No Title, Just writing
Kind of didn’t have a title for today. Wanted to just write and escape. I’m not even trying to write a poem or rhyme away. Really just had a few things to say.
Today I feel so great. I heard his heartbeat yesterday. It was so strong and I just can’t wait to hold my little baby. The days has gotten more tiring with him growing more and more. The movements have gotten stronger and sometimes uncomfortable. Some days I still think “what am I doing being a mom”. Some days I think about the man who doesn’t care for his son. My mind rumbles all over the place. Then there are days I can’t even remember what I was going to say. Guess I can blame the pregnant brain for that because there are days I feel all out of wack. I try to continue progressing in my businesses but my mind doesn’t stay focused enough to handle all of what needs to be did. But I continue to try and prosper as much as I can because everything I do now is for my kid. There are plenty of days I will still be thinking “what the hell was I thinking”. But I’ll have him to look at and know exactly why I did it. I’m learning so much and there is way more to learn. I’m ready for all the lessons to be thrown my way. Whatever he teaches me will always stay. Because not only will he be learning from me but I will also learn from him. Learning which cries is for a diaper, feeding, or just some loving to give. My mind is actually wondering now while writing this because I honestly don’t know all the places I just drift. But as said I had to write some things because it was just that time. I’m sure some will relate with what was being said.
-Darsheena Le'Ann <3