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A Scarecrow For God

by reddit user survivalprocedure

“Can I take your picture?” Larissa sat a few feet away from me on the grey velvet sofa as I aimed my iPhone towards her. I stared at the screen intently for a moment before shifting my focus, looking over the brim of the phone at her defeated, hopeless state portrayed by bloodshot eyes.

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Earnestly, Me

Sometimes putting lyrics into anotherwaytosaythat.com is hilarious. I’ve been laughing for 15 minutes straight.

[CONNOR:] Dear Evan Hansen We’ve been far too withdrawn Things have been insane And it sucks that we don’t talk that much However I should disclose to you that I consider you every night I rub my areolas and begin groaning with please 

[EVAN:] Why might you compose that?

[JARED:] I’m recently attempting to come clean. 

[EVAN:] This should be great. These messages need to demonstrate that we were really companions. Just..I’ll do it. 

[CONNOR:] I’ve gotta let you know, existence without you has been hard 

[JARED:] Hard?

[CONNOR:] Has been terrible 

[JARED:] Awful? 

[CONNOR:] Has been harsh 

[JARED:] Unusual! 

[CONNOR:] And I miss discussing life and other stuff 

[JARED:] Certain. 

[EVAN:] Quiet down! 

[CONNOR:] I like my folks 

[JARED:] Who says that? 

[CONNOR:] I adore my folks However every day’s another battle In the event that I quit smoking medications Then everything may be okay 

[JARED:] Smoking medications? 

[EVAN:] Simply settle it! 

[CONNOR:] In the event that I quit smoking rocks 

[EVAN:] Split?! 

[CONNOR:] On the off chance that I quit smoking pot Then everything may be okay I’ll accept your recommendation I’ll attempt to be more decent I’ll turn it around Keep a watch out ‘Cause all that it takes is a little reexamination It’s anything but difficult to change in the event that you give it your consideration All you gotta do is simply trust you can be who you need to be Genuinely, Me 

[JARED:] Would we say we are done yet? 

[EVAN:] Well I can’t simply give them one email. I need to demonstrate that I was, similar to, a great companion, you know? 

[JARED:] Goodness my god. 

[EVAN:] Dear Connor Murphy, Yes, I additionally miss our discussions Quit doing drugs Simply attempt to take full breaths and go on strolls 

[JARED:] No. 

[EVAN:] I’m sending photos of the most stunning trees 

[JARED:] No! 

[EVAN:] You’ll be fixated on all my woodland skill 

[JARED:] In no way, shape or form. 

[EVAN:] Man, I’m pleased with you Simply continue pushing through You’re pivoting I can see 

[CONNOR:] Simply keep a watch out! 

[EVAN and CONNOR:] 'Cause all that it takes is a little reevaluation It’s anything but difficult to change on the off chance that you give it your consideration All you gotta do is simply trust you can be who you need to be Earnestly, Me 

[CONNOR:] My sister’s hot 

[EVAN:] What the heck! 

[JARED:] My terrible. 

[CONNOR:] Dear Evan Hansen, A debt of gratitude is in order for each note you send 

[EVAN:] Dear Connor Murphy, I’m recently happy to be your companion 

[EVAN and CONNOR:] Our kinship goes past Your normal sort of bond 

[EVAN:] Yet not on the grounds that we’re gay 

[CONNOR:] Actually no, not on account of we’re gay 

[EVAN and CONNOR:] We’re close, yet not that way The main man that I adore is my father 

[CONNOR:] Well in any case! 

[EVAN:] You’re showing signs of improvement consistently 

[CONNOR:] I’m showing signs of improvement consistently 

[EVAN and CONNOR:] We’re improving each day 

[ALL:] hello! 'Cause all that it takes is a little rehash It’s anything but difficult to change on the off chance that you give it your consideration All you gotta do is simply trust you can be who you need to be Genuinely Miss you beyond all doubt Earnestly, Me Truly, Me Truly, Me Truly, Me

anonymous asked:

Thoughts on the new gaming vid? They seemed so happy and cute and lighting has improved everything A++ ^_^

(faceapp)

  • 2 seconds in and i’m already shook i can’t believe this is real we are literally looking into their new house they are literally actually filming in a new HOUSE and it’s all just too much to process
  • phil sitting cross legged on the same old futon and fixing the tetris lights and balancing them and the pacman light on cardboard boxes is all too cute his enthusiasm is too much for me and dan definitely thinks it’s so cute too and this whole intro is just so soft
  • i love that phil owns up to the fact that this was his idea while dan is tryna go for his traditional ugh this is too stupid and vapid and too mainstream and not creative enough shtick. phil giving no fucks about a got damn quality threshold is my kink
  • when phil is attempting to take his neutral expression selfie and slightly pouts and he and dan giggle (i’m being generous w that term bc dan’s was more like a squawk tbh) at the exact same moment i just smiled so hard. they’re so cute. and they’re both apparently kind of uncomfortable w the notion of like trying to look sultry in photos which is why that pouty expression made them laugh immediately, and also is a good precursor to the whole discussion that comes later about phil’s ladybird selfie
  • dan’s look into the camera at 2:13 gave me lifeeeeee i like that he’s trying to shade phil for taking forever to get his fuckin selfie but instead he has this ever so subtle up tilt to his lips bc he can’t completely hide his smile ughaierjoaierj
  • omg underrated discussion in this video: at 2:26 once phil has finally succeeded in taking the selfie he turns to dan and says “i look alright there” but w the intonation of a question, like he’s literally asking dan for affirmation that he looks good and  not only that but he full on turns to look at dan and gauge his reaction and that felt so special and genuine to me??? like??? not a sort of thing i would expect to see tbh? and in general this video was obvi silly and just a bit of fun but also i thought the level of feedback they were giving each other on their photos and the way they were reacting was all so,,, warm and comfortable and surprisingly open. in this instance i’m also just frustrated bc dan was about to say something in response to phil asking dan if he looks alright, but he cuts himself off. he says ‘that’s an excep—’ and it def sounds like he was gonna say exceptional or exceptionally and i need to know what his thought was. i also like that the thought he interrupts himself with is about phil still having slight crazy eyes. we’ve talked about phil’s own explanation for his wide-eyed deer-in-headlights expressions in selfies a bit on this blog. according to him, he resorts to doing that bc having his photo taken makes him uncomfortable, so it was cute to me that dan noted that phil still did a little bit of the wide eyes without giving any context for why he was pointing it out bc it’s just an understood thing that they obvi have talked about a lot
  • 3:14 dan’s horrified and squeaky “what have they done to your face?” is so good. it’s just. so good. he sounds so outraged that they’ve fucked w phil’s face i lov it
  • 3:20 is the besttttttttt. this is the exchange where dan teases phil for being old and i love everything about it i love how dan made that comment without even thinking which sort of suggests that teasing phil for being old is just a regular/habitual thing and i love the way phil reacted bc it wasn’t rly irritated or even mock irritation in the end. instead he just played along w dan’s joke and accepted it and the whole exchange was so warmmmmmmm and comfortableeeeeee and flirtyyyyyyyyy and it reminds me of a few other comments that dan has made here and there that allude to their age gap and they’re always v cute and gentle teasing and it’s just so good
  • 3:42 they’re talking about the ‘old’ selfie and 1. dan is captivated and i can literally see him contemplating his future w phil lmao and 2. phil talking about joey graceffa and calling him good-looking w a blatant pause before he said that, making me wonder if he was going to use a word that was a bit more emphatic than “good-looking” either way i’m into it and then there’s a blatant jump cut and i’m wondering if they had a lil side conversation about joey being cute lol 3. phil is still looking at dan basically every time he makes a comment and it’s rly surprising but lovely 4. dan needed to come in w that compliment about old phil rocking current phil’s fringe and how cool he looks :) 
  • here’s dan howell caught right in the act of contemplating growing old w phil:
  • bless them for calling out how dumb the concept of a “female” filter is. also dan’s once again violent reaction to phil in the female filter is so cute and funny i love how incensed he is with the whole concept of anything being different about phil’s face
  • 5:36 dan looking at phil in the male filter and saying “you look so average” in such a disappointed tone is rly one of the best fucking things i’ve ever seen in my life. i’ve often thought about dan’s attraction to phil being based in some of the things that are most striking about his appearance. for example he always talks about how black phil’s hair is and how pale his skin is and back in the day he obvi left that infamous comment on phil’s dailybooth about how blue his eyes are and i feel like dan is probs drawn to these features that are just,,, extreme,,, and i love that even a slight change to phil’s jawline/face shape made dan think phil looked decidedly more average precisely bc what he loves about phil’s face are all the things that aren’t average at all!!!! i’m emotional!!
  • phil was so hype to see all of dan’s ones!!!! i’m crying!!!!! the way he was doing his hee-hee laughs and bouncing up and down quite literally and like hitting his hands on the table and saying things like i wanna be friends w him instead of you and ‘i wanna see old danny! old danny slice!!!’ like calm down mate!!!!! ur cute!!! we know u think dan is cute!!! y do u love every single version of him so much!!!! when he sees the old one he immediately says he likes it and compliments it!!!!! when he sees the old one on the daniel x dream pic he calls him cute!!!!!! and then makes this face at dan while dan looks at it!!!!!! 
  • help!!!!
  • dan talking about embracing makeup was amazing and phil being totally down with it and immediately suggesting a smoky eye look and consulting some tutorials was also amazing and i hope thats something they’ve discussed before tbh
  • dan @ manly dan: ‘i mean i would.’ nice. dancest is real and it’s right before our eyes ppl
  • 8:28 dan saying he hates his current profile picture was so surprising and lovely when he gave his reason—it doesn’t reflect his natural curls. i’m honestly so pleased to hear that he views the natural hair as such an important change for him that he wants his display pic (something we know he spends way too much time thinking about and therefore treats as an incredibly important thing) to reflect this shift
  • 9:05 ahhhh the controversial dan reactions to phil’s ladybird selfie. here’s the thing. i think when dan says it’s a “really cringe selfie” he’s talking about the discomfort they both feel about doing posed/sultry shots. he corrects himself after phil protests that it’s not cringe to saying it’s only slightly cringe instead of really cringe, and that he should’ve included an ironic (i hate dan’s use of the word ironic so much bc he often uses it when what he really means is “sarcastic” or, in this case, self-deprecating/humorous) caption. when phil then says that he did use a funny caption, dan basically entirely revokes his criticism and says that phil actually “nailed it” w the photo/caption combination. basically i think both of them get embarrassed about the idea of unabashedly posing in an attractive way for photos and since they’re so close dan feels that embarrassment for phil as well. i don’t think he was saying he actually dislikes the selfie or that phil looks bad or unattractive or anything negative about phil himself. the only comment i did find questionable was when he almost said that the smile filter was an improvement!!! it seemed weird when compared to how much he disliked all the alterations to phil’s face on the first picture lol but then he also made fun of it so i didn’t take it to mean that dan literally thought the filter is an improvement to phil’s real face, just that it was pretty remarkable how cleanly the filters worked on that particular selfie
  • overall: really liked this!!!!!!! such a good intro to the new office!!! such a warm and chill lil vid where they were mostly casual and just being so soft and flirty w each other and basically calling each other cute in creative ways whats not to love about that it was great
BTS Reaction - Their Crush Kissing Their Cheek And Calling Them Cute

Seokjin - You’d be standing just outside a coffee shop after he’d finished practice, relaxing and talking. Suddenly, he’d reach out and gently brush the corner of your mouth after noticing a crumb sitting there from the food you’d been eating. You’d flinch from his soft touch, not having expected it. Without thinking about it, you’d lean over and softly peck his cheek, calling him adorable for his gesture, hoping to catch him off guard. He’d blush furiously, cupping his face in his hands, unable to hide his smile. He’d try to play it cool but couldn’t help remembering the moment every time he saw you.

“I knew you found my cuteness irresistible” 

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Yoongi - He’d asked you to come to the studio with him, to check out something he’d been working on. The song that he plays is surprisingly soft and sweet, describing a typical love story within its lyrics. You’d noticed him blush slightly, probably embarrassed by the cheesiness of what he’d written. As he leaned in to turn it off, you’d dart forward and leave a soft kiss on his cheek, and remark about the cuteness of his blushing cheeks. He’d freeze, overwhelmed by the suddenness of what you did, before pulling down his cap to try to hide the small smile on his face from you.

“Hey, what did you do that for!?”

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Hoseok - You and him would be in the practice room after hours, a habit you had developed since you’d become their choreographer. You’d both become quite close, bonding over a shared love of dancing and often helped each other out. This time, you’d managed to forget to pick up a water bottle on your way over here, leaving feeling completely dehydrated. Hoseok would notice right away and would offer you a bottle of his own. Feeling touched, you wouldn’t be able to help giving him a small peck on the cheek, right below his eyes and complimenting him on his gentlemanly gesture. He’d get embarrassed but also flash you a grin and laugh.

“I should help you out more often if that’s the reward”

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Namjoon - He’d enthusiastically asked you to go with him on a spontaneous shopping trip one day, completely out of the blue. You’d gone along happily of course, wondering what he was so excited about. You weren’t sure if you were surprised or not when you both arrived outside the build-a-bear workshop, but seeing the absolutely ecstatic look on his face and you both walked through the doors brought up a giddy feeling of happiness inside you. After you’d finally built the perfect bear for each other, Namjoon decided to name the bear Ryan after the kakao friend character he loved so much. He grins in absolute delight at you, causing you to impulsively lean forward and press your lips to his cheek, just next to his mouth. After you pulled back, you commented on how adorable his grinning face was. He replied with another smile and gently pecked your nose with the snout of the new Ryan bear.

“Maybe we should do things like this a lot more”

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Jimin - You’d be waiting eagerly for your old friend Jimin at the airport, as he was due to return from his world tour. Bouncing on the balls of your feet, looking over the random assortment of people being greeted by friends and family. And then, finally, you would see a familiar head of hair making it’s way around the corner, followed by 6 more. His face would light up when he saw you, his face breaking out into the friendly, familiar grin you had missed so much. Dropping his luggage for the others to pick up, he’d run towards you and immediately pull you into a hug, hidden from fans by the swarm of people in the area. Overwhelmed from happiness from seeing his face again, you’d clasp his face in your hands and excitedly kiss his soft cheek, and compliment him on how cute his bare-face was. He’d laugh, looking down at his feet to avoid eye contact from embarrassment but he’d compose himself quickly and pout, putting on a cute face.

“Why on the cheek? Aren’t my lips good enough for you?”

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Taehyung - Due to his recent interest in photography, he’d go on long walks around wherever he was, taking photos and working to improve his style. Once he’d realised his feelings for you, he would offer you the chance to go with him, one you would take him up on eagerly. While on one of these walks, he’d suddenly turn the camera on you, taking picture after picture from all sorts of angles while you laughed and attempted to cover your face. He’d suggest taking a picture of the two of you, and while he was finding the perfect pose for it, you’d quickly turn your head and peck his cheek, just as the camera flashed, causing his eyes to widen in pleasant surprise. The blush in his cheeks would only appear once you commented on how cute he was being that day, prompting him to give you a swift kiss on the cheek in return and a happy grin on his face the whole way home.

“I’m keeping this picture, so I can remember today”

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Jungkook - You were his stylist, someone who’d often get close to him in order to do your job, and it was because of them he’d started noticing things about you that made his heart thud in his chest and his mouth bone dry. And then, one time, as you were gently applying blush to his cheeks, he’d suddenly burst out how pretty he thought you were, only to immediately stare wide-eyed at you, waiting for a response. You’d smile, not able to help that that you found his sweet shyness endearing. You quickly leaned forward, gave him a swift kiss on the cheek and told him you loved his cuteness, causing him to lose his train of thought completely and stare blankly up at you. After a couple of seconds, he cleared his throat and thanked you, smiling with embarrassment while you laughed.

“Well, that makes me feel a bit better”

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smile || kim taehyung

Kim Taehyung x reader

Summary: You and Tae play around with his camera in the garden, and getting him to smile for a photo is more difficult than you might think.

Genre: fluff

Words: 1370

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“Smile!” Taehyung said, grinning as he held up the camera, peering into the view finder. I rolled my eyes, but couldn’t stop the smile that spread across my face anyway.

We were in our garden, where we had laid out a picnic lunch on the grass. Unfortunately, the flowers blooming along the edge of the wall in the height of summer attracted a multitude of terrifying, buzzing insects, so our romantic picnic became less eating and kissing, and more flapping and shrieking.

My smile dropped suddenly as a large bumblebee flew directly towards my face. I screamed, ducking violently to prevent it from getting caught in my hair, and waited for it to fly by before lifting up my head again, only to find my boyfriend cackling on the floor, clutching the camera to his chest.

“You.. have to see the photo I just got.” He giggled, sitting back up and showing me the screen. I blocked the light with my hand to see it better and was greeted with an unattractive shot of me mid scream, the top of my head blurry as I began my panicked descent away from the massive insect. I began to hit Tae on the shoulder as he chuckled loudly, but couldn’t stop my own laughter from bubbling out at the ridiculous photo.

“Don’t be so rude!” I exclaimed, hitting him again as we both continued to laugh. He began to zoom in on the photo, still laughing. Dodging a collision with another bee, I managed to snatch the camera out of his hands, ignoring his whines of protest. “My turn.”

I lifted the camera to my eye and focused on the pouty expression he was making at his camera being taken away. I snapped a photo of him, and smiled at the colourful flowers in the background of the photo.

“Come on baby, smile.” I teased, and he shook his head, his acting skills coming out as he pretended to be angry.

“I will not. Not for people who steal my camera.” He said stubbornly, crossing his arms.

“I know you want to, Vante.” I teased, my grin widening. He narrowed his eyes at the nickname, but I could see he was trying not to smile, the corners of his lips wavering. My determination to capture a photo of him smiling increased as his face remained straight. “Okay then, I’ll just have to make you smile.” His eyes widened.

“Oh no, Y/N, please no jokes. I get enough from Jin already.” He begged, but I already had one lined up.

“What time did the man go to the dentist?” I asked, ignoring his pleas. He leant back on his arms warily. A laugh was already leaving my lips as I said the answer. “Tooth-hurty.” I laughed, clapping my hands together, but frowning as his mouth did not even twitch.

“Did you hear about the fire at the circus?” I asked, smiling, and he gave me a bored look. He sighed, shaking his head as he waved away a fly buzzing around his head.

“No.”

“I heard it was in tents.” I said, laughing, and I saw his lips purse and his eyes crease as he attempted not to laugh, my camera ready. However, he composed himself before I could get a photo, much to my irritation. “Come on, that was good.” I whined, lowering it to look at him.

“Can I have my camera back now?” He asked, reaching for it and frowning as I lifted it out of his reach. He leant forward, his head resting on my arm as he strained to reach it. “Y/N pleaaassee.” He whined and peered up at me, his brown eyes wide and innocent, but I knew better than to fall for them.

“Not until you smile.” I replied, grinning, and he sighed, moving back into a sitting position.

“Okay, I will.” He gave in, and I lifted up the camera hopefully. But it was lowered immediately as he pulled a stupid face, his mouth stretching into a hilariously comical smile and his eyes widening. I gave him a blank look and he shrugged. “You told me to smile.”

“I meant a real smile.” I whined, pouting down at the camera for a moment before an idea came to me. I continued to scroll through photos, waiting for the right moment before taking advantage of his gullible nature and widening my eyes, pointing behind him.

“Wow, look how big that bee is!” I exclaimed, and to my joy he turned his head. I leaned my head closer to his, the camera ready in my other hand.

“What, where?” He asked, searching behind him. “There isn’t a bee th-“

As he turned his head back I caught his mouth in my own, pressing my lips against his firmly. He made a noise of surprise and stayed still for a moment before leaning in and returning the kiss. As soon as I pulled away I lifted the camera and took several photos. Sure enough, he had a shy smile on his face as he giggled, and a grin spread across my own face at how cute he was.

“Y/N!” He exclaimed, smiling wide and reaching over to playfully hit me on the leg. “Not fair!”

I ignored him, focused on the photo I had just taken. My smile widened as I took it in; it was perfect. Tae’s pale blue shirt made his tanned skin stand out and his golden hair fell perfectly ruffled by the soft breeze in the garden. The flowers created a colourful background and the portion of sky visible was a bright blue. The photo was colourful and well framed but what I couldn’t take my eyes off was him. His mouth was wide in a boxy smile, his teeth visible and his cheeks pulled upwards, his eyes in two crescents as they looked at me from behind the camera. He looked absolutely radiant. I looked up at him to find him watching me with a softer smile on his face.

I put the camera down and shuffled towards him, leaning forward to press my lips against his again, this time gently and slowly. His hands came to rest on my waist and I smiled against his lips.

“You’re beautiful.” I whispered, opening my eyes to take him in, our noses brushing. The smile that overtook his face at my words was just as bright as the one in the photo, and I marvelled at the sight. He laughed and brought his hands to skim my cheeks.

“Not as beautiful as you.” He said, and I blushed, smiling widely and giggling at the pair of us.

“You can have your camera back now,” I said happily, picking it up and passing it back to him, “but I’ll need you to send me one of the photos.”

And that’s the photo that I clutched in my hands a month later as I watched him board his flight for tour, tears slipping down my cheeks. Of course, the photo that he insisted on taking with him was the one of me escaping the bee, claiming it made him happy and made him laugh, and so he would need it on tour when he was sad or when he missed me.

He gave me one final wave before disappearing into security, and I looked down at the photo. It was slightly bent but still just as radiant and bright as the day we took it. The colours in the picture stood out against the grey of the airport floor. His smile shone out at me and I couldn’t help but to smile back, his grin infectious even when on paper.

The photo remained with me always, even when he was back home. It stayed in my purse or my pocket or my bag; wherever I could keep it closest to me. On the days where I missed Taehyung, or when we were fighting, I would take it out and look at it. Through whatever argument or distance, it was kept as a constant reminder of how lucky I was to have him, and to love him.


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Anders als die Andern is a German silent film released in 1919. It is the very first film to show homosexuality in a sympathetic light. It portrays the suffering that gays endured during the time in Germany when homosexuality was outlawed. It is notable for including photos of real lesbians, transgender men and women, and gay men from that time period, as well as showing real gay couples dancing in a bar scene. Nazis attempted to destroy all copies of the film in the 1930s, so much of it is lost, but what remains can be viewed online, with the plot summarized.

Reticent - Ch.1

Do Kyungsoo/Reader
Word Count: 1,265


You’d known him for a while. Since your first year in university to be exact. You couldn’t really call him a friend though, an acquaintance was more appropriate perhaps.

You were in the same group of friends, occasionally shared the same nights out, but you rarely spoke more than the basic pleasantries to each other, the trivial catch ups of people simply aware of each other’s existence and put in the same place. There was always a feeling of content between the two of you, you were happy with where your relationship was - in a pleasant plane of distant familiarity.

Few things last forever though and this was not meant to be one of them.

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I…kinda like this one? It’s my first time attempting, like, painted skin. I can see a lot of problems (as usual!) but it came out better than I expected. I don’t know what I’m doing with paint tools though.

The notes in the background are from photos I took of Holtzmann’s lab at Madame Tussaud’s.

Anyway, this was inspired by the amazing poem that @amberrockstar wrote for the Ghostbusters zine, which is getting a little further along every day.

So what do you think, good experiment or bad experiment?

My Calgary Expo Experience

Okay guys so I’m still kind of dying. Today (probably yesterday by the time this goes up) was kind of amazing and I can’t believe that I met Bob Morley BUT I’M GOING TO ATTEMPT TO SHARE THE AWESOMENESS WITH YOU ALL.

Apparently recap posts about cons are a thing and I still can’t believe that I actually have reason to write one!!

I only decided to go on the Sunday because I could fit in the photo op, autograph signing, and panel all in one day so I felt that it was a good option, so I don’t know much about anything that happened on any of the other days.

It was sooo incredible. Bob is just … wow. 

He just has the most adorable personality. And we all probably know this because you don’t need to meet him to be able to tell but he really does. As my friend who was with me likes to say, he’s all “soft and squish” hahahaha.

I was so so so nervous when we first walked into the autograph line (which was not very long at all because we came on the last day, and we also came early) and we were, like, two feet away from him because the line looped around. It was so weird. I still can’t believe that I was that close to him, let alone actually TALKED to him, and TOUCHED him. 

Also I’m about 99% sure that I saw Robyn from the Afictionados podcast in the line ahead of me because she has a very distinctive voice and I heard her mention Unity Days but I was too shy to talk to her and I wasn’t 100% it was her until later but anyway SHOUTOUT TO ROBYN IF YOU’RE READING THIS WHICH YOU PROBABLY AREN’T BUT IN THE UNLIKELY EVENT YOU ARE JUST KNOW THAT I REALLY LIKE YOUR PODCAST AND I’M REALLY AWKWARD SO I DIDN’T TELL YOU IN PERSON

anyway ..

Bob is just amazing because he was out in front of his table instead of behind it like basically all the other guests. It was really neat, he’s very interactive with the fans and likes to be very personal with everyone. He shook everyone’s hand that came to get an autograph and introduced himself (AS IF I DON’T KNOW WHO YOU ARE) and asked how we were doing and he was just so polite and cute and ugghh. I’ve never been to a con before but my friend was telling me how usually the autograph signing is very quick and they get you in and out of there very fast but Bob was so sweet and generous and took his time with everyone, actually attempting to have a real conversation with the fans. 

The people before us were taking a video of him which is prohibited apparently and the security guy there was getting mad at them but Bob was like “oh, I don’t mind …” and he looked kind of uncomfortable (about the security guy, not the fans). 

He shaved his beard the night before and my friend was hEARTBROKEN because she LOVED it, haha. I think he looks nice either way, but I kind of prefer him cleanshaven so I was happy. HE PLAYS WITH HIS HAIR SO MUCH. And I swear that boy has an entire closet dedicated just to his various hats, its like every time I saw him he was wearing a different one.

My friend was a little starstruck so I ended up doing a lot of the conversation, but honestly I barely processed most of what he was saying. I mentioned that Zach talked about filming a movie with him at a recent con and asked him if he could share a little bit about it. He laughed and said that he was surprised Zach had said anything because they were supposed to be secretive about it so he didn’t really say anything more than what I already knew. He talked about how he was going to be filming in Malaysia pretty soon (which I already knew cause i’m extra lol) and how he hadn’t spent a whole lot of time prepping for the role so he needed to do some of that beforehand. It was fine that he couldn’t say much about it though because I was mostly just trying to keep the conversation going so I didn’t spontaneously combust and/or faint in his arms … you know, the usual.

My friend was dressed up as Season 2 Octavia (with the warpaint) and I had a really crappy cosplay of Season 1 Clarke going on hahahaha. Basically I couldn’t find a jacket (and i have no idea how to make one) so I just had like the shirt and the watch and the hair and stuff so it wasn’t anything special. Most people probably thought I wasn’t dressed up at all. When I walked up to Bob he went “WOW that’s a big watch” cause my wrists are really tiny I guess haha. I don’t really know if he knew if I was Clarke or not. 

He started both of our autographs with “Dearest [name]” instead of just “Dear” or writing only our names, which I thought was adorable. It’s such a Bob thing to do - or at least something I would expect from him. He also put two x’s at the end.

I didn’t end up getting anything special signed because I couldn’t think of anything super creative, so I just chose one of their prints instead. They were nice though. 

When he saw my friend’s print that she’d chosen he went “wow I was so tan” and I kind of laughed because he’s still really tan and his skin is so nice haha, but meanwhile I’m white as hell and can’t tan for the life of me

Then we both took photos with him. I always see people talking about Bob smelling really nice and I was like “okay” because I don’t tend to talk about how people smell BUT HE ACTUALLY DOES OKAY. lol I know that seems weird, I don’t know how to describe the smell but its a thing, guys, all right?

Afterwards we looked around a bit at the convention and waited to head to Bob’s panel at 12:00. I ran into a few friends who I haven’t seen in awhile which was kind of nice. It was super packed. There were a lot more people who showed up to see Bob than I was expecting, but it was nice to see so many people coming together. :) The panel was 45 minutes but it went by soooooooo fast. The moderator kept asking Bob to expand on his questions basically, which ended up eating up a lot of time so I didn’t get to ask the question about Jasper and Bellamy that I wanted to, which was kind of disappointing. 

I was being so extra though, waving my hand in the hair and everything, trying to get her attention. I made eye contact with Bob because he saw me but then the woman picked someone else and it was really sad lol. I raised my hand EVERY SINGLE TIME. But I was ignored. 

*sigh*

NEXT TIME.

They were really strict about there being no videos so I couldn’t really get any, which is unfortunate, and I wasn’t close enough to get very good quality photos so I won’t post any of them here. If you have any questions about some things people are spreading about the panel or want confirmation about some stuff Bob said, just hit me up and I’ll hopefully clear some things for you because I know that the truth often gets skewed a little at conventions. Its like the fandom is playing a little game of telephone, except online.

Bob is soooo cute and endearing and funny, so I really enjoyed the panel. I know a lot of people have been posting about stuff that Bob but I’ll point out the stuff I remember anyway

  • Someone asked Bob was his favourite episode/scene was and Bob said that his favourite episode is yet to air, and that it really delves into Bellamy’s “psyche”, which he liked, so I’m super excited to see that. I do wonder if he’s referring to 4x10, actually, since the promo seems pretty Bellamy heavy and it’s written by Aaron who tends to write Bellamy pretty well, I think. We’ll see!
  • There’s a video of the Bellarke question going around which, to be perfectly honest, isn’t much different from anything else that he’s said. He apparently ~ doesn’t know ~ if they’ll go the romantic path but he believes that they have a very “special relationship” that is deeper than any romance. It’s not in the video that I’ve seen going around but he also said that Bellamy and Clarke have a certain understanding and honesty which he believes is definitely a good place to start to build a relationship on, if they were planning on going that route.
  • He said something that I really haven’t seen talked about at all, but both I and my friend thought was a little odd when we heard it. I think the question was asking what scenes with Bellamy were most difficult or something like that but he said “the romantic side I find very hard to play”, which I thought was kind of interesting because Bellamy hasn’t really had any romantic partners besides Gina very very briefly. Idk if that’s who he was referring to? *side eyes emoji* Take it with a grain of salt in any case.
  • Bob joked about how Bellamy gets beat up so often because he’s “been told that [Bob] sells hits really well” lol. He also said that he maybe takes punches a little too well because when Octavia was beating him up in 3x10 he got too into it and accidentally fell through the wall of the set and broke it.
  • The moderator pointed out that it’s remarkable how well some characters have recovered from being impaled and he made a cheeky little comment about how “it’s science guys!” because we all know just how accurate the science on this show is hahaha
  • Someone asked Bob how he and Bellamy are similar and he responded by saying that he was loyal to his family and that the similarities “start and finish there”. He talked about how Bellamy is so much more aggressive than he is and how he wouldn’t go around killing people. The moderator then asked him if he thought he would ever be capable of doing something like that and Bob went “NOOOOOOOO! I don’t have that in me, its ACTING!”. He sounded so offended, it was really funny, especially since Bob is so cute and pure so it just sounded bizarre when she asked that.
  • Apparently during the scene where Pike sentences Kane to death Mike Beach and Henry Ian Cusick had a solid 15 minute argument about whose side Bellamy should be on and Bob just decided to leave the room after awhile. Bob was just like “okay I’m just going to walk out and you two can decide which one of you is my dad”.
  • Bob enjoys doing fight scenes “because its always kind of exciting to feel like you’re tough, even though you’re not” (he laughed after he said that) and he also enjoyed doing the Bellamy speeches because he thought that they felt cool and kind of empowering to feel like you have the power to actually influence someone else, since there aren’t many opportunities for that in real life.
  • Since he likes fight scenes, he joked about how he always would ask “can’t I at least try and put up a fight”  and he also said that Bellamy tends to take more beatings than he gives now because Bellamy feels like he deserves to be beaten up for what he’s done.
  • In the scene where he found out that Octavia “died” apparently Bob went full out and was banging his head against the bars and actually got a cut all along his forehead because he was so into it.
  • He was asked if it ever hurt his vocal cords to talk so low in Bellamy’s voice and he joked that it’s painful when he has to scream all the time at such a low octave. He also talked about why Bellamy’s voice was so low, because he was really hungover when they shot the Pilot and when he saw the video he went back and was really surprised and he just kind of had to roll with it from there on out. I’ve heard that story before but it was cool to hear Bob talk about it in person.
  • I know we all love to talk about the drastic difference in pitch between Bellamy and Bob’s voice but I’m telling you that its something else to hear it in person instead of just in a video. The change is SO dramatic.
  • One time when Bellamy had to do a big speech in Season 1, Bob had a really bad cold and he couldn’t speak properly so he was kind of screeching and messing up and he said it was really “embarassing” and so frustrating that he actually started to cry. The whole crowd went “aWWWWWwwwWWWWW” when he said that and he was like “yeah, yeah, I know, I know” all bashful and it was really cute.
  • He talked about how he would rather be judged for his “content” versus his physique and he said “maybe its not even me to feel that way” which made me sad, and then he said that he now recognizes that being judged for his appearance comes with the job sometimes.
  • Bob says that he likes polarizing the audience but that some people on social media can’t seem to separate him from Bellamy and he joked about all these people who meet him and are just like “I hate your character but, you know, you’re okay” and I was honestly like WHO DO I HAVE TO FIGHT COME AT ME
  • If he could bring back anyone he said he would bring back Pike and someone yelled “WHYYYY????” and Bob talked about how he caused lots of chaos and whatnot which was interesting, to which the mod was like “they already have enough chaos” and then Bob responded with “what’s wrong with a little chaos?” and I died. nOT like that’s one of the most iconic lines of Season 1 or anything ..
  • He also said he thought bringing Finn back would be interesting because “his moral compass is very different from Clarke and Bellamy’s” 
  • When he was a kid he wanted to be a stuntman and he would bite into ceramic plates because he thought that’s what they did, lol. Bob just went, “SO stupid” after he described it haha
  • I CAN’T BELIEVE I FORGOT. He joked a ton about his hair and how the apocalypse is great for the characters’ hair. He talked about how the hair team is great and how Bellamy has “great hair game” in Season 4, but that all seems to change after Bob finishes filming and he doesn’t really do anything with it. He’s very self-deprecating
  • Bob says that when he struggles in getting into Bellamy’s headspace a lot of the time he just starts thinking about lunch because that’s what Mike Beach told him to do, hahahahaha. He also talked about how there’s “a lot of stupid stuff” going around in Bellamy’s head a lot of the time.
  • He said that he likes to do rock climbing, but a lot of the time he just ends up playing video games instead.
  • He finds Octavia and Bellamy’s storyline together this season “heartbreaking”.
  • He says his scenes with Eliza are “always really great” because they’re very “emotional” and he gets to cry lol
  • Apparently Bob is like one of two people who actually knows how to drive the rover because its stick shift and its “impossible”.
  • One girl that was picked said “sorry” and Bob was like “what are you apologizing for?” and the moderator was like “it’s the Canadian way” or something along those lines but the girl was just like “cause I’m so awkward” and the whole time i was thinking girl SAME i feel you
  • Bob says playing Bellamy has changed his real voice. He thinks his voice has “dropped down because of it” even when he’s not playing Bellamy.
  • Bob said that one of his friends tried to get him to compete in a smashbrothers competition and he went but he said it was really intense so he was like “no, no, no, I’m going to stay home and be the king of my own house”
  • Bob doesn’t like sitting behind the table when signing autographs because he “feels weird” about it and enjoys interacting with fans because he feels that social media is really “devoid of connection” and he’s “just a normal person” like the rest of us, which was sweet. <3
  • Bob says that “I’m very loving but I’m very pragmatic” when referring to Bellamy (not himself)
  • Bob loves Bellamy soo much and he is super protective of him (like us!). He says that when people don’t like Bellamy sometimes he’s just like “oh well let’s talk about this, maybe I can talk you around” but it doesn’t usually work haha
  • He said that he went to a play in Australia because William Mcinnes, who he really loves, was in it but he didn’t know what it was about and it turned out be about IVF treatment lol and he was like “yeah that was kinda weird […] maybe I should have read the plot first …”

After the panel we looked around at all the merchandise but there was barely anything for The 100, which wasn’t all that surprising. I honestly didn’t expect to find anything, but we stumbled completely by accident onto this jewelry stand and we saw one necklace for The 100 and started freaking out because we couldn’t find any The 100 merch ANYWHERE and the lady heard us and told us that she sold stuff at Unity Days so she’d designed an entire jewelry line for The 100 and showed us her collection.

It was so awesome. She makes all these neat little themed charm bracelets for all shows, so there was one for Lost, and OUAT and Supernatural and all that, which was nice but she had a whole COLLECTION for The 100, with themed bracelets for almost all the individual characters. I remember seeing something similar online, maybe even the same ones, and had told my friend earlier that I thought they were cool.

I DEFINITELY wasn’t expecting to actually find them. 

My friend bought the Bellamy one and I bought the Raven one, because I personally thought that the Raven one was more true to the character than the other one (but they were both really cute!). I’m not one for fandom merch so it was kind of exciting for me to buy something. 

Here’s a pic of my Raven bracelet: 

And here’s my friends Bellamy bracelet:

Later we went to go get our photo ops with Bob, which we did individually. It was very fast-paced so we didn’t get to spend much time with him or anything but I was actually surprisingly relaxed and calm the second time I saw him? Idk he’s just so humble and down-to-earth and he really makes you feel comfortable around him, so I wasn’t nearly as nervous as I was earlier. 

When he saw my friend and I he was just like “hello again” and I thought it was cute that he remembered us, after meeting hundreds of individual people!

I just took a regular photo with him, no special poses or anything, because I felt weird asking for anything different. But to be honest I wish that I asked him for a hug, because I saw a girl go before us who did and her photo ended up looking REALLY good and now I’m super jealous, dammit. 

NEXT TIME. 

(I feel like I’m making a lot of promises to myself in this post, hmmmmmm)

Anyways, after we got the photo he turned to me and said “thank you!” and I was just thinking WHY ARE YOU THANKING ME??? YOU JUST MADE MY ENTIRE EXISTENCE, THANK YOU!

So that was my experience seeing Bob. I’m so far from over it and just looking at the pictures makes me feel all light and happy. He’s such a great person and you can tell that he’s not just putting an act or a show for the benefit of his fans, he’s truly genuine! 

Now I know what people mean when they talk about how after they meet some of the cast, they just want to do it again the next day. I’ve got the con fever, I want to go to another one so bad (but of course I’m infinitely grateful that I got to see him in person at all, because it was such an incredible experience)! Bob is so sweet and adorable and KIND (like I’ve reiterated half a million times) and deserves everything amazing in the world, I don’t know make the rules, k?

And there’s just something so … amazing about cons. No one there is judging you, everyone there is a shameless nerd as well, haha, and its such a safe space for fans to go and meet celebrities, guests, and each other. Whenever my friend and I saw anyone wearing The 100 merch or cosplaying as someone from The 100, we always got so excited. Because there are ACTUAL REAL PHYSICAL people in front of us who are just as obsessed as we are, and you don’t get that connection through TV. Everyone is so friendly and accepting, complimenting each other’s costumes and whatnot. The community is just amazing

Here’s hoping that I get to experience this again, and that any of you who haven’t yet get to as well! Everyone deserves to go to a con and have as much fun as I did. :)

Not sure if I’m going to post my photos with him because I’m really weird about posting photos of myself on the internet. I guess I’m just paranoid that someone I know will stumble across it, or my fandom days will come back to haunt me in twenty years or so and someone will pull up my photograph and my account with my dramatic ass screaming about Bellarke and Bellamy Blake and all that and judge me for the rest of my life. We’ll see. Maybe BFSN??

I’ll consider it. ;)

anonymous asked:

You can't tell me that Wilford didn't attempt to get everyone on board for a photo shoot calendar only to be rapidly shot down on that idea.

Keep in mind that these are Mark’s Egos here. I can only think that maybe Host wouldn’t be down for it, but all the others would jump all over that idea, even Dark if he thought there would be something to be gained by it. Oh my goodness, can you imagine a “Sexy Ego” calendar with a different Ego for each month? Like as actual merch for a charity livestream? You’d raise a million dollars in no time haha *shouts into the void* Hey, Mark! Take notes!

anonymous asked:

Can you do 1, 8, 15, 16? Lovee you

1. “If you had asked me to stay, I would’ve.”

8. “Go to hell.”

15. “It doesn’t matter. You’ve moved on and I have to be okay with that.”

16. “Do you wish things had happened differently?”

LOL ANON ASKING FOR SOME SERIOUS ANGST. BUCKLE UP KIDS. SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG BUT IT’S 2100 WORDS I GOT CARRIED AWAY. ENJOY.

IT’S BLURB NIGHT BITCHES


Four months was a long time. The seasons had changed from the bitter dry cold of January to the damp mildness of April. I thought the warmth might make things better, but the melting of snow just revealed the dead grass underneath, the litter that had piled up and been hidden by the white of winter. Things were the same.

We’d broken up on New Year’s Day. New Year’s Eve was a confusing blur of overwhelming crowds and saying the wrong thing and missing the midnight kiss. I was crying on a curb when the ball dropped. I don’t know where Shawn was. The next morning we met up at a small coffee shop and he broke up with me in the corner booth, by the window. We’d drifted apart, he claimed. Neither of us felt the same way we did when we started going out three years earlier. We had to grow up. He had to focus on his music, I had to focus on school. Or so he told me. I wasn’t really listening though. I was stuck wondering when he’d figured this all out. Was there a specific moment he realized he didn’t love me anymore? Did he wake up in a cold sweat wondering why he was still sleeping beside me? Surely he’d dwelled on this decision for a while, so when did he come to a conclusion? How many times did he look me in the eye and tell me he loved me since realizing he didn’t anymore? Four months later and I was still dwelling on that.

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Teacher: yeah let’s do some hybird animals! It’ll be good practice with proper Photoshop techniques and I’m sure it’ll produce some funny-

Me:

Teacher: do you have a lot of nightmares

How Introvertive Writers Who Would Rather Bury Their Writing in a Swamp Than Share it With Other Human Beings Can Start a Blog

               If you’re like me, writing is an incredibly personal experience. You hide in your room in the middle of the night and create imaginary worlds that you’re not sure anyone else will ever understand. The idea of sharing these things online where the entire world can see them can be completely terrifying.

               So, when I heard that writers are encouraged to have blogs in order to “get your name out there” and “develop your brand” I did what any self-respecting introvert writer would do: I decided that I would keep writing in my room and hope that after I died someone would find my work and publish it. That’s a valid approach, right? I mean, it worked for Emily Dickinson!

               Yet as the weeks went on, this nagging feeling kept bugging me. It was the impending feeling of regret. If I don’t at least try to do this, will I always wonder what would have happened if I did? There was part of me that knew I would regret it if I did not at least try to take my writing further. Though, I might be an introvert, I am not one to step away from a challenge. I decided to dip my toe into this, taking the smallest baby steps I could possibly come up with, so that I could psychologically adjust to the idea of putting my writing online. Here are some of the teeny tiny steps I followed to start my blog. I decided to share this in case anyone else out there is as freaked out as I was and might need a little help.

Week 1: Look at different blog sites -  That’s a pretty safe step for an introvert. You don’t have to talk to anyone, write anything, or interact with any other human beings. Just look around at sites and decide which one looks like it might fit your style.

Week 2: Create an account on the site you chose – At this point, you will have to create a user name, but remember you don’t have to use your real name if you don’t want to. If you’re worried that future employers or unaccepting acquaintances might be weirded out by the bizarre stuff you write, use a name that will make it difficult to find you. One of the biggest reliefs to me was when I realized that I didn’t have to share my writing with anyone if I didn’t want to. There’s a reason that authors having been writing under pen names since publishing was invented.

Week 3: Format your page -  Look at different templates and choose an initial design that you want to use. Most likely this will change later as your blog develops, so you don’t need to overthink this. You will probably want to add a profile picture, but remember that it does not need to be an actual photo. If you want to use a picture of a unicorn eating a doughnut, go right ahead!

Week 4: Read other blogs and think about what you want to write – If you are a very reclusive person, I would advise you to not interact with anyone at this time. Just look around and think. After all, that’s what people like us do best. Read for a while without talking to people, following anyone, messaging, etc. Just read and think. If you feel like you don’t need to do this, then by all means feel free to go to the next step, but if you’re terrified of putting your work online, you will likely be grateful to have the opportunity to procrastinate for a week.

Weeks 5-8: Write a bunch of random stuff that you might want to post one day, but don’t post any of it – At this point, none of your attempts should leave the hard drive of your computer. You’re just playing around. Write whatever you want. Make it ridiculous. Make it one sentence. Ramble on and on about whatever you feel like. Just write stuff and see if you can come up with a theme for your blog. Whenever you write something you actually want to use, move it to a separate folder to consider posting later.

Weeks 9 -12: Post one of your blog attempts each week– OK, this is the most terrifying part, but here’s why you can feel comfortable doing this: If you actually followed my advice and didn’t follow anyone or interact with people, there’s a good chance that no one will see it! Isn’t that wonderful? Yes, you do need to remember that nothing is ever truly erased from the internet, so don’t write anything incredibly revealing or post nude photos or something, but nobody will care if you just post a bunch of crappy blog attempts. Put some stuff out there that you don’t mind having on your anonymous page. Over these four weeks you can delete things, change them, move stuff around, and get your page to the point that you don’t mind if someone on the other side of the world reads it. With any luck, it will also reflect your work and the kinds of things you like to create.

Weeks 13: Start following people – By now, hopefully you should be feeling alright about your page. You’ve played around with it and gotten a couple decent things posted. It may not be the most refined page on the internet, but who cares? You have something up that represents you as a writer and hopefully you’ve gotten it to the point that you won’t mind if some stranger you will never meet sees it. Start following some people who have pages you like. Don’t be surprised if they don’t follow you back, but occasionally someone will. While you’re at it, go ahead and get another post up for this week.

Week 14: Comment on some posts – Is there a post you read that really moved you? Why not say so? Go ahead and leave some comments here and there to interact with people. One of the great things about being a writer is that other writers are usually as introvertive and strange as you are. If someone wrote something you can really relate to, go ahead and tell them! Remember, you don’t have to ever talk to them again if you don’t want. Oh yeah, and don’t forget to write another post! (Even one sentence is fine.)

Week 15: Muster up all your strength and message someone – Is there a blog that really inspires you, or someone you would like to get advice from? Go ahead and send a message telling them how much they inspire you, or ask for advice if you want it. Unless you’re writing to someone with a ridiculously popular blog, most people will write back. Believe it or not, the majority of writers are actually pretty friendly and encouraging. (If you need somewhere to start, feel free to send me a message. I promise to reply and you are under no obligation to ever talk to me again. Just know that I take a week or two to respond.) Then of course you need to put up another post for this week.

Week 16: Keep doing what you’ve been doing since week 9: Guess what? You’re blogging! By now you’re posting every week, following people, commenting on other’s posts and messaging people. If you keep doing that, you will grow your blog. You may have even gotten a follower or two! If you miss a week, don’t give up or freak out, just come back to it when you get a chance and keep going. (As I’m getting ready to post this, I realized I haven’t written anything new on here for two weeks. But you know what? Life goes on, and at least I’m getting something posted now.)

          Now, if you’re feeling incredibly bold, you might actually have a close friend or relative in the real world that you’re willing to tell about your newly formed blog. But if you don’t want to, don’t worry about it. You’ve created a place that is safe for you to experiment with your writing and you can make it as private or as public as you feel comfortable. Blogging doesn’t have to be an incredibly public experience that everyone in your life knows about. With a little discretion, you can keep your page a safe place to share your thoughts and you can retain your sanity as an introvertive writer.

Found this old photo the other day and I thought I’d do a bit of a comparison from then and now. I wish I hadn’t attempted to dye my hair ginger and get it cut like Hayley Williams, I did not suit it at all and I don’t know why I thought it looked good. At least I don’t dye my hair myself now and my makeup is kind of okay now (at least I think I know what I’m doing and I actually have eyebrows now?) and I somewhat know how to dress myself properly now. A lot has changed since this photo was taken and I can’t believe that I was 16 in that photo

Yes - A Harry Styles Mini Series Part 15

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Part 14

Over the next few days, you’d been on tour with Harry. You were having the best time and you were feeling great, however, it made you realize how much you missed touring yourself. You had been working on some songs and had a bit of studio time, but it wasn’t your main priority at the moment. As far as your hormone issues, they’ve scaled back a little. You didn’t get as annoyed with Harry, which sort of bummed him out because he thought your little outbursts were adorable. 

During the shows, you were sat on the side of the stage. Every time Harry started singing, the little baby in your tummy would start kicking away. The traveling in between shows wasn’t the most ideal, but you would rather be a little uncomfortable than be thousands of miles away from Harry. Another thing with touring is that your picture was out there more and more with fans seeing you at the show or walking into and out of the venue. 

It seemed like everyday people were talking about you being pregnant. You and Harry still made no comment on the matter even when you two got bombarded with questions leaving a restaurant in Vegas when Harry was there for the IHeartRadio Festival. The thing is you were showing heavily nowadays and it was quite obvious that you were pregnant and not just that you’ d gained weight, but people still needed the confirmation or whatever. 

Even though you two hadn’t said anything about it publicly, there were a quite a few people who “confirmed” it and were saying horrible things about it. Some were saying it was fake and you were just gaining weight to make all this speculation. Then there were some who were saying you purposely got pregnant to be with Harry again. Normally that shit would bother you because you were used to it since you’d been in the business for years, but having your hormones be all over the place didn’t help. 

Harry would always take your phone out of your hands and throw it to the side. He would tell you to ignore it and that it wasn’t true. He would hold you and rub your belly while you calmed down. You were now in New York for his show at Radio City. It was weird to think how the last time you were here was when you and Harry first got back together. 

That night seemed so long ago, yet it was only about seven months ago. You were in Harry’s NYC apartment for a night in. You had thought about going out for dinner, but you weren’t feeling well, so Harry ordered a bunch of take-out food. 

“Since we’re in NYC, I’ve been thinking about something,” Harry said. 

“And what’s that?” you asked. 

“We should do some pregnancy photos here,” he smirked. “You know since this is the city that brought us together and essentially put a baby in your belly.” 

“Oh my god,” you groaned throwing your fork down. “We’re not doing that! What are we going to do, go back to the hotel room I was in and just take pictures there?” 

“What? No,” he laughed. “I was thinking of Central Park or something. Somewhere nice.” 

“How do you purpose we take photos in Central Park without attracting attention?” You asked. 

“We’d figured it out,” he shrugged.

“Do we really need to take photos though?” you sighed. 

“I thought you wanted to take some?” He asked. 

“I did,” you sighed. “But I just feel blah… I don’t want to see myself looking like shit.” 

“You don’t look like shit,” he said. “And even if you did, you’d look like the hottest and sexiest shit I’ve ever seen.” 

“Good attempt, but no, just no,” you laughed. 

“I tried,” he laughed. “But if you don’t want to take pictures, that’s okay. I just don’t want you to regret not doing them.” 

“My parents didn’t take photos when they were pregnant with me,” you said. “To be honest, I don’t think this was a thing until recently.” 

He shrugged going back to eating his dinner. 

“You’re upset aren’t you?” You sniffled. 

“What? No, I’m not,” he sighed. 

“Yes, you are. You really want to take these pictures don’t you?” you asked. 

He sighed putting his carton of food on the table in front of him and looking over at you. “Honestly, yeah, I want to take the pictures. This is a special moment in our lives and with pictures, if we take them and don’t like them, we can delete them, but if we don’t take them at all, we might wish we had one day.”

“I’m sorry,” you sniffled looking down. 

“Why are you sorry, baby?” Harry asked grabbing your hand. 

“Because you’re right. This is a special time in our lives and I feel like all I’ve done is complain about it and I’m not even thinking about how you’re feeling about everything. I mean yeah, right now I’m the one that’s pregnant and carrying the baby, but he’s your baby too, which means that this is a special moment for you as well,” you whispered. “I feel like a selfish bitch.” 

“But you’re not selfish,” Harry said pulling you into his lap. “I can’t even imagine what you and your body is going through right now. And I know that our son’s heart condition is also something going on in your mind. To be honest, I feel like maybe that’s why you’re not being able to enjoy this pregnancy because you’re worried about that and your body doesn’t react well to stress during these times.” 

“I’m just so scared,” you cried. “He’s not even born yet and he’s already going to have to go through so much.” 

“I know,” he whispered putting his forehead against yours. “I know, but the doctor’s say he’s going to be fine and we have to believe that.” 

“I really want to believe it, but I can’t help but think about something going wrong,” you whispered. “If we lost him… I’d never forgive myself.” 

“Don’t you dare,” he said firmly. “Don’t you fucking dare think that. He’s going to be fine. We’re not going to lose him and it would not be your fault…” 

“I think we should tell our families soon,” you whispered. 

He nodded kissing your cheek. “We will,” he said. 

“I love you,” you whispered. 

“I love you too, baby,” he smiled. 

**

It was the day of his Radio City show and you and Harry were heading to the venue. When you got out, there were fans waiting and they all shouted when they saw you two. You both smiled over at them and waved, while Harry held your hand and you walked inside. 

Harry had soundcheck, so you went backstage and grabbed some snacks. You sat down on the couch in the dressing room and propped your feet up. You were scrolling through your phone before you ended up falling asleep. 

When Harry was finished with soundcheck, he walked back to the dressing room. He smiled when he saw you sleeping on the couch. He walked over to you and kissed your forehead. He grabbed a blanket and pulled it over you before walking over to the table. He noticed there was an envelope on the table that hadn’t been there before and it was addressed to him. 

He picked it up curiously and opened it up. He pulled out a photo of you and him together. You two were smiling and holding hands as you walked through Vegas just last weekend. He furrowed his eyebrows in confusion as he wondered why this was sent to him. He looked back into the envelope and found more photos of the two of you from over the last few weeks. 

Eventually, he found a letter of some sort and it was addressed to him. 

“She’s mine and so is the baby. Stay away from her or else.” 

Harry looked over at you and noticed you were still sleeping. He grabbed the envelope and the photos and went outside to find the security. Surely someone had to have seen who brought this and then he started to wonder if the person had gone into the room while you were in there alone. 

By the time, he found his security team, he was unsure of what to think of this. Was this a prank by someone? What did they mean by the baby is theirs or that Y/N was theirs? You told him that you hadn’ t seen anyone since him, so it couldn’t exactly be a jealous ex-boyfriend unless you were keeping something from him. 

“Hey, did you guys see anyone go into my dressing room while I was doing soundcheck?” He asked. 

“Not that we know why?” They told him. 

He showed them the envelope along with the pictures and the letter. “I’m not exactly sure what to make of this, but I don’t have a good feeling about this.” 

“What did Y/N say?” They asked. 

“I don’t know. She’s sleeping right now. I haven’t had a chance to ask her about it,” he said. 

“Well, we can check with the security guards to look at the cameras, if you’d like,” they said. 

Harry sighed. “No, don’t worry about it. I’m sure it’s nothing, but uh, just could you keep an eye out for anything out of the ordinary?” 

“Of course,” they nodded. “And we’ll keep an extra eye on Y/N tonight as well.” 

Harry smiled. “Thanks, Mate,” he said. 

Harry took everything back from him and walked back into the dressing room. You were still sleeping, so he knew he couldn’t ask you about anything yet. He put the photos back on the table and walked over to the couch. He gently sat on the couch so he could cuddle with you. You stirred a bit but didn’t wake up. Harry looked down at you and pushed some hair out of your face. He pushed all the thoughts he had about what the envelope could mean and closed his eyes to take a quick nap before the show that night. 

EXO OT9 Reaction: Meeting You for the First Time and Developing a Crush

Intro: You’re working together for a magazine cover as his photographer.
A/N: if you guys want ill had lutaoris on the weekend 😁

Masterlists

Minseok (Xiumin):

Of course, during the actual photo shoot he’d try his best to stay professional, but when everything’s done and over he’d go over and chat with you. Expect to go home with his number in your phone and vice versa.

“Hey… could I have your number? For business purposes, of course.”

Originally posted by secrethideoutme

Junmyeon (Suho):

When he walked in, he’d grow somewhat shy at the sight of you. Since it’s a professional photo shoot, he’d stay his best to stay serious but unintentionally end up messing up the photos by making weird faces. When you’d call him out, he’d laugh nervously and hide behind a few staff members for a bit.

“Haha– I’m doing this wrong? Are you sure? Ah, I’m sorry!”

Originally posted by baekhyeonah

Yixing (Lay):

Yixing would actually go up to you before the shoot and straight up tell you he finds you attractive subtle During the shoot he may wink at you or distract you when you’re working with others but then act innocent when you call him out. He’d feel really embarrassed about it later though.

“What do you mean stop lifting my shirt? I’m not doing anything.”

Originally posted by koreanwaves

*yw and im not sorry for this gif*

Baekhyun:

His beagle side would come out more than usual He’d start acting really extra just to get your attention even though he may get scolded for not taking the shoot seriously. When the shoot’s over, like Minseok, he’d ask for your number.

*playing with his clothes* “Look, Y/N, I’m an elephant!”

Originally posted by ethereal-baek

Jongdae (Chen):

I think he’d get lowkey shy. Not in the same sense as Junmyeon or Kyungsoo, but he’d get a bit insecure about how he looks and would even ask others if he looked alright. In front of you, however, he would appear confident. 

“Do I look okay? I mean– I look great today, wow.”

Originally posted by kaisanity

Chanyeol:

His first reaction when he saw you was probably “whoa.” Just imagine him staring at you with an ‘o’ shaped mouth in admiration. He would try harder than usual to pose well in order to impress you, but probably wouldn’t say anything about it.

“Ah, they’re really attractive…”

Originally posted by sehunsyixing

Kyungsoo (D.O):

Shy bean. He may stumble with his words when you’re giving him advice on posing and would cringe at himself (even though you think it’s cute). At the end of the shoot, you would compliment him and he could’ve died right there. Actor!Soo would come out and he would try to initiate a calm conversation with you.

“So… how long have you been a photographer…?”

Originally posted by jonginssoo

Jongin (Kai):

He’d be a soft flirt. Before the shoot, he’d go up to you and compliment you but then run away like a shy school girl before you can properly react. He’d grin at you between shots and after the shoot he might ask you to go get coffee with him.

“You’re quite a good photographer. Want to get coffee later?”

Originally posted by dazzlingkai

Sehun:

He’d attempt to act normally around you but would unintentionally end up staring at you when he’s not getting his photo taken. You’d probably notice and smile at him, which would immediately make him all smiley and shy but he’d try to play it cool. He would also ask you for your number, but would end up rambling.

“Hey, I’m Sehun– wait, you knew that already– I’m from EXO– you knew that too– can I have your number? Please?”

Originally posted by sehunicorne