare being directed towards you, he was glaring at the horny boy behind you.
You rolled your eyes before removing yourself from your dance partner; the mood had just been killed.
Baekhyuns eyes remained on the stranger as he sighed and walked off to find some other girl who was the same level of horny he was.
“whats your problem?” you asked angrily as he stalked closer towards you.
He said nothing. Before you could scream at him in annoyance he grabbed your wrist harshly before swerving on his heels and dragging you away from the party.
You struggled against his grip as he pushed you into the bedroom next to the main one.
“what the fuck do you want! If you’re so mad, ill just leave?!” you shouted as you tried to push past him. He pushed you roughly making you fall back onto the floor.
As you let out a pained groan he swiftly locked the door before taking a deep breath in, his back was turned towards you.
“Why do you always do this to me” he breathed out softly as you stood up from your previous position.
“what the fuck are you talking about” you muttered as you rubbed your probably bruised ass.
“you always glare at me, always give me attitude, always reject me. And It drives me insane” he whined as he turned around to you. Instead of the anger, you saw in his eyes before; they were filled with desperation.
“All I’ve ever wanted was you Y/N, but every time you just keep pushing me away” he growled as hunger dripped from his voice.
You took slow steps back as he walked towards you. He wanted you, he wanted you so bad and it was written all over his face.
And judging by the way his voice was making your body react; you wanted him too.
As your back hit the wall Baekhyun placed his hands on either side of your body as his eyes were fixated to your lips.
“But tonight, you’re mine” he whispered. His lips flew to yours like magnets.
You grabbed his shirt as his tongue skillfully entered your mouth, his hand trailed up your thigh as you opened your legs a little, letting him press his body closer to yours.
You pushed him backward lightly, leading him in the direction of the bed.
As he fell backward you eyed the hard boner that was begging for your attention.
You straddled him quickly as he tried to pull of your dress; you slapped his hands away before smirking down at him.
“Patience baek” you said before sending him a wink. He groaned impatiently before you slowly started to grind against him.
The friction caused by his jeans caused soft moans to escape your lips as the thinnest of your underwear let your core take the majority of it.
Baekhyun groaned repeatedly as he clutched your hips tightly, he tried to make you go fast but you continued at your pace.
“Y/N- baby, please go faster” he moaned as his face twisted with agony, the pace was killing him and that’s exactly what you wanted.
You had Baekhyun in the palm of your hand.
You decided to comply and picked up the pace of your grinding. Both you and baekhyuns moaned started getting louder and more frequent as the pressure of the grinding had also been increased.
As your stomach started to bubble you decided that now was the perfect time.
You stood up off Baekhyun leaving him confused to the sudden loss of contact.
“What happened?! Why’d you stop!?” he whined clearly upset that you stopped grinding which means he probably wouldn’t be able to actually have sex with you.
“What? You think you can just treat me like shit and then suddenly confess you don’t hate me and id fuck you?” you asked calmly as you fixed up your hair.
Baekhyun looked at a loss for words as he stared at you in shock.
“B-but it was the truth” he muttered softly.
“I know, and I’m willing to work on this, but it won’t be that easy” you shrugged as you collected yourself hormone wise.
“You liked it” he said as he stood up and started fixing himself up too.
“maybe, but I don’t like bacon” you said before patting his chest and walking out of the room.
You couldn’t help the smile that covered your face, you didn’t really know where your relationship with Baekhyun would go but you knew it’d be an exciting journey.
(A/N sorry if it was bad! I got a little lost with where I was taking this one, but anywho I hope you enjoyed a little bit of it :) )
Have you always seen? My love for girls. Through classes, when I should have been prattling about boys. Instead you heard stories of my best-friends and head girls from school.
Have you always known? My attraction to pretty girls with pretty eyes and sad stories. Stories I re-told at lunch everyday, asking for endings I knew nothing about.
Have you always heard? The magic words meant for friends, who meant more than I realized. Talking for hours on phone, letters. In dreams, wishing for more time together.
Have you always felt? The way my heart skips beats when I see love in front of me. Having invited her to lunch at your behest. Smiling like a fool, hanging on her every single word.
Have you always understood? Like I do today. About what it means, to love someone like me. To want to spend eternity with the woman I brought home yesterday.
Have you always seen? Have you always known? Have you always heard? Have you always felt? Have you always understood? This forbidden love of mine? Have you always loved me? In-spite of this forbidden love of mine. Have you?
Anonymous: Oh my god can you do another Auston Matthews smut?? Maybe where his gf is from Toronto and comes to visit him in Arizona over the summer after being apart for like a month or something??
Here you go! Hopefully you like it, I enjoyed writing it. I’ve been watching the Penguins game while editing it, so I’m sorry if there’s any mistakes.
Requested: Yes | No
Word Count: 2790
Warnings: Smut, Swearing, mentioned start of phone sex, slight dirty talk if you squint.
“It’s about who you miss at 2 in the afternoon when you’re busy, not at 2 in the morning when you’re lonely.”
Growing up a hockey fan in Toronto was hard. My dad constantly cursing out the tv when there was a bad play or when the Leafs lost. It was like the city was losing hope and going into a downward spiral. Seats were empty, the team was tired.
It wasn’t until 2016 when the Leafs won the first draft spot in the lottery, with the idea that we would finally have found hope in the top draft prospect, Auston Matthews. After having drafted Mitchell Marner in 2015 and William Nylander in 2014, two other hockey hopefuls, we’d finally be getting a third, creating the ideal trifecta young players. Sure there was still great players currently, but we’ve been stuck in such a rut, and these guys are our hope.
Being Best Friends with Damian Wayne, Jon Kent & Billy Batson Headcanons
A/N: I tried to get it all accurate, even did some research.
Being best friends with Billy Batson / Shazam, Damian Wayne / Robin and Jon Kent / Superboy would include:
> Being best friends with Damian to begin with and that was hard work as it was. You didn’t need anymore hassle but of course, the world had other plans.
> Meeting Jon next when Superman and Batman introduce him to Damian and yourself since you were nearly always together.
> Hearing about their extracurricular activities early on and thinking it was cool at first before realising all the trouble that came with it.
> Getting to visit the Watchtower and being left with Shazam whilst Batman, Superman and their juniors went to discuss a mission. After half an hour, Shazam thinks you’re amazing and clearly trustworthy based on your friends.
> Drags you off to show you something, and suddenly he’s not Shazam anymore, he’s a boy round about your age if not a little older.
“You’re not even -!”
“YOU’RE A -” The stranger clamping a hand over your mouth before you can finish.
“I’m Billy Batson, can you not reveal my identity to the whole Watchtower?!”
“Sorry, it was unexpected. (Y/n) (L/n), best friend of Robin and Jon apparently.”
> Damian coming back to his best friend bonding with Shazam and being kinda jealous. How many people was he going to have to share his best friend with?
“You better visit me in Gotham!”
“Count on it (y/n).”
“I cannot leave you alone for 5 minutes…” Robin muttered, soon joined by Jon.
> Regular visits from Billy and becoming best friends in record time.
“Technically you’re the youngest member of the Justice League.”
“I know right, too bad only Batman, yourself and probably Robin know that.”
“If you look it at my way, you’re fooling nearly the whole Justice League whilst working alongside them. That’s pretty badass.”
> Being ditched more times than you can count by all of them. They’ve got hero work to do after all.
> When Damian and Jon have to team up, they regretfully leave you to your own devices.
Calling you soon after to make sure you’re ok.
“It’s Damian, are -”
“Put (y/n) on speaker would you?” Damian sighing but doing as Jon asked.
“Where are you? We just got back.”
“Well I’m sorry but someone had to cover for you idiots!”
> Being the master of cover stories at school, activities or on trips. The boys actually growing concerned about how good you’ve become.
> Occasionally using the cover stories to take revenge.
“(Y/n)?! I did not eat too many chilli dogs and get… you know! I was called in.”
“That’s what you get for ditching me without a message telling me that you can’t make it Batson.”
“I bet you’ve never done this to Robin.”
“Why do you think I text every time I have to cancel Batson?” Robin responded, amused by the current situation.
> Saving on bus fair because 2 of your best friends can literally fly you to wherever you need to go if they’re not busy.
“We’ve got to get to Gotham to meet Damian so I better go.”
“I’ll fly us over, don’t worry (y/n).”
“Are you sure, it’s kind of a long way.”
“No problem, Superman’s son remember?”
“Then we’ll stop off at the sweet shop first.”
“To get donuts for a mid flight snack to give you more energy. Yes, I know you get it from the sun but still, they’ll help.”
> Being held hostage this one time at the age of 17. Penguin thinking you’re of interest to Robin since he visits you every other night.
“I’ve got you’re little lover here Robin, and I’m going to need a way to kill Batsy if you want them back.”
“Oh oh - hah no! Robin is my friend!”
“That’s what they all say little birdie but I’m betting he’s your boyfriend.” Penguin cackled to himself.
“Pffft, no wonder you lost your fortune - you suck at betting.” You muttered under your breath.
> Shazam and Superboy coming to your aid alongside Robin.
“Why the hell did your boyfriend bring company?!” Penguin screeched sending his henchmen after them.
“Wait, are you two together?!” Came Jon’s voice.
“Can we focus on saving the hostage for now?” Robin started.
“How do you get yourself into these situations (y/n)?” Shazam commented, smirking at you.
“Having you guys as my best friends, that’s how.”
> Borrowing Billy’s hoodie when he’s not using it because that’s what best friends are for.
> All of them looking out for you in some way or another, you always having their backs if they need it.
> Confiding in all of them and them doing the same, talking about their powers and trying to conquer any of their weaknesses.
> Trying to persuade Damian to tell Billy his identity since Jon has told him and vice versa. You still have a long way to go but you respect Damian’s decision and don’t push him about it.
> Not really hanging out as a group because you all live in different areas and have your own business to attend to. Seeing Damian and Jon as a group on some occasions.
> Getting separate visits from each of them though, but seeing Damian more often as you both live in Gotham and he has been your best friend for the longest.
> Getting woken up in the middle of the night just because they’re your best friends and you won’t kill them.
“Dami, it’s 1am!”
“We’ve been up at later times of the night and I usually check in with you.”
“Jon, isn’t your dad going to wonder where you are?”
“Nah, I wanted to see how you’re doing.”
“You’re way too good at sneaking out Billy.”
“Anything for you (y/n), besides it’s boring back home.”
Request: could you do reader x peter parker where the reader has wings and the control of the element of air and one day peter sees her wings by accident and realizes that’s she’s the other vigilante in queens? and maybe the reader is also really clumsy? - @psycho-fu
Everything felt way to calm lately, at least for Queens.The last couple of weeks the usual fights and robberies on the streets were unheard of. Peter was glad that everything was going so well, but still, he had just gotten a new suit that could help so many people! If he could at least witness some kind of crime fighting.
After a couple of days with the unusual calmness Peter learned it was due to some new vigilant of Queens. Apparently there was a new hero in town keeping everyone safe. An old lady had been attacked last week by two men when suddenly a masked girl came out of nowhere flying? The lady claimed that the girl had blown away the men with a little hurricane that stormed out of the palm of her hands, crashing the men into the wall of the alley, leaving them unconscious. Ever since then people couldn’t stopped talking about who the new heroe could be. Some people thought she was just a delinquent, others thought she was a real hero, needless to say Peter was kind of in love with her. Whoever risked their lives to protect others owned half his heart already.
Every time Peter arrived at some type of fight scene he got just in time to see the girl flying away with a pair of gray feather wings. Well, Peter thought, it can’t be easy to hide those things.
And it certainly wasn’t. Y/n/Y/ln had discovered her powers two months ago. It hadn’t been easy to control them, let alone hide them from her family, however she managed. She found out she could control the air with her bare hands as she had been attacked on one of the many alleys in Queens. She had learned to protect herself and others with said powers, and short after her wings had appeared. She could make them shorter or longer as she pleased, so hiding them wasn’t an issue. However her family was starting to question where she was all the time. That was the hard part.
At first she hadn’t known what to do with them, but she had been inspired by a certain masked hero. Everytime she felt like giving up she thought of the fearless Spiderman, and how he risked his life everyday to make Queens a better place.
So that’s how she found herself every afternoon looking for people to help and thieves to stop. As Y/n made her way from her school to her home she heard a scream from down the street. She tried to look for her mask in her backpack, however she couldn’t find it anywhere. God, where was that thing when he needed it? When she finally put it one she removed her hoodie, making her wing grow long. Once she finally felt them she took off, trying to find the source of the screaming. She saw a group of men harassing a teenager, not much older than she was. The girl looked terrified and seemed desperate for an escape, however they had her cornered. Just as Y/n was making her way there she say a red figure get there before her.
“three against one? Really guys? That’s no way to treat a lady”
Peter had heard the same screaming as Y/n, and being already in his suit and next to said street he got there before her. He shot his webs at one of the men as he kicked the other, leaving him in the floor. Meanwhile Y/n had already approached the scene, taking the last men into her hands, shooting a strong current of air, smacking his body against the wall. The poor girl that had been harassed had already left the scene, running as fast as she could.
To say Peter was impressed was an understatement. This girl knew how to fight! He turned around to face her, however the man he had kicked before was starting to get up without him noticing. However Y/n did notice, she shot her current at the man, unfortunately it hit Peter as well.
Holy Shit! Y/n couldn’t believe she had just thrown Spider Man through the air by accident! She was the worst fighter ever! She tried to fly to the boy and help him get up, but was stopped as one of the men threw a knife at her, hurting her left wing in the process. It didn’t hurt as much, but she couldn’t find the strength to get up once again.
She saw the man approaching her, knife in hand. She was starting to panic, not only was she unable to move, but her powers had chosen this exact moment to abandon her. The girl thought of maybe trying to fight bare handed her opponent, however her thoughts were interrupted as the man was now tackled in the floor, with Spiderman on top of him, tying his webs at both of his sides.
The boy had gotten up and tied up the two other men before he noticed the situation in front of him. He finally shot the last man and called the police to take them.
“I already called the police, so we should get going, Want a hand?”
The girl could only manage a nod before the boy grabbed her by the waist and adjusted them before shooting one of his webs towards a building.
“You better hold on tight alright?”
The girl curled next to him and grabbed him by the neck as the boy swinged them through the city. They finally stopped at the top of a particular tall building. The sun was setting already, and her wing had begun to heal itself. She felt a little bit better, but still very embarrassed. She wasn’t that clumsy during her fights! She had to practice way more. If it hadn’t been for Spider Man she would be dead by now.
Both teenagers sat next to each other in top of the building looking at the sunset, waiting for the other to say something. Finally Y/n got the courage to say the first words.
“Thanks for, you know, saving me- Also, I’m really sorry about throwing you through the air like that”
Peter looked at the girl surprised. What was she talking about? She had saved him first!
“Well, you save me I save you. We make a pretty good team.We could be Queen’s crime fighters”
“I guess we could”
The girl had blushed at the boy’s words. Wow, she never thought she would be pairing up with Spiderman!. She knew the boy had noticed since her mask only covered her eyes. They got into another silence until Peter talked once again.
“Sooo, how did a girl like you got tangled up in this mess?”
And she told him. She told him about her powers and her wings, and he told him about his own powers and his suit. They talked and talked, going from strangers to acquaintances to friends. They laughed together and shared their own stories about their best and worst fights.
“So what’s your name?”
“Y/n, and yours?”
“That is a beautiful name for a beautiful girl” Peter meant to say this with a teasing tone, but it had come off more serious than he meant. She really looked like a pretty girl, plus her amazing fighting? She was practically his dream girl.
“You don’t know if I’m pretty! and don’t avoid my question!”
“Okay okay, my name is Peter, aaand if you removed your mask the I could confirm it”
Y/n wanted to trust the boy, however she was still a little unsure. Peter felt the girl hesitated, so he spoke once again.
“I’ll tell you what, I’ll get your mask off and your get off mine okay?”
The slowly got their hands on each other faces as he untied her mask and she got his up. They got closer as they stared at each other for a little too long before Peter smiled once again and said.
“I knew you were a pretty girl.
He was talking in whispers due to their closeness. Both teenager started moving even closer. They both knew they had just met, however they felt like long friends. The girl got her hand down to his neck as he cupped he face. They locked their eyes together before closing them and finally brushing their lips together in a sweet kiss. At first it would be just a brush, however they started to move their lips against the other. They tried to get closer, holding onto each other, but were interrupted as they heard a crash from down the street.
They pulled apart to see a group of thieves entering the local bank with what seemed to be guns and bags to pack the money.
Y/n got up quickly, pulling her mask on once again before speaking.
“Duty calls”.She got into the corner of the building before looking back at Peter and saying, “You ain’t coming?
Peter chuckled at the girl and got his mask as well, before both of them jumped into the void, ready to fight crime together once again.