My Mad Fat Diary Meme: Three Rae Fantasies - [1/3] “You never know, maybe the rave would be shit. Who was I kidding? It was gonna be fuckin’ amazing. The perfect opportunity to lick the fillings from his teeth, to suck on his fingers, to grab hold of his firm…”
my mad fat diary meme × favorite quote: “You see yourself as a fragile thing. Like a little broken bird sloshing around in a bottle. But if you trust me, if we trust each other.. you’ll be all right. Because, basically, I think you’re a pretty tough cookie.”
I just want to tell everyone the truth about me. Um…in the spring, I was admitted to a mental home because I kept trying to hurt myself. I’m actually mad. And I do really weird things […]. Um…And, I keep a diary…of all my thoughts. And most of the time, I don’t even think about what I’m writing. Like when I write about my friends…when they make me angry. But it doesn’t mean that I don’t love them. And, you know,I write a lot about boys. I fantasise quite a lot about, um, doctors, teachers, actors, pop stars, any man that I’ve come in contact with anywhere, really. But…Well, some more than others.
Buddy? Buddy. This is not good. You are at the very brink of the border of the friend zone. You’re at the checkpoint. So what do I do? You need tension, you need to do something drastic. You need to make him see you in a romantic way. I’ll come to the party. I’ll pretend to be your ex-boyfriend.
Maybe some bodies weren’t meant to be touched. Maybe my body wasn’t meant to be stroked…and nibbled and kissed and held. Maybe me and Mrs Dewhurst had more in common than I thought. Maybe I’ll grow old like her…alone, never being touched…never feeling good.