((hey guys,, i’m opening up the ask box for a little bit becus i decided a good few of the asks i currently have id rather answer when things are slightly more established!! so please feel free to drop any questions you have for our resident bipolar stoner (and i mean connor not the mod lmao) in the inbox!!))
Mike isnt the only trans girl and lesbian you fools. the whole dnd group are trans girls and lesbians EXCEPT for their gay nb party member Will. Lucas is a trans girl and lesbian and she and max are dating. eleven is also a lesbian but shes nb. thanks for coming to my tedtalk
okay listen,,, “a little bit of light” means so much to me and absolutely should not have been cut because it’s the one song that actually paints connor (the real connor) in a decent light.
“All those demons that wouldn’t let up, that kept dragging him through the dark. but there were moments he had moments with a little bit of light in those moments, he was happy he was trying still to fight and maybe the battle he fought wasn’t won but at least there were days when he let the light in in those moments, a little bit of light ….
he used to love jokes! when he was a little boy? ‘why did the chicken cross the road?’ he had a million answers to that one!
i remember picnics and little league and sundays at the zoo, i remember how he smiled the years of trick or treating, my spiderman, he stood at 4 foot 2 such a happy child but it seemed like i woke up one morning and my sweet little boy he was gone something had switched off the light and it seemed like it never really came back on”
I can barely listen to this song without bursting into tears because its just so accurate in its portrayal of what its like to develop a mental illness at a young age. connor was a good kid, he was happy, and then his mental illness developed and he wasn’t the same kid anymore. this song shows that he trying, that he was able to rally through some days and still have moments where he was genuinely happy. it fleshes connor murphy out into a better character than the entire rest of the show does, and lets you in to see the type of person he was before his mental illness took over his life. he loved telling jokes!! do you know how much it means to me to know one of things his mom remembers about him the most is that he used to love telling jokes??
obviously connor had his flaws (like every single other character in the musical) but ultimately he was just a good kid struggling with mental illness who couldnt make it through, and this song screams that point
me, waking up my spouse in the middle of the night 30 years from now: hey babe isn’t it fucked up that cynthia murphy originally had two songs where she sang about how she was genuinely grieving for her dead child and both of those got cut while larry got a song about a baseball glove he gave to connor?? and about how hes a piece of shit dad?? and then the most cynthia ends up getting is shitty verse in requiem about her grieving over fake connor? isnt that fucked up? babe? babe are you listening to me? cynthia got nothing babe
1.) In ‘More Than Survive” when Michaels theme starts playing for the time and you first hear Jeremy excitedly yell his best friends name “Michael!”
2.) In ‘Upgrade’,, the juxtapostion of the entire chorus singing “Christine!” louder and louder only for Jeremy to break away with a confused and desperate “Michael?”
3.) In ‘The Play’ when the hero of the hour makes his entrance and Jeremy yells “MICHAEL!!” louder and happier than he’s sounded since the first half of the musical because he’s so genuinely elated to see his best friend there
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Dear Evan Hansen should have been about Connor Murphy’s recovery FULL STOP. There are no excuses for the fact that the writers used a bipolar kids suicide as a plot device and made his mental illness out to be something so scary for other people instead of for him. would i rather see a musical about a kid with anxiety using a strangers suicide to make his life better while screwing over his friends and family or a musical about a kid with bipolar disorder recovering after his failed suicide attempt and learning how to build back bridges with his family and the people around him?? take a fucking guess
wheres my expensive headphones au with pining rich whos had a crush on michael since freshman year and got a squip to try and impress HIM but instead the squip just made him popular and a jerk to him and his buddy becus they were nerds and eventually landed him in the hospital with a surprisingly forgiving and nice michael mell who still came back to visit rich even after his best friend was discharged!! and rich is so head over heels for him that he acts like the nerd he was in freshman year whenever hes around him which is super super endearing to michael and then!!! rich asks him to prom!!!!! he gets super fancy with it and brings flowers and chocolates and everything!!! and then rich and michael go to prom together and dance to whitney and have a great great time the end
SO UH we all know that jared is unnecessarily rude and mean to cover up how he feels about evan but UHM have we considered who else he’s unnecessarily rude and mean to?? ALL I’m saying is that jared was pining after connor as well sorry not sorry!!
For the send me a pairing can you please do Conman/Kleinphy?
hgjasjdhgashjgf kleinphy is such a bad ship name oh my god its perfect for them
proposes - it’s jared and he’s super nervous about it but connor says yes literally the second he drops to his knee,, jared is like ‘i mean i had a whole speech prepared…” “tell me later now just shut up and make out with your future husband” “DEAL”
shops for groceries - jared’s problem is over eating and connors problem is undereating so jared usually takes over shopping trips to try and get more of the stuff he knows connor will eat becus if left to himself he’ll just get what jared wants
kills the spiders - connor and then he chases jared around the house with the dead spider
comes home drunk at 3am - jared is for sure the big drinker,, he goes out to drink away his problems a lot more than he should and always comes home to a very sympathetic connor whos been in the same position high too many times to count,,, they take care of each other always and make sure the other knows someone is there for them
remembers to feed the fish - Jared is the one who remembers but its usually after theyve already gone to bed and he just kinda pushes connor and tells him to ‘go feed the fucking fish’,,, connor will either be already awake and get up to feed it or be dead asleep and shove jared out of bed in retaliation
initiates duets - jared loves to sing and he LOVES connors singing voice so he sings one half of a duet constantly to try to get connor to sing along,,, he didnt for a long time becus he doesnt think he can sing well at all but as time went on and he feel more in love and got more comfortable he started joining in every so often (connor: *sings*, jared: 😍😍😍)
falls asleep first -fully depends on whether connor is manic or not,, if hes manic then always jared but if hes depressive then he probably been sleep for hours long than he shouldve been already
plans spontaneous trips - becus connor would stay inside the rest of his life if possible jared takes the initiative to actually
wakes the other up at 3am demanding pancakes - jared but he doesnt wake connor up,, his two big stress things are drinking and eating so when hes reallly overwhelmed he’ll wake up in the middle of the night for either a beer or some food. connor almost always notices hes gone and wakes up to go see whats wrong,, jared usually makes enough for two for this reason and they spend an hour or two eating together and talking about whats bugging him
sends the other unsolicited nudes -connor for sure will send like jokey nudes just to fuck with jared (like nothing below the belt with rly silly captions) but unbeknowest to him jared saves every single one becus he honestly thinks its hilarious and he loves his bfs sense of humor (when hes feeling down he’ll scroll through those pics and other texts hes saved from connor that make him laugh)
brags about knowing karate even though they never made it past yellow belt - JARED ADSHKJAKJD he acts like he could kick your ass but no fucking way the boy is a chickenshit!!! connor doesnt know how to fight either but he’ll actually try to back up his shit talk regardless of skill
comes to a complete halt outside bakeries/candy shops - connor actually hes a big sweets guy when it comes to the munchies and he always tries to get stocked up on the best sweets and treats in town
blows sarcastic kisses after doing ridiculous shit - they both do they almost compete at it and its extremely tiring for everyone else around
killed the guy (also, which hid the body) - connor will constantly joke about straight up murdering somebody and hes just like ‘if i do will u help me hide the body?’ and jareds just like ‘no!!………………okay i mean yeah probably.’
wears the least clothing around the house - jared but only becus connor refuses not to wear long sleeves most of the time
has icky sentimental moments for no apparent reason - jared catches himself getting real sappy real quick sometimes,, he tries not to show it but he usually ends up saying something like ‘you know id do anything for you’ and connor gets really overwhelmed by the sincerity in it and swears hed do the same,,,its real nice they love each other a lot