I’ve come to the realization that whenever I want to do something, I see this whole bunch of obstacles in the way. Like playing the violin, or drawing, at first it was ‘I don’t have the tools’, but then when I get the tools, it turns into 'I don’t have the skill’ and so on and so forth, and without knowing, I’ve been the one killing away my own liberty and choice. I act like I’m free to do anything, yet I myself am the one who creates this cage and clips away my own wings, murdering any chance of breakthrough. So, most of my problems are not because I can’t, but because I don’t allow myself to, and until I get over my self esteem issues and my confidence and all that, I won’t be able to. I wonder how long that will take.