Dear mom and dad,
When the doctor thought I had male parts when mom got her first ultrasound, you were happy

Dear mom and dad,
When I came out and the doctor said “it’s a girl” you were happy

Dear mom and dad,
You dressed me up and did my hair,
You bought me shiny jewelry to wear,
And bought me dolls and barbies

Dear mom and dad,
You assumed my gender before I even knew what gender was

Dear mom and dad,
When you found out my adoration to both boys and girls when I was only 4 you told me “girls can only date boys. And you’re a girl”

Dear mom and dad,
You raised me to be who you wanted me to be. Not who I really was

Dear mom and dad,
As the years passed I never felt right but I didn’t dare to tell you because I knew you wouldn’t accept it, I knew you would reject me

Dear mom and dad,
When I first came out to you about being a boy you were unhappy, thought I was just lesbian, and told me it was just a phase

Dear mom and dad,
You made me cry and go back into the closet where I stayed for another few years

Dear mom and dad,
You thought the “phase” passed

Dear mom and dad,
When I came out to you again you gave me a 7 hour lecture telling me that it’s my hormones, and I’m confused because I’m still trying to figure out who I am, and how god made me a girl so I should stay that way because god’s plan is the right way

Dear mom and dad,
You’re the reason I’m an atheist and you’re the reason I attempted suicide that night

Dear mom and dad,
When I got my first haircut like a guy you looked at me in disgust, but inside I was smiling because I was starting to feel more comfortable in my own skin

Dear mom and dad,
I started wearing baggy clothes to look more like a guy and you started calling me pretty to reassure yourself that I’m still you’re daughter

Dear mom and dad,
I’m not you’re daughter, I never was, never am, and never will be

Dear mom and dad,
I’m getting a job so I can buy a binder and guy clothes

Dear mom and dad,
You can no longer stop me from being who I am anymore, this is my life and I have control over it

Dear mom and dad,
Beware, I found my own voice

Dear mom and dad,
I no longer care if it makes you unhappy because it makes me happy

Dear mom and dad,
If you were happy either way at first, why aren’t you happy now?

Dear mom and dad,
Thanks to you I envy kids with accepting parents

Dear mom and dad,
I just wish you’d love me and accept me for who I am…