Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
I am truly proud of myself (: I truly have become a better person. Building better habits. I may not have everything in the world but I appreciate everything more. No longer even bring my laptop to school. Taking notes by hand has its benefits and it allows me to be more aware of what is really going on. Sure I don’t have a job but I’m still up from 8:30 am and I’m at school til 5. No one can give me shit because I know I have enough heart to be better. Be good. During my breaks I associate with others, help people stressing or do hw. Quite honestly I can’t remember the last time I felt so self-satisfied. Hope this lasts (:
Gotta keep reminding myself what I’m here for. School starts Monday…
Monica, please be ready.
Raise my grades, transfer. Awayy from here.
Get into med school.
Finish my residency.
Get settled, live the independent dream life I’ve always wanted in my own apartment.
Use the extra money I earn to pursue things I’m passionate about… such as art.
Get married after 30, have babies. (Although, if having a baby didn’t come with so many responsibilities and didn’t come with a father, I’d be happy to have one now. I love kids. Too bad it’d get in the way of things.)
When was the last time you actually laughed? Not just the fake oh-you’re-funny-because-I-don’t want-to-be-rude laughs. Not the ones where you gotta pretend and force out. I’m talking about the ones that sounded so fugly it was beautiful. The ones that you can’t control. The ones that just come out unforced. Or in general, when was the last time you laughed?
Last night was the mOSt I’ve laughed in so long. I need more laughter in my life :D