more unreal

ptsd stuff no one talks about
  • nightmares about trusted people hurting you
  • nightmares that are completely different from what actually happened
  • everything is too loud !!!
  • gotta cut your hair gotta cut your hair chop chop chop
  • tfw you’re halfway through telling a story and remember it involves Them
  • never enough showers
  • waking up and being somewhere else for a few seconds
  • being bossy for the thrill of being in charge
  • randomly teleporting to bad places for a few seconds while just going about your day

feel free to add more

continuation of these headcanons about Lance, Hunk, and Keith as kids…

  • HUNK PLAYED WITH LEGOS HUNK PLAYED WITH LEGOS HUNK PLAYED WITH L E G O S
    • Shiro stepped on a lego piece while he was babysitting Hunk and he had never been in more pain in his entire life
  • during a hot school day, the teacher treated all the kids to popsicles (yknow, the double ones you can break in half). After he got his, Hunk saw Keith sitting by himself a little ways away from where the teacher was handing out the treats, so he went over, plopped down next to him, broke his popsicle in half, and offered the second one to Keith
    • Hunk later got a gold star for sharing with a friend :’)
  • KEITH IS THE SAVAGE THAT BITES STRING CHEESE FROM THE TOP
    • Lance sees this one day at lunch and nearly has a hEART ATTACK. HE GASPS SO LOUDLY HE ALMOST CHOKES ON HIS FOOD
  • LANCE WHOLEHEARTEDLY BELIEVES IN THE TOOTH FAIRY and Keith likes to ruin dreams :’)
    • no seriously, Lance comes to school bragging about how he got not one, but two quarters from the tooth fairy and Keith is like “I can’t believe you think it’s real, it’s just your parents…” (Lance accuses him of being a “non-believer” but he’s still crUSHED)
      • Hunk literally tackles Keith to the ground before he can spill the beans about Santa
  • one day, Keith’s beloved plastic sword breaks. He’s absolutely heartbroken. His parents buy him a new one, but of course it isn’t the same
    • Lance and Hunk help Keith hold a “funeral” for his sword in his backyard. Lance says a few words while Keith is dead quiet. Hunk is crying (he’s a sympathetic crier ok)
  • LANCE IS THE KID WHO ADDS “CHA CHA CHA” TO THE HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONG
    • at the end of the song, he sings “CHA CHA CHA, HIIYAAHHHHH”
      • he did this during Hunk’s birthday snack at school and slammed his face into his cupcake for emphasis
  • Keith believes in aliens, Lance believes in mermaids, and Hunk believes in Bigfoot
    • one time, Hunk and Lance saw Keith lying down in the middle of the school playground. When they asked him what he was doing, he said he was waiting for aliens to abduct him. Lance immediately joined him because he thought it was “cool” while Hunk worried about getting trampled by other school kids
    • Lance used to pretend to swim like a mermaid oKAY
    • Hunk used to drag Lance and Keith on mini adventures in his backyard with “survival gear” (aka a small backpack filled with granola bars and candy) and binoculars so he could prove Bigfoot was real
  • HUNK HAD A PET RABBIT NAMED NIBBLES
    • when Nibbles passed away, he literally cried for days. Lance and Keith put all their allowance money together to buy him a stuffed rabbit that looked exactly like Nibbles and named him Nibbles Jr.
      • Hunk still has the stuffed rabbit and sleeps with it every night
  • Keith sometimes gets picked on for being a bit of a loner, but he usually doesn’t let it bug him
    • except one day he gets bullied in front of Lance and Hunk. The bullies tell him he has no friends and he hangs his head until Lance and Hunk come to stand in front of him and: “HEY Keith has friends!!” “yEAH, we’re his friends so go away now, please!!”
  • KEITH HAS A STUFFED HIPPO B Y E (but it’s a secret so you can’t tell anyone shhHHHH)

Just dissociative things

- forgetting that you’re real

- forgetting that other people are real

- patting a cat, but the cat left three minutes ago

- The Blank Stare™

- “do you hear voices?” …….technically???

- “Are you okay?” Dude, I don’t even know if i exist rn

- *something remotely stressful happens* TIME TO ASTRAL PROJECT INTO THE VOID

- when grounding doesn’t work so you stand in the rain for an hour just trying to feel

- when people are clapping and you make vague efforts to but then it just does work

- when dissociating just leads to the weirdest nap you’ve ever had

- never really wanting to get high bc trauma is enough to make you feel the same

- grounding with ice-cubes just leads numb hands and more unreal

I honestly dislike those thinspo images where the girls are super tanned, in a bikini at the beach with some kinda fkin boho thing going on, it feels and looks fabricated.

It’s just such a bullshit too good to be true kinda thing, like: ‘Yeah I’m gonna starve myself and reach my goal weight where I magically have enough physical energy to go outside and get tanned and run around in a bikini on the beach sipping out of coconuts~’ 

I’d rather have the bleak miserable black and white images because they don’t feel like as glamorised. Maybe I’m just a bitter bitch, idc. 

The Cotard delusion, which is also commonly known as the “walking corpse syndrome,“ is an extremely rare psychiatric disorder in which the sufferer holds a delusional belief that they are genuinely dead. The disorder was named after French neurologist, Jules Cotard, whom first described this disorder.

Below is a snippet from a case study on a man whom suffered from Cotard delusion:

“[The patient’s] symptoms occurred in the context of more general feelings of unreality and being dead. In January, 1990, after his discharge from hospital in Edinburgh, his mother took him to South Africa. He was convinced that he had been taken to hell (which was confirmed by the heat), and that he had died of septicaemia (which had been a risk early in his recovery), or perhaps from AIDS (he had read a story in The Scotsman about someone with AIDS who died from septicaemia), or from an overdose of a yellow fever injection. He thought he had “borrowed my mother’s spirit to show me round hell”, and that he was asleep in Scotland.”