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The complexity of the relationship between Ramsay Bolton and Theon Greyjoy (Thramsay)

The relationship between Ramsay and Theon is dysfunctional and honestly pretty horrible in most ways, yet I find it very fascinating because of its complexity, meaning that I believe there is way more to it than just horror, torture and manipulation.

I have never written meta before, but I really enjoyed the process. I hope you like it!

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Ramsay and Theon quite clearly have many differences, but I also find that they have many similarities, which define their relationship. By similarities I mean the similarities in terms of what they both wish to achieve in life and how they cope with their issues. It is my opinion that they both to some extend have an identity crisis going on, which creates a very interesting dynamic between them. To get to the root of that, we have to take a look at their childhoods. Since we get much more detailed descriptions of both their childhoods (especially Ramsay’s childhood) in the ASoIaF books than in the show, that’s where I’ll gather my information from. So let’s start with Ramsay.

The start of Ramsay’s life wasn’t exactly merry and joyful as he was born of rape. Roose Bolton was out hunting one day when he discovered a peasant girl washing clothes in a river. He then decided to rape her and since her husband, the miller, wasn’t too content with the idea, Roose hung him and raped his widowed wife beneath the tree where he was swaying. A year later the peasant girl came to the gates of the Dreadfort with a baby in her arms seeking help from Roose, because her dead husband’s brother had stolen the mill from them and now her and her son had nothing to live of. At the time, Roose Bolton was married to Bethany Ryswell and had a trueborn son, Domeric, and he didn’t exactly want to deal with a bastard son and a useless peasant girl, so he let them into the castle with one single intent: to kill them both. But once he looked at the baby boy he couldn’t bring himself to do it because he saw that the baby had his pale eyes.

Roose let both mother and son depart unharmed and made sure they got the stolen mill back. Every year Roose would send a bag of stars to them, which Ramsay’s mother paid for with her silence; she was to never tell Ramsay or anyone else about who his father was. So Ramsay grew up in poverty with the ‘small folk’, he didn’t get an education, didn’t learn about honor, nobility or about courtesy, which explains his blunt and fearless nature.

But Ramsay was a difficult child and after a few years Ramsay’s mother went back to Roose to get help with raising him. Just wanting her gone, Roose gave her a servant, a terrible one, named Heke. Yet because he smelled so bad everyone instead called him Reek. Quickly, Ramsay and Reek became inseparable. Roose says that he isn’t sure if Ramsay corrupted Reek or if Reek corrupted Ramsay, but honestly I think they had pretty bad influences on each other. “No one could stand to be near him, so he slept with the pigs … until the day that Ramsay’s mother appeared at my gates to demand that I provide a servant for my bastard, who was growing up wild and unruly. I gave her Reek. It was meant to be amusing, but he and Ramsay became inseparable. I do wonder, though… was it Ramsay who corrupted Reek, or Reek Ramsay?” Roose Bolton tells Theon in ADWD (chapter 32). “The boy [Ramsay] is a sly creature by all accounts, and he has a servant who is almost as cruel as he is. Reek, they call the man. It’s said he never bathes. They hunt together, the bastard and this Reek, and not for deer. I’ve heard tales, things I can scarce believe, even of a Bolton.” Donella Hornwood says to Rodrik Cassell in ACOK (chapter 17).

Although Ramsay grew up lowborn he secretly always knew about his father and his right to live in a castle. “She disobeyed me, though.” Roose says, talking about Ramsay’s mother. “You see what Ramsay is. She made him, her and Reek, always whispering in his ear about his rights. He should have been content to grind corn”, he further says in ADWD (chapter 32). So Ramsay always knew he was worth more than everyone around him, he always knew that some day he would be granted the power he deserved. And somehow he eventually came to live with his father at the Dreadfort just like he wanted, where he made sure to kill Roose’s only trueborn son in order to become his only heir (at least that is what everyone including Roose believes, and personally I believe it too) 

Contrary to Ramsay’s upbringing in poverty, Theon grew up on Pyke as a prince until he was 9 years old. He was privileged, but his older brothers used to beat him up for being weak and his father Balon Greyjoy never really approved of him. Under those circumstances Theon became insecure already from boyhood. However, he always had to keep the insecurities concealed to not be perceived as weak. In order to contradict the picture of him being weak Theon had to constantly prove himself worthy to his family. After Greyjoy’s Rebellion Theon was taken away from his family to become Eddard Stark’s ward at Winterfell. With the Starks he wasn’t really accepted either; he was an outsider, not a true member of the family.

So both of them had messed up childhoods filled with disapproval and non-acceptance from the people around them, which obviously affected them and caused massive amounts of insecurities. Disapproval has a huge negative impact on a child’s life, causing their similar identity crisis.

The two of them have equal ways of dealing with their issues; the first one being that they simply deny the horrible facts. Ramsay knows that he was born of rape, yet he has convinced himself that his parents’ relationship was very romantic, that they fell in love with each other instantly when they met. In chapter 32 in ADWD Roose asks Theon, “Has my bastard ever told you how I got him?”, where to Theon replies, “Yes, my… m’lord. You met his mother whilst out riding and were smitten by her beauty”. “Smitten?”, Roose then says, laughing. “ Did he use that word? Why, the boy has a singer’s soul… Though if you believe that song, you may as well be dimmer than the first Reek.” Furthermore, Ramsay denies the fact that his father doesn’t love him. Reek has been with me since I was a boy. My lord father gave him to me as a token of his love”, Ramsay tells some Dreadfort men in ADWD (chapter 11). Obviously that is not true. As it was described earlier, Reek was given to Ramsay and his mother because Roose simply wanted to get rid of them. Also, Ramsay denies the death of his original Reek, which is why he simply replaces him with Theon.

Ramsay also desperately tries to compensate for the fact that he isn’t a trueborn Bolton. Exactly that is why I think he is so enthusiastic about flaying, as it is the Bolton custom. He overdoes it, desperately tries to show his father that he honors and upholds the family traditions in order to gain his accept and approval.

Similarly, Theon has convinced himself during his time at Winterfell that his family back at Pyke missed him utterly. During the years the image of his return to the Iron Islands has become more and more romanticized. When he actually returns to Pyke, he discovers that his father still disapproves of him and barely even sees him as his son. “It is as I feared. The green lands have you soft and the Starks have made you theirs”, Balon says to Theon in ACOK (chapter 11). So similarly to Ramsay, he compensates for the unapproval. Theon has to prove himself worthy to his father, and he attempts to do so by betraying Robb and taking Winterfell.

But Theon’s siege of Winterfell completely backfires on him and Ramsay’s attempt to prove himself a Bolton does not work, at least not for the first many years. They both fail their attempts at gaining their father’s approval. Roose eventually grants Ramsay the Bolton name and makes him his heir after Domeric’s death, but he still constantly reminds him that he is a bastard (meaning that he still disapproves of him) and that he is not entitled to the life he has at the castle. “All you have I gave you. You would do well to remember that, bastard”, Roose says to Ramsay in ADWD (chapter 32).

Another way both of them cope with their issues is through arrogance. It works as a shield, concealing what lies beneath. They both act coldly towards other people and they commit heinous crimes, however there is one BIG difference between the two: Ramsay completely lacks empathy for others and Theon does not. Deep down inside Theon cares for others, Ramsay really doesn’t. Personally I think Ramsay was born with a tendency to psychopathy, DNA has a say in those cases and Roose doesn’t exactly possess much empathy himself. It obviously damaged him even further throughout his life to never be approved of, respected or accepted by his parents. He was always last in line, always just the bastard. In addition to that, Ramsay is also clearly a sadist; he fully enjoys watching people suffer. Theon doesn’t enjoy inflicting pain on others. Those are the biggest differences between the two of them.

As I wrote just before, Ramsay can’t accept, doesn’t want to accept Reek’s death, so he needs a replacement and he specifically chose Theon. I have a theory why: Ramsay is pretty smart after all and he figures out that the reason Theon took Winterfell was to impress his father, so just like Ramsay, Theon does things in desperation to gain his father’s approval. Theon reminds Ramsay of himself and his issues, so Ramsay must change him. It is symbolic. Theon represents the sensitive aspects of Ramsay, the parts of himself that he is in denial about, so he breaks him down, ruins his identity by making him fully believe that he is a worm in human skin and by stealing his name. And he molds Reek into his own twisted version of a ‘friend’ so that Reek can give him the approval that Roose denies him.

I’ve thought about it and I think there is some symbolism in the aspect of flaying as well. Whenever Reek misbehaves Ramsay flays him, he removes parts of him. The skin Ramsay removes is symbolically the masks that Theon has been wearing all his life, he has never been true to himself, he has always pretended to be something he is not. And when he finally escapes from Ramsay he is a broken man, but he is honest. For the first time in his life he is true to himself. This is taking it far, I know, but I think that Ramsay in a twisted way helped Theon truly realize who he is because he brutally broke down his walls and removed his masks.

So Ramsay and Theon have had huge impacts on each other’s lives. Their relationship is based upon horrible deeds and manipulation, I’m not debating that. But it is my opinion that some positive things have come out of it, yet mostly when it comes to Theon. Theon will be able to recover from the terrible things that have happened, but I believe that Ramsay is damaged for good. His lack of empathy and his love for inflicting pain on others as well as his need and love for playing with people characterize who he is and I don’t believe that will ever change.

The criticisms of pastel bloc are a state, most of them are outright just nasty and horrible, yet most people couldn’t use their critical faculties to realise that the comment saying they were anti anti-fascists was completely weird, out of sync and didn’t match up with what could be clearly seen in the image.

Then there’s the ones pointing out the obvious, at least in our niche little circles, that them not going in black defeats the idea of black bloc. Aye sure you’re right in that regard, I nearly reblogged the version of the post that explained who they really were to add that but then I took into consideration that;

1. These people are getting a heap of shite from anonymous strangers online effectively calling them fascist sympathsiers while being ignorant enough to see the anti-fascist symbol on the shields and the fabulously queer colour scheme going on.

2. They probably have friends, comrades, partners etc involved in radical organising closer at home who they’ll discuss this stuff with and sure as hell don’t need some fuckwit on tumblr, like me, pointing out the fucking obvious.

3. The obvious standing out is probably for a reason of their own will, seeing as they’re, ye know, an autonomous group.


There’s no need to be so harsh on people that we don’t even know for absolutely no real reason at all, I’m sure your comments on tumblr aren’t going to help them out much

The worst thing about being a poet
Is that you deliberately bleed
You prod and poke at misery
Anger chaos and pain
In a vain attempt to make sense of it all

We are sadists to the utmost extent
Melancholy is our default state of mind
We make art out of the red dripping from our veins
and beauty out of the most horrible pain

Yet we wonder why we’re misunderstood.

—  The thing about being a poet
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scanning. scanning. accessing pre-war records.

record found. 108th infantry regiment. second battalion.

Halloween X Joker X Reader Part 1

This is my first Joker imagine so let me know what you think.


You wakeup around lunch. Usually you would get up earlier but after the previous nights bank job and killing spree you needed a slight lie in. Mr J stirred as you stretched sticking your arse into his crotch.
“Mmmh good morning doll.” He whispers into your ear.
You roll over to look into his beautiful blue eyes and give him a kiss “Morning my prince. Guess what day it is?” You were super excited for this day every year.
“Is it our favourite day by any chance?” he gives you another kiss.
You smile from ear to ear and say “Halloween baby!”
He kisses you again and rolls you onto him so your sat there straddling his hips you hear a deep growl from his chest “but first… I want to really appreciate you. Last night I could have fucked you in that bank. You’re so hot when you work.” He leans up to you and growls in your ear making you giggle. Out of no where he throws you round back on to the bed. Kissing you so hard he could have chipped your tooth. You could feel your heart beating in your ears. After all this time he still makes you quiver. He moves down kissing the middle of your chest and a slight moan slips from your mouth.
The door swings open and you both move so fast you get dizzy. “Mommy! Daddy!” your little angel Belle is stood in the door way with her arms above her head.
You give her a big smile “Baby! Come hop up hear.” You patted the bed and made sure you a J where covered so Belle didn’t see anything. She jumps on the bed and climbs over you and sits in the middle of you and J.
“Can we go get changed into our costumes now? I’m too excited!” she kept spinning her head looking and you then J then you then J.
J holds the top of her head “how’s about you run and get your costume out and I’ll come in when I’m dressed and help you. Remember it’s a surprise for mummy.” They both give you a beautiful smile.
You sigh “go on then I won’t look. Just don’t scare me too much.”
She gives you a little kiss on your cheek “One thing mummy. This is the most horrible thing I’ve worn yet.” She leaps off the bed and runs out the room. You could hear her little foot steps on the marble floors and he giggles getting fainter.
J look at you and growls again, he leans into your ear and whispers “we will save this for later.” He bites your earlobe then kisses your neck. He slides off the bed showing his bear arse.
You wolf whistle at him and get up your self. You were super excited to show off your costume as well.

Like OMYGOD this is so crazy to me..ya’ll don’t understand ..cassette tapes are the WORST LOL…and the fact that i actually spent money on a cassette in 2016 BAWHHAHAHAH..but i had to have it T_T i hate myself

Trust Issues

Character: Hanbin (B.I) - iKon
Genre: Fluff!
Request: You and Hanbin are dating, but you keep isolating yourself and trying to be too independent despite being in a relationship because you’re afraid of heartbreak?
Authors note: Oh goodness, how long has it been?! Yes, I, Admin T am still alive! ^^; I’m sorry that I’ve been M.I.A for so long my love bugs. My life has been…..hellish lately and I couldn’t bring myself to write anything. The creative juices were dry and nothing seemed to motivate me enough to write an appealing enough scenario to push out for all of you. As most of you know, I enjoy coming up with something that I’m satisfied with and I couldn’t fathom the idea of posting something I wasn’t satisfied with. Hopefully I’ll be able to write at a normal pace that I used to! Two scenarios a night per Admin was something both Admin A and I were really proud of! >.< We’re trying to aim to bring that back, but it’s proving more than difficult! Again everyone, I’m sorry that I’ve been gone for too long and I also want to apologize to Admin A for making her do so much work while I was away! I love all of you, my lovely Marksoners! I hope everyone is well! <3 <3 <3 <3

- Admin T

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