Non-watching Watching anon here again. Just watched the episode where we learned about John leaving Dean in that boys' home farm place to teach him a lesson for two months and I just want to cry now. Okay, fine, I did cry. When he tells Sam that it was it was his own mistake that got him him left there, my heart broke. Hello more abandonment issues. And then when he chose to leave because he saw Sam in the car, more tears. Oh Dean.