I swear I always fall for your type.
This morning, I woke up and you popped into my head with the song by Jamie Foxx to go with it. Got on my laptop and already the first song I want to play is not the original version, but a cover version of the song. I don’t know about other guys, but I sometimes also get lonely too. I just don’t say anything about it cause I don’t want to spoil any of my friend’s evening by saying I am. I love to stay strong and say that I’m fine but deep in the abyss of within, I’m pretty much not. Last night it happened & I didn’t know what to say to the things I’ve secretly heard about you. Now I seriously don’t know what to do. I didn’t know you wanted to do that and try to become famous. All I want to do is get to know you more and she says your not girl friend material. Last night, I tried to look for certain friends to comfort myself in and help me give advice on what I should do. Though, at the end of the day it’s all up to me to make the decision and do it. I know I’ve been told before and not to pursue you, but I didn’t listen in their eyes and told them I’m just going to wait around. I can’t believe that I always fall for your type, especially at the wrong time. How am I to know that your different? I know she told me I shouldn’t go for you and that your stuck up in your own world and pretty much focusing on your life & career. I don’t blame you, but even independent girls do get lonely too. I know a career may provide blankets to keep you warm at night, but it won’t embrace you for life. You definitely are a nice girl & you already know I’m gentleman material. If I swept you off for your feet for a second like you told me that one night, wouldn’t you like and or love it for the rest of your life? I guess I’m getting into deep with very much liking you and still don’t know what to do. Same mistake, never learned from. I don’t want to prove anything cause it’s the last thing I want or quickly assume, but I can make you settle. I’ve dated a player & made her quit playing games. Turned a lesbian, straight cause at the time I wanted to date her. (No joke. I turned a lesbian straight.) I guess you can say I can make people change and of course it’s actually the person if they want to change. I’ll tell you this much, your going to really like it a lot. All I ask is just one chance if you let me. I swear your going to be swept of your feet. I’m not saying this to say “I’m the greatest dude, I can sweep girls off their feet.” No. No, I don’t because cockiness is unattractive and all I have is confidence and not brag about but know what I’m capable of. People do change, but it’s because of the people & the impact that they left with them. Everyone has their different point of view of how people change, this is mine. Again, if you let me have a chance. You definitely will never regret doing so. So for now, I’m just going to stick around and be supportive for you, see, & hope things would happen the way I hope it would happen. Hey, it could happen. It only takes time and I really do hope patience is a virtue. So, again the question is: Should I pursue you and wait while I focus on myself as well or move on and try to find … (Sorry I’m very speechless at this time). In the meantime though, I’ll also be focusing myself as well and If I can ask you one question, that question would be..
“Can I stick around? Through your success & failures, ups & downs?”
Am I going feelings crazy for this girl and going to fast? Help.