mustn'ts

So many things, racing through my head,
Thoughts, images, words, actions,
I can’t disentangle anymore,
I can’t stay and I can’t leave,
I watch from a far and it’s slowly fading away.

If you could go back,
Would you?
If you could change what happened at the cost of what you have now,
Would you do it?
I know I’m wrong to ask,
I know I’m stupid to think on it.

But I watch…and I listen… and I learn,
Words… actions… deeds..
They all mean things,
But of these things…
Words mean the least.