I wish to share something I discovered in 2016, which I find very profound and liberating; It is that God, unlike human beings, will
never compare you to anyone else. He’ll only compare you to you. Who you
were yesterday, who you are today, and who you will be tomorrow. Your
only competition is, well, you.
Allah is not looking for perfection, but simply progress and realistic improvements within ourselves.
With this in mind, you don’t have to worry about what people think, how
great other people are and instead focus on your own personal
(spiritual, physical etc) development, at your own pace. You will learn to accept that Allah has created everyone very differently, and that is okay. I used to have
this self-limiting belief in what I can do, especially in UM law school
where everyone is just freaking smarrrrt. So instead of ‘I’m gonna try
my best’ I say 'there’s no use, there’s always going to be someone
better’. I know, dumb and damaging indeed.
But Alhamdulillah towards the end of 2016, thanks to positive and
supporting friends, I realized how important it is to have faith, both
in God and myself & managed to incorporate a more positive
psychological premise. Take it easy, but take charge. Work very hard.
And by Allah’s grace and mercy, you will get what you want. He is just
waiting to answer your prayers.
2016 was hands down the
toughest yet most beautiful year in my life. I had my first ugliest
heartbreak, got terribly sick & depressed, restricted to join so
many activities & lost the people I love. But I also had my best
semester in law school, performed well in class, had the best ramadan in
my 22 years, found spectacular friends, bestowed with exciting
opportunities and the list goes on. So no regrets. I’ve gotten over
grieving on what is not meant to be mine, done crying buckets over
things that are not in my control and now just looking forwards to be a
better Muslim, and human being as a whole.
Thank you everyone for 2016, I am absolutely blessed beyond measure. Wishing all of you a kick-ass 2017.