move on without me

With time
Tears will dry,
Bruises will fade,
Cuts will heal.

But this pain in my heart
It just won’t go away.
No matter what I do.
No matter how long I wait.

—  K.N.B.

If this week is gonna teach us anything (apart from the fact Emmerdale just love those plot devices) is just how much of a grasp Aaron really does have on Robert. Robert is weighed down completely, you can almost feel the stress radiating from him. He has Liv to contend with, her skipping school, getting up to mischief, sending fines their way, being expelled, him taking on the firm parenting role, constantly doing his best for his little family and his responsibilities. Renovating Mill, keeping a watch on the scrapyard, stuck with two teens in his pub home with neither landlady present, fighting tooth and nail for Aaron’s appeal to get him back home where he belongs because boy does he miss him, pine for him, worry frantically at the thought of him in prison, alone and vulnerable and getting caught up in incidents.

I mean, yeah, he’s not sleeping great, he’s snappy, sad, mopey and desperate but he’s managing relatively ok up until this point to say he’s not really got any moral support to back him up. He’s running more errands than he can technically handle, he’s forcing lies upon himself, he’s pretending and trying to stay positive for his husband’s sake but he’s just about functioning and getting through the days one by one.

It’s inapt for him to crack so quickly under pressure, right? Surely if he’s got this far he can keep going? Only there’s one thing that changes that in an instance and triggers that inevitable heavy low point, and that’s the one man who holds so much power and leverage against him, has the key to his heart. We all know this has always been the case for Robert all through the affair era up until current married life - Aaron lashes out, alienates and pushes him away and Robert’s so devastated by the force of words, the idea that he’s no longer needed, that he subconsciously decides to take a downward spiral to the voyage of pity and destruct. 

The moment Robert discovers Aaron’s taking drugs, jeopardising his fate, breaking his promises, lying to him and telling him he’s useless despite giving him his everything is the moment the gravity of the situation and the extent of Robert’s emotions will superficially surface because ultimately, without Aaron’s desire for him, without being able to help Aaron free himself from this horrific ordeal, Robert is swiftly set for a collapsed breakdown into oblivion where he finds a purpose elsewhere. That’s the Aaron effect.

40 Prompts List

I threw together a bunch of my favorite prompts ideas since I’ve been suffering from writer’s block and need the inspiration. Feel free to reblog!

  1. “I don’t want to stop loving you.”
  2. “We were just pretending to be lovers, but I’m not pretending anymore.. I need to know if you feel the same way.”
  3. “I said you couldn’t fall in love with me, but I didn’t say I couldn’t fall in love with you.”
  4. “Promise me you’ll stay.”
  5. “I didn’t want it to end, I just thought you’d be better off without me..”
  6. “I’ve tried to move on, but no one is you.”
  7. “If this is the last time I see you, know that I love you more than anything.”
  8. “You hide it in jokes and sarcasm, but I can see how broken you are.”
  9. “Just do one last thing: Kiss me.”
  10. “Nothing has ever scared me more than being with you.”
  11. “Please.. don’t leave.”
  12. “We were never just friends.”
  13. “Don’t worry, I’ve got you.”
  14. “Are you trying to seduce me?”
  15. “I miss you every second of every day.”
  16. “I’m trying to forget you the best I can, but damn it, we belong together.”
  17. “You say I got us into this, but you didn’t stop it from happening, either.”
  18. “I always overthink, just let me do something thoughtless for once in my life.”
  19. “After everything… I’d still choose you.”
  20. “If you had asked me to stay, I would’ve.”
  21. “You’re too good for this world.”
  22. “How long do we have?”
  23. “Do you think we’re bad people?” 
  24. “I know it doesn’t seem like it, but I’m going to take care of you.”
  25. “We were never meant to fight on our own.”
  26. “We always have a choice.”
  27. “Is that a threat?”
  28. “Keep your eyes on me.”
  29. “You can lie to yourself but don’t lie to me.”
  30. “I tried my best to not feel anything for you. Guess what? I failed.”
  31. “We have to stick together.”
  32. “We’ll get through this. I promise.”
  33. “Don’t leave me behind.”
  34. “How did you find me?”
  35. “Who did this to you?”
  36. “I don’t want to be alone right now.”
  37. “Don’t you dare die on me!”
  38. “You’re out of your damn mind.”
  39. “You make me feel invincible.”
  40. “I’ll keep you safe.”
5

Ciel Phantomhive - Aesthetic

‘’Pain tends to heal as time passes, but personally I don’t want time to heal my wounds. You may think you can escape the pain and forget it, but that’s nothing more than stagnation. You can’t move forward without the pain.’’ - Ciel Phantomhive

photos + edits = @irllax
ciel = me ( @spawn-of-hades )

i need more exes plots. give me exes that haven’t spoken in years and run into each other at a mutual friends wedding. give me exes that still see each other too much and can’t give up on what they had but know they’re not good for each other. give me exes where one moved away without a word and then returned to their hometown expecting everything to go back to how it was. give me exes where one never told the other they were pregnant and the other has tried to moved on in everything they’ve done but haven’t been able to. give me exes that are still pretending to be together for the sake of their reputations or families. give me exes that hate each others guts and can’t be in the same room without yelling at one another but there’s still so much love there. give me exes that still live together because neither can afford to move out. give me exes that were high school sweethearts and one went places while the other ended up dancing for cash. JUST PLEASE GIVE ME EXES!!!

common day sentence starters.

What time is it? Do you know? ”  

Pardon me, did you drop this?

Could’ve been a beautiful day. Now the rain has ruined everything.

What are the chances, huh? What are the chances.

How are you doing today?

Did you need a ride?

Let’s go get a bite to eat. Come on, my treat.

Why the hell is it so damn hot outside?

Hello? Can you hear me?

Hey, miss/mister, do you possibly have directions to the nearest gas station?

Breakfast is and will always be the best part of every morning.

Last night was wild, wasn’t it?

Is there a problem?

No, I don’t wanna move. Too tired. Go without me.

I want to go to the beach. What do ya’ say?

DID YOU SERIOUSLY EAT ALL OF THE CHIPS?

If this traffic doesn’t clear up in the next ten seconds, I will literally scream out this window.

i want to run away. it’s not that i hate this place, or that something particularly horrible has happened. i feel the never ending need to go and run and see new things and breathe different air. i feel the need to go somewhere where i know nothing and learn absolutely everything about it until it could be my hometown.

i want to go start over and find new friends and new family. maybe, sometime after all that, i’ll come back here. maybe i’ll apologize for leaving so abruptly without any goodbyes, and maybe i’ll find my old friends and we’ll catch up.

but, in all honesty, if i leave, that’s it. even the people that would miss me will slowly move on and will probably hate me for leaving without a word. this place wouldn’t be the same when or if i ever chose to come back. it would never feel like “home” again.

but maybe that’s okay.

anonymous asked:

How much I want Alec to wake up in the middle of the night and sleepily pad his way across the loft to get a snack, only to pick up a jar of spider legs and freak the fuck out. Magnus comes swooping in ready for battle, but realizes what's happened and just moves a couple jars over, hands a still stunned Alec a box of crackers, then goes back to sleep.

oaijwef i don’t know if show alec also has arachnophobia tbh, but sleepy alec searching through bottles in the pantry at night would be adorable. and when he grows familiar enough with the apartment that he can pick something out with ease without even really looking? kill me

also jace moving in, and just really trying hard not to accidentally pick up this stuff and magnus and alec being little shits and they’re like – jace?? what are you having??? and it’s really just regular tea or something but they just pretend like he’s ingested some terrible warlock ingredient. alec gives it up first when he can’t help but snicker.

anyway, magnus and alec being that couple who teases people together and snicker with each other about how hilarious they are is something i sincerely need.

47 Hacks People With ADD/ADHD Use To Stay On Track

1.Take a picture of your to-do list otherwise #1 on your to-do list will be find the to-do list!” - Paris Swenson, Facebook

2.Break long tasks into manageable segments. For example, you don’t have to ‘Clean your room,’ you have to: 1. Place all laundry in a basket… 2. Clear off desk…. 3. Organize your bookshelf… 4. Vacuum rug… Etc.” - alicegateso

3. “I keep a pad of paper by my keyboard at work. When I have a persistent thought that’s not associated with what I’m doing (I.E. ‘Call the plumber,’ ‘What kind of tree is that outside?,’ ‘I should wear more red.’) I write it down and promise myself I’ll think about it later. This let’s me acknowledge the thought and move on without falling down the rabbit hole.” - Lauren Dodson, Facebook

4.I keep Word documents on each day and list what I got done so I can go back if I forget/lose track.” - Molly Jane Sisson, Facebook

5.Have one place for every item that you use every single time. My keys, for example, always always always go on a hook beside the door.” - Chloe Burns, Facebook

6. “If you’re in school, you must invest in a planner. I leave nothing to my memory because if I’m not 100% paying attention during class, I will forget any assignment immediately.” - Chloe Burns, Facebook

7.Try to block out sensory distractions when you’re doing a task that requires focus. I pick a quiet spot away from windows and monitors when I need to hunker down. Earplugs are helpful, and so is white noise” - snarkastik

8.I make time each night/week to straighten up my living space. If all of my chores are done and the majority of my apartment is put together, I can think so much more clearly and can focus on more important things.” - zoeo429a8c39d

9. “Those giant desk calendars are great. I like to keep one on my wall and color-code classes/projects.” - Brooke Elise Henry, Facebook

10. “I keep a planner in my bag so that I can jot things down there, then transfer it all to my wall calendar at the end of the day.” - Brooke Elise Henry, Facebook

11.I put my car keys underneath anything I need to remember to take with me. That way, I can’t physically leave without seeing the item I need.” - Amanda Egert Lee, Facebook

12. “I leave sticky notes on my keys.- Amanda Egert Lee, Facebook

13. “I have to make it a point to remove all forms of communication from my reach so I know I’m only concentrating on the task at hand.” - andreaquido

14. “When I have a limited amount of time to do something (e.g. getting ready for work), I have a kitchen timer that I have go off every 3 minutes. It doesn’t seem like a lot of time, but you can get a lot done. When the timer seems to be going off too quickly and starts to become annoying, that usually means I’m daydreaming or focusing on the wrong thing.” - pantherkatz

15.I like to get some time outdoors every day because it helps me find peace. After all, they say ADD brains are the brains of hunters! That’s why they’re always looking all over the place.” - llama7777777

16.COLOUR CODE EVERYTHING. Bright colours in class notes, on important items, on tupperware lids, whatever. Bright colours are attention-grabbing and seeing ‘purple’ is faster than reading ‘Monday dinner leftovers.’ - Calico Jack Rackham, Facebook

17. “I like to go to productive places if I need to get work done; like the library, coffee shop, or studying with friends. When everyone around me is focused and working, it makes it easier for me to do so as well.” - gabbyh4940993bf

18. “I write notes with a dry erase marker on all of my bathroom mirrors.Things seem to hit me while I’m brushing my teeth or doing my makeup.” - Kristin Hasty, Facebook

19.I have a 6×9 notebook that I keep with me because I’m constantly writing ‘to-do’ lists.” - Kristin Hasty, Facebook

20. “For remembering to take things with me as I leave, everything has to be by the door so I can’t leave without seeing it. Bonus points if my keys are in the pile.” - Sydney Anderson, Facebook

21.I always convince myself I have to be somewhere earlier than I do. That way I have a few minutes buffer. If I have to be there at 8:30, I tell myself over and over that I have to be there by 8:15. It helps to have the clock in my car set 6 minutes fast. Even when I’m ‘running late’, I arrive a few minutes earlier than I actually have to be there.” - Cassie Costilow, Facebook

22.If you have to read something with a due date, separate 10-15 pages with post its and set a time to read it through the day. Let’s say you have to read 90 pages for tomorrow, read 15 pages at 10 am, 12 pm, 2 pm, 4 pm, 6 pm and 8pm.” - stefr2

23.When cleaning I try to focus on one small task at a time instead of the big picture. Instead of thinking ‘I’m going to reorganize the entire kitchen”, I think “I’m going to reorganize this cabinet.’ It really helps keep me from getting overwhelmed and shutting down completely.” - Cassie Costilow, Facebook

24.I make it a point to have all my bills (except rent ) due on the same day. This way when the 15th comes, I write down a checklist of what needs to be paid, go through the list, and pay them.” - ltriebl

25.I used to give myself deadlines for papers in undergrad. If something was not done by 2 a.m. I was not allowed to keep working on it. If the next morning was the deadline, too bad. By my 2nd year I never had to stay up all night, and by the time I got my M.A. it was completely internalized.” - Javiera Reyes, Facebook

26.I use a massive white board calendar and color code things; blue for my sorority, green for due dates, red for tests, and black for other random events” -mckenziec45e41be03

27.I schedule one day for cleaning. Everything gets done on that day even if it takes me hours.” - ltriebl

28.My supervisor and I write a daily to-do list every single day. Instead of asking me to do things, she just writes it on my list. I cross out things as I accomplish them.” - Cierra Kemppainen, Facebook

29.I always feel my pockets to make sure I have my phone, wallet, and keys before I leave a building or room. This has saved me more times than I ever thought.” - Adam Gottlieb, Facebook

30.I carry my meds in my school backpack all the time. It’s great if I sit down in my first class and all of a sudden realize I didn’t take them.” - Adam Gottlieb, Facebook

31. “Because my motivation is so low with ADHD, my therapist told me the best thing to do to get things done is do them right when you think about them or else you’ll never do it. It may be obvious but it’s actually really helpful when there are important things to do.” - amandaz42502c3e2

32. “I write everything, EVERYTHING, down. When it comes to things people ask me to do, I write them down. Before we leave our meeting, I repeat all of their requests back to them. When they agree with each, I check it off. Once I complete the tasks, I cross them out twice. It’s tedious, but it definitely works.” - Adrienne Brooke, Facebook

33.I tend to lean on people I know I can trust to help me remember things. I can rely on them without worrying about judgement.” - whitneyb19

34.Crossing things off has become a sort of reward. When I notice I’ve crossed off more than three things at once I give myself a Buzzfeed break!Or Facebook, or Gchat. Just something to help blow off a little steam before I dive into the next task. It’s the best feeling seeing a list of 47 things all crossed off at the end of a stressful workday.” - Colleen Daniel, Facebook

35.I always make lists in threes. Anything more than that and I end up losing focus of what I’m supposed to be doing, or hyper focusing and can’t switch tasks.” - keilande

36. “I also find that I’m more interested in keeping my personal life organized if it looks pretty, so at home it’s fun to do DIY projects that will actually create a more organized environment.” - Colleen Daniel, Facebook

37.Laundry is a passive chore, so I’ll wash dishes while the machine is running. Two for one!” - bryanpb

38. “Break down your tasks! If you have a paper due in three days don’t just try to write the whole thing in one day, make a goal to finish a part of it each day.- Brontë Ratcliffe, Facebook

39. “Try to only focus on one task at a time. It’s really tempting (REALLY REALLY TEMPTING) to do millions of unimportant things before you get to the one thing thats actually important. Think of your activities as if they are all contained in little boxes. Only open one box at a time and make sure that it is fully shut before you open the next box.- Amy Langiano, Facebook

40.Take lots of notes. In meetings I take diligent, detailed notes. I almost never refer back to them because somehow, just writing out the thought helps it stick in my mind, but the notes are there if I do need them later.” - gabriellao47ba20033

41.Writing things down with a pen or pencil instead of typing them in computer and phone strengthens my memory of them.” - bobc409eb4106

42. “When I get ready for work in the morning, I set the alarm on my phone to go off every 10 minutes to help with time management. I have no concept of time if I don’t.” - Mallori Kraemer, Facebook

43.I write up schedules even if I don’t use them perfectly. Just writing it down makes it stick better.” - katerg

44.Prioritize what needs to be done by writing it all out and writing how long you estimate each task will take. That really helps me order things in a way that works for me.” - gabrielleca

45.I make schedules for myself delineating how much time I anticipate each activity will take. Then, I build in 15-20 minute buffers on each to allow for the anticipated distractions and a couple of breaks. Works like a charm!” -emilyf4c854bde4

46.I’m an introvert. So I tell friends and family to inform me of plans and events as early as possible. I need time to plan out my activities as well as make sure I have the mental energy to engage with others.” - pantherkatz

47.Sit on an exercise ball while working on homework. It helps you by giving you something small to fill up your need for distraction while doing more tedious tasks.” - olivial7

Forever

Elijah Mikaelson Imagine

Requested: Hey I came across this blog and I was wondering if you could do an Elijah imagine where you want to be turned because you want to be with him forever fluff pls

Word Count: 465 words (2,484 characters)

Originally posted by scarin-q

You poured your self some bourbon and added three perfectly cubed ice to your glass as you stood overlooking the French Quarter. You sighed as the streets of New Orleans filled your ears with jazz music and the wonderful sound of people laughing. You couldn’t think, your mind was clouded. Between the hustle and bustle of the streets and your thoughts it caused you to slowly become frustrated. “Damn it,” you whispered, not noticing Elijah swiftly enter the room. “Y/N. Are you alright?” he asked you as you slumped down onto the closest seat to you. “I’ve just been thinking. I love you, Elijah. I will always love you, and it hurts knowing that I’m going to grow old and you’re just going to move on without me.” I explained your voice cracked, your eyes burning trying not to let out tears. “Where is this all coming from? I will always love you” he replied, confused.

You walked towards him and held his hand, “If you love me… turn me.”, his eyes widened as he realised what you asked. “Y/N, I can’t do that to you. I know I make it look easy but I assure you it is everything but that. Are you sure you could endure the blood lust and the heightened emotions?” he asked, you smiled at him “I can survive it. I know I will be alright because I have you. You can help me through it and that is the only reason why I even contemplated becoming a vampire.” He smiled at you and pulled you close and kissed your forehead. “If you’re sure you really want this because I don’t want to hurt you.”, “I do, Elijah. This means we can truly be together forever.”

Elijah was hesitant but finally the veins in his eyes grew more prominent by the second, as his eyes became bloodshot and filled with anticipation. He sunk his fangs into his wrist and quickly pulled away. His crimson blood dripping as you slowly took his wrist and placed it by your mouth. You felt extremely weird drinking his blood. His blood tasted metallic and somewhat unappealing, but this would all change as soon as you died with vampire blood in your system. You released his wrist and wiped your face with your sleeve, his blood smeared across the side of your mouth. “Ready?” he asked with pain in his eyes, “as ready as I’ll ever be.” you whispered. Elijah placed his hands by either side of your neck, he closed his fear filled eyes.

SNAP

You fell into his arms and he held you. As much as it hurt him to snap your neck, you would be there with him for the rest of his life, and that on its own made him strong.