moving house is stressful

can I get some good vibes, pls?

I sent in my application (about a week ago) to a job at one of the libraries in Tulsa. it’s full-time, includes benefits, and pays a salary that would let me afford a NICE apartment. not just like, nice-for-our-broken-millenial-dreams

like

this bitch has a pool, a yoga studio, a fitness room with exercise equipment, a tv lounge / mini library / open kitchen space

every apartment has a 17 x 9 balcony I could put planters in for flowers

all stainless steel appliances AND pets are allowed

I would only be 1 mile (~5 min by car) away from the library, right next to the riverside with jogging paths, and tulsa is a very liberal city in a very red state!

so yeah, this could be life-changing and a huge improvement for me and I’d really appreciate prayer, well-wishes, just any sort of positive thought you could send out for me

Hi guys!

It’s me. That girl who used to be around all the time and post lots of food photos and gym selfies. I’m still around, and will be back at it quite soon.

Seeing as I’m starting the 29th year of my life today and some big changes are on the horizon, I figured I would stop in for an update.

The last two months or so have been insane for me – we’ve been in the process of buying a home, and closing is set for Friday! Two days from now! So the madness is hopefully almost over.

We’ve also been trying to sell our house that we currently own. The first buyers we had fell through, but I’m happy to say we have a new buyer and are under contract with them now. Fingers crossed that we close on that sale next month. It’s been nothing but issue after issue and I can’t wait to have it in the rear view.

Fitness-wise, I’ve been utter shit lately, but to be honest with the packing and everything that’s going on, it’s not surprising. I do, however, plan to totally shift my lifestyle back to happy healthy Val once we move in to the new place. I’m looking forward to forming new habits in a new environment where I’m happy. My husband is completely on board to do the same.

So I reckon that you’ll be seeing lots more of me again once my life normalizes a bit more. I freakin miss you guys.

Tanked // Kim Jongin

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anonymous asked:

leela that liveshow was. a lot. so cute. Dan talking about love made me 👀

it was definitely a lot oh my god. one of my favorites in a long time and a real treasure trove of open stories, asides, opinions, and general insights into his mind, his opinions on work, his life, and of course, yes, his thoughts on love. i almost wondered if he was a little bit tipsy from the sushi dinner he mentioned going on since he’s always sort of told us that he’s pretty sensitive to wine (he was tipsy while editing that sims video when he left the flipside christmas party in december and he’d only had one glass of wine?) because honestly there was so much rambling and vulnerability in this that i wasn’t prepared for. uhhh, brace yourselves bc this is like,, the longest shit i’ve written about them in ages. i can always count on a dan live show to bring out my inner desires to write an actual novel haha

INSIGHTS ABOUT HIMSELF

the meditation bit. that was so lovely on so many levels. to know that he’s tried meditating is one thing. to watch him try to walk us through some of the fundamental tenets of a meditative mindset was another. it was so fascinating to me to hear him confirm the way in which he feels plagued by the onslaught of noise in his life, and crucially, for him, that’s all online noise—he kept talking about imaginary conversations, how all of our communication is text on the internet, and that he ingests so many of those voices constantly and always feels their presence. even though that is a generalizable thing that all of us suffer from, to an extent, in a world where we’re so digitally connected, it’s staggering to think about the scale on which he has to deal with all of the white noise and that all of it is both distressing to him and also inescapable in that it’s the foundation of his career. i just see dan as being someone who is so internally conflicted about so many things and that includes, most centrally, the role of the internet and his presence on it, and it doesn’t take much reaching to understand why he must love and hate it in equal measure.

the hydration campaign. y’all i’ve been trying to track every stay hydrated mention since the one in pinof 8 when they literally made like a psa, with no explanation or context, about the importance of water and staying hydrated and just stuck it in the middle of that vid. i’ve lost track though bc they’ve worked it into nearly every video they’ve made since then and i WANT TO KNOW WHAT ITS ABOUT. i am adamant that it’s an inside joke of some sort. i don’t think they actually give a fuck how much water we drink lol. so today when dan was like “i need to find a way to work that into the next video .. .might already be in it,” and then at the end when he said he needs to leave to go “get hydrated,” i was living bc it was the most open confirmation yet that this is something they’re so intentionally doing and working into their vids. idk if it’s just a funny thing but … my instinct is that it has some sort of deeper meaning that only they know and i’m ANNOYED THEYRE ALLOWED TO RUB THESE JOKES RIGHT IN OUR FACES UGH. jk they can carry on w their married behavior but. i want it all to lead to some sort of announcement that they’re starting a joint bottled water business at the very least. or maybe its just a euphemism for sex. who knows. ugh

dan acknowledging his pretentiousness about music is all i’ve ever wanted. it’s so funny to me how just his self-awareness that he is very pretentious and particular about his tastes is all i needed to forgive him for all of it because what pissed me off more than anything ever about dan’s approach to talking about music were his flimsy attempts at trying to act like he was so accepting and tolerant of all people’s music tastes and that he’s some sort of diplomatic saint who respects and celebrates everyone’s preferences bc … literally no he fucking doesn’t he has never even tried to make it convincing hahah. so him just outright apologizing for it today in his usual self-deprecating fashion was like the funniest, best thing to me bc god at least he knows and realizes and like maybe now he can actually work on talking about music in the deeper and complex ways that he so clearly wants to. also as a music snob in my own right i feel him on this and i’ve always just found it way easier to preface every conversation w the clear statement that these r just my own standards and i’m a douche and i’m never actually trying to disrespect anyone who might like different things than me. anyway, i love dan

INSIGHTS ABOUT WORK & LIFE

i suspected and even posted about the fact that unexpected things might have happened this week that caused phil to be delayed in posting his video and dan to be all but silent on twitter for several days. i speculated dan may not have been in a good place this week based on his silence and also the way he seemed to teeter on the brink of quite overt negativity during last week’s live show. to me, today’s live show seemed fully in the throes of that negative headspace. there was a resurgence of bleak little comments about how he’s tired (of living), how he looks like a rat and doesn’t want to be reminded about the reality of his existence, how his life is a joke, how he can’t comprehend that anyone could draw inspiration from his videos or that his stories could brighten people’s days, etc. etc. all said as casual asides and mostly followed by little laughs as is his norm, but it was very reminiscent to me of the time in early january around his 2016 memes video and his first couple live shows of the year where he talked so frequently about craving death and feeling anxious and judging his own work output too harshly, and the constant pressure of scrutiny from his audience. i don’t think this live show was as bad as all of that but it’s clear that things might be a bit difficult right now and dan confirmed that himself when he stated that it’s been a challenging week in ways he can’t talk about with us yet. i was so interested to hear him say we could ask him about it in like five months though. literally,,, i put it in my calendar for august because i’m just so curious. we have almost no hints to go off of in terms of speculating about what it could be, but to me the fact that we would be able to ask him five months from now seems to suggest that it’s not personal (i jokingly wrote in tags that he and phil had gotten in a tiff this week lol) bc if it was he wouldn’t mention it at all i don’t think and definitely at the very least wouldn’t have given us such a specific timeframe about when we could ask about it. it’s likely work-related bc of that timeframe: a new project of some sort that will be out later this year, for which perhaps several planning meetings or deadlines had to happen/be met this week? it’s hard to say why that would put dan in such a negative headspace but he’s said before that he gets that way when he’s sleep deprived and he did just seem very very tired beneath everything. … also possible it could be about moving? maybe house hunting was very stressful and didn’t go to plan. late summer (five months from now) would be a fitting time for them to have made their move, and really it’s the only other possible thing i can think of with a timeframe that dan would specifically tell us. in any case,,, mark your cals for august y’all bc i actually can’t wait to hear more insights about this week even if we have to wait months for them.

that being said, the new dinof video is coming tmrw or the day after and he was still pretty vague about what it will be about. as i spelled out in completely unnecessary detail after last week’s live show i believe he was going to make the video about dropping the dinof user name but then changed his mind (this is the video he referenced today when he said “i was going to make a video but then decided it should be the next one” before going on like a 3-min rant about how sometimes he just feels the timing isn’t right to post a particular video.) so that leaves the field wide open for what this next vid could be. the only other hint we got was that it could be kink-related because the premium he opened that said “kinkshame me daddy” prompted him to say “well you’ll like my next vid,” but then he quickly walked it back as though to dispel anyone’s expectations that it would be kink-related? it was all a bit confusing. on that subject he did note down the idea of doing a video about going to the dentist back in a february live show, so there’s a high possibility to me that it could be about that since it’s like sort of (maybe jokingly) a kink for him, but he wouldn’t want to tease something that’s mostly NOT about kinks by saying it’s kink-related, hence his rapid back-tracking. but like. tbh who knows … dan is confusing and could pull something totally out of left field behind all of this quibbling. i mostly ardently agree with the way he told us to feel about it, which is to have literally no expectations or theories about what it could be hahah … best advice he’s ever given tbh

confirmation that he and phil will attend playlist this year, and a sort of allusion to the traditional lester clan april holiday in florida. probably means that he will join them again this year. it was kind of nice to hear him basically walk us through how all of their decisions about conventions and travel are made jointly, even months and months into the future, and to have no qualms with sharing that. he also just kept reiterating vaguely that they might have plans at various points of the year and idk about y’all but i feel like he’s trying his hardest to let us know that those plans involve each other and probs always will. could be work things (the same project that may have caused them stress this week), could, as he said in his own words back in january, be “life things.” could be both. but regardless, the plans are always danandphil things, both of them together, and i’m not sure how there is still a strain of people that insists on arguing that a moving apart or separation is on the horizon for this year. all of that is summed up in this one amazing exchange for me, when someone in the chat asks, “are you excited for australia again?” and he answers, “yeah, we are.”

i also really dug the insight about how he likes to structure his work in such a way that he’s working for three weeks straight with no days off and then takes a whole week to lose himself in a game. it’s very dan to be so all or nothing about the way that he works and to become consumed so completely by whatever’s at hand (whether it’s work or leisure) and although i might’ve suspected that that’s how he operates i don’t think we’ve ever heard him lay it out that clearly

INSIGHTS ABOUT PHIL & LOVE

that he opened this live stream with such an earnest celebration of phil (thanking him, literally, for existing and making videos even though it was technically a misspeak) was so lovely and not what i expected but it set a nice tone for the start of this stream. the bants-y way in which he acknowledge the subscriber gap was also a tiny bit noteworthy to me, especially in light of that ask i answered recently about how they must approach the subscriber gap. i argued it def isn’t something they are sensitive about and probs isn’t something they joke about either, but dan sort of showed that he might approach it w humor if the situation calls for it rather than ignore it altogether. interesting. he’s clearly so proud of phil and was a little flustered in talking about how exciting the milestone was. and then, relatedly, so so animated and excited about “promo-ing (awkward pause and sidelong glance) his pal” and the gym video. i fucking loved hearing his version of the story and how surprisingly soft and tender he sounded when he was describing phil on the phone asking for an exercise plan (like, his tone was verging on adoring there) and then the way he looked when he got back. the way that dan says “what happened?” when he’s recounting how he talked to phil after he got home literally set my heart aflutter bc it was sooooooooo concerned-sounding even in a re-enactment, even in front of thousands of people, so i can’t even imagine how worried he must have genuinely been in that moment. the thing w videos is that they allow these real-life stories that happen to dnp to take on a sort of surreal almost fictional feel bc of the storytelling dnp employ—videos have like a real narrative arc and they’re packaged to be entertaining so in some ways it’s easy to forget that this is actually a true thing that happened. phil lester went to the gym and threw up twice from over-exertion and came home in half the time he was supposed to be gone and dan, the worried partner, was there to receive him when he did. and then, of course, to get super angry on his behalf and tell us about it later. i was literally rejoicing to hear dan be so honest about his emotional reaction to this happening to phil bc it might be something he would have usually phrased another way (‘can u believe phil asked for this one thing and got this other thing instead what is wrong with people this is why we don’t go outside’) instead of literally just stating his emotion so bluntly (‘i was actually like really mad … like honestly i was so angry when he told me.’) that difference in communicating how he feels is so hugely important to me and it’s what gave the story so much dimension,, i could literally picture dan and his instinct towards protectiveness that we’ve seen time and time and time again when it comes to phil, just full of irritation, disbelief, and actual anger in that moment and he had no problem with telling us that was what happened. i nearly thought that when he said he couldn’t go to that gym bc he didn’t want to see kyle/leon, that he was saying any real-life encounter with him would end in dan giving kyle/leon an angry speech about his lack of professionalism and total ineptitude at his job. i totally believe that it would.

the other part of dan’s reaction that i feel is worth noting is the way that he immediately said to phil that he needs to learn to be more assertive in a knowing tone as though it’s something they discuss often and, to be honest, it IS something that has come up before over and over in the way that dan portrays phil. that he’s too “polite” to call people out if they’re abusing him online, that he believes in things like etiquette and courtesy, that his personality is adorable and, in not so many words, soft. we even have seen him describe it in certain specific real life scenarios. an example that comes to mind is when they were doing the joint live show in november last year and dan wanted to talk about the sound guy who fucked up his mic at dapgoose LA, subsequently causing him to loose his voice for the boncas. dan clearly wanted to go off about how incapable the sound guy had been but asks phil for permission basically, and phil tempers dan’s response a lot and recounts the situation diplomatically. a random example that also comes to mind from ages ago is in dan’s what not to do at the cinema video from 2012 where he talks about a scenario when he and phil go out to see a movie and he, dan, is assertive enough to both 1. ask for people to completely get up and move if they’re sitting in his and phil’s seats, and, 2. shush them if they’re being too loud. he even acts out phil saying “oh my god you did not just do that, i don’t know you,” and trying to hide. i feel like this is a difference between them that’s sometimes under-discussed  or noticed because the main focus is always on their anxieties and insecurities and general distaste for human interaction. people also focus on phil making small talk with people in social settings and take that to mean that he is more confident and calm. but i earnestly believe that he is more reserved than dan in many ways and that includes in facing negative or stressful situations and dan, despite his own set of anxieties, has always been much more able and willing to demand and ask for what he feels he (or phil) deserves.

obvi the thing everyone wants to talk about (and i’m right there with y’all) is dan’s truly surprising decision to entertain a question about love and then give a definition of it. after a bit of waffling and dithering about whether it is or isn’t a social construct he seems to insist that it is a real feeling and defines it as “the fear of that person not being there mixed with sexual attraction.” super interesting to me because he seems to totally approach this question from his own perspective and experience which is why in the moment he seems to suggest that you need to experience sexual attraction in order to love people (and where does that leave people on the ace spectrum?) and, moreover, that love is definitely a feeling people feel (and where does that leave aromantic people?) he definitely interprets the question to be about romantic love rather than talking about something perhaps “safer” for his usual topics such as platonic love or familial love and it’s for that reason that i definitely think he was trying to say that this is what love means to him and in his own experience because i don’t think he would be so cavalier about conflating romantic and sexual attraction and implying that asexuality and romantic attraction cannot coexist in one person if he had had time to think about this answer rather than spontaneously deciding to answer it on the spot.

but that he’s speaking from his own experience obviously makes his answer profoundly interesting because he settles on, coincidentally or perhaps not, one of the only ways of expressing affection for phil by proxy that he’s ever been okay with sharing with us, which is that he needs phil around bc he can’t bear to be alone. this combined with the protectiveness/defensiveness he exhibits for phil pretty consistently, as well as the occasional recognition of phil’s creativity, are pretty much the full spectrum of ways in which dan ever talks about what he feels for phil in a public setting. it was so strangely emotional for me to hear him confirm that his fear of being alone and being without this hypothetical “love” is so fundamental to the experience of love for him that it becomes a big part of the way he defines it. i mean people make fun of dan’s neediness all the time in so many ways but he straight out confirms here that the feeling of needing your partner near you at all times and staving off the genuinely frightening prospect of the anxiety of being alone are so central to what he takes the experience of love to mean. and that’s true for both of them i feel because as “needy” as dan is, phil is just as attached, chooses to spend all of these moments with dan, chooses to call dan up on stage when he wins solo awards, chooses to travel and socialize and create and live with dan next to him always. the concerning degrees of codependency they exhibit are such common topics of conversation amongst us as outside observers that it’s very nearly startling to hear dan basically say that, yes, this dependency on this other person, this feeling of paralysis when they’re not there, that’s what love is to him, fundamentally. it’s the awareness that your life would be empty without them around. that is … concerning honestly, and as always i have some burning questions about how they make such an unhealthy level of codependency work but like. they do. they so clearly do. they have for so long and they show signs every day of only growing stronger and happier in their partnership, if that’s even possible.

then there’s the sexual attraction bit which like, sure. obvi.

i also thought it was immensely noteworthy that when he read out “some people never find love” from one of the chat comments he didn’t even try a little bit to make it relatable and crack some joke about being forever alone or even just a cheeky little “same.” like just, generally speaking, he approached this whole topic very much with the tone of 1. someone who has definitely experienced the emotion of love, 2. someone who is then trying to articulate the emotion of love as he experiences it, and 3. someone who still feels that emotion and is in proximity to that person to whom it is directed. there were no attempts at trying to say he can’t relate or that he doesn’t know (or to apply it to FOOD which he has said on countless occasions is the number one love of his life,) and if anything he got quite flustered and even red around his ears and cheeks by the end of the whole ramble. flustered but not actually uncomfortable, at least in my assessment. it was really so, so lovely and incredibly insightful. not a topic i ever ever thought i’d hear him venture into and certainly not in a live stream and certainly not in that much depth. to me the whole topic played out almost as though he couldn’t let some overly analytical smartass in the chat reduce this emotion that clearly means so much to him into a mere social construct or even a release of hormones (oxytocin). he needed to push back and play devil’s advocate, but instead of doing that in a contemplative philosophical way he somewhat accidentally got super personal with it and this ramble and completely rare look into dan’s experience w this particularly touchy emotion is what we got. it reminds me a lot of the vyou he answered back in 2012 about whether he believes in love, in which he is quite literally upset and completely rude to the person who asked it, saying “no offense to you but what kind of a stupid question is that?” as though he has never even entertained the possibility that people could not believe that love is a true feeling and emotion. it’s incredible to see that 6 years later dan has evolved in so many ways and is calmer and more thoughtful about so many things, but on this subject little has changed: love is so important to him and there’s no way for him to talk about it without immediately demonstrating that :( :( :(

“hydrate, meditate, contemplate, get a mate.” such a fitting closing line because is there any set of four directives that better encompass who dan is lol? overall such a good live show with so many moments of vulnerability and emotional openness. however dan really is in this moment i hope things only get better and better for him and that he can get over whatever hurdles have been holding him back from dinof and that he can edit/post this video and then let himself take that week off that he mentioned wanting, in order to play games and chill or at least get to a calmer place. love him lots :(((

(live show: meditation and hydration with your new life coach - 2017.03.14)

Moving update

Apologies for being pretty absent this week, it’s been a weird one. We got news we were being kicked out of our home in 2 months on Tuesday morning which was a complete shock. We channelled all the anger, frustration and confusion into looking for somewhere new to live. We contacted people about approximately 40 - 50 places, the majority of which wouldn’t consider us because we have pets, others wouldn’t consider us because we’re on disability.

Long story short we found somewhere! We viewed it on Thursday and loved it so put an application in that evening. It’s an amazing location and it’s actually nicer than where we live now! The letting agency has to do background and credit checks on myself and my partner but if they come back okay (which they should!) the place is ours 😊 It’s bank holiday tomorrow in the UK so the checks won’t be sent off til Tuesday so it’s a bit more waiting for final confirmation but we have provisionally said to move on the week of the 22nd May.

We’re focusing on packing now. We had therapy today and have been packing since we got home and it’s been such a long week so we’re exhausted but I wanted to share our news! My anxiety about not knowing where we’re going has gone down but anxiety and stress about the move are through the roof. It’s going to be a tough few weeks looking after ourselves, my partner and all the normal stress that comes with moving. I apologise in advance if we’re cranky or slow to answer things!

It’s obviously great news but there are mixed reactions to it all in the system so I’m feeling quite torn, not that that is a new concept to me..

anonymous asked:

I think it's settled that Even didn't fall in love because he was manic. Is it possible that he went manic because he fell in love?

Thanks for saying that’s settled. I did write a lot about it didn’t I? XD I got really excited by your question so thanks for asking it!
Now onto your question:

Firstly, I’m not actually sure Even is in love with Isak by the end of sesong 3. I’m part of these horrible people who believe Isak’s “does it matter?” at the end of the sesong is one of the most beautiful, healthy, and ultimately romantic ending we could have gotten and I am so grateful for it.

Of course, that only speaks of Isak’s state of mind at that moment, not Even’s. But the only time Even said he loved Isak was in his suicide text. That’s not a romantic “elsker deg”. That’s a: I’m going to die, I cared a lot about you and the only words strong enough for what I am feeling in this moment of distress are “elsker deg”.

To me, at the end of the sesong, they are both on their way to falling in love but they’re not quite there yet. It doesn’t mean they don’t care deeply about each other and it won’t prevent me from referencing to their relationship as “love”. They love each other just not quite the absolute romantic way yet. But that’s just my opinion/headcanon.

Secondly, hypo/manic episodes can get triggered as well as they can happen seemingly untriggered. Amongst the triggers for an episode, we have anything that causes a change in routine and/or stress/anxiety/any-fucking-strong-emotion-ever. A new relationship is amongst them.
But a lot of the time, what will trigger an episode is a combination of things. For example: you could be moving houses. That, in itself, is the most stressful thing in the world. But it’s often not an isolated trigger. With moving houses we often change jobs too, get away from our usual group of friends, have to learn new habits, new routines, get used to new environment, etc.
Maybe you are moving in with a loved one? That too is stressful: what if the relationship doesn’t work? Or what if it does? What if you’re made for each other and it’s the most glorious and important day ever and AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
All of these combined make for a great trigger.

But saying that Even’s crush on Isak triggered his mania would be unfair to Isak and fundamentally untrue. I think it was a combination of things:

Even had an episode at Bakka (we still don’t know if it was mania, mind you, could have been depression or mixed or hypomania) from which he is still reeling, at least socially. He just changed schools (1), is having problems with his long term (2bis) girlfriend (2), has rumours being spread about him (3), has probably lost a few friends (4), develops a new crush (5), is smoking and drinking regularly (6, although some people react well to weed and use it successfully to self medicate and I don’t want to generalise) then he breaks up with his girlfriend (7), gets into a new romantic relationship (8) and he stopped sleeping much (9).

That’s a lot to happen to Even in a very short time.
I think more than “did Even go manic because he fell in love?” it’s “did Even go manic because a lot of important parts of his life changed radically in a very short amount of time and that would make anyone freak out but his brain has a special kind of freak out?”.

And to that second question, I say yes. Very likely.

Thanks again for your question! (I’m going to put it under “the flippening!” in my SKAM&bipolar masterpost hehehe) It was fun to think about.

EDIT 07/05/2017: I changed my mind regarding Even and Isak loving each other.

Sunday mornings mean smoothie bowls and early market trips🌞🍓 I’ve been so busy and stressed lately with Uni, moving house and a few other unexpected happenings, that having a couple of days off at our new home with my family was so much needed🙏🏼 Remember that, as much as it’s important to keep pushing on, taking care of yourself and resting when you need it is JUST as important❤️ Do something for yourself today. You deserve it.✨

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I Need You

I Need You

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You were antsy, waiting for Jungkook at home. This was the third night in a row that he’d gone out with his co workers. You were glad that he had friends at his new job. He had honestly worried so much about starting to teach at this new school. It was new and prestigious and he’d only graduated two years ago, but he had rocked his interview just like you knew he would.

You two had been married for a year and three months and even had a little dog named, Buster. It was true, the first year of marriage was hard. Despite the fact that you had dated for four years before he asked you to marry him. You’d met in college but you knew him before you’d became friends.

You had seen him in one of your classes a semester before one of your friends, Jimin, had introduced you. You thought he was gorgeous. You were in a class of over one hundred people and you sat toward the side, in the middle,  near the door. Jungkook had sat in the front row, in the middle. He was very sweet and always ready to answer questions, the teacher loved him. Luckily, you had taken a class pretty much exactly like it in high school because you definitely didn’t pay attention to anything but him.

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What moving is like for those who haven’t

On this glorious day of April 25, 2017 we learned some kind-of-but-not surprising news from our beloved British Friends. 

And I’ve realized that a lot of people are emotional (as am I) due to these events, but fear not friends. Moving is not as dramatic and drastic as it may seem for those who have never moved house before. 

I have moved nearly 6 times in my life, and I’m about to move again (in the infamous May how ironic) and I can not be any more excited about it. But anyway for those lost in the dust of despair and imagination;

Here are the 6 steps that are involved when you’re moving:

Step 1: Looking
I imagine our friends Dan and Phil were on this step for a long time.  Probably for at least a year or so. The Looking consists of tabbed websites looking at possible new house recommendations. Maybe even a few fantasy ones like “how would it be if we were to move to LA or Tokyo?” It’s when you’re constantly watching Home Improvement and Property shows gaining ideas and even opinions. You get into the habit of “I wish I could have this but I can’t because I have no room” You find yourself walking through model homes on a whim and even planning appointments with realtors and investigating your interior design knowledge. This is probably the most anticipated phase of them all before actually deciding on whether you’re going to take the challenge and move house. 

Step 2: Planning
AKA, the most stressful. When the wallet comes out and the bank stubs are studied and your requirements are heavily evaluated. It’s when you’re not-actually-an-adult-but-you-actually-are comes into play. Remember when Dan and Phil had mentioned they were seeing an accountant? I firmly believe now that they were in the Planning stage. Although they could be ranking in that dough™ financially planning to move is stressful. Down payments, security deposits, what kind of upgrades are needed, it’s all fun and games until money comes into the game and you have to revolve around the anxiety of “Do I have enough money to buy this extravagant meal because I am moving in two months” kind of ordeal. It’s not a sigh of relief until you sign your name onto that deed with the landlord that YOU’RE IN. YOU GOT A HOUSE, A NEW HOME TO COME HOME TO CONGRATULATIONS ALL THAT HARD WORK AND WORRYING HAS PAID OFF.

Step 3: Packing
The most nostalgic and depressing time of them all. When the boxes come out and start clearing the shelves you reevaluate your life and in the meanings you’ve lived in. You find things you haven’t seen in years, such as old journals, notes, pictures, important dates from months back, etc. And with Dan’s case of dropping things behind other things, this must have happened to him A LOT. It’s when you argue over which dishes you should keep or throw away. Which towels to get rid of, how many clothes you’re donating, do we really need to keep that ugly looking picture from ages ago? Are we ever going to use that bloody mixer we got as a gift? The emotional and spiritual cleansing of things you heavily think out as “will I need this in a month or can I pack it away?” The walls become bare and the air closes in tight as your home does not feel like home anymore but simply just a house; with blank walls and memories packed away in boxes. 

Step 4: Moving
Or the physical stuff that is. When I have moved, we have moved lighter things such as clothes, night stands, food, tvs, mirrors, trinkets, things that are not currently being used by absolute necessities, usually a week before Moving Day. I picture Dan and Phil either renting a car to help with the travel of lighter things or the help of a friend with a roomy vehicle to shovel all their crap into. Slowly making it easier to just finally get into the house already.
Then comes MOVING DAY. Where all the big heavy stuff is lifted into a van, poorly wrapped, and expecting something to break in the time allotted in the duration of the move. It’s the last big push to moving into the new place and it slightly feels warmer knowing that all your stuff is in a foreign land. It’s comforting. 

Step 5: Playing
When the final sweep of the old place is done, all cleaned up and washed to pristine, the keys are handed in and you have to make a new habit on which route to take to the new place. It’s when you figure out which light switch does what, where to put the paintings and house plants, if the bed looks better on this wall or that wall. When all the clothes are neatly and perfectly folded and hung up in an aesthetic way you know won’t last for a month. It’s putting the dishes into the cupboard and thinking is it ideal to put them on the second or third shelf. It’s the “you can fit like 3 bodies into this closet!” When playing around the new place you get so excited by the thought of home you never truly want to leave it. Building new furniture and exploring the new aura it brings. It’s very exciting.

Step 6: Living
Finally, your new house becomes home. Where you finally feel safe at night because the best things about your old place came with you. It doesn’t matter which walls the memories were in it’s the fact that they’re kept. It’s a new chapter to life and a fresh clean slate. This stage appears usually a few days or weeks after the big move. When you’re finally comfortable in the new place and excited to have friends over for the first time. When you finally love it more than you thought you would.

Dan and Phil are very lucky and I wish them the best of new success in the new place. For those heart broken over The London Apartment, don’t be! Because they’re taking us with them. They didn’t have to make a big broad video about moving but they did. We only get to see from the perspective they want to show us which is their living accommodations, and the fact that they shared so much within that video is truly something. 
I’m excited for them as well as whenever they plan on doing an official tour of the new house. 

It’s just a new chapter in everyone’s life. 

Hate That You Know Me

Pairing: Tyler Joseph x Reader

Song Imagine: Hate That You Know Me by Bleachers

A/N: Sorry that I haven’t been writing so much. School just got out so I will be able to write some more but I’m doing French over the summer and an acting class and drivers ed so I’ll be a bit busy. Also I heard about someone commenting Tyler and Jenna’s address on her window post. I am extremely disappointed in whoever thought that was okay. No one ever deserves to have their personal information released.


Sometimes I hate that you know me so well 
Sometimes I, I hate that you know me so well
Some days I, I wish that I wasn’t myself
No luck!
And I hate that you know me so well


The tour was finally over and having moved into a new house was a bit stressful. Tyler had wanted some new scenery and he loved being near trees so he could think. So of course, you two decided to buy a house in the woods. However, being away from family was starting to get to you. Not being from Ohio, you were a bit far from home. It had never been a problem before but with a new house maybe that was the problem.

Tyler had continuously asked what was wrong so you tried to stay away from him as much as possible. This was a bit difficult as you were still unpacking. Yesterday he had offered to take you out for dinner but you didn’t want to go anywhere. Normally you wouldn’t pass up a date so he knew something was wrong.

“(Y/N) can I talk to you?” Tyler asked as he walked into your room.

“Yeah what’s up?” Taking your eyes off the computer, you looked at his concerned face.

He sighed before continuing. “I’ve just been worried about you since we moved here. You don’t seem like yourself lately and I just want to know what’s wrong.”

“It’s nothing Tyler, just new house stress.” You looked down at your phone and the unreplied message you had sent your mom a few hours ago. Panic set in heavier than it had earlier. Something had to be wrong. She wouldn’t just not check her phone for hours on end. Tyler could clearly sense your discomfort as he walked over and wrapped his arms around you.

“Hey, breathe honey breathe.” You hadn’t noticed your breathing was uneven until you could feel his breathing. “Match my breathing. You can do it, come on. In. Out. In. Out. There you go.” You felt yourself relax as your breathing returned to normal.

“Can you tell me what’s going on now?” He looked into your eyes and tears started to form in your own.

“It’s just,” you take a deep breath, “I texted my mom a few hours ago and she hasn’t responded and I’m just really worried that something could be wrong. And I haven’t seen her in a while and I guess it’s just really gotten to me and I don’t know why. I’m not like this. I just, I don’t know. I really miss her.” You could feel Tyler’s arms tighten around you.

“Hey it’s okay. How about we lay down and relax and later we can call her okay? You’ll be okay I promise.” You take his advice and lay down on your bed with him holding you from behind. His presence and arms tightly around you make it easier to relax and you find yourself asleep before you know it.


The next couple of days went by slowly. It was Saturday and you sat on the couch watching The Grinch Stole Christmas. Tyler had said he was going to the store to pick up some much needed groceries. You haven’t had the energy to get out of bed much. Your mom still hadn’t responded to your texts. Texting her everyday almost every hour did nothing but that didn’t stop you. 

“Babe I’m home!” You looked at the door and saw Tyler and one other person. Before you could think you shot up out of your spot and ran to the person, crushing them with a hug. Without notice you could feel tears running down your cheeks. 

“Hey honey it’s okay. Tyler told me what was going on so he bought me a ticket to come here and stay for a few days. That’s why I wasn’t responding. You know how bad I am at keeping secrets.” 

“I missed you a lot mom. I don’t know why but I just really needed you.”

“It’s okay. Everyone needs someone once in a while. I talk to my mom everyday and when I don’t I get really down. You know this. It’s perfectly normal to miss your family.”

You finally unwrapped yourself from your mom and walked over to Tyler. “Thank you Ty. I love you so much. I didn’t think you were going to do something like this. But I love it.”

“Anything for my girl.” He hugs you quick and lets you get back to catching up with your mom.


A/N: This is short but I had to write something about this. My mom has been working a lot lately so I haven’t seen her much and when I do she’s busy doing something. I haven’t had alone time with my mom in months so I needed to get that off my chest. I’ll be writing more so if you guys have requests or if you don’t look forward to more.

HIATUS

We are currently in the process of moving house and stress levels are extremely high. As a direct result our mental health is taking a hit.

I have decided I am not going to be able to keep up to date with Tumblr for at least a couple of weeks. This means I won’t be able to reply to asks or messages straight away. I’m sorry for this but I need to put our mental health first.

I (Snorlax) am letting the rest of the system take a bigger role fronting from now on because I am not coping well.

Please don’t worry about us, we will be safe as my partner will be with us all the time. We care about a lot of people on here and apologise to all friends that this seems sudden.

There is a queue of posts so these will continue but at a slower rate than normal to cover the longer period so the blog isn’t completely inactive.

Thank you for your understanding and continued support. Stay safe everyone and our blog will be back to normal in a few weeks! 💜

(We have taken the wishlist down as well because our address is obviously changing)

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We at The Reef-World Foundation are always coming up with new tools to help marine businesses be more sustainable through our main project Green Fins. Our latest releases are How-To-Videos; a step by step guide to a more environmental business. 

This week’s video is ‘How to Manage Underwater Photographers’. Over the years I’ve heard so many complaints about underwater photographers - you can get so distracted in the effort to get that perfect shot you forget your underwater manners. The damage this can cause is compounded by the fact that dive guides often rely on the tips they get - and some photographers pay big bucks for the guide’s help to manipulate marine life, or turn a blind eye if they are over-flashing a critter. 

I had so much fun playing the “naughty” diver on this shoot - not only because it was a break from setting an example on every dive, but because I passionately believe one can take breath-taking, award winning photos without stressing that seahorse /frogfish/ nemo/ turtle half to death. 

No photo is worth it if it means that creature ‘moves house’ or stressed to the point of no return. Make sure you tell your guide help you not to touch the reef, to keep you steady and to remind you if you’re using too much flash and then TIP them for that behaviour. It will make the world of difference. 

NB. No marine life was hurt in the making of this video.

Moving house is so bloody stressful, and if I hadn’t already planned this house out on the Sims for a couple of months, I’d be crying every day. I’ve hardly done much as well, left most of it to Alf. But I’m also really excited! It’s just such an incredible place and it feels so right, you know? Like home. Also, I’m Zoe if we’ve never met, but if we have - how ya been?!

@vapaus-ystavyys-tasaarvo replied to your post “Only going away for a few hours yet I’ve packed my bag like I’m going…”

I CAN RELATE

Right?! It’s always like, but what if I get a chance to read or listen to music for a minute or two, better to be over prepared and keep everything. :P (Sorry, this reply is late because I just got back and now I want to curl up and sleep for 500 years.) 

So I had my 12 week scan yesterday. And I am 11 weeks 3 days. Putting my due date at the 24th November. Exactly where I thought it would be. Everything seems to be in order and little bean wouldn’t sit still. Do any of you have a theory about the potential gender (just for fun) I’m going to predict I am brewing another little man.

Still feeling sicky. Just not as often and I’m not as hungry. But that may be down to the stress of moving house. My bump is coming along nicely. Less bloat more baby by the day and I’m not sure what else to tell you. The first trimester is all throwing up and sleeping anyway.