i had an episode tonight, and i feel so drained. it came out of nowhere. suddenly i’m babbling all this stuff about whatever and start crying. everything was fine. depersonalization makes me feel like any progress i may have made is immediately diminished. i finally found a way to accurately describe it, and that is this: that i’m watching a film and skipped a chapter. i’m now living in the chapter that followed, unaware of what previously happened and how i got here. things are fine, but then i’ve suddenly fallen asleep, unwillingly having slipped into a dream that i can’t get out of. an unexpected and unwanted lucid dream. it ruins experiences and any ounce of normalcy i may have begun to have felt. most of all, it ruins social situations. she takes control and makes me avoid them like the plague. any social situation that may present itself makes me feel like i’m preparing to run a marathon. i feel like i’m living someone else’s life and the real me is in there deep, too exhausted to try and escape. when it happens, my head is a balloon, and it’s floating above everything and knowing none of it is real. and whoever decides to present herself as me, isn’t.
I'm sorry to send this ask on anonymous but I don't want my username related to this kind of question.. And I hope I don't bother you with this ask. I suffer from PTSD and depression and my therapist advised EMDR for the PTSD part, but I don't have a really good 'feeling' about EMDR, at all. He was also talking about 'creative therapy' and 'writing therapy'. So I wanted to ask you: what is your point of view on EMDR and what kind of therapy/treatment did you receive(d) for PTSD?