I want to know how you sleep at night. I want to know if your lies sit on the tip of your tongue and if each time you kiss her, she sizzles in your toxicity. I want to know how you can cheat on her every day and not feel any remorse.
I guess my forgiveness towards you was a lot like your love for me. Most days I don’t feel like giving you my forgiveness because my heart doesn’t feel it. The only thing I feel towards you now is anger. But that’s the thing about forgiveness and love, they’re not just a feeling, they’re a choice. So while you’re a slave to you ever-changing feelings, I make my decisions with my head. That’s why everyday I choose to forgive you, even though my heart tells me you don’t deserve it. But I guess that’s just the difference between you and me.
I’m finally falling for someone else after so long. I thought you’d taken away my ability to love. Broken me beyond repair. But that’s not true. So tell me why even while my mind is filled with thoughts of him, you still manage to be on it everyday?
I waited around for you
hoping you’d say something.
I wanted you to at least let me know
But days went by and all I heard was radio silence.
Slowly the fire that was once there
began to fizzle.
I would no longer light up at
the mention of you
or wish for a different outcome.
That was when I knew,
I knew that it was time to add your name to the list of people
who didn’t care enough to stay.