moved on

i’ll pretend not to know how you are doing when my friends ask me about you  
i’ll pretend not to miss you when that’s the only thing i feel
i’ll pretend that i don’t want to see you when everywhere i  go yours is the only face i look for
i’ll pretend i don’t think of you when i am all alone when you are the only thing on my mind
i’ll pretend that the butterflies i feel in my stomach when you text me aren’t butterflies but leeches trying to suck my blood
i’ll pretend i never wrote a word about you when you are the only person i have ever written about  
i’ll pretend i don’t feel anything for you when you are the only person that has ever made me feel  
i’ll pretend that you don’t mean anything to me when you are the centre of my universe, have been for longer than you should be
i’ll pretend that i don’t even like you when i am in love with you
—  i’ll pretend that i have moved on from you like i never ever held onto you // JustScribbledWords
I realized, I was crying over someone who simply didn’t care. I’m finally moving on. Although you did teach me one thing, to never hold on to someone who isn’t holding on to you. As for me, I know better, as for you, you lost a person who actually cared.
“I have eventually got over you and moved on from you. You no longer have any control over me and I genuinely feel so much better now, knowing that you’re no longer a big part of my life. You’re no longer the reason for my smile, my happiness and not even my tears. So I would just like to say a big fuck you because not only have you lost me forever, but I have walked away for real this time and I won’t be looking back. From now on, its onward and upwards. You lost a girl who was there for you no matter what, who put up with all your fucking shit and drama, who forgave you for every single bad thing you did to her, but most of all you have lost someone who loved and cared for you in a way nobody else will and who would of giving you the entire world. When I look at you my eyes no longer light up at the sight of you and my belly no longer has butterflies fluttering around, only an empty feeling. I can finally say "i’m fine” and truly mean it.“
—  Me