music says what you cannot say

There’s a place between seeing and dreaming, a boundary in reality where longing and wanting swim inside eyes.
And it’s a trick of the light, a slowed heart that projects things on a lazy gaze.
You come like the sun at the end of may, fleeting but warm and trying,
trying so intensely hard to just shine. Your edges are blurred despite how solid you seem, I’ve never met someone so real, and maybe it’s the tint of sunglasses or maybe just because you’re made of nothing but softness.
The thing is, you’re too good for a life like this, I know you’ll end up tearing me apart.
I’ve always been drawn to self destruction,
this might be the most fatal yet.
It goes like this,
you appear within me even when you’re not there beside me, appear with a smile that has my heart pounding out a beat to the soundtrack of your laugh that sets the wind on fire.
There’s something wrong about being addicted to a pair of eyes.
I’m not supposed to be able to see a past I should remember but don’t, I’m not supposed to see a soul dancing in colours, I’m not supposed to see home.
And when I’ve conjured you up again in the darkness from words sent on a lit screen, you ask me questions I can’t answer.

What would sirens sing to you?

There’s only one answer.

A composition made of your eyes and your smile, the bridge of a requiem played by strings set on laughter. The sunlight filtering through frozen parts of things kept locked away.
The way your voice sounds when you say my name.

When someone says “dear, …” I cannot help but to think any of the following
- Dear diary, I believe I’m a good person, you know, I think that there’s good in everyone…

- Dear Theodosia, what to say to you?

- Dear Herr Stiefel, Moritz I’ve spent the entire day thinking about your note

- Dear Evan Hansen, today is going to be a good day…

Inspiring Quotes from Musicals

“People come into our lives for a reason, bringing something we must learn, and we are led to those who help us most to grow.” Glinda Upland, Wicked

“I’m through accepting limits ‘cause someone says they’re so. Somethings I cannot change but until I try I’ll never know.” Elphaba Thropp, Wicked

“I am not throwing away my shot.” Alexander Hamilton, Hamilton

“I am the one thing in life I can control.” Aaron Burr, Hamilton

“What do you stall for? If you stand for nothing, what will you fall for?” Alexander Hamilton, Hamilton

“Mean what you say, and say what you mean.” Seussical The Musical

“Even if you’re little you can do a lot, you mustn’t let a little thing like ‘little’ stop you.” Matilda Wormwood, Matilda The Musical

“If you find that life’s not fair, it doesn’t mean that you just have to grin and bear it. If you always take it on the chin and wear it, nothing will change.” Matilda Wormwood, Matilda The Musical

“I’ve got a lot of living to do.” Conrad Birdie, Bye Bye Birdie

“Being true to yourself never goes out of style.” Vivian Kensington, Legally Blonde The Musical

“Impossible things are happening every day.” Godmother, Cinderella

“Don’t dream it, be it.” Dr. Frankenfurter, Rocky Horror Picture Show

“Forget regret, or life is yours to miss.” Maureen Johnson, Rent

Thoughts from the Tony Awards

(that I forgot to post last night whoops)

  • Okay so the opening number was…cute, but I feel like it just went on for a little too long?? Idk idk
  • “Gee, Whoopi, how long have you been in the closet?”
  • I feel like Stephen Colbert emerging from a bed dressed as a groundhog is something that’s definitely happened before in my life
  • Honestly the best parts of the show was when the camera would cut to Ben Platt in the audience for some reason and he always looked vaguely afraid for his life
  • I’m just putting this out there but Josh Groban…is more powerful than he appears. I truly think Josh Groban is just a cover-story for an ancient deity that just wants to sing these days.
  • My mom, upon seeing Christian Borle with no hair: “He looks like that little animal from that Kim Possible show you used to watch!”
  • Listen Andrew Rannells and (goblin king of my heart)Mike Faist both deserved the Tony but…I truly forgot Gavin Creel existed for a bit and seeing him win had me so over come with emotion so like I can’t complain I’m proud of my man
  • I’ve never been a fan of Miss Saigon and I have no idea who that girl performing was but like…we’re getting married and she’s serenading me at our wedding reception this is cannon
  • Come From Away like…I’m sorry. I feel like it’s trying too hard to be #Edgy or something?
  • “Dicks out for Falsettos” - Andrew Scott Rannells, 2017, the Year Of Our Lord
  • It was a great performance though like 1) Put Tracie Thoms in anything and I’m a fan and 2) I never knew I needed to see Christian Borle and Andrew Rannells as Sporty Boyfriends™ but now I can’t imagine living in a world without it and 3) everyone was so talented don’t touch me
  • Lmao they finished their performance and my mom’s only comment was “That Andrew boy has great legs”
  • THE DEAR EVAN HANSEN WRITERS WERE SO FLIPPING CUTE WHEN THEY WON OMG
  • “We’re gonna announce this next performance as the cast of Dear Evan Hansen, but the gag is….it’s actually a solo performance by Ben Platt™”
  • I mean was I sobbing the whole time??? Yes. I still would have picked a different number idk. ‘Waving Through A Window’ is great but it’s getting overplayed at this point
  • Lmao the second he finished his performance and me, and the rest of the audience both live and watching elsewhere, were freaking the fuck out- my mom just calmly took a sip of her wine and said “Oh, he won the Tony.” 😂
  • Okay listen…I truly think Spacey gave it his best. He wasn’t awful. I did notice something that didn’t exactly help though- He really went for the impressions. Like, whatever, but most of the other Tony’s usually involve the hosts having some singing skits???? Why did none of that happen?
  • I don’t know who the hell the guy singing from Groundhog Day was but like…that was a VOICE.
  • Leslie Odom Jr. and Cynthia Erivo. Nice.
  • Ben’s reaction to the Hilary Clinton email jokes tho
  • “All award shows have to give out food these days!”
  • Hello Dolly’s weird one-man performance was apparently caused by Bette Middler refusing to perform in the theater where they host the Tonys??? Like she wanted it pretaped???? Wild.
  • My mom refused to accept it all night like for the rest of the show she was like “When’s the Hello Dolly number” and I kept telling her it already happened and she was like “No that was Kevin Spacey in a wig it was a bad joke when is Bette going to sing” omfg
  • “You’re not even Christian Borle, you’re the understudy!”
  • When Colbert came out to present an award he had more stage presence in two minutes than Spacey had all night so I’m not saying Colbert for Tony’s 2018 but like….#Colbert4Tonys2k18
  • “My edible nephews”
  • Honestly Ben Platt’s entire acceptance speech quite literally cleared my skin and healed my soul that beautiful boy is so gentle and pure and I do not understand how I can feel so proud of him when he’s never even graced me with his presence
  • Also- Ben Platt, barely holding back tears, declaring “I’ll fight you” on national television: Big Mood.
  • Bette Middler’s speech…what in the fuck
  • Like no???? You cannot just tell them to shut the music off???? If everyone else can keep their speeches short than you damn well can too??? Everyone in that room is talented???? You aren’t The Special One there???? There’s people trying to make a show run smoothly and there’s time constraints???? Just say thanks and get off the stage oh my GOD. Also what the fuck with the ‘Hello Dolly never went away because it’s always in our hearts’ bit like find me ONE person who can unironically say Hello Dolly is their favorite show??? It’s a lame show high schools perform a lot because the script is cheaper calm down.
  • My mom, who had finished her fourth glass of wine and fallen asleep 15 minutes ago: *jolts wide awake the second she hears Lin-Manuel Miranda’s voice* “Finally.”
  • When Spacey came out doing the president gag like…Lin truly looked like he hadn’t been warned about it beforehand lmao like I’m sure he was but the poor boy looked so confused 😂😂
  • I know there was a lot of debate but personally I was not shocked Dear Evan Hansen won best musical and I was pretty excited about it lmao
  • (The Great Comet had a cool performance though I hope I can see that show someday; Also, since I realize I forgot to type it earlier in this list- Falsettos was robbed)
  • The big finale number he did with Patti felt…too lowkey. Idk. Just a very mellow ending to the award show like I’ve already forgotten what they sang.
  • All in all: There have been worst award shows but this was not as lively as the Tony’s have been in recent years. For all the jokes about NPH and Corden not being there, like…it just calls attention to the fact that they did in fact host way more entertaining shows??? That kinda backfired on him. I’ll give it like a 5/10. Can’t wait to see what this upcoming season/next years awards will hold!

We are driving home from church.
We are driving home from church,
Mother and I,
country station on.
The country station’s on, but for a moment
there is static.
A breath of silence
in between the whooshing sounds
of passing lights.

I feel my soul fill
welling up with words. 
“Mother,” I say.
“Mother, they are killing people in the streets.
They are gunning down unarmed men
because of the color of their skin.
Mother,
They’ve admitted it in closed circles
Down with the minorities but
Hands up.
Don’t shoot.
Mother,
They are erasing their history
tearing their past from the walls
reducing faces to graphite smudges across pages -
Mother.”
Mother turns and looks at me,
uneasy smile I am too used to,
as she reaches for the volume of the radio.
Mother says racism isn’t real.
Mother says slavery wasn’t all that bad.
Mother says, “If they had done what the policeman said
They wouldn’t be dead.”
Mother turns the music up until the silences fill.

I still cannot find it in me to be silent.
“Mother,” I say.
“Mother, they’re forcing women into a box.
They’re placing burdens on our shoulders
and saying sexism is the way of things.
Mother,
they blame the victim for what she’s wearing
let the villains off,
Scott free,
mother,
they keep telling me to learn my place
with tasteless jokes that come in tidal waves,
Mother.”
Mother says I take things too seriously.
Mother says it’s a lot better.
Mother says, “I was like you, once.
Then I grew up.”
Mother twists the dial until our ears ring.
 
I cannot stop, not now.
The words keep spilling out
the crux of the conversation:
“Mother,” I say.
“Mother, they are telling people they cannot love.
They are ripping wedding bands from fingers
ripping children from their homes,
Mother, they are banning heartbeats 
on moral grounds,
Mother.”
But, Mother.
Mother says freedom of speech.
Mother said this country was founded on Christian beliefs
Mother says, “Homosexuality is an abomination
and a sin.”
Mother turns up the music until Texas twang is shaking the foundations.

But I say,
“Mother,
Mother,
Then what does that make me?

Mother, please.
Please - 

Mom.”

But, Mother does not hear.

The music is too loud.

—  Collected Car Conversations with Mother
dancing on the bed ♡ grayson

–requested by anon

You shoot up from the bed with a gasp, tears brimming your eyes. You realized when you looked around frantically that you were safe in your bed, next to a snoring Grayson. Even though you knew nothing that just occurred in your dream was real, you felt scared to be in the dark room with nothing but your thoughts to keep you entertained.

“Grayson,” You say his name loud and clear, making him jump up, suddenly alert.

You felt bad for waking him up in the middle of the night, but you needed someone and you knew he was the only one who could manage to make you forget about the horrible dream you just had.

“What? What Happened?” He asks and you sigh,

“I had a nightmare, Grayson.” You admit and he frowns, climbing back onto the bed and sitting next to you.

“You want to talk about it?” He asks, rubbing his eyes sleepily.

“Your tired Grayson, you can go back to bed,” You decide, feeling disappointed and embarrassed at yourself for waking him up for something so stupid.

“Woah, Hold on, ” He stops you from rolling over, “Come here, i’m fine. I’m completely awake, tell me about your nightmare.” He looks at you with concerned eyes and you relax a little bit. He pulls you in so that your head is on his lap and he’s playing with your hair.

“It’s really stupid,” You mumble and he shakes his head,

“Just because it’s stupid doesn’t mean it isn’t scary.” He shrugs and you sigh once more,

“I was being chased by this really scary guy through the dark woods and at the end he caught me and I was screaming so loud but nothing came out and I was so close to the house and if I screamed everyone would have heard me but no one did because I couldn’t scream” You explain quickly, recalling the dream you just had, “I was panicking because I felt like I was screaming, I was screaming for everyone I knew was in the house but nothing came out of my mouth and then right when he was taking me away I woke up and it’s all dark in here…” You trail off and Grayson frowns a bit.

“It was just a dream baby,” He comforts you and continues to play with your hair, “Do you feel better?” He asks, referring to your feelings.

Oddly enough, you did feel a little bit better when you told him about your dream. It felt good to tell someone about it, made it seem less real than it did before. Although you felt a little better, you were still a bit shaken from the nightmare.

“A little,” You reply honestly and he raises his eyebrows,

“I know what can make anything better!” He says and his eyes lit up with excitement, “late night dance party!” He says in a girly voice and gets up, starting to dance on the bed to no music,

“Grayson! It’s late!” You giggle but shush him at the same time, and he stops suddenly,

“Y/N, you cannot leave me dancing on the bed alone.” He says with a stern look on his face, offering his hand and you groan but take in anyway, “That’s my girl!” He says.

He starts to dance terribly on purpose to make you laugh and soon enough, you both were dancing to invisible music.

“Oh! Hear that? I think there’s a slow song coming up next!” He says, looking genuinely surprised so you decide play along.

“Seriously! Aw man, slow songs are my favorite! Too bad I don’t have a good enough partner,” You tease and he gasps,

“Are you insulting my dancing, Y/N?” He asks and you look away innocently,

“What makes you think that!” You ask and suddenly you feel yourself being lifted off the ground, making you gasp, “Grayson if you drop me-”

“If I drop you what?” He laughs and you playfully punch his back,

“Grayson!” You giggle and he gently drops you on the bed. You lay in the middle with your eyes closed, trying to catch your breath from laughing you just did.

You feel Grayson hovering on top of you and your eyes flutter open to reveal Grayson’s handsome face.

“Hi.” You smile and he grins back,

“Hi, beautiful.” He replies, leaning in for a slow, passionate kiss.

Your lips moved together in sync and when you broke apart you were breathless yet again, and feeling very sleepy.

You yawn and Grayson smiles adoringly at you, “Tired?” He asks and you nod, cuddling closer to the pillow.

You hear him shuffle around the room and suddenly feel his strong arms wrap around your waist as he places soft and gentle kisses to your collarbone.

“Thank you Gray,” You yawn before shutting your eyes, quickly falling asleep in Grayson’s arms,

“Your welcome, Princess.”

a/n – terrible TERRIBLE ending but you know what it’s all good. GOOD NEWS - i’m doing a part two for my ethan break up imagine haha yay! I got lots of requests for that so (: AND I HIT 600 FOLLOWERS WHAT!? that’s insane, you guys are amazing. like, actually amaze-balls.

My Best Friend’s Brother Pt. 4

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Part 3

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Warnings: SMUT! SO MUCH SMUT! And some really romantic fluffiness in there too but there are TWO MAJOR SMUT SCENES!

Relationships: Romantic!Pietro x Reader, BestFriends!Wanda x Reader, Side!Romantic!Wanda x Vision

Summary: It’s Pietro’s turn for revenge now…When you get up for a midnight snack, you end up getting a midnight treat ;) and he asks you out afterwards. Will you finally give into your desire for the speedster’s heart? Or will you still try to push him away because of how Wanda might react?

A/N: Hey guys! Sorry I haven’t posted in awhile! I’ve been adjusting to college life and let me tell you it is amazing! I love it so much and I’ve made lots of new friends! I hope the extra smut makes up for my inactivity ;) but don’t worry I added lots of fluff too as usual! I am so inspired for Pietro tonight and I think this part will be really good! Enjoy! :)


You woke up at around 2 am, groggy and hungry. You groaned when you looked at your phone and saw what time it is. You sighed. Might as well get up and grab a snack. You thought to yourself as you got up and left Wanda’s room and made your way down to the kitchen to find a snack. When you walked inside you saw that someone had beat you to it. Pietro. You groaned when you saw him taking all of the good food out of the freezer. “Seriously.” You whined and he picked his head up from the fridge. “Do you really need all of that food?”

“Yes actually.” Pietro says and sets his food down on the island. “Because my metabolism is so fast I need to keep eating in large amounts to satisfy it.” 

“Damn.” You say and watch as he makes himself a sandwich. “Is there any left for me?” You ask and make your way over to the fridge. Your hopeful smile falls when you see that there’s no food left for you. 

“Sorry Printsessa…” Pietro says softly, then you feel two hands ghost your hips and move up your sides. “Perhaps there is another way I can make it up to you…” He says and you blush. 

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I just saw ghostbusters and let me just start with holy Christ. First of all everything was so much better than I was led to believe and you guys are totally underselling it. There are a few things I want to talk about (and as I do keep in mind that this movie may not be the first to do it, but it is the first time it is done by such a big movie, that will reach quite so many people).
1) The Slo-Mo fighting sequence Kate McKinnon got.
Ok the first thing is that gun lick. That was pure seduction and had me melting in my seat. Now that that’s out of they way, lets talk about the actual fighting. This is the first time (that was cool enough to stick in my mind) that I can remember seeing a woman have a fighting scene in a movie that was just a woman (not fighting with a man) 1, in slow motion, 2, not sarcastic, & 3, not sexualized. Although I do love black widow, she is a side character at best to the Avengers, and has yet to get her own movie, and I find she is almost never not sexualized. Another honorable mention is the implied fight scene in Serenity (River all killing reapers), and though it was incredibly epic, it was not actually shown, so it doesn’t count. I read somewhere (I don’t remember where but please assign credit where it is due) “the slow motion fight scene with Jillian Holtzmann was the scene I never knew I needed”. You wouldn’t think it makes such a big difference to have a woman filling in the role of ‘super kickass hero that is smart, funny, beautiful, and saves the day in slow motion with epic music’, but oh lord it does. When I saw it my heart exploded, and I might as well have been a little girl the way I squealed to my hearts delight. Kickass✔️
Genius✔️
Hilarious✔️
Flirty af✔️
Saves the day✔️
Slo mo fight scene with epic ass music and an orchestra✔️
Girl to pine after✔️
All that and on top of that she’s gay. This is literally all the representation I ever wanted now I just wish it were all like this.
2) Kevin (spoiler alert at the end of the paragraph)
This wasn’t the usual 'we’ve got a dumb guy’ act; they stuck with it the whole time. Usually when there is a stupid man there is a montage where he magically gets good at everything, or he gets trained by the women in 2 weeks and then suddenly he’s way better at fighting then they are and he beats her in the end, or he just magically gets smart in the end without the explanation, or sometimes he doesn’t get smart, but one of his stupid comments or exclamation leads the women to the right answer and then they 'couldn’t have done it without him’. They didn’t do any of that and all the glory, and all the credit goes to the women in the end. They even made a joke about it, when Kevin tried to say that he somehow helped and that it was all five of them who saved the city, him included. This was written to seem very laughable and point out the absurdity, and I though it was perfect.
3) The music
The soundtrack to this film was great. I don’t know what more to say other than it hit all the right spots and really amplified the mood and set the tone well. Also special shout-out to whoever did the music in Holtzy’s fight scene; Kudos to you that shit was great 👌👌👌
4) The girls
I’ve heard it said before, but this literally cannot be said enough, THEY WERE SO NORMAL. Sure they were super geniuses hunting the supernatural, but they were also normal people who DID NOT NEED TO BE WEARING SEXY COSTUMES AS WOMEN IN ORDER TO KICK ASS. They ate normally and they dressed comfortably. Sure it may seem like an easy simple thing, but if it is then why isn’t it done more often. Why don’t the women alway get practical eating habits and normal food which is not eaten in a super sexualized way. Like how hard is that to do, thank you for doing it for once.
5) The attraction
It would probably be stupid to have a character like Kevin who is basically a supermodel and not make some jokes about his looks/have somebody lust after them, but what I really appreciate is that it never got in the way of their work. It would have been really easy to make a cheap joke, and have one of the women get totally slimed because they were distracted by Kevin. Instead they made a few jokes and cracks at it here and there, but when it came down to it the women were professional, and while they were fighting/kicking ass they were allowed (by the writers in a sense) to focus on they fighting. ***

All in all, the new ghostbusters film was a great movie, with just about everything I need. Sure it has its problems (Holtzmann should have been explicitly gay because I went with my family and apparently none of them noticed and now think I’m crazy for seeing the gay everywhere, and I wish they’d chosen another character to pine after Kevin because to me it seems like they chose Erin to be a sort of no-homo between Erin and Jillian), but all in all I was really pleased with this movie. I think it’s a step in the right direction for big budget/large audience action films, and if for no other reason than to encourage Sony to make more films with nice female representation and more (and more explicitly) queer characters

Go on and Kiss the Girl

HOLY FUCK @breezycheezyart

Here’s your present! I hope you like it! Also… lol, me and @braincoins worked to get you these two fics at the same time.

Summary: Five times Shiro and Allura almost kiss… 


Sleep is, as usual, painfully elusive.

Luckily, there are plenty of places in the castleship an insomniac can wander without disturbing anyone. The Castle of Lions is vast and sometimes labyrinthine, and Shiro, just to shut his hollering brain up, imagines himself as some sort of futuristic Indiana Jones. The whole ship is certainly old enough to belong in a museum.

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Central Maryland Gothic
  • The people are whispering. There is a Walgreens here now. Have you heard? There is a Walgreens here now. The people are screaming. There is a Walgreens here now. You drive, and see something out of the corner of your eye. There is a Walgreens here now. It hungers.
  • You do not remember entering the parking lot. There is no exit from the parking lot. You loop, and do not recognize the sigils carved into the asphalt. You loop, and see black liquid pooling beneath your car. It is not gasoline. This is your home now.
  • The Costco’s gas line has spilled into the street. They are unmoving. They will always be unmoving. You think that once, you entered the Costco’s gas line. You look at yourself in your rearview mirror and do not recognize the creature staring back at you.
  • There was a fight at school. Which school? It does not matter. There is a video on Twitter, but you can only hear screams. No one notices the fear in the eyes of the students. They cannot cease. It will not let them.
  • There is another pothole in your neighborhood’s road. It is filled with asphalt. When it reappears, it is filled with blood. They do not touch it again.
  • The MSAs are here. Several parents have kept their children home. Home from what? The students cannot tell you. The teachers try, but all that comes out is screaming.
  • The RenFaire is back. The RenFaire never left.
  • Let’s go to the Inner Harbor, says a visitor. You agree. You make the sacrifice at midnight and await the next visitor. You are safe, for now.
  • There is a creature roaming Merriweather Post Pavilion. The screams punctuate the music, in time with the beat. You cannot turn from the stage. You cannot block out the screaming. You wonder if you will be next.
  • Thirty minutes out of Baltimore, you say. Twenty if you are being followed. Ten if you cannot comprehend the physical existence of the thing following you.
  • You are filing taxes. One of the pages is splattered in blood and written in runes that you have never seen before. It’s for the schools, you tell yourself. 

anonymous asked:

could you explain me why according to you end of the day should talk about a queer girl, if it doesn't bother you?

Of course! Was going to anyway in a separate post, but I might as well do it here. I’m not even sorry - I know that songs are open to interpretation and everyone has their own personal reading - but End of the day is a queer song. If one were to analyse it in class, that would probably be the logical conclusion. Let’s start by who is in it and where they are.

I told her that I loved her, was not sure if she heard
The roof was pretty windy and she didn’t say a word
Party dying downstairs, had nothing left to do
Just me, her and the moon

The narrator talks about a girl, about how they’re together, alone, on a roof after a party late sharing moments of silence. It’s an intimate setting, in a striking contrast with the party “dying downstairs.” Parties are seldom intimate - they’re noisy, full of people. The fact that the party is dying lets us assume that it’s also quite late in the night. 

What’s the relationship between this girl and the narrator? There are a few hints here and there: they know each other (enough for the narrator to be in love) and maybe they came to the party together, as friends, but they’re not romantic yet - maybe just lingering on the line between platonic love and romantic love. The narrator seems to take advantage of the noise made by the wind to tell her that they (I’m sticking to gender neutral pronouns as for now) love her. For them, it’s equally important to state that she doesn’t say anything. Both are important details, if they don’t know how she is going to react - if they’re afraid of how she’s going to react, or else why would they let the sound of the wind cover their voice?

I said you’re on fire babe / then down came the lightning on me
Love can be frightening for sure

I love the juxtaposition of “I said you’re on fire babe” and “then down came the lightening on me,” because the way it’s written is a parallel of what is written. The first part of the verse is as calm as the first few verses above, and then BAM, there’s the lightning. It’s unexpected; there is no build-up, no slow climax; the second part of the verse hits the listener just unexpectedly and violently as, indeed, a lightning would strike. It’s a violent image. (Both fire and lighting are words related to the semantic field of violence, energy and electricity.) Obviously, it’s metaphor, and quite a strong one, too: just as the narrator tells the girl that she’s on fire, they are hit with the realisation that they are in love with her. And that scares them. (“Love can be frightening for sure.”) Why does it scare them? I’ll tell you one thing: it’s terrifying to realise that you’re queer. And it does feel like been struck by a lightning. 

Here comes the chorus:

All I know at the end of the day
Is you want what you want and you say what you say
And you’ll follow your heart even though it’ll break
Sometimes

All I know at the end of the day
Is you love who you love, there ain’t no other way
If there’s something I’ve learnt from a million mistakes
You’re the one that I want at the end of the day

There is a jump from the use of the past tense to the present tense. We’re going from narration to reflection. We could read that - the chorus - as what the narrator is thinking on that rooftops, just as they say I love you.

All I know “at the end of the day” - splendid wordplay. At the end of the day is an English idiom that means “ultimately”, but the song is also literally set “at the end of the day.” So, “All I know at the end of the day” is both “what I know ultimately” and “What I know right now, on this roof”. 

“You want you want and you say what you say” = the narrator has realised that they cannot change their feelings and desires the same way they cannot take their words back. They’re out there. That doesn’t mean that they want to, just that they have realised that they can’t.

“And you’ll follow your heart even though it’ll break / sometimes”  I love how it’s written. The enjambement stresses both “break” and “sometimes”, which is emphasised in the actual music too (there’s a pause between break and sometimes). It’s soothing - heartbreak is in the cards, but it’s not going to last forever, or happen all the time. The use of the future tense “will” stresses both the inevitability of heartbreak and the fact that it won’t stop them from loving. 

“All I know at the end of the day” Same wordplay as before. “Is you love who you love, there ain’t no other way.” Now, that SCREAMS queer. Of the things that queer people are told is that what they feel is wrong and fixable - the narrator, contrarily, is not only repeating that they cannot change what they feel, but that there “ain’t no other way” - it’s not something that NEED to change.

“If there’s something I’ve learnt from a million mistakes / You’re the one that I want at the end of the day” “If there’s something” conveys the same message as the previous “all I know”: the narrator admits that they don’t know much aside from the certainty of their feelings and their legitimacy. The mention of the past mistakes is a hint that they’ve struggled quite a lot before coming to this moment of self-acceptance.

Said the night was over, I said it’s forever
20 minutes later, wound up in the hospital
The priest thinks it’s the devil, my mum thinks it’s the flu
But girl it’s only you

We go back to the narration. Now, I’m pretty sure that a comma right in the middle of a verse is a figure of speech of sort, but alas I don’t remember more. An oxymoron of sort created by the contrast between “over” and “forever”. Now, who said that the night is over? I don’t think it’s the narrator. I think it’s the girl. Perhaps, the girl is trying to downplay the love declaration that just happened while the narrator insists that it’s forever. Now, why would she? My assumption is that 1) the narrator is intoxicated (they were at a party) and 2) the girl believes that that the I love you is the result of too much drinking. So, she decides not to let her hopes up and tells the narrator that “the night is over” (”shut up, you’re drunk”). Twenty minutes later they’re in the hospital - again, my interpretation is that the narrator has had too much to drink. 

“The priest thinks it’s the devil, my mum thinks it’s the flu / but girl it’s only you” - comma right in the middle, again. Now, this other line SCREAMS QUEER too. Queer people are told that homosexuality is a sin and that they’re going to hell (“the priest think it’s the devil”) or that they’re sick (”my mum thinks it’s the flu”). 

“But girl it’s only you” is very anticlimatic - and I believe it’s on purpose. Here we have the devil, then an illness, but truthfully the narrator is just in love. It’s that simple. There is nothing wrong or sick. It’s just that they’re in love and it’s simpler and less tragic than most people (eg the priest, the mum) believe.

When the sun goes down I know that you and me and everything will be alright
And when the city’s sleeping
You and I can stay awake and keep on dreaming
You and I can stay awake and keep on dreaming

Now, this here? This is a message of hope (“You and me and everything will be alright”) The song as a whole is a song of hope, characterised by positivity - which is a common theme in One Direction’s love songs. Even when the circumstances are not the best, there’s always this message: it’s going to be alright.

For the first time here ends the distinction between “I” and “she” and becomes “you and me”, “you and I”, which leads me to believe that the narrator and the girl they’re in love with have talked and cleared things up between them and are now, finally, together. “And when the city’s sleeping / You and I can stay awake and keep on dreaming” - this is just a beautiful image. At the end of the day, late at night, while the city’s sleeping and no one can bother them, they can keep on dreaming when they’re awake and they’re together. That’s such a pure image. Such a calm one, in contrast to the previous lightning. 

To sum it up: there’s two people: the person the song is addressed to is a girl; the narrator has struggled with their feelings and has made a lot mistakes, and even as they’re finally finding the courage to reveal how they feel they are afraid of her reaction; their feelings are either passed as something sinful or a symptom of an illness when it’s just love; the chorus stresses that “you love who you love” and carries a feeling of hope. 

Pal, the narrator is a girl who’s realised that she’s in love, and End of the day is a positive, happy, pure queer love song about two girls in love.

nyeisha95  asked:

I am so sorry you, your sister and Valerie had to go through that. You guys didn't deserve it. You all are so beautiful and great people, don't let people like that get you down. Anyways I am happy you got to meet CP again and SHE HAS YOUR EMAIL!!! That's so exciting.

No worries! My sister is fine, despite being confused and annoyed that they would stare and talk about her. We had a great day overall! 

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30 Things You Should Know About Pentatonix

1. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up in the morning?

Kevin Olusola: I always start off with prayer, a devotional, and then read my daily affirmations. It helps me get into the mindset of the man I desire to be every day.

2. When you walk into a bar, what do you typically order?

KO: Usually a soda water with lemon and lime!

3. What is your TV guilty pleasure?

Avi Kaplan: Anime.

4. What is the last thing you searched for on Google?

KO: Voice lessons for releasing tension on the throat and neck.

5. Who is the last person that called or texted you?

KO: My friend Jane Jeong! She was asking how she gets backstage for our TD Garden concert in Boston, Mass.

6. What’s the wallpaper on your phone and/or computer?

AK: A beautiful sunset from my hometown.

7. What was the last awkward situation you were in and how did you handle it?

AK: I was at a party and someone was being belligerent with me specifically. I hugged them and laughed it off :).

8. What’s the one word you are guilty of using too often?

KO: ‘Shoot!’

9. What’s the first CD you bought?

AK: Our Endless Numbered Days by Iron and Wine.

10. And what music are you currently listening to?

AK: Josh Garrels.

11. What is the one food you cannot resist?

AK: BBQ.

12. What movie makes you laugh the most?

KO: 21 Jump Street. Is. Hilaaaaaarious.

13. What toppings do you like on your pizza?

Kirstin Maldonado: Pepperoni and mushroom.

14. What drives you absolutely crazy?

KM: People saying they “deserve” something.

15. What was your first online screen name?

KM: Littlestarrlett (yes, spelled wrong).

16. What’s the last thing you copied & pasted on your phone?

KM: A GIF.

17. What’s your favorite curse word?

KM: Well now I can’t say that ;).

18. What’s your favorite emoji?

KM: Recently it’s been the eye roll hahaha.

19. Pick one: Kittens or puppies?

Mitch Grassi: Puppies.

20. New York or Los Angeles?

MG: That’s hard…New York is more fun, but LA is home!

21. Twitter or Instagram?

MG: Insta!

22. Bacon or Nutella?

MG: Nutella forever.

23. Britney or Christina?

MG: Britney.

24. Coffee or tea?

MG: COFFEEEEE.

25. NSYNC or BSB?

Scott Hoying: NSYNC 4 LIFE.

26. 2 a.m. or 2 p.m.?

SH: 2 A.M.

27. Beyoncé or Rihanna?

SH: BEYONCÉ.

28. Netflix and chill or just Netflix?

SH: Netflix & Chill ;).

29. Hannah Montana or Lizzie McGuire?

SH: Lizzie McGuire!

30. And finally: tell us a secret.

SH: I convinced seven people to get drunken tattoos with me at four in the morning once.

~ via BuzzFeed

thefashionwannabe  asked:

What about a hc were MC is a hip hop dancer and is even in a girl dance group like Flavvah 8(might have spelled it wrong) if you know who they are how would the RFA+Saeran react

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Yoosung

  • When you told him
  • He finds it pretty cool
  • He’s dating a talented woman!
  • The first thing he wants to do is see you and your group doing a performance
  • You told him that you’re going to train next week
  • He didn’t even think, he’ll be there
  • When he sees you and your group dancing
  • His jaw is on the floor
  • He can’t even imagine someone dancing with such a passion, so fast
  • He’ll see all your group performances on the internet when he gets a chance
  • If he’s free, he’ll be there seeing you in person
  • He just loves the way you guys dance
  • He’ll just the video to his friends, he has to brag about it


Zen

  • He is dating an artist like him!
  • When you told him, he’ll want to watch you
  • It’s the first thing that comes to his mind
  • When he sees you dancing
  • Oh god, he’s really in love
  • Those moves make him crazy
  • He don’t even look at your partners, it’s just you
  • He’ll ask for you to teach him
  • He wants to dance with you
  • And he wants you to dance for him sometimes
  • Zen, go take a cold shower


Jaehee

  • Is this art?
  • The only art she knows is Zen’s performances
  • Could we watch it now?
  • No Jaehee, you’ll watch me dance
  • She agrees, she could watch it, what’s the problem with that?
  • When she watches, she looks like someone that discovered a new color
  • She thinks it’s so fantastic 
  • You’re so fantastic
  • She’s fangirling about it
  • She’s your number one fan
  • She’ll support you, everywhere in everything
  • You’re an art
  • She’ll make a fan club by the way


Jumin

  • What is this genre?
  • What is this music?
  • What is going on?
  • He doesn’t understand what you’re talking about
  • But you’re so happy to invite him that he cannot say no
  • He’ll go
  • When he watches , his eyes are on you, only you
  • Like seriously, he can’t take his eyes off you
  • You’re a masterpiece
  • He loves it
  • It’s something that he didn’t know it, but now he wants to know all about it
  • He’ll say multiple times how you need to have all his support
  • He’ll tell about your group to everyone that he knows
  • You’ll get the attention that you deserve


707

  • He knew it
  • He’s doing the same thing he did to Zen
  • Spreading you like a virus
  • This always works
  • He will make shirts with the name of your group
  • Your partners will not like him in the training
  • He just screams so much your name
  • It’s cute
  • But it interrupts the concentration
  • He doesn’t care
  • If they kick him out, he’ll find a way to come back
  • They already give up
  • Let him stay
  • The most devoted fan


Saeran

  • He doesn’t understand it
  • And looks like he doesn’t want to know about it too
  • He always does that
  • “Cool”
  • “You want to watch one of our performances?”
  • “Whatever”
  • When he watches he is fascinated
  • His face tells it
  • He loves how you’re dancing, he’s not even listening to the songs or looking away, his eyes are stuck in you
  • He doesn’t want you to dance to other people see, but you’re so happy about it that he’ll not even say something about it
  • If you ask him if he likes it, he’ll say “It was okay”
  • He’ll never admit how much he likes it
  • And how much he want you to dance for him
【161031 TRANS】 K-BOY Interview - Bang Yongguk

1. In your song “Good Time”, there are the lyrics “the things that do not change”. Is there anything that you think “This won’t change” or “hasn’t changed”?

Since I’ve liked music since I was young, I think that hasn’t changed. Rather than going out and making a lot of noise, I think it’s more fun to spend time in the studio working on music quietly. That hasn’t changed at all.

2. When you stay in the studio for a long period of time, doesn’t your head hurt?

There are times where I do get headaches, but instead of going out it’s more comfortable to stay in the studio. It’s been that way since junior high school so that will never change.

3. You have a fearless image, is that true?
Well…

4. For example, if there was a ghost or something like that you wouldn’t get scared, right?

Women! Women are scary!

5. Did something happen? (Enthusiastically) Would you tell us in detail?

(A little hesitant) What? No, no, there’s nothing in particular. I just thought if it was a guy wouldn’t that be something he would say (lol).

6. You’ve said on a radio show that you’ve been approached 5 times by women. You’ve confessed that the reason you refused all advances was because you don’t have time to date. There are those who think that it helps influence music to be in love. Do you think this way as well?

I don’t think one cannot say that it doesn’t influence music. However, I think that during that time the other person would feel anxious. Since I’m the kind of person who loves to work, we wouldn’t be able to be together….

7. There are a lot of women out there who would that that’s okay though.

First of all, there isn’t anyone I’ve discussed that with or anyone who has said that (lol).

8. By the way, how would you feel if you were rejected for the same reason?

Ummm, I think my heart would ache. As such, I would decline before any of us would hurt each other.

9. Have you ever felt bad for those women who have approached you?

Yes. Even if there was someone that I liked, I wouldn’t be able to approach them.

10. Eh? Even though there was a girl you liked you’ve never approached her?

Hahaha, never! You often see the patterns of on and off unrequited love(?), right?

11. If you end up falling in love, would you immediately tell the other members?

Yes.  Anyone who falls in love would probably want to tell. Their mood and face would say it all I think.

12. Really? (That’s too bad…) Speaking of which, are you scared of things like ghosts?

I don’t think I’m scared, however I am very interested in ghosts. Actually, when I work at the studio alone in the middle of the night, I often feel a shiver down my spine.

13. Ah, I’ve heard stories of ghosts materializing at places like studios. But is there not a rumor that one becomes popular when a ghost appears?

No, actually as I mentioned I still haven’t had the experience (lol). I guess I might not be that popular since I haven’t met a ghost yet. Hahahaha.

Who in B.A.P?
1.  The person who has similar tastes in music? Zelo
2. When I feel sick, the person who would nurse me back to health. Himchan
3. The person I go to when something worries me. Youngjae
4. If I could be reborn the person I would want to be reborn as? Daehyun
5. The person I think, “Perhaps this person is a distant relative?”. Jongup

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Supernatural’s 200th episode: In which the fandom learned to trust Robbie

I think most people know that episode 10x05 was written by none other than Mr. Robbie Thompson. Anybody who has read my meta or reviews would know (I guess) that I simply LOVE Robbie. He’s my favorite writer by far because I consider him an elegant Destiel shipper (I wrote about that here). When we learned that the 200th episode was going to be a musical, a lot of people had different reactions. Some were excited; some were afraid that the episode wasn’t going to be good; some were angry because Misha wasn’t in it, and so forth. I was EXCITED and that was it. I was not afraid and, even though I really, really wanted to see Misha in the episode, I trusted Robbie. I have never trusted a writer so much as I do it with him. Now that I’ve seen the episode, I can say I was not disappointed at all. The episode was brilliant! A true love letter to the fans! Thank you, Robbie!

I’m not going to go deep into all the beautiful details included throughout the whole episode that made it remarkable because I don’t want this to be a long post. However, I want to focus on some things related to Destiel (as usual). Many people have already talked about these things, but I just need to give my contribution (and thank you to the people who asked me if I had written or was going to write about this episode in particular).

There are six moments that I consider very important in this episode:

1) Dean’s reaction to the two girls playing Dean and Sam standing too close to each other.

The audience is supposed to see things through Dean’s eyes. Remember Supernatural is told from his point of view, so the way he sees things has a very direct impact on the way the show viewers see the same things. The moment Marie starts to explain to Dean what a BM scene is, a “brotherly tune” starts playing. It’s the same music we have heard when the real Dean and Sam have a moment. The music is immediately interrupted by Dean’s “Why are they standing so close together?” He has a deep frown on his face and looks genuinely bothered by that. He even says, “You know they’re brothers, right?” And finally, he tells the ladies to take a step back so they don’t stand so close. That was Dean basically saying “Wincest… what the hell?” The same reaction he had 5 seasons ago when he learned about the Supernatural books. They’re brothers.

2) Dean’s reaction to the two girls playing Dean and Cas hugging and… well, I cannot tell if they were making out before the hug, but… you know what scene I’m talking about.

Look at Dean’s face in all the scene and tell me if you see him disgusted at any moment when he’s talking with Marie and asking him what they are doing. When Dean asked about the previous scene between “the brothers” he was showing some level of disgust. Can you see that on his face in this scene? He looks surprised or a little awkward at the most, but he doesn’t look upset. He asks if that’s on the show and learns the girls are a couple in real life. He learns about Destiel as well. And that’s perfect not only because Dean finally knows DeanCas is a possibility, but also because now the audience, the general viewers of the show, knows about Destiel too. Not everyone who watches the show knows about Destiel, but now it’s a word even casual viewers will identify easily. And remember the audience’s reaction to things is kind of conditioned by Dean’s reaction. What was his reaction here? Surprised. He didn’t see that coming. Thoughtful. He didn’t yell at them. He didn’t ask them to stop hugging. He didn’t tell Marie, “You know they’re just friends, right?” or any variation of that. If he was so uncomfortable in the situation about “the brothers”, why didn’t he just say something here as well about the situation between Dean and the angel?

3) Dean telling Sam about Destiel and Sam’s reaction

Robbie definitely used the word “Destiel” in canon so that now Dean (and all the audience of the show) knows what Destiel is. In case it was not so clear for people that Destiel is Dean + Castiel (believe me, that’s possible for people who are NOT in the fandom!), we had Sammy playing with the words (Dea-stiel) and even casually mentioning other ships (Sastiel, Samstiel). It cannot get any clearer than that. Besides, Sam’s reaction here is just perfection. He’s very cool about the whole thing. He’s smiling normally. He doesn’t freak out at all, and Dean doesn’t mention one single time that he and Castiel are only friends. He could have said something like, “We’re two dudes, come on,” or “He’s a freaking angel of the Lord,” or “He’s family, dammit”. But nope! NADA. Dean Winchester never said anything AGAINST the idea of Destiel. He even shared the information with Sammy and just wanted to shut Sam up because he was teasing Dean (CasDean?). I think not only did Robbie give a nod to the Destiel shippers, but he also helped us see that Sam is totally cool about it, because… well, Sammy is Sammy, and sometimes Sammy knows.  And if the brothers seem cool about it, why should the show viewers freak out? We’re always conditioned to feel the same ways the boys do.

4) Dean flipping Cas’ tie.

Dean KNOWS that Cas, HIS Cas, doesn’t wear the tie neatly, and when he sees the girl with the tie like that, he flips it because that’s what the real Cas is supposed to look like.

5) Dean’s “I want you to put as much SUB in that TEXT as you possibly can” while directly looking at the girl playing Cas.

That’s like saying, “I don’t mind the subtext between you and Dean”.

6) Castiel’s song “I’ll just wait here then”.

Seriously? How much more romantic than that can this get? That was a freaking love song! And we know that scene was based on canon. In fact, the phone scene was identical to the one the real Dean and Cas had in 5x04. The only difference was that the real Cas didn’t sing that song (that we know of lol). But the waiting really happened. If we add this song, and the Destiel and CasDean mentions to the subtext even from previous seasons, the show viewers who are not part of the fandom should start to wonder some things. Remember we still have some unaddressed things like, “WHAT BROKE THE CONNECTION?” (from 8x17, Robbie’s episode) and the “HE’S IN LOVE… WITH HUMANITY” (from 9x22) plus the “IT WAS ALL ABOUT SAVING ONE HUMAN, RIGHT?” (from 9x23). We have all those things in the air, and then Robbie comes and gives the… “I’ll just wait here then… I’ll wait FOR YOU”. The subtext cannot get more obvious than that. Robbie Thompson is very elegantly telling us that, yeah, a romantic interpretation is valid. The Dean and Cas’ sexual tension in Marie’s play is real because the two girls are a couple in “real life”. What can that mean for Dean and for all of us, the audience of the show? That the sexual tension between the real Dean and Cas when they stand too close, hug, and stare is real because the two of them are a couple or COULD BE a couple? At least, it’s a possibility.

It’s a shame Misha was not in the 200th episode, but given the nature of it, I understand why he was not in it. The episode was a common MOTW, and Misha is never in such episodes. However, I’m glad Robbie took the opportunity of this whole “200th episode” thing to take this concept and bring it to life. It’s the only way he could introduce many things from the fandom to the canon of the show. And you cannot imagine how glad and thankful I am that he did.

PS: Chuck at the end of the episode was the best plot twist in the history of forever. I literally screamed when I saw him. This episode will be one of my favorites! 

 

Wolftember Challenge: Day 29

Day 29: Favorite Piece from the Show’s Soundtrack?

Alan Rodi is a God among men. 

I say that on a nearly daily basis, but it cannot be overstated. To make a podcast is human, to be Alan Rodi is divine

What I love about Alan (aside how how incisively smart he is, how he’s always one step ahead of me, and how searingly talented the bastard is) is how much his work teaches you about and informs the situations on the show. This music is not window-dressing. It does not just amplify. It defines, it builds upwards. Needless to say, it’s taught me a lot about what the show is and isn’t. 

Never more so than with this track. Eiffel and Hera, which Alan just presented as a variation on Doug Eiffel’s theme, immediately spoke to me on a visceral level, and it asserted itself as the tonal key to those two characters. Ever since Cataracts and Hurricanoes, their relationship has largely been what this song has guided me into understanding it is. It really is the sound of Eiffel and Hera, and the growing, shaky, unstable family that’s appearing around them. 

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