Do you know what it feels like to be mentally ill? To have your mind manipulated by something you have no control over. To constantly think about stuff you don’t want to think about. To always feel like there’s something wrong with you, something bad. And because you’re so scared of your own mind, you’re also too scared to ask for help, but you know you need it. You know there’s no way you can do it all by yourself. Thinking it’s all your fault, thinking people are better off without someone like you.
That’s how Even feels. That’s what he’s trying so hard to hide from his Isak. Because Even’s own mind is his enemy that even he is scared of, so he’ll try to protect Isak from himself.
So, to everyone talking shit about Even because of his mental illness, fucking leave. Being mentally ill is not a choice or something to joke about. Even just needs some help. And that’s okay. Despite it being for various reasons, we all do, we all need a little help sometimes.