mrs wealsey

this was oringinally tags i left on another post but

in book five when thendrals are pulling the charrages no one else could see them, and in book two harry hears voices from the castle walls no one else can,and in book six he hears screaming that no one else does. all the things are real but people didn’t believe him and thought he was hearing or seeing things

but image how cool it would be if there actually weren’t any voices and there actually wasn’t anything pulling the carriages

imagine if this wasn’t some super power and his friends weren’t wrong to not believe him

imagine psychotic harry trying to determine what was actually sent by voldemort in his visions and what wasn’t

image harry trying to figure out what is magic and what is just a hallucination

imagine this helping him bc he is able to determine what’s real and not so he knows when mr. weasley is attacked and does save him and he knows what’s not real and doesn’t try to go after the globe so serious is still alive because no one had to come save them

imagine this hurting him because he thinks dementors are figments of his imagination but even when he discovers they’re real he still doubts them all the time esp. bc draco dressed up like one and he doesn’t want to hurt a real person imagine him coming just a little too late to save dudley

imagine psychotic harry with both magic and hallucinations

imagine representation for mentally ill people for ppl with more than just depression or anxiety

imagine representation for mentally ill people that isn’t demeaning or showing them as scary which isn’t there just to make things harder for the antagonist and psychotic people who aren’t the villains

imagine a psychotic person who is the hero of all the wizarding world

just psychotic harry potter

anonymous asked:

Hi Aurora okay first tysm for your blog It's so lovely to have another person so passionate about my fave things (i.e hp and period dramas) Anyway, i recently read the HP series (again) and found myself feeling SO MUCH. I genuinely teared up at so many different touching parts and I was just wondering what are your favorite most heart-wrenching/emotional parts from the books? I realize this is a lengthy quesition so feel free to never answer this or take a year.

ye S SS i love being passionate ab things and sharing that passion w my followers!!!!! i love yall esp when u ask me questions like this where i get to talk ab my fave things everrrrrrrrr (ps thank u so much for letting me take forever to answer this ur so cute to say that ilysm)

ok so literally i will cry my way thru the entire series when i reread bc harry potter has so much emotional weight for me and so many memories that go along with it. but i decided to limit myself to just 10 bc otherwise id be sitting here typing all day. so w/o further ado: 

AURORA’S TOP 10 MOST TEARFUL HARRY POTTER MOMENTS: 

((in no particular order)) 

  1. HARRY READS LILY’S LETTER IN DH: listen harry doesnt actually spend a lot of the books angsting over the fact that he doesnt have parents but in moments like this u remember he IS AN ORPHAN AND IT GETS ME SO HARD. fuk like just picturing harry crouched on the floor of sirius’s bedroom reading that letter… rereading it… crying… wow.gif!!!!! the line that makes me cry eveRY TIME is “She had made her g’s the same way he did : he searched through the letter for every one of them, and each felt like a friendly little wave glimpsed from behind a veil.“ LIKE RIP RIP RIP ABORT ABORT ABORT ITS TOO SAD!!!!!
  2. THE LOST PROPHECY IN OOTP: JESSESCREAMING.JPEG!!!!!!!!!!!! listen ,,, i talk ab this chapter so much on my blog. it is my #1 favorite moment in my #1 favorite harry potter book which is my #1 favorite series of all time. SO ITS A PRETTY BIG DEAL. harry’s reaction to sirius’s death… his anger at dumbledore… his grief… his discovery of his fate… its beautiful writing and its so painful but so amazing to read. LIKE!!!!! MY BABY!!! HE’S LOST SO MANY PEOPLE!!!!!!!! MY SWEET SUMMER CHILD!!!!!!!!!! “I DON’T CARE!“ Harry yelled at them, snatching up a lunascope and throwing it into the fireplace. “I’VE HAD ENOUGH, I’VE SEEN ENOUGH, I WANT OUT, I WANT IT TO END, I DON’T CARE ANYMORE!” “You do care,” said Dumbledore. He had not flinched or made a single move to stop Harry demolishing his office. His expression was calm, almost detached. “You care so much you feel as though you will bleed to death with the pain of it.”” LIKE LITERALLY WHEN I GET TO THIS POINT I HAVE TO TAKE A BREAK BC IM CRYING SO MUCH I CANT MAKE OUT THE WORDS!!!!!!!!!!!! also fun story: one time i was listening to ootp on audiobook while on vacation and we were in the car waiting to taxi on to a ferry boat and we were listening to this chapter when the ferry guy came by to take our tickets and i had like TEARS STREAMING DOWN MY FACE and jim dale is yelling as harry in the background…. the guy was like ‘is this bitch ok??’ lmaOOOOo 
  3. HARRY AND THE MIRROR OF ERISED IN SS:  this is another one of those moments where you remember that harry is an orphan and its /so/ painful. thinking about this teeny 11 year old baby harry sneaking out every night just to sit in front of this mirror so he can see his parents………my darling baby sweetheart i love him So Much. it just makes me so sad like hes /so young/ AND HE JUST WANTS TO SEE HIS PARENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHH!! it also gives way to one of my all time favorite hp quotes: “It does not do well to dwell on dreams and forget to live.” 
  4. HARRY STOPS SIRIUS AND LUPIN FROM KILLING PETER IN POA: me reading this part is literally ISAYTHATSMYBABYANDIMREALLYPROUD.GIF!!!!!! like!! my boy!! he finds out this man literally caused the death of his parents and he MAKES THE GROWN ASS ADULTS SPARE HIS LIFE… LIKE… he literally acts twice his age and is so mature and is just…….so amazing. it shows such strength and wisdom and it makes me SO PROUD. the way he references james also makes me cry because you see the relationship harry has with james even though he’s literally never met him and its so beautiful. i love harry so much. 
  5. HARRY AFTER SECTUMSEMPER-ING MALFOY IN HBP: this is literally the opposite of that last one where im so proud of harry this is def… not one of his best moments lol. he rly rly fucks up and his guilt is so raw and it makes me so emotional because i feel SO bad for him. its def an important harry moment in the books because it shows his flaws and the consequences of his rage, but it also shows how GOOD he is because he feels so bad about what happens and like willingly takes his punishment even though it means that he cant play in the quidditch match. he really like… atones and even tho its rough to read i def love that its a part of the series bc its a really like watershed moment for harry and i think it really reminds him of the wizard he wants to be. this part also leads to i think a more satisfying harry/ginny first kiss bc ginny defends harry and then him not going to the game leads to “several sunlit days” AKA ONE OF MY FAVE HP MOMENTS EVER!!!!!!!!!!!
  6. HARRY AND HERMIONE VISIT JAMES AND LILY’S GRAVE IN DH: “But they were not living, thought Harry: They were gone. The empty words could not disguise the fact that his parents’ moldering remains lay beneath snow and stone, indifferent, unknowing.And tears came before he could stop them, boiling hot then instantly freezing on his face, and what was the point in wiping them off or pretending? He let them fall, his lips pressed hard together, looking down at the thick snow hiding from his eyes the place where the last of Lily and James lay, bones now, surely, or dust, not knowing or caring that their living son stood so near, his heart still beating, alive because of their sacrifice and close to wishing, at this moment, that he was sleeping under the snow with them.”  THIS IS ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS THAT I HAVE TO STOP READING BC IM CRYING SO MUCH I CANT MAKE OUT THE WORDS ANYMORE. I CRIED TYPING THIS. IM SO SAD. 
  7. THE FOREST AGAIN IN DH: hoo boy. hoooooo boy this is a Big One. this one is really…. wow. just. wow. [deep breath]. there is So Much in this chapter that makes me cry where do i even START. harry realizing that he has to die and ACCEPTING IT BRAVELY LIKE THE HERO HE IS. “Why had he never appreciate what a miracle he was,  brain and nerve and bounding heart?” im crying….. hes so good. HARRY NEARLY STOPPING WHEN HE SEES GINNY and ginny’s crying and comforting some girl and im crying too. JAMES. SIRIUS. LILY. REMUS. WHEN HARRY ASKS IF IT HURTS TO DIE LIKE LITEARLLY I HAVE TO PUT THE BOOK DOWN AND GET UP  AND WLAK AROUND THE ROOM BECAUSE I GET SO EMOTIONAL LIKE. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! when harry sees harry and screams at him ……………… rip in pieces me!!!!!!!! ALSO ONE OF HIS LAST THOUGHTS BEFORE THE AVADA KEDAVRA IS OF GINNY AND KISSING HER……….. [GUNSHOTS] [SCREAMING]
  8. BELLATRIX TORTURES HERMIONE IN DH: fuk this scene is no joke scary like it took harry potter to another level of real darkness. hermione being tortured was so chilling like beautiufl amazing smart snarky hermione it was so painful to read like my heart rate goes up when i read it bc im worried for my girl :/ and ron is sHAKING and like screaming and literally throwing himself at the walls to try to get to her and its SO upsetting like. they are still CHILDREN like theyre all so young and they dont deserve this like. hearing her plead and stuff … its just…. too much. these are my CHILDREN i have to PROTECT them. 
  9. HARRY DIGS DOBBYS GRAVE IN DH: this is another one of those harry moments where i just want to give him a huge hug. like he insists on digging dobby’s grave by hand which is just ….. [gets choked up] its fine. and his thoughts while he dig make me so sad. he so /tired/. hes so frustrated with dumbledore and he the hallows and the horcruxes and he feels responsible for what happened. and ron coming out and helping him dig silently makes me so happy and its one of those times u really see how much rons friendship means to harry. and harry comes out of this like … older and more mature? his wisdom and knowledge is rly apparent when he talks with griphook and olivander right after this like. he knows what hes going to do. hes made his choice. hes not going to race voldemort for the wand. i love him so much for that choice. hes such a grown man in this part like accepting responsibility, taking care of hermione and everyone like getting things in order. i love him. 
  10. MRS WEALSEY HUGS HARRY IN THE HOSPITAL WING IN GOF“’It wasn’t your fault, Harry,’ Mrs. Weasley whispered. ‘I told him to take the cup with me,’ said Harry. Now the burning feeling was in his throat too. He wished Ron would look away. Mrs. Weasley set the potion down on the bedside cabinet, bent down, and put her arms around Harry. He had no memory of ever being hugged like this, as though by a mother. The full weight of everything he had seen that night seemed to fall in upon him as Mrs. Weasley held him to her. His mothers face, his father’s voice, the sight of Cedric, dead on the ground all started spinning in his head until he could hardly bear it, until he was screwing up his face against the howl of misery fighting to get out of him.” HARRY POTTER DESERVES MORE HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he feels so guilty about cedric and god bless mrs weasley for telling him it wasnt his fault because it WASNT!!! he did so amazing in the graveyard like.. .he saw voldemort return and he fought him and he survived and he saw his paretns and hE TOOK CEDRICS BODY BACK SO IT COULD BE WITH HIS FAMILY!!!!!!!! HE TOOK IT BACK FOR THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  i would die a thousand deaths if it meant that harry didnt have to experience this pain!!!!

whew so there we go!!!!! the bottom line is obviously that i love the harry potter series more than anything and specifically i love the boy harry potter so so SO much and his suffering is agonizing to read and he didnt deserve any of it!!! i can litearlly think of SO many more heartbreaking moments in the series but here are just a handful. happy birthday to harry!!! 

sirius and lupin headcanons 

  • so order of phoenix right like you can bet your butt that sirius and lupin are alone a lot together
  • and i like to think that even though they love each other, it took them a long time to get familiar again with one another, like they are always best friends but becoming lovers again (especially for sirius after azkaban) gets getting used to
  • because even though it feels right it just takes time for sirius but lupin is patient
  • so anyway 
  • their relationship is a secret; only dumbledore and mr and mrs wealsey know about it
  • so when everyone is asleep and lupin “goes home” sirius sneaks him back in and they go to his room, and for a couple of nights during the summer they just kiss a lot and maybe touch each other and lupin tells sirius how much he missed him 
  • they talk about james and lily a lot. sirius allows himself to cry at these moments, because harry isnt there and lupin knows, he knows how he feels and the two of them hold each other and sirius closes his eyes and sees james, and he knows james would be happy for them
  • the night they make love for the first time in so long, its magic and soft, because this is right and sirius is finally okay and lupin has him back 
  • christmas is such a thing because lupin gives him a book and it is such a lupin thing to do and sirius goes into his closet and takes out his leather jacket “do you remember this one?” he asks and remus throws his head back and laughs and lupin so rarely laughs so hard these days “its the one you wore summer of our sixth year” and sirius winks “you liked this one the best” and he gives it to remus and says “i want you to have it” its odd and sentimental because theres no reason to give it to remus, but remus remembers the number of make out sessions and late night walks and ice cream dates theyve had with this jacket being worn
  • lupin comes home after a full moon, ragged and torn and tired, and god he looks awful and he just slumps into sirius’ arms, and sirius murmurs loving things in his ear and god he wishes he could just make lupin feel better
  • one soft night lupin says “it could be like this you know, you and me, forever” sirius nods and kisses him “i think we spent enough time apart”
  • a few days later, sirius dies at the hands of his cousin
  • lupin holds harry close and thats all he can do, because he has to think about harry, because its harry who is hurting. and harry didnt know about the two of them. harry just lost someone who was a brother, a best friend, a father and a godfather
  • lupin watches sirius body fall through the veil and the world is spinning and god he wants to die he wants to fall apart he wants to burn the world down he wants to fall into the abyss
  • he goes home that night and cries for hours, he holds the jacket close to his body and wishes to take himself out too because now hes lost it all. lily, james and sirius. 
  • he wears the jacket all day long, he sleeps in it, he goes in sirius’ room before the order clears out and takes his packet of cigarettes and pockets it. he finds pictures of the two of them, or with james and takes them with him as well
  • the book he gave to sirius is open on the floor, sirius was writing in the margins. one line is highlighted, some cheesy line about love, and over it sirius has written remus’ name
  • lupin cant breathe
  • one day he goes to see dumbledore, and he can only sit in the chair with his head and his hands “i cant understand what it means to live” and dumbledore says the only thing he can say “sirius would want you to live”
  • “i cannot live without him”
  • “you should know by now that he lives within you remus. he loves you, he is with you”
  • “im empty”
  • he goes to visit harry too, at some point during the holidays they sit together outside the weasley’s home and lupin has feelings for tonks but hasnt acted on them yet and no one knows about that either, not that it compares to this grief and guilt and undying love after so many years of friendship
  • harry is soft and sad “i miss him all the time” because only lupin understands really
  • lupin grabs harrys hand “i miss him too harry” and they can say nothing else because thats all there is