more like if you didnt know who they were before a&a we are shunning you

lmfao @ the people shitting on orihime or saying that she’s a “fullbringer” (dont you think that wouldve been touched on in the fullbringer arc??? we didnt get one peep of that it was all about chad and ichigo being fullbringers) or “useless” bc of 615

b/c okay, you know

  • hachigen comparing her abilities/rikka to his kidou/a zanpakuto, thus likening her to a shinigami because her powers are similar to his own and guess what!!! he was a shinigami (a member of a very specialized force– the kidou corps– no doubt)
  • hachigen saying “however possessing those abilities while still human is a little hard to believe”
  • unohana watching orihime heal ichigo in the soul society arc and being visibly surprised at her powers before saying “it looks like the ryouka dont need any help” implying that orihime already had it covered; implying that orihime, healing ichigo who was being barely held together by his spine, had it covered and that unohana, the captain of the healing squad and far more practiced in medicine and healing arts than orihime could ever hope to be, didn’t need to intervene
  • mila rose says “i don’t know who you are, but you seem to have a powerful reiatsu, it would be bad if he absorbed you too.” after meeting up with chad and orihime while hiding from opie, she then says “wait! you are the princesa that aizen took”, addressing orihime only
  • aizen’s fucking “tresspass into god’s territory speech” (probably the man with the biggest hopes for orihimes powers yet lol)
  • and just because he couldn’t shut the fuck up about how great her powers are, here’s another long-ass speech about them courtesy of aizen: “her ability is awe-inspiring. the rejection of events is a power that far exceeds the realm of what is permitted to humans. the highest levels of soul society understood the significance of this ability, and thats why her abduction served as a means of eliciting such a sense of crisis within soul society that they would rather strengthen their own defenses than that of the human world”
  • iemura watching her heal ichigo in the ss arc and saying the speed of her healing is greater than what he (the third seat of squad 4) and isane (the lieutenant, obv) are capable of. he says it seems “exotic, even for a ryouka” and notes how focused she remains on healing ichigo despite “witnessing an injury as horrific as that”. he then mentions “if someone like that were to join our squad…” implying that she would be a great asset as a shinigami and acknowledging her power & strength
  • the fact that yoruichi??? who trained orihime, who is familiar with her powers and the way they manifest, without a doubt made an opening for her to strike because she believes that orihime possesses the power necessary to heal the soul king
  • ichigo thinking about orihime’s powers confusedly after being repelled by her healing shield: “what the–?! just now… i was repelled? that ability… is it from inoue’s shun shun rikka?”
  • luppi in disbelief after watching orihime reject the fate of grimmjow’s lost arm: “how… how did… she restore… –i’ve never heard of anything at that level… –how did you do it, woman?!”
  • the fact that yhwach gathered information about her powers and used that to taunt yamamoto?? “why didn’t you heal your left arm? if you had ordered that woman, she could have done it” like the fact that yhwach is aware of orihime prior to actually confronting her is incredible in the first place
  • mayuri kurotsuchi being so desperate to observe her powers up close that he toned down how much experimenting he would do on her (i mean it was still a lot but the fact that mayuri backed down at all just to observe her powers is a fucking miracle)
  • shinji holding hiyori’s barely-breathing torso in his arms and panicked, he demands that ichigo hurry up and return so orihime can heal her

thats a lot of build

and this is a huge red herring: 

(especially since yhwach himself familiarized himself with her powers??? you could say that he did it with all of ichigo’s friends but lmfao where’s his mention of chad or rukia or renji b/c i have yet to see it anywhere)

like idk why people are so fucking sour over orihime fans piecing this all together and cheering her on and holding out hope for her to have this huge reveal about the nature of her powers because all the build and hinting is right there, right in front of our noses!!

(jk i know why it’s because if orihime actually manages to pull this off, then they’re really fucked b/c what will they complain about in regards to her now?? not that they have any basis for it to begin with, but one of the biggest broken record complaints is that she’s “weak” and “useless” so i mean. shove a bucket in your ass)

anyways im hoping this is the final piece of the puzzle in regards to orihimes powers

im hoping this line, which came at the end of the chapter and thus it ended on a cliff hanger, will be something orihime gets to contradict in a big way

what i would love the most is for her to be still human, because i think thats what the story needs; a human character who wears her heart on her sleeve, struggles to like herself, has relatable flaws that make her interesting, and somehow managed to get this power that helps her to resist the fate thats been written out –if not for her, then for her friends– like i would love for her to change things while still being human

but shes had so much god imagery thrown around and her powers are themed around “heaven” like come the fuck on she’s going to do something big stop denying it

???????

anonymous asked:

Hey do you have any advice for someone who isn't sure if they are bisexual or gay?

Yes. maybe. idk. when I was like 13, I started to question if I was bisexual. It had never occured to me before that liking women was in the picture. I knew that there were other girls who liked girls, I didn’t have an issue with it, i just never considered it was for me. But I would be in the mall with my best friends and an attractive couple would walk by, and I would be caught up staring at the girl, I didn’t even know it was a gay thing, just a platonic lady seeing another lady and thinking, damn, youre gorgeous. Then one of my friends would say, “wow, he’s so cute!” and immediately I would snap out of it. because Yes He Is Attractive, which means I Must Be Attracted To Him. My thoughts about this girl were nothing more than ordinary complements on the way she did her hair. 

I’m not a very attractive person. I really don’t think I’m ugly, my face is pretty average, but my body and personality never really made me popular with the boys in middle school. (not that im complaining in hindsight) However, There was this one kid, when I was in 6th grade, named Talha. He was one of the sweetest people I’d ever met. and he adored me. We were in seperate classes and we didn’t really know eachother, but he’d wait beside my locker at the end of every day. He wasn’t very good at hiding his affections. A bunch of people, some of whom I really didn’t know that well, would come up to me and tell me how “oh my god, he’s in love with you, always talking about how beautiful and smart you are.” i knew he liked me, I’m not dumb. but i would always just kind of smile and laugh awkwardly when people reminded me. When he finally talked to me about it, I told him I’d rather we stay friends. He didn’t get angry or anything, he just looked sad. and I’d never felt so guilty in my life. (at that point lol) this happened again with a friend Jimmy (not as nice, but not a bad kid) and this time i said yes. I didn’t like Jimmy, but I just felt bad about saying no. (this was when that whole “nice guys finish last give us a chance ladies” narrative was the only one I knew.) I “broke up” with him literally the next day, too guilty about pretending to like him, telling him I wasn’t ready for a relationship.

The thing is, I have never been attracted to boys in my life. and I didn’t always realize that. I can remember assigning myself crushes as early as six, whichever boy was the tallest, second grade was the one who was best at piano, third i dont remember, fourth was one of my friends bc he was funny, fifth grade was this kid i tutored in math, sixth grade was this kid who was moderately attractive that I sat next to in class. I can remember myself as a kid thinking.. “okay, who should I pick for my crush this year?” my “attraction” to boys existed only because that was all i ever saw on tv, bc it was what i was supposed to feel. this went on until i was fourteen goddamn years old.

fast foreward to 13/14 year old me. I’ve started questioning myself. Girls are just so beautiful. I didnt understand how Im supposed to have crushes on boys but I think girls are just so much prettier. I didn’t know what to think. I knew bisexual girls existed, but I’m not gay. Not me. I dont have a problem with it and i support them, but i like boys and only boys. But maybe…. maybe this was just a phase. either way, I hoped it went away fast. I loved my best friends. The last thing I wanted was to be bi, bc then they wouldnt want to have sleepovers with me. being gay isnt wrong, but it cant happen to me. I’ll lose all my friends.

Then, during a sleepover with my two best friends, one of them casually mentioned, “guys, I think I might be bisexual.” Before I could stop myself, I blurted out “me too.” that was the first time i ever acknowledged the fact that I might not be straight out loud. I felt so scared and relieved at the same time. I’m so glad she said that. She’s still my best friend and it turns out shes straight (and im gay lol so we were both wrong) but i didnt feel like I’d be shunned anymore.

When I was 15, I went through a really really rough time. I don’t mind talking about it bc it happened over a year ago now, but thats for another post. basically, my entire family structure completely imploded. one family member’s abuse of both people and substances was out in the open for the first time. shit was tough. I got depressed. suicidal thoughts every ten minutes depressed. the point is, all through this I threw myself head first into the only way I knew to cope: “fandoms.” I’m so embarrassed about who I was at this time (I was a superwholock, kill me) but you know what, its what i did to deal. and through these (superwholock) fandoms, m/m slash was HUGE. so i didn’t really question my “bisexuality” bc I felt like I had to be screaming about how hot Bodlaijapoibhp Cummiedajkhwog 24/7 to be accepted. Eventually I pulled myself out of my depression and out of those shows that I don’t like anymore. (except dr who its my guilty pleasure.) During this recovery time, I dated a girl for the first time. (first time i dated anyone actually) I wish I could tell you it was butterflies and rainbows, but I didnt even like her in that way. I was so used to compulsory heterosexuality that I didn’t really understand that you don’t just date someone because theyre nice or whatever, but because of the way they make you feel. Sophmore year starts up, I’m 16 now. I didn’t need to like boys anymore to feel accepted, and the label “bisexual” just begins to chafe. For the first time, I try calling myself a “lesbian.”

and it fits.

God it felt so good. The euphoria wore of eventually, but I just felt like I knew myself so much more. Lesbian still sounds like a dirty word to me. It was the word that kids in my grade would whisper about this butch girl, Frankie, telling everyone not to be friends with her because she’ll hit on you or whatever. Lesbian was the word that conjured up by the media the picture of some unattractive quirky woman who nobody in her group really likes who wears a lot of vests or whatever. Lesbian was the word of girls who were weird, who weren’t really girls, who you shouldn’t be friends with. But lesbian was the word that fit me. 

Im so sorry for how long this got, I really didn’t mean for all this. I’ve been writing for like half an hour. but idk I figured my own personal story was the best way to explain this. anyway, here’s the important part. 

I still question myself all the time, if I might be bisexual. even though I see and understand compulsory heterosexuality for what it is, sometimes, I still feel, deep down, like its wrong or impossible for me to not like boys in some degree. maybe I’ll read a story about a m/m relationship. I like the characters and the story, maybe it means I like boys? No, it doesn’t. I am a lesbian and I don’t think I’ll ever be anything but that. It took me a while to realize that the societal implications for what a lesbian is dont have to affect me. I cant label myself “butch” or “fem,” because I’m neither. I’m just a girl. I like to do my eyeliner, I can’t paint nails to save my life but I try. everytime my best friend and I hear uptown funk we blast it to unhealthy levels. I like to draw and read, and sometimes i can come off as rude. I’m your every day typical girl, I just happen to like women instead. So if you’re not sure if youre bisexual or gay, that’s fine. It’s a process. Youre probably gonna question yourself your whole damn life. 

My advice is, separate your sexuality from your femininity. Unless youre nonbinary or something, youre a girl, and you are under no pressure to act differently from any straight girl your age. You are under no pressure to like anyone. I assigned myself crushes on boys for years and I didn’t really like my first girlfriend. You don’t have to do anything. You don’t have to like any individual person to prove your sexuality. Don’t worry about it, if you can. This goes back to the previous point. Don’t label yourself. Just spend some time with “I like girls” and slowly work out if boys are in the picture, too, by who you gravitate to. I love you, sweetie, and i hoped this helped. Im sorry its so long.

TL;DR Life’s a fuckin journey love yourself