I just really love Waverly Earp y'all. Like she was abused and neglected by her father and arguably her older sister. Her older sister was kidnapped/killed by demons and her older sister was sent to an institution for killing her father. She loved being an Earp and wanted to be the heir so she spent years researching her family and ways to beat the curse only to find out she wasn’t actually a Earp. Even with the Earp name, a dead father, dead sister, and a institutionalized sister, she tried so fucking hard to fit in and dealt with shitty friends and a shitty boyfriend so she could feel like she belonged. Buteventually she realized they weren’t good for her and made the decision to cut them out of her life. She was with a shitty boy-man for years and took comfort in the familiarity of it but when she realized he wasn’t good for her she broke up with him. She cut toxic people out of her life even though she spent her childhood trying to fit in. And after that she was still brave enough admit she liked a women and confessed her feelings to said women. She’s had a shitty life but is always brave enough to grow and it somehow still always smiles and sunshine.
Time to get this post out before I die hyperventilating into my “Raven Reyes” paper bag because I honestly don’t know how to deal with her anymore, but here we go. You know that moment when Raven breaks down in front of her friends and how Bellamy then calmly speaks to her to build her up again?
I didn’t know how much I needed that type of scene until I saw it to be honest - I was fully unprepared let me tell yall lmao - but now that I’ve seen it and have witnessed in which context it unfolded itself it’s honestly become one of my favorite moments in the episode, because Raven gains back her strength through the presence of all her friends in that one minute of total weakness.
Like, the writers really do love to rough it up for our characters during very critical situations, but in this particular case it’s very touching because it’s seriously not a moment created for the kicks, but the kind of moment that wants to make room for “optimism” that brings this wild set of characters even closer.
And I love how we dial down through the stress there, especially when focusing on Raven, because her breaking point is the catalyst for the unity. I absolutely could go on and on about how significant that short conversation between Bellamy and Raven is for me alone, as he inspire her the same way he inspires Clarke or the others, but I am even more affected by the fact that Raven truly isn’t able to hide herself anymore, but, as I’ve said above, works herself out of her own insecurities with the help of her friends and gains back her strength.
I mean, just look at this moment when she gradually starts to snap while standing in the middle with everyone surrounding her, watching her:
Or how she ends up so bound and buried deep inside her own fears that all she feels she can do is sit down and hate the situation she finds herself in:
It hurts and GOD I love it here, because Raven’s feelings carry the kind of realism that many can relate to, she hates failing and she hates not being able to pull things off so she puts distance between her and the issue by practically giving up. But the point of this scene as a whole is not that Raven isn’t smart enough - as she states - because she got rid of ALIE’s code in her brain. We are actually past that already. What this scene communicates on a fundamental level is that Raven comes to realize that she is not alone in this.
In fact, all of her friends are by her side:
The “We need you” line is so important for Raven (and me obviously), because it creates a very dramatic call-back to that one time when she wanted to leave camp in season one. You know that time when Finn - the boy she loved and pretty much considered her only family - couldn’t even see why she was doing certain things (like working on the bullets) and how useless she felt because of that reaction she got from him - essentially tried to shut herself completely off from everyone around her, because they, as she believed, didn’t *need* her. Bellamy though, our heart’s guy, is the one who reminds her that they do need her with intense honesty, twice - back in season one after her confrontation with Finn and now in 4x13 when she believes she is not enough.
Being faced with the full array of cards against you is one thing, Raven has been through that ever since she landed on the ground, especially thanks to Finn and how their relationship changed on earth, but actually coming to consciously develop a sense of “team culture” through emotional connection with her friends is something else for her since Raven used to have only one person to turn to and that person failed her back then. Bellamy does what Sinclair used to do. He doesn’t simply apply to Raven’s ego, instead the writer’s manage to open up a path to her heart through faith, love and understanding.
And that pushes her forward. That love she receives from Clarke, from Bellamy, hell even Murphy (4x09), that is the game changer for her in this moment. Raven loving herself and the things she’s capable of doing is otherworldly, but expanding that love and stretching it out over this little group of messy people - that’s what she really wants, not just for herself but for everyone in this lab:
So Raven goes for it. Through the presence of her friends
she not only learns as much about having people to rely on and consider a family as she can, and resolves to continue operating in a way that not only shakes everyone free - which essentially creates this sense of teamwork because there is unwavering trust radiating from every important team player here and if ALIE, a computer, can do it, so can they - but it also makes her a leader in her own right.
She’s prepared to face these obstacles with them just in time, as she’s confronted
with a more mature set of challenges with her friends - the emotional progression - and inspire everyone in the room to get back to work.
And it’s beautiful. In season one she came down for a single person, now in season four she goes up and back to space with and for all of her friends.
She’s more than just an awesome person. She’s a growing,
dynamically self-improving one, someone who is able to establish these deep connections with all of these people, who can navigate and bring in optimism as well as pragmatism, who is still in the process of learning, and will only
get better at doing what she does - not just by herself, but with her friends, her family.
-he’s t r i l i n g u a l
-he calls Jeremy “mayonnaise” because he’s literally the whitest white boy ever
-big spoon big spoon big spoon!!
-not only wears a pride patch, he wears a trans patch as well(not my idea but I’m still in love with it)
-serenades Jeremy with his (surprisingly good) ukulele skills
-attempted to teach Jeremy Spanish, it failed horribly
-idk it’s too early for this
That question actually hit my feels. I’m gonna do the best I can to explain.
was an amazing character and I loved her more than I could ever put into
words. In the pilot, the present her to us as a high qualified agent who takes no one’s bulls**t.
Her chemistry with Gibbs is another thing I adore but that’s another story. So yes, she did her job really well and was proud of it, and given that it was 2003 and there were lots of men there, that’s one thing you gotta admire. Let’s take a moment now to appreciate her gorgeous smile:
The following episodes show how she started to get used to NCIS and Gibbs’ way of doing things. Remember when he was like
Plus, she got on well with the others (Tony, Mcgee, Abby, Gibbs, Ducky). She formed special relationships with everyone.
Another reason for loving her was that she was very kind hearted and always thought the best of everyone (which sometimes led to some people backstabbing her, like 1x03 and 1x10). Bottom line is, she was a really nice person, even if her job meant dealing with all those deaths and murderers. She never stopped smiling and always encouraged her teammates and took care of them.
She also didn’t lack badassery.
She was serious at important times, even when her teammates weren’t.
She was willing to make sacrifices for her teammates, or more accurately, family. Remember when she stayed with Tony even if he had the plague to keep him company?
Or when she jumped in front of a bullet for Gibbs?
She was never afraid to speak up, not even to superiors from other agencies.
And she was good with kids too:
Basically I have a lot of respect for that character and I am really hurt about what they did to her (s2 changes, 2x23) which only makes me wanna protect her even more.
And the reason I’ve been blogging about her these past days was that yesterday (May 24th) was the 12th anniversary of her death and I haven’t gotten over it yet. I don’t think I ever will because she was just too awesome.
Tl;dr: Caitlin Todd was a splendid character with numerous qualities who deserved much better and I will always love her.
When I read the theories of why Sana’s makeup is getting darker, I think about the earlier seasons. In some clips her make up was as dark as in the recent ones and I think about what was happening then. What struggles did she have in those times? What kind of things was she dealing with we don’t know about?