DAY 3459

Jalsa, Mumbai                Sept 16/17,  2017               Sat/Sun 12:29 AM 

And just when the Blog begins to sound like an account on Twitter, with its questionable and increasingly difficult strength, of those valiant 140 words, we, or rather I begin to wonder if there lies a fault in the reliability of the writer, or is it just another day of excessive anxiety and slither motivated lethargy ..

O ! and ‘slither’ immediately and quite un wantonly, coerces me to mention the ‘slither’ that was quite by accident discovered in one of the plant pots lying near the gates of Prateeksha, by a passer by .. the reptile lay curled up and had apparently crossed the road from the other side and slid into a safe haven .. 

On coming to know it, the department that looks after and is in charge of such wild life occurrences was informed, and they, very efficiently, were able to catch the snake immediately and have now deported him or her to the forested region of the  National Park in the Andheri - Goregaon region. They informed me that it was a non venomous water snake !

So ..  not dwelling too much on the above we draw our attention to the topic under surveillance - content !

Many moons ago .. O ! the mention of moon has diverted my attention again .. there were proposals made for my participation in a film today that shall be dealing with the ‘moon’ ; I am putting myself under a perceived intent of wishing to read some kind of a synopsis of the film story before I take any decisions ..

So yes many moons ago ..  the value of content was most elaborately discussed with me, and its importance in modern day life and living was inserted into my, at that time, rather putrid and dumb waitered brain - not to say that it still isn’t - and that is another chapter - to work and comply with the philosophy of its meaning in modern day communication businesses ..

CONTENT .. that really is the name of the game in modern times .. what you say see, observe, wear, not wear, speak write in any form, is being recorded for present and for posterity by utensils of unimaginable dexterity and science ..

We are, as a world race, going to be, in the thousands of years to come, the most documented species in the entire Universe, provided the extra terrestrials do not suddenly breathe down our throats, as can be intensely visualised in almost every second Hollywood film and video game ..

The channels of information and entertainment, shall ever be in need of content to be able to fill that ogre of a monster, the TV, to keep it alive and kicking .. or the mobile in your hand to have all in it .. at some stage all that converses in the air waves shall form material for these institutions - the institutions that have made it their mission to either control the skies, or the earth ..

Mr Murdoch wishes the skies .. and Mr Turner the earth .. and long may their missions exist and prosper  …

THE book of the year .. PINK the inside story, opens its pages to me tonight through a delivery service, and I am delighted to run through the warm freshly printed pages, of this new book - books just printed out, do have that nostalgic element of smell and taste and feel .. I have often wondered why .. but there it is and without any debate .. the new book that you buy, that new book that you open when you change classes in school .. all .. have the effect that is simply so intensely normal yet filled with the excitement of a new born baby !!

Those new books - their covers in brown or newspaper left overs, neatly cut and folded to prevent the book from any exterior damage, the pencilling or inking your name on that front first page and ages down the line when time and journeys have been passed, to open them to fill your heart with that first feel .. !

And then we have with us other prominent writers, who gift their efforts in vivid detail and depth .. and hope that we can give them some attention .. I generally do .. like I do for this .. a book by Amish ‘Immortal India’  .. a most well written and instantly readable vocabulary .. a gentle sail through the deep waters of the Country, reenacting journeys taken thousands of years back .. tracing the history and the authenticity of various informations that have formed and paved our way of thinking, behaving and just being who we are, in this part of the hemisphere ..

A great many beliefs and historic finalities have been talked of and given either credence of just another superficial smirk of self egoistic praise, most such experiences have not necessarily or forced you to accept arguments most vividly laid out before you in a style that comforts your reading pleasure ; I must admit with due respect of course, that most readings do not always do or have that effect ..

For me personally, reading is slim, but when it does converge upon me with some attitude and credence, I do find myself drifting off into the nether world  ..

and these are not reading material .. they are the love and ingenuity of the Ef, who are very close to cracking the whip announcing the arrival of another Picasso, or Van Gough .. 

Sleep well dear all .. I wish to do the same .. its been a few exasperating hours with the cold and cough .. but my system bears me well and vice versa  ..

Good night then ..

Amitabh Bachchan

I’m not going to say anything on the post about the history of the kink community being all tangled up in queer history because I’m not interested or informed enough to really engage in a debate.

But I do want to say, as someone who’s been involved with the modern day kink community: To act like the kink community of today is exactly the same as it was back in the ‘80s is disingenuous at best.

Pushing the kink community out of LGBT+ spaces might have started at respectability politics, but at this point so much of the kink community has been taken over by straight people – who also don’t know that history and so many of whom have no interest in the queer community whatsoever except that it buys them Oppression Points ™.

And I wish I was just talking out my ass. But listen, we worked the biggest kink event in the northeast corner of the US a couple years ago, okay. We – a chest binder company, so visibly queer, marketing towards other queer people – were situated right in front of one of the entrances to the dealer’s room. All weekend – for three days – we would watch m/f couples walk into the room, start heading for our table because it was the first thing they saw, and then we would see the visible panic or outright disgust on the dudes’ faces as they grabbed their ladies’ arms and forcibly steer them away.

The rare occasions when a man or woman would stop by the table on their own and engage us in conversation about what chest binders are, the conversation was always – always – undertoned with “what are these things and what niche weirdo would want to actually use them?” right up until they walked off in dismissive, confused, disgust.

At a kink event.

Obviously not everyone in the kink community is a gross straight person without even so little empathy that they can’t even imagine why an afab trans person might want something to flatten their chests. In fact we’ve done really well at other kink events that cater more towards the queer members of the community and they’re really the highlight of our business year; but those are small niche shows. Bigger show = bigger sampling of the community.

I’m sorry, but I really just can’t support the modern kink community as a whole as part of the queer community. Not when so many of them have such obvious disgust and derision for the queer community. They don’t care about us, they don’t support us, they don’t fight for us.

Curtain call

This is gonna be a [really, really] long read, so you might want to take some time to read this. I took all my time to phrase this just right so I could really put out what I’ve wanted to say for quite a while now. Thank you for your patience.

The word is out! My interview with @lily-pierce for The Interview magazine is coming out very soon. It’s a major step for me to finally explain what’s been going on with me and why it has led me to take the decision to retire as a creator for good. You might as well consider this to be my farewell post. 

I’m going to take you all the way back to the year of 2007. I was only fifteen years old and had been a huge sims fanatic ever since the first game came out. Not having that many friends in high school and living a pretty solitary life, I spent most of my time on the internet and playing video games. I used to play The Sims 2 all the time. This was shortly before The Sims 3 was first released (July 2009) and I remember being so excited for it! I low-key created some custom content with TS2 Bodyshop, but never really figured I would do anything more with it. 

Oh boy, was I wrong…

In late 2008, I discovered a very lovely website called The Sims Resource which had the most gorgeous custom content a teenager could wish for. I decided to go ahead and submit some of my own custom content, not thinking anything of it. I think it was a yellow Lady GaGa inspired dress, and everyone seemed to love it, which really motivated me to create more and improve over time. For anyone wondering; these 2008 creations are no longer available, I took them down only years later because of the, well, cringe worthy quality. It’s still a cute story, though. 

Half a year later, The Sims 3 was globally released and I had pre-ordered the game at my local mall. I remember forcing my mom to give me a ride to the mall to pick it up, and spending all night playing it. Not shortly after that, in the summer of 2009, I started to create custom content for the sims 3. This is also where I met my very dear friends @pralinesims who first started out in 2009, not knowing they would one day be the biggest and most succesful creators around. Over 100 million downloads under the belt, I don’t really know anyone else to have achieved that in their careers. I love you guys, and I’m pretty sure you know that. 

I loved creating for The Sims 3 and it really helped me cope with my daily struggles. The Sims Resource acknowledged my talent and promoted me to being a Featured Artist for both of the games, which was pretty incredible to see. Getting paid for doing something I loved the most wasn’t something I had expected, and I’ll always be grateful for that. Whenever I would feel depressed after a long day of school, the praise and the love from the community always made me feel better and it was honestly therapeutic for me to create and share with the community.  I know most of you are gone by know, but thank you for those who were with me between 2008 and 2010, I consider this to have been one of the darkest times in my life. Creating for the sims 3 brought a whole new audience to the community which was quite wonderful to see. The The Sims 3-era is probably my all time favorite era creating-wise and community-wise. I have so many great memories of this time period. 

I had always been a very shy individual growing up, but at a certain point it caused me to avoid all contact possible, and I felt terribly uncomfortable being around new people which made it very hard for me to express myself and to interact with strangers. The only time I would feel relaxed and care-free was when I was out having drinks. Unfortunately, I became depending on alcohol in order to feel socially capable of interacting with others, which caused me to get addicted to alcohol. I’m definitely not proud of this, but I feel the need to share this to let all of you into my life and to see why this is so important to me. 

In 2013, I struggled with some more personal issues, dropped out of college and quit creating, to return in a little over a year later to start creating for The Sims 4. My very dear friend @javasims really encouraged me to give the game a try and I did, which led me to be a Featured Artist for my third game in only a matter of weeks. Thank you Alex, for pushing me to step into a new era.

The Sims 4 era has definitely been a massive peak in my creating career. My creations have been very succesful and I had not expected to reach nearly 10 million downloads in such a short time period. Although I still had to get used to a lot of things that came with the game, the modern-day community has given me the love I haven’t felt in years. The Tumblr community added a whole new platform to this simmer community to share and care, and it’s been absolutely wonderful. Thank you guys for that.

I low-key announced my retirement from creating in my post from november 2015. I don’t enjoy creating for this game and I honestly have felt this way since I started creating for The Sims 4. I have matured a lot and I feel like being Cleotopia and creating has also been a shield for me to hide away from reality. It’s time to get my life back together and take grown up decisions. It’s time to take responsability and go out there and do what I am really ought to do, which is actually really exciting. I’m looking forward to going through major changes. I’ve gotten myself a new apartment in a new city and I’m ready to discover what’s next for me.I have been completely sober and have had a stready relationship for over a year now. 

Cleotopia is a chapter of my life I’ve been wanting to close for a very long time now, but I was never truly ready to do that just yet. This time around, I’m more than ready to close this chapter and to start writing another; I’m gonna be in my mid-twenties soon and I feel like I’ve wasted some of my precious time. When you’re my age, you’ll probably know what I’m talking about. People are graduating college, having kids, getting settled, and living the grown-up life. Terrifying, but I’m ready to move on and face all of that. I’ve got really good things going for me and I’m gonna have to take the time to be the woman I want to be right now. This means having to prioritize what I want to be right now, and being a creator for a game is no longer one of them. 

All the way from 2007 to now. It’s been an incredible journey that I will never forget. It might just be a game to most of you, but to me, it’s a community and a shelter where we can really lift each other up and support each other when it’s truly needed. That’s why I want to encourage all of you to say something nice to each other and support your fellow creators and simmers, instead of trying to compete with them :)

I’d like to thank;

  • My best friends and incredibly talented creators, @pralinesims, for loving me and supporting me ever since 2008. I feel like we’ve really grown up together, I want you guys to know that you mean so much to me. You’ve been my friend and my support when needed and that’s all I could ask for. I’m sure you’ll inspire many others along the way. Thank you.
  • Thank you @simsimay for teaching me everything you know about creating and growing as an artist. You are so incredibly talented and I know you’ll make it far in the real fashion bizz. We had such a great time back in the day and even though we lost touch somewhere along the way, I want you to know that I’ve always really looked up to you. 
  • I’d like to thank my peers @margeh75, @metens , @xpuresim, @trillyke , @martyp8 ,@birba32 and so many others for always supporting me for as long as I can remember. Hell, I don’t think you’ve ever skipped a creation of mine to leave a comment. Thank you for being wonderful human beings and on top of that very talented. You have always inspired me through your work to be a better creator.
  • All of the talented Tumblr community and all of those who have personally supported me and featured my work in their amazing lookbooks. Thank you @lily-pierce for encouraging me and being my friend on here and guiding me so much through all of our creative journeys. You have inspired most of my recent creations.
  • The TSR staff for giving me all the wonderful opportunities time after time and making me the creator I am today. You guys are phenomenal.

Last, but not least; I would like to thank all of my very dear fans who have been with me through all of this. Your support means so much to me and I can’t thank you enough for all your support, your comments, your precious messages and the kindness you share. I won’t forget any of this. Don’t be sad - I still have a couple of creations to be published over the next couple of days on my TSR profile.

Wow, I guess this is really it. Over the past couple of weeks I’ve tried to write down and find the words to really say what I’ve wanted to say, and to thank the people who have meant the world to me. This post has been in my drafts for weeks now and it’s finally done. All of it, it’s done! Such an odd feeling, but I am very excited to move forward.

I love you all, thank you for the memories! 


anonymous asked:

I suggest you don't get into such topics. You clearly lack the understanding or reasoning skills to even begin to talk about Communism, modern day or otherwise. Please leave this conversation to adults.