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Rebels With a Cause

Rebel line-up

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[Asajj Ventress] [Ahsoka Tano] [Hera Syndulla & Kanan Jarrus] [Sabine Wren]

anonymous asked:

Man, Ezra pulling a Depa would actually be cool. It'd show how far Ezra was willing to go to resist the dark side and control himself. It'd show Maul as somehow both dangerous but not invincible as well as give both him and the Ghost crew a reason to go at each othe. It'd give Kanan flashbacks of Depa and wondering why he couldn't wake Ezra also. We'd see how the crew operates w/o Ezra. Oh wait, what if Maul captured a comatose Ezra to figure out how to both wake and turn him (through rituals)?-

P2- On the flipside we could have Ezra undergoing some serious Force usage while in a Coma. On some level he’d be aware of what’s going on through visions/dreams and perhaps still communicate w/force people occasionally. His mind/spirit could also undergo it’s own journey as he connects to the Force. Sounds Trippy but I could see it as his own way of looking for knowledge by asking the Force itself or just having his own weird Mortis plot, Rebels style.

man, anon, you GET me

i feel like the Ezra dies and/or goes Dark is really cut and dry, y’know? and while the Skywalker lineage and everything in the movies is very black-and-white in terms of storytelling, i think that the interquels of TCW and SWR have always been much more a gray area, more complex in their storytelling, so i kinda disagree with Ezra having such a one-or-the-other end. if we had an entire season dedicated to explicit Dark Side-y foreshadowing (a la Anakin in TCW) i’d be more willing to buy it, tho.

(also, yes, I do want to see Kanan cry over his padawan’s comatose body, :D thank you for asking.)

i think that watching Ezra go so far to resist the Dark Side would be GREAT characterization. it’s already been noted how closely Kanan and Ezra echo Obi-Wan and Anakin, which is great for meta on the Jedi Order and how things went wrong/could’ve gone better with Anakin, but this isn’t an if-Anakin-went-good story. it’s Ezra’s story and i think that this resistance would be awesome to distinguish Ezra’s character from Anakin’s. if Anakin had reason to, he never would have worked so hard to resist the Dark Side - conversely, if he did have reason to resist the Dark Side, he would work harder than literally anybody else, ever. but that’s Anakin’s characterization - he’s willing to sacrifice personal morals, personal anything, for the people he loves. that’s…not necessarily a good thing. if Ezra were to stand strong by his honor and moral code even under severe stress or the threat of his family’s death, it would be a real distinction from Anakin and it would demonstrate real character growth in Ezra.

Maul’s already shown that he flees death like a wanted man, mostly to a ridiculous extent. as viewers, we know Maul’s past, we saw what he did to Mandalore, what happened with Savage Opress. he’s already a threat to us and Ezra would probably only see him as another Darth Vader - which is just as horrible, if not worse. for Maul to be taken down a notch by a fifteen year old kid would not only be AWESOME, but it would serve to enhance the greater narrative theme, which is that this is the end of the Dark Times, not the beginning. things are getting better, but they’re still bad, and they still have to fight their way out - so it’s horrible they have to face Maul and Ezra comes very, very close to the Dark Side, but in the end, he pulls away - back to the Light.

Kanan and the Ghost crew and Maul, at each others’ throats?! YES, i very much do want to see Hera punch Darth Maul in the face

but the Ghost crew without Ezra? Kanan without Ezra?! this is good stuff, my friend!

  • let’s first go for the situation, where Maul’s defeated(ish) and the crew gets away with Ezra
    • they stay as long as they can on Phoenix Home, where Ezra’s immersed in the bacta tank, but at the end of a couple of weeks when he’s moved to a bed and monitored, Ezra’s showing no sign of improvement they have to keep moving
      • (just imagine the angst:
      • Kanan desperately pacing in front of the bacta tank, trying to understand why he can’t wake Ezra up, why their bond has gone dormant, and pleading with the Force for answers
      • it doesn’t work, and in the end Kanan spends long, agonized, sleepless nights clutching Ezra’s hand, but if everyone ventures too close, he pretends he’s meditating. no one buys it.
      • Zeb having one-sided conversations with Ezra, playing one-sided card games, with unwavering belief that Ezra will pull through this
      • Chopper updates once an hour on all the new medical records, even though nothing’s changed, so he ends up trying to download as many volumes of Imperial files on Jedi lore and Sith that he can get away with
      • Sabine quietly sketching every memory of her and Ezra she can remember, even the ones that annoy her to the core and even the ones that still frighten her, just a little - ones of Ezra facing Vader or Maul, ones that Kanan can’t even look at - if only because she can’t paint or draw or envision him as anything other than alive
      • (she did one sketch of him, ashen-faced and still on his hospital bed. she burned it because she couldn’t stand looking at him.)
      • Hera appears quietly next to the bed, but she doesn’t linger. in Kanan’s darkest moments she lays a hand on his shoulder and wraps an arm around his shoulder, thinking to Ezra, when you wake up, you are in so much trouble, young man, because it’s all she can do try to keep the crew on their feet, much less active.)
    • Hera finally, after much delaying, finally broaches the subject with Kanan - they’ve got to pull their weight, she explains, not full missions, but just simple supply runs
    • Ahsoka’s looking at him knowingly the whole time and while Kanan’s never hated the Rebellion (or the Empire) more than at this point, he begrudgingly agrees
    • the supply run is botched and messy and the crew all silently agrees that they’ve never had a worse run in their entire lives
      • Sabine waited a little too long to open the door, because she forgot that Ezra wasn’t there to do it for her
      • Zeb left a crate behind because he forgot that Ezra wasn’t there to grab it, as well
      • Kanan gets grazed by a blaster bolt because he left his left flank open, expecting Ezra to be there
      • Hera automatically asks, “You got Specter Six, too?”
      • Kanan storms off to his cabin to meditate and doesn’t sleep a wink 
        • (he simultaneously both hates and is grateful for the fact that there’s no alcohol on the Ghost)
      • it’s an absolute mess, and missions are just horrible there on afterwards
      • on practical matters, they miss Ezra’s expertise in cracking locks and getting into little places - they end up being swindled by some idiot smuggler that they all know would never have happened if Ezra had been there
        • (Kanan gets into a brawl with the guy and his crew later that night in a cantina. Hera doesn’t stop him.)
      • on more personal level, everything’s just so quiet now. there’s no one cracking jokes on missions, no one arguing with Zeb, no one complaining to Hera about Chopper, no longer the hushed voices of Kanan and Ezra at dawn or even earlier for Jedi lessons
      • it’s horrible and everyone prefers being with the main Rebellion, with Ezra, even Kanan who absolutely despised being on Phoenix Home
      • i don’t actually know how Ezra wakes up with this one, but it’s probably just something stupid. like, the Ghost’s having their crew family meeting around Ezra’s bed, even though it’s been six months, when he just suddenly sighs in his sleep, rolls over, and wakes up, sleepily asking what time it is
        • someone faints. it’s definitely Chopper
        • Zeb and Hera suddenly can’t speak Basic anymore, they’re so excited, while Sabine goes white and is totally speechless
        • Ezra has less than a second before Kanan crushes him to his chest and is sobbing all over him
        • “Okay, okay,” Ezra says, struggling to fight his way out of Kanan’s arms, “who died?”
        • he really, really regrets his choice of words when Hera hits him upside the head
  • or the second situation - Maul’s gets comatose Ezra, or maybe just always had him; their rescue mission failed
    • just imagine who has to nervously suggest to Kanan that they have to give up, that they can’t anymore, that it’s just too much a drain on resources
    • (that the person definitely had their nose broken. Kanan stands over the guy’s crumpled form, breathing heavily, fists clenched, and Hera puts a gentle hand on his shoulder. Ahsoka’s wide-eyed in the corner, because she didn’t know the Kanan Jarrus with the hair-trigger temper and a maybe drinking problem. all she knew was the almost-Jedi that she looked at with a wistful smile, thinking, this man was the kind of the Jedi that I miss.)
    • shaking himself, a little bit surprised by his own violence, he turns to Ahsoka.
      • “One last attempt,” he says quietly, pleading. “Just me.”
      • The rest of the Ghost crew interrupts loudly, but he ignores them, locking eyes with Ahsoka.
      • “No,” she corrects, “just you and me.”
    • (this would be some awesome character development for Ahsoka and Kanan - 
      • like, Ahsoka. it’s her first time (that we know of) having to face a credible threat, not a Sith acolyte with that of the Inquisitors, but an actual Sith, with no one to back her up. there’s no Master Obi-Wan, the Sith-slayer, no Anakin, no Yoda - it’s just her, the most trained, the highest ranking Light Side-user in the known galaxy.
      • and for Kanan? it’s his first battle as fully-fledged Jedi Knight against a fully-blown Sith, all for the life and soul of his padawan, who Kanan can only pray is alive. instead of a Dark!Ezra, we get to see Kanan battle the Dark inside of him, a battle with higher stakes than his knighting ceremony. we get to watch him confront the very depths of all evils he’s known in his life - the Clone Wars, the Sith through Maul, his own helplessness against his master’s death through his padawan’s capture, his master’s coma through his padwan’s - everything.
      • this is honestly everything to Kanan, it’s his day of reckoning, it’s where everything has come full circle. the stakes are higher than they’ve ever been, even in the Clone Wars
      • in many ways, Kanan knows deep down in his heart that how he deals with the Dark Side is how Ezra will deal with it, will learn from him. everything’s at stake for Kanan - Ezra’s at stake for Ezra.)
    • meanwhile Ezra? totally having a trippy, mind-bending experience
      • Maul’s trying every trick in the book to wake Ezra up, literally from cold water to shouting to using the Force to flat-out torture, but Ezra just. won’t wake up.
      • as he dreams, he first meets Depa Billaba, who smiles at him sadly and tells him how proud she is of him, how proud his master is of him, how proud she is of the both of them.
      • before Ezra can stammer out a question namely, who are you, he’s whisked away to come face-to-face with a laughing Caleb Dume
      • it’s weeks of seeing with excruciating clarity the slow slog of the Clone Wars - only with flickers of the Rebellion in between, but suddenly it changes 
      • he flip-flops between seeing Caleb Dume battle his way through the Clone Wars and Kanan Jarrus battle his way across Malachor, Ahsoka at his side
      • Malachor’s definitely like Mortis, and Kanan keeps passing all these Dark Side/Light Side tests by the skin of his teeth and Ezra keeps trying to shout out to him
      • sometimes he can see Kanan focus on him with deadly accuracy, but he always eventually looks away
      • and as Kanan finally faces Maul, Ezra’s trying to regain consciousness - in his dreams, he can see Kanan and Maul battle, Ahsoka there, too, he’s beginning to hear, as well, different noises and even smells and feelings (cold like steel and why does it feel like he’s bleeding?) struggle to the top
      • and as Ezra can hear the sound of lightsabers and the slam of the door opening, there’s a pause and he can feel Kanan’s eyes on him before it flickers away - it’s like a switch
      • Ezra opens his eyes to a blurry, badly lit chamber being illuminated only by the glow of lightsabers and the harsh lamp beating down on the durasteel table he’s strapped to
      • he’s in pain, he can barely think straight, let alone see straight but as there’s a fight rages, Ezra manages to summon his lightsaber
      • he snaps off one shot before Maul whips around, but it’s all that’s needed 
      • three lightsabers destroy Maul and he falls the ground in pieces, giving a full view of Ezra, mind half-addled with pain of half-healed wounds from torture he doesn’t even remember
      • “Hey,” he croaks, “Morning, Kanan.”
      • Kanan’s caught between sobbing and trying to restrain himself from slapping Ezra upside the head

this was probably a really crappy ending to Maul-capturing-Ezra, but wow, anon, thanks for talking, uwu. i’m glad you liked it! i’m sure whatever happens, we’ll all be equally crying over Kanan and his son padawan

I really wish that I could make GIFsets instead of photosets, but, this is all I’ve got, as I muse.  bedlamsbard​ was discussing the fan’s “shatterpoint” moment, when Rebels went from “I enjoy it, it’s good, but I can live without it” to “ZOMJ GIVE ME MOAR NAOW I CANNOT LIVE UNTIL I HAVE MOAR”.  Gathering Forces was the episode that I think flipped my switch.  I was already enjoying it, and Kanan was definitely edged in as my favorite, but this was the episode that I snapped. 

There is something in the way Kanan mentors Ezra: the way he checks himself, listens, and even in those moments when he is frustrated, even a little harsh, he is present and he feels.  He is generally pretty gentle with Ezra as they head down this uncharted path - he is as much the non-traditional teacher as Ezra is the non-traditional student.  They are on the journey together, which brings me to one of the things that makes Kanan a far better teacher than he gives himself credit for:  while he has a solid foundation to begin with, his training (and life) were interrupted.  He has accepted that he doesn’t know it all and is willing to learn along the way, too.  He’ll admit this to Ezra.  [I sure hope that doesn’t change with Fulcrum’s identity in the open - that he doesn’t suddenly second-guess himself as he did when he though Luminara was still alive.  I’m going to bank on the fact that he’s learned better, by now.]

Kanan’s fear when Ezra channels the Dark Side and succumbs to the repercussions of that onslaught of power was a palpable example of how much he cares about this kid - a real look at Kanan’s heart - and I have to give more credit to the animators and the myriad of subtle emotions that the characters share with us.  I love how Kanan reassures Ezra in this moment, despite the peril.  Then proceeds to haul the kid over his shoulder, even though he himself is injured, and escapes with bada$$ determination and skill.

Once in the relative safety of space and able to engage auto-pilot, this is the moment that absolutely sealed my love for this character:

Kanan takes the second to check on Ezra and instantly knows the kid is still reeling in the back; confused, scared.  This could go so many ways.  He realizes he has the very real power to make or break the moment.  He sees himself in that teenager’s curled position, and in that glance where he assesses the situation, I think we once more see such a big heart on Kanan’s sleeve. He is, again, so gentle here.  He is disappointed - not in Ezra - but himself, for not better preparing Ezra for the danger the kid’s burdens will inevitably place before him.  Kanan is opening himself up by admitting that to Ezra, and I think that each time he does this, Ezra respects him for it - and it’s a powerful lesson for both of them.  Their path is not traditional; that time has passed.  The change is both necessary and good to adapt to the contemporary time.  

My meta-attempts are not nearly as thought-provoking or fluid as bedlamsbard or pepoluan, but I’ve been working on it.  

So, yeah…Gathering Forces was the moment I was doomed to fall into obsession.  It is always so amazing when this happens, though.  You just gotta enjoy the ride.

I am starting to fear...

That Agent Kallus will die in an upcoming season. They are hinting strongly towards the Death Star the whole time.

So here is my theory.

Since Zeb told Kallus in “The Honorable Ones” to chase the answer to what happened to the Geonosians I think he will stumble upon the plans to the Death Star and it will be him that see that it gets to the rebellion.

This will cause many to die to get it there… including him. But I suspect that it will start with him.

This thought makes me both sad and happy all at once. It would be a fitting redemption arc for this character. Not really on the rebels side… not really against them either.



Higgers Is Off To Fly With The NEC Green Rockets In Japan. Too Bad His Last Game In Melbourne Was Not As Expected!

Fare Thee Well, Baby!

Come Back Soon!

//I have the urge to go play and get some recordings for the video series I am going to be doing. I might go do that, as I’m on a roll and hoping that once I start releasing videos regularly I will get some more Patreon subscribers.

I have a few threads my turn, but the muses rebelled a bit last night and covered my dash in triggery smut. Sahlin took me right to my limit, and while I don’t regret writing that (it does help to do so sometimes) I am being more self-aware of how I feel today because of it. I don’t know how much sinday we are really going to do here today as a result, because I still feel a bit unwell and fragile and wary from it (I carry symptoms physically as well as mentally when this happens). I might have a down day to let myself unwind and recover.