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No Title, Just writing

Kind of didn’t have a title for today. Wanted to just write and escape. I’m not even trying to write a poem or rhyme away. Really just had a few things to say.


Today I feel so great. I heard his heartbeat yesterday. It was so strong and I just can’t wait to hold my little baby. The days has gotten more tiring with him growing more and more. The movements have gotten stronger and sometimes uncomfortable. Some days I still think “what am I doing being a mom”. Some days I think about the man who doesn’t care for his son. My mind rumbles all over the place. Then there are days I can’t even remember what I was going to say. Guess I can blame the pregnant brain for that because there are days I feel all out of wack. I try to continue progressing in my businesses but my mind doesn’t stay focused enough to handle all of what needs to be did. But I continue to try and prosper as much as I can because everything I do now is for my kid. There are plenty of days I will still be thinking “what the hell was I thinking”. But I’ll have him to look at and know exactly why I did it. I’m learning so much and there is way more to learn. I’m ready for all the lessons to be thrown my way. Whatever he teaches me will always stay. Because not only will he be learning from me but I will also learn from him. Learning which cries is for a diaper, feeding, or just some loving to give. My mind is actually wondering now while writing this because I honestly don’t know all the places I just drift. But as said I had to write some things because it was just that time. I’m sure some will relate with what was being said.


-Darsheena Le'Ann <3

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I was part of a beautiful wedding that took place at the Liberty House Restaurant in Jersey City. The views were amazing (obviously), the food was delicious, and most importantly, the couple was madly in love with each other. To my surprise, the couple was also expecting a baby, which made the wedding even more engaging. Not only were Gladys and Jonathan surrounded by friends and family, but they were also sharing the moment with their future baby. Cheers to Gladys and Jonathan!

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EXPECTING

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Update:

- Not single. Yet at least. He knows he messed up big time and claims he’s gonna fix all our problems, so we’ll see. It was a rough couple nights for me. I don’t want to lose him.

- Doctors appointment today. Everything’s looking good, I’m even measuring ahead! About a week I think, which is awesome for me because as long as my baby girl is healthy I don’t mind going into labor earlier than expected. Suppose I should get my hospital bag packed! We have just about all the essentials for her. All we really need now is more diapers, medical stuff (diaper rash cream, Motrin, whatever), a breast pump, a diaper bag, and some furniture for organizing. Plus the crib but we just have to wait for Jeff’s parents to bring it to us. Should probably get more toys, too. And a carseat cover. Otherwise everything else is just kind of stuff that would be nice to have but not really necessary. And Jeff’s mom already told me not to worry about anything because she’ll get whatever else is needed. God bless her. She’s been so amazing to us through out the whole pregnancy.

So it seems we’re gonna have to kick into to high gear and really prepare the house and ourselves for Rowan Quinci-Ella’s arrival! I’m so excited!

New Mama-To-Be

I’ll be 10 weeks pregnant tomorrow.

I don’t let myself think about it too much because I’ve had 2 miscarriages and have no children. I thought about the “a” word, but it’s a blessing that I’ve gotten this far and that little heartbeat… I fell in love with that heart beat. 

I don’t let myself feel too much either. It’s all very unnerving. Everything will change - either for the better or the worse. Sometimes I feel this is a mistake. Most of the time I just accept it and keep pushing towards a healthy lifestyle so I can be blessed with a healthy baby.

Time will tell.

But thus far, I’m beginning to be in love… all over again. And this time, not with a “man”.

Did I mention that I think it’s a girl?

I do.