I knew what defeat felt like in previous years and if I would have lost this one it would have been even worse. Because it’s so close and I’m ahead. I’m ahead just before the very end and I’ve been ahead all season. And so it is so real, so tangible, so close, so to then lose it, it’s like Hillary Clinton.[ ….]Did that scare you that you were thinking you were the sure winner? Yeah it makes it more difficult. It would make the loss hurt even more.