ronan ‘oh my god im so in love with adam parrish what is happening to me’ lynch
idc what u say ronan honestly gets BUTTERFLIES IN HIS STOMACH every time adam enters the room
yes its true u heard it here folks; stubborn tough angry ronan lynch gets Butterflies from sweet charming studious adam parrish
and when adam talks to him and lets his henrietta accent slip in ????? oh shit Oh McFreakin Shit thats the end of ronan lynch rest in pieces
sometimes it’ll just be him and adam at monmouth or st. agnes when everyone else is who knows where, and it’ll be all normal and casual for adam but ronan’s heart is thumping out of his chest and his hands are shaking and oh my god what is happening to me
ronan is probably the first person to tell adam he loves him. i dont care if its before or after they get together, in a seemingly platonic way or known romantic way, but its happening
like, adam knows his friends love him, know they’d die for him, of course, but ronan is the first person to actually vocalize all these things to him. he tells him how loved and important he is and oh god, adam, please dont die, for me i wouldn’t survive without you, i’ve loved you for ages, please adam—
give me desperate and vulnerable ronan lynch who’s aching all over and pours his heart out to adam, can barely even look him in the eye because he loves him so much it Hurts
HIS HANDS !!!!!! THOSE DAMN HANDS ADAM PARRISH U MONSTER WHO ALLOWED YOUR HANDS TO BE SO BEAUTIFUL WHO ALLOWED YOUR FINGERS TO BE SO LONG AND SLENDER
u wanna know why ronan isnt doing so well in his classes ??? huh ?? u wanna Know ??? ? i’ll tell u why its because he spends every damn class period staring. at. adam’s. hands.
“ronan did u memorize the latin vocab?”
hell fuckin no he did not he memorized the shape of adam parrish’s hands thats what he did
adam writing/taking notes is its own pure form of art ok trust me on this 100% ronan lynch approved
ronan’s life motto: ‘talk shit (about adam parrish), get hit (by me)’
ok but really
ronan honestly loves adam so much adam’s like some sort of beacon to him, some sort of hope and happiness and light and everything about him makes ronan believe in religion as long as that religion includes adam parrish
ronan would follow adam into the deepest pits of hell he’d do anything for him if adam even gave the slightest notion of wanting something
he dreams him stuff he needs all the time but w/out adam knowing?? like if he notices adam broke his pencil in class by accident, guess which aglionby student with a henrietta accent has a new pack of pencils in his bag the next day
even the smallest things tho ??? like razor blades or new shoelaces. ronan is the Official™ provider of Things That Make Adam’s Life Less Difficult Than It Already is
i bet ronan lies awake in his bed at night wondering if a boy like adam parrish could ever love him back
i bet he can’t even think about adam going away for college and leaving him behind, not seeing him everyday or getting him to laugh and do stupid things with him
:( what a fuckin nerd
ronan is such a Mean Tough Guy until he’s around adam and then he turns into Soft Needy Puppy
DO YALL REMEMBER HOW RONAN WAS MEAN TO BLUE IN TRB BECAUSE HE WAS JEALOUS OF HER RELATIONSHIP WITH ADAM !!! !!!!!!!!!!! EN D ME!
HES TOTALLY THE JEALOUS ONE IN THE RELATIONSHIP HE WANTS ADAM (and his hands whoops) ALL TO HIMSELF ALL THE TIME
ok listen. i dont know how when or why but sometimes ronan just gets really affectionate and lowkey clingy and will just get a sharp dose of nostalgia when he sees adam in the kitchen or something and be like ‘how did i get so lucky’
and he’ll go up to adam from the side (never behind, he doesnt want to make adam jump or flinch) and gently wind his arms around adam’s waist and bury his face in adam’s neck
and adam’s hands will come up to ronans back and they’ll just stand there holding each other like the gross ass nerds they are
before they get together ronan PINES. and i mean like, hard.
ronan will be bouncing his knee or some shit and adam will put his hand on his knee to get ronan to stop and ronan literally just freezes.
but also :(( sometimes ronan will pull back because he doesnt want to overwhelm adam
like, adam will grab his shoulder or something to get his attention and ronan will pull away as if he’s been burned and oh god he doesnt think these things through, does he, because he’d do anything not to see that look of rejection and confusion on adam’s face, and all he wants to do is jump on him and kiss him but he cant
ronan worships every little thing about adam. all of his quirks and habits, his likes and dislikes. ronan knows everything just by listening to adam and observing him
ADAM LOVES TO LIE WITH HIS HEAD IN RONAN’S LAP AS RONAN COMBS HIS FINGERS THROUGH HIS HAIR DO NOT TEST ME ON THIS
he knows adam can fend for himself and doesnt need to be protected but there will always be some small part of him that will go to any lengths to keep him from ever getting hurt and keeping him out of danger
ronan always has to make sure adam is okay. always. if they’re leaving cabeswater or something and they’re all walking back to the pig to drive home, and adam is looking particularly worn out and distressed, ronan will discreetly walk up to him and just be like ‘u ok parrish?’ and its not until adam gives him a teeny tiny smile and nods that ronan is satisfied
everything adam does is just amazing to ronan. every little thing. so precious and heartwarming and it makes him so dizzy because how can he be this in love
and how can someone so radiant love a mess like him
Let’s be real for a minute. With as close as the Gangsey is and as much time as they spend together I have a hard time believing that the subject of periods never comes up. But let’s face it, Blue wouldn’t really want to talk to Gansey or Adam about it and both of those boys would turn into blushing blabbering messes if Blue brought it up, so consider this: Ronan stashes pads everywhere for Blue.
• like he and Noah are at the store one day getting juice or some shit and Ronan walks by all of the pads and casually grabs a box
• and Noah looks at Ronan like you would look at a puppy that just did something really adorable
• and Ronan snaps “Shut the fuck up, Czerny.” Not because he’s embarrased because he totally is NOT he just doesn’t understand why Noah would make a big deal out of it???? It’s no different than if he was buying a bottle of water for one of his friends????? It’s something that they need and, sure, they’re perfectly capable of buying their own, but in the case of an emergency Ronan’s got them covered?????
• so then Ronan stashes some pads in the bathrooms at Monmouth and St. Agnes. And he puts a few in the glove box of all the boys’ cars. And whenever they go hiking or exploring Ronan keeps a few in his backpack in case Blue needs one.
• and like, Gansey finds them and he goes all red and he’s like “ummmmmmm” and Ronan, who is not at all embarrassed by the fact that one of his friends menstruates, says to Gansey “As I’m sure you’ve noticed, Gansey, we have a friend with a uterus” and he starts to explain to Gansey what happens every 28 days for people who have a uterus and Gansey’s like “Jesus, Ronan, I know what a period is.” and Ronan gives him that shark smile that says ‘if you give her bullshit or make her feel awkward for having a period then I will throw you out the window’ so Gansey just drops it
• and one day after school Blue and Ronan are hanging out at Monmouth and Gansey went to buy a pizza or something so Blue and Ronan are alone and suddenly Blue just gets This Look on her face and she starts mumbling something about going to the gas station and being back in a few minutes and Ronan just says “In the box behind the toilet”
• “The. Box. Behind. The. Toilet.”
• and Blue goes into the bathroom and finds this little discrete box behind the toilet like Ronan said and there are some pads in there and she’s been saved from bleeding all over the place
• Ronan realizing Blue’s situation and needs and helping her out because it doesn’t embarrass him and he knows their other loser friends would be no help at all
they don’t actually sleep in the same bed for a while because adam figures ronan probably needs a bit of space after everything that happened (ronan knows he’s always there if he ever needs anything, though, and he’s so grateful for it). but then one night, adam wakes up to the unmistakeable sounds of ronan having a nightmare and he goes into his room and gently wakes him up and sits with him a few minutes to make sure he’s okay. only when he gets up to leave, ronan grabs his wrist and says “stay? please” and the softness in his voice and the imploring look in his eyes means he doesn’t hesitate at all before sliding under the covers with him, resting his head on his shoulder, one hand on his chest, closing his eyes and breathing out as he curls into him. and ronan’s entire body seems to relax against him and he wraps his arm around adam’s waist, splays his fingers over the bare skin at the small of his back, solid and warm and real. it’s the best night of sleep they’ve both had in months.
after that, they pretty much always sleep together. at the barns and at monmouth and at st. agnes. they curl up on the couch and take lazy afternoon naps on weekends when adam’s tired from studying and ronan’s tired from working on his latest project. adam quietly lets himself into the warehouse and crawls into ronan’s bed after a really long day and he feels like he can finally breathe when ronan’s arms instinctively curl around his back and he pulls him closer. adam falls asleep with his head in ronan’s lap in the backseat of the pig while gansey slowly drives them home and ronan softly strokes his hair and they quietly talk about nothing in particular or just listen to the low hum of the radio. ronan wakes up in his tiny apartment and just watches him sleep next to him for a while, peaceful and content and safe, before getting up and getting them coffee and breakfast.
adam sleeping with his head on his chest, breathing against his skin, ronan’s hand in his hair, their legs tangled together in the sheets. adam burying his face in his neck, ronan holding him tightly against his body, his arms encircling his shoulders, strong and gentle and feeling like home. adam’s body sprawled all over his own, his familiar warmth and weight and scent lulling him into soothing, pleasant dreams. ronan spooning adam, his warm breath on the back of his neck, adam pressing their intertwined hands to his own heart. adam spooning ronan, kissing along the lines of his tattoo, ronan bringing his hand to his mouth.
they definitely both wake up hard a couple times and it’s a little embarrassing and they don’t talk about it and they take care of themselves separately in the bathroom, as discreetly as possible. until one spring morning when ronan just looks across at him and he’s sogorgeous in the soft morning light and his hair’s a glorious mess and there’s a hickey on his neck from a couple days ago and his skin’s tan and glowing and his body’s sleep-warm and vibrant and irresistible and he can’t help but press him down into the soft pillows and kiss him, enthusiastically, purposefully, his mouth and neck and the freckles scattered over his shoulders and chest, and adam’s pressing up against him and he can feel him for real now and he’s sure adam can feel him too. and adam pulls away to meet his gaze and ask “are you sure?” because they haven’t really talked about it, if they’re ready for this, and ronan just nods at him and says “i want you. so much.” and then adam’s kissing him even more fiercely and they’re shoving their hands down each other’s underwear and it’s quick and messy and awkward and perfect and adam makes the loveliest noises against his mouth and lets out the softest sob when he comes. and then they just breathe hard into each other’s skin for a while without moving. and then they’re both giggling slightly hysterically. and ronan brushes a kiss to his temple and slides off of him and pulls him into the shower with him. they get distracted by adam tracing his tattoo with his hands and mouth and ronan slowly massaging shampoo into his hair and kissing each other lazily under the spray and they’re totally late for school.
ronan sleeping in adam’s tiny dorm room bed with him and complaining constantly but obviously loving how close they have to press themselves together to fit. ronan coming back to the barns and finding adam sleeping in his bed a day before he was supposed to get here and it’s better than any dream he’s ever had and his heart feels like it might burst with pure joy and adoration.
opal definitely crawls into their bed a lot. sometimes they watch movies and they fall asleep just like that with her between them. when they eventually have a houseful of dreamt and adopted puppies and kittens and god knows what else, they pretty much all end up on their bed during the night and ronan usually ends up falling halfway out of his own bed or on the floor. adam laughs and ronan curses but he can’t say no to any of them ever.
spending the first night with adam in his first apartment in the city and it’s pretty small and there’s no furniture yet but adam’s so proud of it, because it’s his, and ronan’s so proud of him. sleeping on a mattress on the living room floor and knowing that as long as he wakes up next to him, he’s home.
adam wakes up one morning a couple years after the first time he ever slept in ronan’s bed and seeing the ring on his finger glinting in the sunlight is all it takes to bring back every single moment of the night before. he turns around and ronan’s just looking at him, expression soft and fond and relaxed. he reaches out and entangles their hands on the bed between them and then kisses his mouth so gently and says “morning” and then “i love you” and adam feels a bit like crying because this, this is everything he’s ever wanted.
hello friends how are you whatever i don’t care consider to help with his anxiety after ~the incident~ Helen gets Gansey a membership to a yoga studio. And it helps!! Controlled breaths helps calm his nervous system and moving his body as a reminder that he’s here.
So when Ronan asks him if he knows any tricks to not wake up sweating and unable to breathe Gansey gets him a mat. Yoga in monmouth is actually pretty nice. The light comes in the big open front windows. And Ronan can’t tell if its actually helping anything but it feels nice or whatever.
One morning, Adam is supposed to meet them before school He had an early shift at whatever fucking job and monmouth is closer than st agnes so he goes to the warehouse so they don’t have to drive to pick him up. He yanks open the big metal door.
and. there. in the living room/ gansey’s bedroom. in front of the big window. are is two bffs in lulu lemon’s latest downward dogging their asses on.