multiple personality disorder

The effects of a dissociative disorder may include:

  • gaps in your memory
  • finding yourself in a strange place without knowing how you got there
  • out-of-body experiences
  • loss of feeling in parts of your body
  • distorted views of your body
  • forgetting important personal information
  • being unable to recognise your image in a mirror
  • a sense of detachment from your emotions
  • the impression of watching a movie of yourself
  • feelings of being unreal
  • internal voices and dialogue
  • feeling detached from the world
  • forgetting appointments
  • feeling that a customary environment is unfamiliar
  • a sense that what is happening is unreal
  • forgetting a talent or learned skill
  • a sense that people you know are strangers
  • a perception of objects changing shape, colour or size
  • feeling you don’t know who you are
  • acting like different people, including child-like behaviour
  • being unsure of the boundaries between yourself and others
  • feeling like a stranger to yourself
  • being confused about your sexuality or gender
  • feeling like there are different people inside you
  • referring to yourself as ‘we’
  • being told by others that you have behaved out of character
  • finding items in your possession that you don’t remember buying or receiving
  • writing in different handwriting
  • having knowledge of a subject you don’t recall studying.
What I told myself dissociation was

What I told myself instead of recognising my dissociation:

1. It’s normal to forget people

2. It’s normal to forget experiences

3. It’s normal to have no memories of childhood

4. It’s normal for people to think you’re personality is different from how you see yourself

5. It’s normal for your voice to change pitch, volume, accent and tone under different circumstances.

6. It’s normal to forget know you haven’t eaten but feel full or not be able to eat despite being hungry.

I could go on… I’d love to hear other people’s experiences

Boycott Split Because These Movies Kill People

Truth moment (because this upcoming Split movie is giving me some serious sad issues):

I have Dissociative Identity Disorder. It is the disorder once known as “Multiple or Split Personality Disorder”.

I have several “alters” that I know of for sure (they have names and make themselves known), and there are others who linger in the back ground and don’t introduce themselves.

I am NOT dangerous because of this. In fact, I am more likely to be harmed by others because my illness makes me vulnerable to manipulation and gaslighting. People with my illness are statistically more likely to have violence visited upon them, than to engage in violence themselves. And of those rare times that we do become violent, it is almost exclusively violence directed at ourselves. We are more likely to commit suicide than to kill another human being.

This illness is not likely to make a person violent because it is a DEFENSE mechanism. People like me LITERALLY tend to avoid conflict and situations that could potentially get violent at all costs. Avoiding violence is very much the base nature of this illness except in exteme cases.

Those of us who do become violent against others are a rare exception and ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS it is a result of the fact that it is difficult for people like us to seek/find the help we need before it’s too late.

Movies like Split only make that worse. These movies make us afraid to admit that we have these problems. These movies do not exist in a vacuum, and even affect the attitudes of the very medical professionals that we are supposed to be able to trust to help us. These movies make it difficult to find funding for programs and therapies that could help us. These movies make the general public afraid of us. Because of movies like this I’ve been banned from being allowed to see my baby nephew without my dad there, even though I’ve never exhibited a violent tendency in my life.

Movies like this are the reason people like me commit suicide every single day.

Financially supporting movies like this just encourages Hollywood to make more movies like this.

Financially supporting this movie is the same thing as telling me to my face that you think I am better off dead.


The movie Split is fast approaching and it will bring HARDCORE discrimination and stigma towards those living with Dissociative Identity Disorder. We can do nothing to stop the movie but we have to be loud RIGHT NOW! WE EXIST! WE ARE PEOPLE TRYING TO LIVE WITH THIS! WE ARE NOT SOME PSYCHOPATHIC PLOTLINE! I URGE ESPECIALLY THOSE WITHOUT THIS DISORDER TO HELP ALL THOSE WHO WILL BE AFFECTED BY THIS HORRIBLE MOVIE!  R E P O S T! please help us. stand with us.

I feel a bit lonely.. i talk to my dog every day. Cause he is my only friend. He is my best friend. My disorder takes everything i have.. i feel scared and confused… just like a little child. I take my teddy bear, cuddle it and go to sleep… listen to bring me the horizon and think about the lyrics how perfectly they fit to my miserable life..

I feel more and more anxious. I don’t want to have people from my past with me. I just can’t… i don’t want to be close with someone… i want to run… run fast and far. I want this to end… this takes me completely out of my comfort zone and i have to take care of myself now.