I lost myself a little - somewhere in all the chaos. It creeped up gradually and then it buried me alive, forcing me to surrender. I thought I could fix it. I thought I could go back to the way I was, but the mirror seemed to laugh when I struggled to gain back my self worth. It laughed and laughed again and again as I critiqued every feature, every part that seemed flawed to me. Every part that I used to love. Even on good days, I wasn’t able to feel fully satisfied with what I saw because of the distorted image in my head. Nothing was more discouraging than my own reflection. My body was supposed to be my home, and that’s all I wanted, my body to feel like home again. This was not what I wanted, but my thoughts told me differently. It felt like a heavy weight pulling me down, destroying every part of who I used to be. My breaths became shallow holes that were only a constant rhythm to keep me going, a constant rhythm to keep the outside world from seeing what was really going on inside my head - to remain what other’s saw as put together and undamaged, but also to gather fragments of myself floating around in the little moments where I forget I was lost in the first place. Sometimes I think if I gather enough of them, they’ll prevail and I’ll find myself again. Sometimes, I can find light. I can’t always reach it, but it’s there. I know that everything has to come to an end. Even monsters can’t live forever.
Sergio Marchionne is full of it, so Dodge could return or could not. He’s been looking to boost Chrysler’s nameplate in hopes of selling it off to someone. GM balked at the opportunity, but VW called his bluff last week. Who knows what Dodge will do, but I honestly wouldn’t count on them returning based solely on Marchionne’s history. Still, it would be cool to see them return. They killed the Viper and the Viper racing program, so perhaps they might be looking to drop some cash in NASCAR again. Outside of the Marchionne variable, what team would become the Dodge factory team? They made a play for Childress back in ‘12, but Childress declined.
VW was looking to get into NASCAR back in '10, going so far as repeated meetings with NASCAR brass and visits to several races. They walked away and later announced plans to return to F1, which was axed by Dieselgate. Dieselgate also took down Audi’s motorsports program. It would make for good public relations if Audi/VW made a push into NASCAR. Still, it’s a long shot.
This one makes a lot of sense. They could benefit from the exposure, as they’ve quietly been making a comeback in the industry. 1: They have a checkered history in NASCAR, winning three championships in a row in the early '80s. 2: They could bring back the Grand National nameplate to much fanfare from the Old Guard. 3: A Buick program would have immediate access to Chevy’s R&D, chassis, and engine. It would be pretty easy for Buick to slide back in and be accepted into the sport. The question is, which currently floundering team would Buick sink it’s $ into as their flagship? Answer: Roush-Fenway. Jack wants out, but he’s not going to go cheap or quietly. Buick could make him an offer he can’t refuse.
They could dip their toes into NASCAR by running the Titan. Truck sales have been lagging, and the standard Titan is no slouch. If the program went well, they could expand into Xfinity and Cup with the Altima and Maxima to combat rival Toyota on American soil. I can’t see longtime fans accepting Nissan any easier than they did Toyota, so it probably wouldn’t go over too well.
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